Chap 11

A/N: well I'm sorry I haven't updated in a while. I've been preoccupied with my other story and haven't been able to concentrate on this one. Well i've defiantly added a twist…or two…or three. So read on! Well for me at least :-) btw the next couple of chapters were originally one chapter so if they are short I'm sorry but I had to cut them off somewhere. You forget I'm very cliffy tehe anyways read on and I hope you don't judge me tooooo harshly about what Jacobs about to do.

(BPOV)

I jumped back faster than I would have ever expected of myself.

Whether or not he noticed I jumped didn't matter, because all he was worried about was pulling me down onto his lap so he could reach my lips easier. He wrapped his arms around me. God his arms were so warm…so familiar. It felt so right having him there protecting me from anything. Wait no what was wrong with me I loved Edward. Only Edward. Why was I having these feelings for Jacob NOW! My mind was made up. My heart was made up. This would bring me nothing but heartache, but apparently Jacob didn't care about that anymore.

He finally stopped kissing me and when he did I horrified myself when I realized that I didn't want him to stop. I wanted him to keep kissing me, and that knowledge scared me to death.

He pulled me closer to him and his arms tightened. He put his face in my hair.

"Oh Bella, I was so worried."

He was worried? Why would he have anything to worry about?

"Worried…about me?" I asked as it hit me. He had been worried Edward had already changed me.

"Of course I was worried about you honey, when that disgusting leech took you away I thought it was for good." He replied as he started stroking my hair.

"Of course not. We went to see my mother." I assured him. "We went to tell her about our engage-" I dropped off the rest of the word as soon as I caught a look at his face. From his expression I could tell he was really going to miss me when I was gone. "I'm sorry Jake. I'm so very sorry." What a pathetic excuse to start crying, but I did cry. He wiped the tears away from my face while whispering in my ear trying to reassure me that is was ok that he forgave me. "No it is not ok! Every time I turn around I'm hurting you one way or another. I hate hurting you Jacob." I cried harder. How could I have ever leaded him on!

"Oh Bella its ok I understand."

"Apparently not or you wouldn't still be holding me." I pointed out bitterly.

"Bella you and I both know it's a lost cause, but still I just can't bear to see you in pain." He kissed my forehead softly, then my nose, then my lips so sweetly I couldn't help but kiss him back. This was nothing like our past kisses which were hot, fiery and demanding. This kiss was tender. So tender it took by breathe away. How could a wolf be so… exactly the opposite of what you would expect?

"Bella I have to tell you something." He whispered in my ear.

"Jake you know you can tell me anything." I whispered back sincerely.

"I know now why I even though you have hurt me so many times, and denied your love for me so many times. Even after all that I still love you so deeply I just can not let you go, no matter what. "

"Why is that?" I asked completely curious.

"Bella I imprinted you."

That did it.

I jumped up out of his arms much to his dismay. I stumbled blindly across the room groping for anything stable enough to keep me steady. I stumbled over something in the semi darkness and fell with a thud against something defiantly much softer. Oh god how did he get there so fast?

"Bella please be careful." He pleaded.

"I'm sorry Jake. I-I have to go." I choked out somehow. I tried to reach the door but was pulled back.

"Bella I'm not letting you go." He growled. "I can't. Not again." Oh god what was he going to do kidnap me?

"You have to Jake. You know he would never stop looking for me."

"I don't care Bella don't you get that! I can't let him make you one of them!" his arms wrapped more securely around me. As if I could get away anyway!

"My mind is made up Jake. Please let me go." I almost begged.

He shook his head and scooped me up in his arms. Somehow we made it out of the house before I passed out.

five hours later

(EPOV)

"Alice! Tell me something helpful!" I was near frantic.

"I told you Edward she has to be with Jake, I can't tell you anything about where she is, how she is, or what's going to happen." She said calmly into my ear. We had been searching for Bella since we had found she was gone at one in the morning. Half an hour later we found her truck at Jacobs. Sadly we also found his fathers car gone from the narrow driveway. Did she go freely or forcefully? Either way I swore I would find her and bring her home. If I found she had been hurt by his stupidity I swore I was going to be forced to kill him just to make myself happy. Bella might not be too thrilled about it but he had crossed the line this time by a mile by kidnapping her. She had better be in pristine condition when I found her or he would seriously pay.

