Hi, i am so sorry this has taken such a long time to finally make it up here, i made it a ridiculously long chapter to make up for it.
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anyway away we go with "Time to say goodbye"
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"Gahh." I groaned squeezing my eyes tightly closed trying, in vain, to keep the bright grey light streaming from my window away. There was a tugging feeling in the pit of my stomach and I unwillingly opened my eyes.
"Ohh." I half sighed as I took in the shirtless Jacob lying next to me, the tips of his fingers were gently curled around the fingers of my casted arm. As I stared at the cast for a minute all of the previous days overly dramatic events came flooding back to me. Victoria, The window, Harry Clearwater, Alice, The Car and Jacob, my Jacob. I felt tears welling in my now very awake eyes, so much had happened; so much I wanted to just leave behind.
Everything hurt, now including my head, and I very much wanted to curl back up against Jacob and go back to sleep, but I knew that the real and mythical worlds were waiting right outside my door.
Careful not to wake Jacob, although I knew for a fact that he sleeps like the dead, I slipped from the warmth of Jakes arms, and padded on my tip toes out of my room, my good arm retching out to hold the door frame as a strong wave of vertigo hit me. Once the walls stopped moving I almost ran to the bathroom closing the door quietly behind me.
My reflection was worse than I was expecting, my hair was matted with what looked like blood, dirt and possible loose gravel, one eye was tinged purple in a bruise, and a deep gash ran along my hair line. I lifted my shirt and sore more gashes running down my back, but they looked worse than they were in reality, my arm however was definitely not a superficial wound. I fumbled through the Medicine cabinet desperately to find Tylenol. I soon realised that it would be impossible for me to attempt to clean myself up without at least going downstairs, and at the moment I had no alibi for there being; a broken window, a black eye, a broken arm a stitched up head, and a shirtless 17 year old werewolf in my bed, and I had sneaky suspicion that anyone of these things wouldn't exactly have gone down well with Charlie.
I settled for brushing my teeth and washing my face, I crept back along the landing I hated feeling so helpless. My door creaked as I gently pushed it open, I watched Jakes gently sleeping form, his feet lolling of the edge of my bed, his face was placid and innocent. I couldn't bring myself to wake him I slipped back underneath my covers, shivering a little until Jakes warm arms encompassed me and I felt his lips on my shoulder. So he wasn't asleep after all. I tried to twist in his arms, but pain shot through my arm sending a wave of nausea over me. My face must have expressed my pain because Jacob sat up quickly, holding me against his warm chest his hand rubbing small circles over my shoulder.
"Your arm?" Jake asked concern blatant across his handsome face.
I nodded tears completely unrelated to the pain of my arm springing in my eyes.
"What else." Jake whispered against my hair.
I wasn't at all surprised that Jake knew it was more than just my arm bothering me, as he had said on multiple occasions he knew me better than anyone, even myself most of the time.
"Everything's all messed up Jake, Harry's dead, I have no idea if Charlie even came home last night, I look half-dead, I cant even take a shower to fix it because my cast cant go underwater plus I cant dress myself properly, there is a massive Bella shaped hole in the side of Charlies house and its all my fault, I don't know what to do Jake." I ranted tears streaming down my checks as I inhaled quickly remembering to breathe.
Jake merely stared at me for a moment before offering me sad smile.
"Look at me." Jake whispered his dark eyes burrowed into mine. "As far as Harry's d-death goes no one can change that no matter how much we would like too." I felt a surge of guilt as I saw the dejected look cross Jakes face Harry had been a second or father to Jake, and my stupid big mouth had hurt him. I pressed my face into to his shoulder as he continued to speak.
