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LOST: The Other Survivor
Chapter: 11
"The Definition of Disappointment"
It was extremely devastating that Boone had died despite Jack's heroic attempts. Our group grew ever smaller, and more worried. Boone's funeral was held, and while Jack spoke softly about the young man, many people wept. I was studying the deep grave in which Boone had been placed, wrapped in a dark blanket…
I remembered Dom. We held his funeral, but without his body. I had been furious for the next years, wondering what the Iraqis had done to his body… But that was something I had to learn to bury a long time ago in order to survive what my life was.
I suddenly saw Jack staring just past me- hatred on his face. I jumped at the sudden silence and the hostility. I looked back, and saw Locke standing behind me. He was still covered in Boone's blood. I felt rage building inside me as well. Before I could do anything however, Jack sprinted across the sand, and tackled Locke. Jack started punching the hell out of Locke's face, and soon Sawyer and I, including Sayid, were yanking Jack off a shocked Locke.
"You let him die! Where were you?" Jack yelled, furious, and fighting against Sawyer and Sayid's holds. I had pulled Locke away from Jack.
"Jack, I'm sorry, there was an accident." Locke said his voice sad. Jack kept yelling, and soon Kate walked up to him, and pulled Jack with her, away from the group of sad people. Everything was silent. Then Shannon stormed off- followed by Sayid. Then the Korean couple, then Michael and Walt… people dispersed. I left Locke on the ground, and walked off sadly.
After a couple of hours, people had calmed down; Shannon had stopped talking, and wasn't eating. Sayid was loyally at her side. I was fully aware of the raft's take off the next day. A part of me wanted to be on the raft, due to the lack of self-defense the people knew who were on the raft…
I walked over to Hurley, Charlie, and Claire. Claire had just recently gotten some of her memories back, and didn't stiffen whenever I came near her. Charlie looked up at me and gave me a small smile.
"Hey ya mate." He said, and strummed his guitar. I sat beside him.
"I think I should be on the raft…" I said quietly and glanced up at Charlie.
"Dude no. Michael won't even let you." Hurley said.
"Yeah, and we need you here to protect us Bruce Lee." Charlie grinned. I smiled.
"Yeah, but you have Sayid, and I can protect them. Michael doesn't know anything about self-defense, Sawyer is … alright, and Jin- shit I have no idea. But seeing how he attacked Michael three weeks ago, I'm guessing he isn't a trained fighter." I said. Charlie shrugged.
"I suppose, but we'd miss ya too much!" Charlie said, chuckling. Claire smiled. I watched her baby sleep in her arms. He was cute.
"Yeah and honestly, we don't know what's in the water, like what if there's some… island sea creature?" Hurley asked, and leaned back on his palms. Today was a very hot day…
"I doubt it." I said. I stood up.
"Where are you going?" Claire asked, finally asking me a direct question. I smiled at her.
"I'm going to see if Michael agrees. Then if that fails, I'll just break Sawyer's legs and take his spot." I said. Hurley, Charlie, and Claire stared at me.
"I'm kidding guys, JEEZ." I said, and stalked off. I heard them laugh at me as I left. Those twats.
I reached the raft and saw Michael still doing some touch ups. I watched him a while, until he noticed me standing just behind him.
"WALLLT!" He yelled out. Walt appeared like a genie.
"Jeez, is that all you can say?" I asked with a small smile. Michael glared.
Okay, this is going to be harder than I thought…
"What do you want?" Michael asked. I sighed.
"I want to be on your raft." I said. Michael seemed to gulp. I was confused. I really didn't look that dangerous, I looked like an average twenty seven year old woman.
"And what makes you think I'll let you?" Michael asked. I crossed my arms over my chest.
"I can protect every one of you. Sayid can protect the people that stay, but in my professional opinion, you can't put one foot in front of the other." I said. Michael studied me quietly.
"Yeah dad! Do it! It'll be cool!" Walt cheered. Michael gave Walt the 'shut up' look.
"Well?" I asked. Michael glared at me. He then walked closer to me and out of ear shot of his kid.
"You try anything… and I will kill you." Michael said venomously. I stared calmly into his eyes.