"That's not very helpful Alice," I complained. "I need to know where they went, why and if she went quietly or with a fight."

"I hate to say it Edward but there is a few signs she tried to fight. There's a lamp on the floor, and also it looks like she fell onto the desk. I really can't tell you Edward." She said sadly, she was just as distraught and furious as I was only she was doing a better job at hiding it.

"Keep me updated at ANYTHING you find." I said.

"Will do. And Edward try to relax we'll find her, I promise." She said before hanging up the phone. I slunk down into the chair that was behind me contemplating everything that had happened over the past few days that would make her want to run away. I also thought about why Jake would kidnap her

Nothing was coming to mind and it was making me very antsy to find her as soon as possible.

I thought about every possible reason except for one. I purposely refused to think about that one. But no matter what I did it just kept popping up in my mind like a horror movie playing over and over in my head whether I wanted it to or not.

What if she had finally chosen Jacob?

(BPOV)

When I woke up I was in a car. It was dark outside so I couldn't tell where exactly we were but it defiantly wasn't Forks. The land was completely barren. No trees, no grass, nothing green in sight. Where had Jacob taken me?

I shifted to get a closer look outside. I still couldn't see anything. I turned to look at Jacob who looked like he was seriously about to fall asleep at the wheel. He had his arm around me and I had been asleep on his shoulder. I shook him a bit to get his attention. He jumped back to attention then looked down at me and smiled.

"Finally you wake up. Watching you sleep was making me sleepy too." He kissed my forehead.

"Where are we?" I asked my voice a bit slurred.

"Somewhere in the middle of Arizona I think." He replied casually.

"Arizona! What the hell are we doing in Arizona!" I said furiously.

"Well I think we're going to the outskirts of phoenix, although I could change my mind."

"Change your mind?"

"Well if I find that he's anywhere within 100 miles of us we're leaving."

"You do know he will never stop looking for me right?" at least I hoped he would. "You and I will not live forever but he will. He'll find us eventually." I assured him.

"Bella I would rather die than see you turn into one of them. I swear they will never find you."

"How dare you! I choose that Jake, me by myself! It was my choice to make. I love you Jake but that love isn't anything compared to my love for him. It doesn't even compare." His face fell.

"I know Bella but like I said I imprinted on you the moment I met you I just didn't know it. I tried to let you go Bella, I really did but, I can't. I'm connected to you. If your heart stops so does mine. I love you Bella, forever. " he tried to bend down and kiss me but I moved out of the way. His face fell and I saw the hurt in his eyes before they turned back to the road.

We sat like that for a while, not talking, not moving, and especially not making eye contact. I started to droop off. Apparently so did Jacob because the car jerked to the side quickly, waking me up from my doze. I grabbed the steering wheel over an asleep Jacob. I kicked his leg over and slammed on the brake. He woke up shoving me off to the side.

"God Bella do you want to have a wreck?" he yelled furiously.

"No I don't but apparently you do. You fell asleep and we almost went into that ditch." He turned around and saw the ditch we had almost crashed into.

"I'm sorry Bells." He said as he turned back around. "How about we call it quits for the night and find a hotel?"

"I think that's the best Idea you've come up with all day. The others weren't so great." I said referring to his kidnapping me against my will, and bringing me to of all places Phoenix. He nodded his head and pulled off of the curve and back onto the highway.

Ten miles down the road we pulled into a middle class hotel. It wasn't the Hilton but it was a heck of a lot better than this car. Jacob stopped in front of the drive thru and without a glance back stepped out and went to go get us a room. I guess he really trusted me not to run because he left the keys in the car. I thought about trying to escape but quickly shot the idea down. He would hear the engine leaving and would be able to catch up with me being the wolf that he was. No it would be better to wait until he was asleep to escape. I would find a phone and call Edward who would come help me. That way Jacob would never know what was coming until it had already hit him.