"Charlie stayed at the Clearwater's last night along with my dad, he is going to come back around today to shower and get his suit for the funeral this afternoon." His voice cracked a little but he persisted on. "Sam told me Emily offered to come and help you get dressed and everything this morning, so we can call her as soon as you want, and the hole is already on the mend, Quill's uncle is a builder out on the Rez and is coming to fix it this morning. Bella I promised you that after a little while everything.." I cut him of my mouth crashing against his. His lips were hesitant at first, until I deepened the kiss and one of jakes hands found the small of my back holding me even closer to him, the other tangled in my dishevelled hair. I tried hard not to club him in the back of the head with my cast as I wrapped my arms around his neck, I sighed into his mouth and we broke apart both a little light headed and gulping down air.
"What was that for?" Jake grinned gasping a little.
"Because you thought of everything, and because I can do that whenever I want now." I whispered my lips at his ear.
"Yes, yes you can." Jake grinned, and his smile took all the pain and confusion of my life away for a brief blissful moment.
"W-what about…" jakes facial expression changed drastically, his eyes became darker and his features were nervous and worried.
"What about him?" Jake asked his voice low he wouldn't meet my eyes.
"Jake." I groaned, I didn't have the strength to do this. "Honestly Jake I don't know, right now it hurts to think about all of that." his expression fell and I held his face between my hands, ignoring the twinge of pain the movement pulsed through my wrist. "But I love you Jake, I chose you." I whispered making his eyes meet mine. He pressed his lips to mine and the warmth and passion of his lips overwhelmed me. His kisses were like nothing I had ever experience and nothing I could ever get sick of. With Jake there never had to be lines drawn or actions controlled we never had to stop for fear of my safety, and I knew that later when I wasn't so broken that would probably become a slight issue for both of us.
Emily arrived a little while later and she quiet literally forced Jake out of Charlie's house so he could run home to La Push to shower, change for the funeral and pick up his car.
"Jake." I heard Emily's cry of frustration from downstairs. " Its gonna take a while for Bella to shower and we have to get her dressed and everything as well. This is hard enough for her as it is without you being here to."
"Emily, you know I can't leave." Jakes voice was very low and I wasn't sure if I heard him correctly.
"No, I know you don't want to leave, but Jake at some point your gonna have to leave. Jacob I promise you that if you run back to La Push, shower and pick up some new clothes and drive back here you will be back before Bella is even dressed." Emily pleaded.
"Fine!" Jake groaned he met me as I was coming down the stairs.
"I'll be back soon I promise, I love you." Jake whispered kissing me quickly before disappearing back down the stairs before I had time to reply.
"Thank you Emily." I said softly as I sat at the kitchen table and Emily wrapped my arm in plastics bags to make sure it stayed dry.
"Don't mention it Bella. Besides it will be nice to have another 'wolf girl' around when things go back to our version of normal." Her voice broke a little, and I realised stupidly that Harry had been her uncle.
"I'm so sorry Emily." I whispered.
She smiled up at me her beautiful scared eyes were swimming with tears, "Thank-you. Its just Leah I am worried about, there isn't really anyone else on the reservation her age, Rachel and Rebecca have been gone for a while, and we don't talk much anymore not like we used to." Emily added sadly.
I didn't know what to say, but my silence was not unwelcomed by Emily, she smiled at me again.
"Like I said, it will be nice to have someone to talk too, that doesn't morph into a giant dog at will." Emily said with a small smile ripping off a strip of duct tape.
"Don't any of the other have… girlfriends?" I asked Emily feigning nonchalance, I wasn't used to the G-word yet, and somehow I knew it didn't fit Jake and me.
Emily shook her head, "No, none of the others, except Quill of course, have imprinted. And no one is wiling to risk It." something about her tone struck me as strange, it was almost as if she was worried she had said to much. My thoughts however were more concerned with the words themselves.
Imprint there it was, and I felt like hitting myself for not thinking about it before. My stomach suddenly felt very queasy and I wanted to heave or cry or scream, but I didn't, I merely let Emily help me up the stairs.
You stupid girl Bella, how could you not think this through? Yes Jake loves you, you know that but Sam loved Leah too, and Emily took him from her, that could just as easily happen to you no matter how much Jake loves you, or how unwilling he is to see anyone else, it could happen so easily, all he would have to do was see her, and he would be taken away from you forever. Stupid girl Bella, and of course there is nothing you can do about it now, you would crush him, and yourself in the process. Idiot Bella.