"If it wasn't for the fact that there is a certain darkness within you, I would laugh in your face. I will laugh at the fact that you think you can kill me however, ha ha, alright, now that that is done with, I will see you tomorrow when we leave." I said and left. Well, maybe it did go a little smoother than I thought it would. I suddenly saw Sawyer approach me, his eyes angry.
"What the hell are ya up to now?" Sawyer asked. I walked around him, and he followed me growling.
"I'm on the raft." I said. Sawyer grabbed my arm and forced me to face him.
"Ya better not have done what I think ya did." Sawyer hissed. I watched his eyes carefully and smiled.
"That depends on what you think I did." I said teasingly. I had to admit, being around Sawyer, and teasing him- it made me happy. I felt really giddy making him mad… Is that bad? Oh yeah, I guess so. Oh well.
"You're unbelievable." Sawyer said his teeth grit. I chuckled.
"Yes I am!" I said, and flipped my hair over my shoulder as if Sawyer had implied something… very different. I then started to walk off.
"Hey- That- What! That ain't what I meant!" Sawyer ran after me. I looked at him amused.
"You're cute when you blush James." I said, getting my revenge. Sawyer stared at me surprised, his very light blush growing a little darker. I grinned and walked off, this time leaving a gaping Sawyer behind. I then returned to Charlie, Claire, and Hurley with my good news.
"Hey guys." I said and sat down once more. They smiled.
"How'd it go?" Hurley asked. I sighed wearily. There was still a cloud of depression over everyone since Boone died last night, and I personally felt saddened too. Jack was completely broken down, and Kate was trying to help him. I stayed away from Jack for that reason. Well, and the fact that we kissed.
"Uhm, oh, sorry, I was deep in thought for a second. I'm on the raft though!" I said, and smiled lightly. Charlie and Claire looked a little skeptical and Hurley looked annoyed.
"What?" I asked.
"You could die Ceal." Charlie said.
"Yeah, but I need to protect Walt. Oh and stupid Michael, red neck Sawyer, and cool Jin. Yeah. Nothin' against Jin." I said. Claire watched her baby, obviously letting Charlie take care of this talk.
"Ceal, I know we can't stop you. But we want you to be very careful." Charlie said quietly. I nodded.
"I will dad." I said.
"Hey, your mum and I love you kiddo." Charlie smiled.
"I love you to mum and dad." I said. Charlie smiled.
"Alright, now booger off and play with your mates before you leave. Come home for supper." Charlie said, laughing now. I laughed, and Hurley chuckled too at our random role play. Claire grinned looking at Charlie slightly confused.
"You guys are weird." Claire laughed. I grinned and stood while Charlie and Hurley kept chuckling.
"Okay, uh, I'm going to go talk to Sayid about my plan. I'll be back for supper." I said, and took off.
I found Sayid with Shannon secluded from the rest of the beach. I waved Sayid over. He stood from Shannon's side, and walked over to me.
"Hey, tomorrow I'll be going on the raft. So I can protect them, and you can stay here and protect the people who stay." I said. Sayid watched me carefully.
"It will be dangerous." He said. I smirked.
"You're talking to an ex-hit man." I said. Sayid managed a smile.
"So I am. Be careful." Sayid said, putting a gentle hand on my shoulder. I nodded.
"I will. How's Shannon?" I asked glancing over at the blonde. She was completely still.
"She is mourning. But in time I know she will learn to accept his death and move on." Sayid said. I nodded.
"That is what has to happen for anyone to survive a death." I said. Sayid nodded in agreement.
"I'll see you later." I said, and started back to the group of survivors. Sayid returned to Shannon's side. I walked a little ways towards the beach when I felt like I should stock up on food for the people on the beach, and maybe grab some more food for the raft. Thus, I headed into the jungle in search of food. I walked deeper into the jungle, and soon noticed someone following me. I turned around. No one.
"Whoever is playing hide and seek with me should go ahead and come out. I am not amused." I said. Teehee, like the queen of England. Kate came out of some bushes. I was surprised.
"Uh, Kate ya don't have to stalk me, we're friends." I said chuckling at her strange behavior. Kate didn't look amused.