I shook my head subtly trying to banish my thoughts and focus on the task at hand. Showering, was a knew kind of embarrassing especially considering I couldn't undo or do up my own bra, I was entirely thankful for Emily as it was by no means a job Jacob could or would be allowed to handle, I was also incredibly thankful for Emily not sharing all her thoughts with a pack of teenage wolves.
"BELLA!" Jake called just as Emily was helping me pull on a pair of black tights, my heart started racing at the sound of his voice and I hadn't completely realised that I had been missing him in the brief hour we were apart for.
"JACOB BLACK YOU STAY OUTSIDE THAT DOOR" Emily yelled and I smiled at the motherly tone lacing her voice, I however was very appreciative as her instructions as my dark blue bra and black panty hose were a little on the revealing side.
"Thank-you Emily, I'm sorry." I whispered as she fastened the zipper on the one dress I owned, thankful for the first time it was black.
"Please, Bella I would hope that you would do the same for me, so don't mention it." Emily smiled and I saw the sadness and guilt of her fall-our with Leah etched in her eyes.
"Of course Emily, although I would hope I would be helping you under better circumstances." My voice was still very small, and she gave me a slight smile and careful hug before heading for the door.
"I'll say goodbye now, Jake may keep you occupied for a little while." She added with a knowing smile.
"I suppose I will see you both later." She added opening the door; I was surprised to see that Jake was not there, so I followed Emily down the stairs, as I got to the landing a small smile spread across my face.
Sitting at my kitchen table was Jacob, he wore dark jeans and a white shirt, his tie was very loose around his neck and his top buttons undone, a black jacket was slung over the back of his chair, his beautiful smooth face was clean, the idea of loosing him to some other girl made me feel physically ill. I stepped out of the shadowy landing, and blushed as Jacobs jaw dropped a little, I walked over to the kitchen table stretching out my hand and running it through his still damp, inky black mess of hair, I wanted time to stop, to hide him away from so we could stay together, no imprint threats.
"Hi." I said softly, my hand slipping from his hair to his check, he kissed the inside of my palm.
"Hi." He smiled, but the slightly sad look never left his eyes, I hazard a guess that it was present in my own irises as well, and that time would be its only antidote.
"You look beautiful Bells." Jake whispered pulling me gently down onto his knee, his eyes appraising the subtle strip of lace running across the neck of my dress, which was overly simple and black, it tightened subtly just above my waist and fanned out finishing just above my knee, the dress was sleeveless but I knew forks weather to well and I had a cardigan in my bag along with a pair of dark sunglasses Emily had leant me to hide my black eye.
"I look clean, and a little less bruised." I countered which earned a slightly frustrated bemused smile.
Jake brushed his lips over my bruised eye feather light, his warm breath washed over me, Emily had been able to tone down some of the apparently substantial bruising along my hair line with make up, but my eye was badly bruised and my cast difficult to hide, I would undoubtedly need an alibi.
"What do I tell Charlie?" I asked my voice barely audible.
"I don't know." Jake answered honestly, helping me to my feet as he pulled me towards the living room, were the new window now stood, it was after 2:30 and I was expecting Charlie at any moment.
"Car crash." Jake said suddenly.
I looked up at him surprised at first and then recognition set in. I shook my head.
"No Jake." I whispered.
"Bells." Jake groaned.
"I remember Jake, I remember wearing another black dress and holding your hand 7 years ago. No Jake I can't do that, not to you." I persisted, I wasn't sure why it was important, a car crash would have been a good alibi.
"Bells it's not true, you didn't actually have a car crash." I knew it wasn't a suggestion he liked it was to close to his own reality.
"Charlie will never let me drive again," I countered; I knew this would win him over.
"And if I can't drive, then I have no way of getting to you, whenever I want." I let my voice drop to a whisper again and the look in Jake's eye told me I had won.
"Fine, What happened to you then, because Charlie is about to pull up out front." Jake whispered his lips close to my ear. Whirled in his arms panic clear in my eyes.
"Breath Bells, its just Charlie." Jake chuckled as he took my hand in his.
"I'm not so much worried for me." I smiled, however when I heard Charlie's car doors slam my grip on Jakes hand tightened. We stayed on the couch; my hand firmly entwined in Jakes my head resting lightly against his chest.
When Charlie came in I barely recognized him, his normally alert brown eyes were dull and glazed with unshed tears, his footsteps were heavy and he looked much older than when I had seen him the previous morning. For a brief moment no one moved, Charlie stood in the doorway watching us with his sad eyes, and Jake and I sat hands entwined slightly shocked at the man we both loved. I stood quickly as did Jake and he dropped my hand I meet his eyes for a quick moment before rushing towards Charlie.
"I'm so sorry Dad." I whispered my words catching in my throat; he barely noticed my cast as he pulled me into his arms. I had never known Charlie to be an emotional man, but that day in my living room with Jake and I, he was more vulnerable than I had ever seen him before.
Jake.
"Bell's would you mind getting some stuff together for me, while I take a shower, if your ok here I am going to stay at Sue's again tonight, she's not doing well, and Seth and Leah, well there both still so young." Charlies voice was a darker tone than I had heard in seven years .
Charlie had become a second farther to me over the years. When my Mom died and Billy was first in the chair things had been rough, I remember the countless nights Charlie had stayed on the couch, he and my dad had talked and cried until 4 am, and I knew now that Charlie would be there for Sue as much as he had been for Me and My Dad. I was filled with a new kind of respect for the man before me.
"Sure dad." Bella said softly, squeezing his hand. "I can wrap up the Lasagne I made yesterday for Sue if you like." Bella suggested, I knew she would do anything she could to help the Clearwater's, even if she didn't know Sue that well anymore, she knew Seth and Leah.
"Thank-you Bells" Charlie smiled at his daughters kindness, so did I.
Bella disappeared and upstairs, I could heard her sorting through things upstairs, Charlie turned to look at me.
"You know I am proud of you Jack." Charlie said quietly, I looked at my shoes my hands in my pockets somehow despite my obvious height advantage I felt very small.
"I mean it Jacob, I have watched you grow up a lot these past years and taking care of your dad the way you have, and all the care you have given Bella these past months, that says something about a mans character. I guess what I am trying to say is if there was anyone out there who I would want for my Bella, it would be you son." He stopped talking and I looked up into the older version of Bella's chocolate eyes, a smile hinting across Charlie's sad features.
"But Jake, if you ever hurt her I swear t-." Charlie started but I cut him of.
"Charlie, Bella means more to me than anything in the world, I would never dream of hurting her." I said my tone filled with promise that Charlie despite not knowing the various truths would understand.
"I know Jake, I'm happy for you, I have been waiting for Bells to realises her true feelings for a while now." Charlie said with a twinkle in his chocolate eyes.
"W-what?" I gasped.
"Yes Jake, I may not be the most filled in father on the planet but there are some things I do know that even Bella doesn't." he chuckled a little as he turned for the stairs.
"Oh Jake," he said remembering something.
" If that Cullen ever comes back." Charlies voice trailed of.
"Oh I will Charlie." I replied solemnly, to his unspoken request.
"I'm glad she picked you Kid, the two of you deserve to be happy."
"Thank Charlie, and I'm glad she picked me too, real glad."
"I'll see you both down in La Push I guess." Charlie said sadly as he climbed the stairs slowly.
"Dad." I called as I ducked under the doorway into my house, Bella close behind me her hand firmly clasped in mine.
"Jake." Came my fathers reply as he wheeled himself into the lounge room, there were thick purple bags beneath his bloodshot eyes, and he was struggling with his black tie, he took in Bella and my entwined hands and I saw the ghost of a smile light his face.