"You're on the raft." She stated, rather it being a question. Oh… this didn't look good either huh…
"Kate uh, I'm only on the raft as their uh, protector." I said. Kate frowned.
"You knew I wanted to be on that raft." Kate said her tone clearly annoyed.
"Yeah I know, but you saw what happened- and the only reason Michael let an extra person on was so I could protect them all." I said, trying desperately not to lose Kate's friendship.
"And…" Kate stopped talking as if she didn't want to say anymore. I frowned.
"And?" I asked.
"Nothing… Nevermind." She said, and started walking off. I jogged up next to her.
"Katy poo…" I said, jokingly trying to make her laugh. She looked at me confused, and managed a chuckle.
"See? Don't be mad. Everything will work out- you'll see." I said, and smiled happily. Kate sighed, and then led the way into the jungle.
"You're getting fruit right?" Kate asked. I nodded, and followed her.
"Yep." I said.
We went through the jungle in silence, and found a couple of trees bearing fruit. Kate and I climbed our own trees and picked off the fruit carefully.
"So… uh, Jack's doing better." Kate groaned, as she reached for a banana. I put a coconut in my bag. I glanced over at her.
"Is he? That's great." I said. I felt bad for kissing Jack back after Kate had clearly said she was interested- but we weren't in high school anymore- so I wasn't going to act like it. Also, Jack was extremely tired, doing a blood transfusion, and yeah. So I'm sure he's regretting it.
"He's been watching you." Kate said quietly and descended the tree she'd been climbing.
"Uh, creepy?" I said, and stuffed another coconut into my bag.
"No, not like that. You know what I mean. You've been avoiding Jack all day. Did something happen?" Kate asked, her face withdrawn. I hesitated watching her face. I felt extremely trapped, and this scared me. And me being scared- wasn't a good thing. My anger and calculative side took over. I slid down the tree.
"Kate, what are you getting at?" I asked sternly. Kate seemed to sense my attitude change. She hesitated a minute.
"Nothing, you guys just haven't been talking all day. But I'm sure it's nothing." She said with a weak smile. I approached her.
"It really is Kate. Nothing's going on. Just haven't gotten the chance to talk to him." I said evenly.
"I'm sorry I brought it up. Let's go find some more food." Kate said with another weak smile. I sighed, and nodded. We walked further into the jungle and silently looked for fruit. We heard a rustling beside us. Kate and I both jumped, too preoccupied in our thoughts to hear anyone approach.
"Jack…" Kate breathed, relieved it wasn't an Other.
"Kate… Ceal…" Jack panted. My eye twitched. Great. This is exactly what I need.
"What're you doing here?" I asked, confused to actually see him out here.
"Looking for you." Jack said evenly, his eyes hard. I tilted my head in confusion. Kate started to leave.
"Where are you going?" I asked her. She didn't smile.
"Jack was looking for you." She said, her tone tense, as she started to walk by Jack. Jack caught her arm.
"Kate, is something wrong?" He asked. Kate looked up at him silently. She then pulled her arm free.
"No." She jogged off. I sighed. Jack watched her leave.
I was silent as Jack finally turned around and looked at me. He walked a little closer to me. I tensed. He was frowning.
"Sayid told me you're going on the raft tomorrow." Jack said, glaring down at me. I sighed, and shifted my weight to my other foot. I frowned up at Jack.
"Yeah? What of it?" I asked, trying to look tough, but probably failing because Jack was taller than me, looking down at me.
"Why?" He asked.
"Because I can protect them. Sayid can protect you guys." I said. Jack let out a breath of disbelief. I watched him, calculating.
"Listen, is it because of-… that we-…kissed?" Jack asked, the last word a soft whisper. His eyes were looking into mine intensely. I nearly gulped. He was waiting for an answer.
"Jack listen, the kiss wasn't- uh…" I couldn't find the right words. Jack looked at me confused.
"Ceal, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have… done it at that time… Please don't get on the raft tomorrow…" Jack asked me. I looked at him sadly.
"Jack- I- I have to. I have to make sure we are all in some way protected. Sayid is taking care of you guys and I'm taking care of Sawyer's group." I guess I picked the wrong guy to vouch for the whole group, because as soon as I mentioned Sawyer's name Jack turned away with an annoyed laugh.