"Billy." Bella whispered stepping forward to help him with his tie, much like it had with Charlie her caring presence seemed to soothe my father and I couldn't help but smile at her once more.
"Thank you Bella." Billy said softly and Bella kissed his check before her hand slipped back into mine. I knelt next to my fathers' chair and he placed his hand on my shoulder, he nodded, his unspoken words were more powerful than anything either of us could have spoken, there was Greif, happiness, love, respect and pride in his eyes.
"Its time to go, Dad." I said breaking the silence that had befallen the small room. Bella took my hand and Charlie merely nodded.
Harry had two funerals, we lay him to rest at the La Push cemetery on a hilltop over looking the dark ocean, and Sue cried on Charlies shoulder her hand on my dads shoulder. I stood next to Seth, I could tell he was trying to be strong for his Mom; it was a feeling I remembered all too well.
When the service began I felt my brothers close in around Seth, I placed a reassuring hand on his shoulder he would not have to go through this alone we where all there for him Paul, (who had recently come back from following a leech trail up to the Alaskan border) Jared, Quill, Sam, Embry and I would have his back. I felt a pang of guilt as I sore Leah standing alone between her Mother and Brother technically she was one of us now to, but that was not something any of us were able to comprehend just yet.
After a moment Bella raised my hand to her lips, before her fingers slipped form mind, I watched her as she stepped lightly around me she ruffled Seth's dark hair and he smiled sadly at her, she came to a halt next to Leah I felt my jaw drop as Leah's stern mask fell away, revealing the girl we had all known before. Bella placed her hand on the slightly older girls shoulder.
As kids we had all played together, Me, Rebecca, Rachel, Leah, Seth (who was always a little to young) and Bella. Bella unlike my sisters and Leah had never been a particularly big Barbie girl and being two years younger than the other girls had always gravitated towards me and occasionally Seth. She had never been a part of the 'Lee Lee, Rach and Becca club' (who had giggled and laughed for hours on end about boys and who they one the Rez' they would one day marry) but they had always been friendly, until of course Bella's visits had stopped the summer she turned 12, two summers after my Mom had died. I hadn't realised the two girls had spoken much since Bella's return, but of course the recent months of my life had been fairly dominated by trying to stop the constant threat to the girl I loves life.
Bella wrapped her broken arm around Leah shoulder and tears cascaded down both girls checks, I saw a sad look cross over both Sam and Emily's faces as they realized there was nothing they could do to help the 19 year old girl they had both loved fiercely.
As Harry's coffin was lowered to the ground I felt Seth shudder beneath my hand.
"Hang in there Seth it will all be over soon." I murmured knowing Sam would hear me and understand. As I ran from Bella's house early that morning Sam, had been phased in alone, we had decided that when, or if Seth needed us Embry and I would run him into the woods and Phase with him. Embry was chosen as he had never known his father and knew how to live with it, and Me because I was the only wolf who had new what it was like to loose a parent and had the best chance of reaching him.
Seth stepped forward his fist releasing a shower of dirt across his father's coffin I watched him suck in a shaky breath, the subtle shakes rolling down his shoulders, he was over whelmed by grief and as he walked back towards me I heard his whispered plea.
"Get me out of here Jake. Please." The 15-year-old kid begged and with a fleeting look at Bella, who was soothing a silently distraught Leah, Embry and I ran Seth towards the woods. Seth was stripping form his suit as soon as he hit the edge of the trees Embry picked up both our clothes as we ran deeper into the woods. Seth stopped running when we hit a clearing in the woods, we were close to the beach were the Bon fire place and Harry's wake/tribal funeral was to be held, but also far enough away that no danger would come to anyone. Seth closed his eyes and almost immediately a tall and slightly gangly looking sandy wolf, stood before me. I squeezed my eyes closed and relaxed my muscles. Within a second Seth's thoughts and pain were echoing around through my head.
Seth, just breathe, breath Seth. I murmured mentally as I felt Seth's grief taking hold of him, I was glad I was able to help him his grief wasn't effect me in the ways it normally would and I was fairly certain I knew why, in recent days I had felt the true unnatural maddening pain that wasn't supposed to ever occur.
You will get through this Seth, and you will never have to do it alone. I repeated my thoughts over and over again, reminding him that harry had loved him with all his heart, and that he would always be watching over him. As I tried to soothe Seth, I realized that I was almost repeating the words Charlie, Billy and Harry had constantly feed to me in the days following my Moms funeral, I felt proud to be able to repay Harry now. Seth was calming down and he had scene my memory and the feeling of pride at being able to help Harry Clearwater's son.
Thank you Jake. Seth's voice was nothing more than a whisper from the slowly lifting grief, but I knew how strong he was and new that he would eventually be ok again.
We stayed in the clearing along time; Seth lay on the ground his head on his paws his thoughts were memories of his time with Harry, Embry and I helped him out as much as we could, thinking of our own memories of Harry and Seth.
What about Leah. Seth thought suddenly.
Its ok Seth, she's with Bella. Embry thought soothingly.
BELLA! my thoughts roared and I was running.
Jake, wait slow down. Embry and Seth thought at once I could hear them behind me.
I cant, I. I left Bella with Leah, she's new, she's only phased once, and she could hurt Bella.
Shit! Both wolves thought picking up their pace. I phased on the edge of the trees, and Embry quickly threw me my clothes. It was getting darker I knew they would light the fire soon, but I had to find Bella and Leah.
"Charlie!" I cried as I spotter him and Billy beers in hand.
"Jacob." Charlie replied slightly confused at the anxiety riddling my voice.
"Where's Bella?" I asked quickly.
"She's with Leah, son." Charlie said as Embry and Seth came up behind me.
"Seth." Billy called, Embry nodded at him and Seth went to talk to my dad and Old Quill. Charlie pointed to the direction Bella and Leah had gone in and I ran of Embry close behind me. They were sitting on the rocks, near the waters edge, not to far from the bon fire; I felt the air rush from my lungs as I heard both girls talking quietly, calmly. Leah was stronger than I had given her credit for.
"Dude your such a mess." Embry chuckled as he caught up with me, clapping me on the back.
"Shut up." I laughed grabbing him in a headlock.
A low howl ripped through the night and, Embry and I released each other, he nodded turning back to the bon fire, while I continued my way across the sand to the girls sitting on the rocks.
"Bells, Leah!" I called their silhouettes turned towards me.
"The fires starting." I called awkwardly not really sure what to say.
"Were on out way Jake." Leah called back to me.
Something hit my ears wrong, and I couldn't place it, Leah's breathing was even, it was Bella's that wasn't, I could hear her tiny sobs, as she tried to calm her breathing.
"Bella?" I said quietly, stepping quickly towards the rocks. "Bell's baby, what's wrong?" My voice was lost a little in the wind and the waves but I knew at least Leah had heard me.
"What. Nothing I'm fine." Bella said quickly, getting up of the rock and pushing past me, Leah followed her I tried to catch her eye but her bloodshot blue irises were steadily watching the crashing waves as she and Bella hurried up the beach.
I stood stupidly still for a moment longer, before realising where I was and hurrying up the beach. Bella stood with Leah, on the opposite side of the fire, the flame making her chocolate eyes gleam, and the soft tears that rolled down her checks glinted in the light. Dad, Sam and Old Quill delivered the traditional speeches, but I barely heard them, I watched Bella intently but her beautiful brown eyes refused to meet mine.
Bella.
The fire flickered in front of me the orange flames licked at the night sky, I could feel the tears rolling down my checks, I didn't bother to wipe them away I knew most people would cry as Billy, Sam and Quill's great-grandfather delivered the tribes final goodbyes in Quileute.
Your being stupid Bella a small voice inside my head screamed at me. Jake loves you, you idiot.