"Sawyer's group can take care of themselves." Jack said. I looked at him strangely.
"Jack, there's like a ten year old kid on the raft. Sorry if I don't think Michael is the most capable captain." I said. Jack watched me silently, and then turned to leave.
"Jack…" I started towards him. Jack looked back at me, his face hard.
"No. It's… fine…" Jack stormed through the thick jungle, headed to the caves. I glared at his back. This sucked.
Next Morning
I got up early with the rest of my 'ship mates', and started loading the raft with food and fresh water. Sawyer relaxed around me since he realized I didn't take his spot. People were all writing notes and shoving them into a large bottle for us to bring to the police when we were saved. They were notes for their families and loved ones.
Shortly after people started to say their good byes. I said bye to Claire, her son, Hurley, Kate (who seemed to be okay now, she even hugged me.), Sayid, Sun, Shannon, and so on. Charlie was the hardest to let go of, and then Kate and… I'm sure it'd be tough to say bye to Jack. People got ready to push the large raft over logs to roll it into the ocean. I watched as jack slowly approached me.
"Hey." He said. People were talking to others- saying their goodbyes, so no one was really staring at us. I nodded at him.
"Hey." I said. He looked at the raft.
"So… you're really going?" He asked, and looked at me. I smiled up at him sadly.
"Yes." I said.
"And I can't stop you?" He asked. I shook my head.
"Not this time Jack." I said grinning. Jack nodded, and we just stared at each other for a bit. Sawyer suddenly jumped up and put an arm around my shoulders.
"No worries Doc, I'll take care of Smiley." Sawyer said, smiling that annoying smile of his. Jack glared at Sawyer. I pushed Sawyer away.
"Aw shucks." He said sarcastically and stalked off. I turned back to Jack.
"Bye Jack… I'll see you later." I said, and touched his shoulder, glancing at his tattoos once more. Jack pulled me into a hug and held me for a while.
"I better see you later. Be careful. Promise me." Jack said quietly. I hugged him tightly.
"I promise." I said, feeling slightly weird- I think Jack might like me…
Anywho- we all managed to push the raft into the water with a lot of will power, and the ship crew jumped up on the raft last minute. I nearly tipped over the edge when our raft hit a wave at a certain angle. Sawyer caught my arm. I smiled at him gratefully but he just frowned, and stalked off to the other side of the raft. I shrugged and watched the people on the beach wave us goodbye. Even Vincent the dog tried swimming over to us but Walt screamed at him to go back. Pair a lungs just like his daddy I see.
A good ways out into the ocean, it was very hot under the beaming sun, and we all could only sit and wait. Every now and then Michael would move the sails. I watched Jin bite his lower lip in deep concentration. He was looking out to sea. I smiled slightly. He must be thinking of his wife, Sun. Must be hard having to part like that. Michael and Walt were chilling, and Sawyer was still sitting on the other side of the raft, staring out to sea. I sighed and looked back towards the island. I did miss land. Wasn't too big on the ocean. I fear sharks at all times, no matter the body of water. Pool- shark, pond- shark, river- shark, kiddie pool- okay, no shark. So yes.
I walked over to an ice chest and picked out a mango. I had kept the hunting knife Locke had given me, due to the fact that… I wanted it. And it was pretty. As I stood straight, and closed the chest, Sawyer stared down at me.
"Yes sir?" I asked, and walked back to the front right part of the raft. I sat down, cross legged, since I didn't want a shark to jump up and nip my legs off. Sawyer followed me.
"Ya could have told me ya didn't take ma spot." Sawyer said. I shrugged.
"You're too fun." I admitted. I cut my knife into the fruit, and cut it in half. I then put down one half, and started making slices out of the other. I gave the first slice to Sawyer.
"Thanks…" He mumbled, and accepted the mango. I nodded.
Later
It had fallen dark, and this of course made me sit in the dead center of the raft by the sails. Sharks are mean at night… Sayid had given Michael the transmitter, and Michael and Jin were busy staring at it, while Sawyer and I seemed to be sticking to each other the most. We didn't talk since the mango, but we were always sitting side by side. As if we just enjoyed each other's company without having to converse. Suddenly the transmitter beeped, and Sawyer and I perked up. We raced over to Jin and Michael.
"A signal! We got a signal!" Michael yelled, extremely excited. I looked up at Michael.
"What do we do?" I asked, not really feeling like we thought this whole thing out. Yeah we found someone, but uh, how could we get their attention?
"We fire the flare." Sawyer said, and looked up at Michael impatiently. Michael hesitated.
"We have a flare gun?" I asked surprised.
"Yeah!" Sawyer said looking at me incredulously.
"When'd we get a flare gun?" I asked still surprised, Sawyer gave me a look of disbelief.
"I don't know Smiley! Michael, fire the flare!" Sawyer said, increasingly frustrated. Michael shook his head.
"What if it isn't a boat? We have to be sure!" Michael said, his hand tightly gripping the gun. Jin just observed the whole conversation. Walt was confused, Sawyer looked like he wanted to strangle Michael, and I was just peachy.
"Ya better fire that flare, or I'ma fire it." Sawyer growled. I looked at Michael who stared at Sawyer, then sighed frustrated.
"Please. God." Michael said, and aimed the flare up and shot it. Everything lit up around us in red, and a hissing noise from the flare was heard. We were silently looking into the dark in the direction of the signal… everything started to grow dark again then- a single light came towards us.
"YES!" Sawyer and Michael yelled at the same time. Everyone started jumping up and down cheering. Hell, I was jumping up and down yelling something that probably didn't make sense in any language, I was just so happy to be freaking saved! Sawyer pulled me into a tight hug, followed by Jin, then Walt, then Michael. A giant group hug.
"WE'RE SAVED!" Michael yelled. We then stopped cheering as the boat approached. We smiled hugely at the fishermen. They reminded me of the fishermen that died in JAWS but never mind that- we're saved!
"Oh shit, am I happy to see you…" Sawyer breathed, and smiled. The three people on the boat smiled at us in a strange way and waited for us to stop cheering. My hit man side was extremely suspicious.
"We'll take the boy." The man in front said, clearly the leader. I gasped. Michael and Jin's smiles faded. Sawyer was already frowning.
"Wh- what?" Michael asked.
"We'll take the boy." The man said. I immediately switched to hit man POV and tackled Walt behind the ice chests.
"Stay here!" I glared, and he gave me a shaky nod. I looked up in time to see Sawyer whip out a gun and before aiming- get shot, and fall over board.
"SAWYER!" I screamed, and felt a sharp sensation of fear cut through me. Michael looked around for Walt and ran to him. I guessed he would lay out of harm's way with him. I took out my hunting knife and threw it at the man who shot Sawyer- I hit him in his right shoulder- he wouldn't die, but he would be in too much pain to do anything for approximately thirty seconds. I then ducked behind the tall wooden steering section Michael had built to control the sails.
"Stand up and give up before I kill them." I heard the leader's voice boom. I glanced over by the ice chest- they were gone. I looked around the corner of the wood and saw Michael with Walt. Anger went through me.
I told him to stay DOWN!
I stood slowly and held my hands up. The man who wasn't busy with a hunting knife in his shoulder, aimed a pistol at Michael, and yanked Walt onto his boat. I saw the man whom I'd shishkabobed, grab a glass bottle with fluids inside, light it and throw it onto our raft.
"JUMP!" I yelled, and turned to see the leader stare at me.
"You would be very useful to us. But lethal against us." I watched as he pulled out his pistol and aimed at me. I ducked into the water, and swam underwater as long as I could. I felt the explosion of our raft behind me and was forcefully pushed further under water. I winced, and started to swim up. I was far down, my lungs burned, I was almost there…
I choked and coughed as I resurfaced. I ignored the pain in my shoulder blade and tread water. I saw the burning remains of the raft, and the boat sail slowly off into the distance, Walt screaming for his father. I grit my teeth. I would kill them. No no, I promised Jack… F-ck Jack, they deserve death!
"NO!" I yelled out and shook my head. My morals completely messing with my head. I spat out the sea water that had gotten in my mouth and looked around. I didn't see anyone.
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