I looked up across the flames, his face was shadowy, the second I averted my gaze from the flickering blaze of orange, his eyes claimed mine and I was powerless to look away.
Just talk to him, you idiot, what's the worst thing that could happen
But that was my problem I knew what the worst-case scenario was, it was me alone again and Jake completely in love with some other girl. I hated myself for denying my feelings for so long, and now right when I had admitted to Jake and myself that I loved him back it was all going to be taken away, because his love for me, no matter how honest and true it may be, wasn't going to be enough. Not when he saw her, whoever she was too be.
Billy, Old-Quill and Sam fell silent, and I closed my eyes against the vast darkness of Jacobs's beautiful eyes.
"Bella." Leah whispered, I opened my eyes to see her standing before me.
"Lets get some food ok." She said softly her voice nothing more than a whisper her blue eyes bloodshot.
"I'm fine Leah, you should get some food, spend sometime with your mom, I'm really not hungry."
"Ok." Leah nodded. "Hey Bella," she called as I began to walk away.
"Thankyou." She said quietly.
"Anytime." I returned her small smile.
I slipped through the hordes of people I was headed for our tree the white washed drift wood tree were so many months ago Jake had first told me about the cold ones.
It didn't take him very long to find me, I think a part of me took me to that tree because I knew he would find me there.
"Hey." He said softly sitting down beside me, I could feel the warmth radiating from his body, and I wanted nothing more than to snuggle against his chest and cry, but I couldn't do that to myself, not again, not knowing it would be so much worse than before.
When Edward left, I had, had Jake, he was there to hold onto me, to put me backtogether again, to love me. If I lost him too then I would have no one to pull me back from the darkness, there would be no one to save me.
"Hi." I whispered my voice capable of nothing more.
"Bells..." Jake whispered his left hand tucked a strand of hair back behind my ear, I shivered at his touch.
I leapt up from the tree. "I-I cant do this right now Jake." My blood boiled beneath me skin and I moved away from him.
"Do what?" he asked incredulous
"Loose myself again, I can't repeat it, I cant do it again, it will hurt to much. I wont be able to come back.." I realised I was yelling and dropped my voice a little, turning on my heel and running up the beach.
"Bella, BELLS WAIT." He called after me, I knew he could have caught me in a heartbeat but, he was playing human for me, and deep down I was grateful for it.
NO, I know you don't want to Jake, but you wont have a choice will you. It will be just like Leah and Sam, your feelings for me they wont matter anymore because you'll have her." Pure hatred laced through my voice, aimed at the faceless girl who would take him away from me.
Jake
NO, I know you don't want to Jake, but you wont have a choice will you, it will be just like Leah and Sam, your feelings for me wont matter anymore because you'll have her." she screamed still facing away from me Hatred that punctuated her words,digging into me like nails.
NO YOU WON'T." I shouted. Idiot Jacob, you should have told her sooner, how could you do this to her, all because you were to chicken to hear her reaction, good one Jakey boy now look where you've landed yourself.
"You will never end up like Leah, Bells," I heard her breathing change for a moment, she was holding her breath.
"Yes I will." She whispered trusting that I would be able to hear her.
"When you meet the girl your supposed to be with, you wont have a choice, Jake please don't do this to me." she begged her voice climbing in volume, I wanted to burst through the invisible barrier between us and hold her in my arms, I sucked in a breath and let all my secrets come out.
"No you wont bells, because I never will, there is no other girl out there. Your it for me Bella, I will never see anyone else. I love you Isabella Swan, I always have and I always will. You're my imprint, and if you'll have me then you, will be making me the happi…" I was cut of by a blur of dark wavy hair, she through herself into my arms, and I held her tightly against my chest, I could feel her tears soak through my shirt.
"Me?" she whispered pulling back to look at my face, the look of surprise and elation that crossed her face caused a huge smile to spread across my face. I nodded her eyes grew wide and a small smile crept across her lips.
I took a deep breath and looked up into Bella's eyes, "but baby there are something's I need to explain."
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