I only had to wait for a few minutes and Jake was back out in the car. He pulled around the side and stopped in front of room number 8. I stored that in my mind for when I would talk to Edward later. Jacob stepped out of the car and pulled me out with him rushing me inside. It wasn't until we were under the tin roof that I realized it was raining. Not hard but enough to damper my thoughts about getting away. Jacob would notice if I came back soaking wet. Damn this weather!

He shut the door quickly behind us and turned on the light.

The room was moderately large, probably meant for a family of four or so. The bed was large, but then again so was Jake so I didn't expect to have a lot of room. There was a TV in one corner and a desk with a lamp on it in another. I went to take a look at the bathroom. It was relatively small without much in it but then again I wouldn't be staying here for very long if I had anything to say about it.

He walked in and stood behind me quietly so I didn't notice he was there until I turned around.

"Sorry if I startled you." He said laughing. I clutched my hand to my chest.

"Well of course you startled me." I lied. Maybe if he thought I was scared of him he would feel safer about my not attempting to run.

"Well I'm still sorry." He grabbed my shoulders, turned me around and gently kissed my forehead. Oh God how I was going to hate living with him for the time being. "Are you ok Bella?" he asked concerned.

"How can I be ok when I've got a humongous sixteen year old werewolf watching over everything I do? Jake one slip and you could tear me alive!"

He grimaced. "Bella I would never could never do that. I've got more self control than you give me credit for." He rubbed my shoulders trying to reassure me. It really did but I didn't let on that I trusted him. The more he thought I was afraid of him the less he would watch me, and the easier it would be for me to get away.

"Maybe it would be easier if I didn't find you skulking around like your about to attack me at the slightest move I make. Jake you're starting to scare me. I'm not going anywhere. I have nowhere to go to, you made sure of that. You don't have to watch my every move."

"Why is it I don't trust that?"

"Why wouldn't you? You know I can't lie to save my life." I said offended. Well at least that's what I made it seem like.

He laughed as he replied telling me he was sorry to have doubted me and assured me he wouldn't "skulk" around anymore.

He left the bathroom and I checked my pockets. How could he have been so stupid to leave me with a phone?

I tried to use it. Damn! He wasn't so stupid after all. He had taken me outside of phoenix where there was virtually no cell phone reception.

I lingered a bit longer in the bathroom before deciding Jacob would have gone asleep

It was around 7:00 am and I was really tired so I went and lay down on the bed beside an asleep Jacob. Tomorrow night would be plenty soon enough for me to try to contact Edward for now I just wanted to sleep. Maybe in sleep I could block out everything that had happened to me today. In sleep I could think about only my Edward and maybe he would come and rescue me from this desperately love struck werewolf.

"Bella wake up now!" I went flying off the bed landing squarely on my but probably bruising something. "We have to go NOW! Get up!" he yelled at me dragging me off the ground.

"Why?" I asked furious that he had woken me up at; I looked at the clock on the table, 10:00 in the morning! God I had only gotten three solid hours of sleep which for me wasn't a lot. And considering the fact that I hadn't been deeply asleep for more than an hour of those three didn't make me feel better about my rude awakening.

"He's in Arizona. We have to go now!" he dragged me outside and threw me in the car then jumped inside and sped off as fast as he could.

"Where are we going now?" I said distantly. All I could think about was that Edward was in the state. He might find me after all.

"Probably Texas. I have some friends there. Wolf friends, we'll be safe there."

"Whoa, whoa wait a minute there. Do you really think I'm going to go to a pack of wolves? There's no telling what would happen."

"You say that as if you didn't know one…or eight. We'll be fine Bells."

"No Jake I refuse that's taking it too far. I might know one or eight werewolves but I don't know these they might not have as much self control as your pack does. Nope I'm not going to do it. You take me to Texas but I'm not going to a pack of wolves." He looked like he was about to protest so I added an extra "no" to make my point clear.

The more I thought about the more I realized I had made the right choice in refusing. If I could get away from Jacob long enough for Alice to see what I was going to do then I might have a chance. But a whole pack of wolves to evade would be much more difficult to achieve.

"Ok no wolves but we are going somewhere with a lot of people make no doubt about that. Don't worry Bella I'm not giving him any chances to catch us. It's ok. I promise." He gave me a reassuring hug but for what I was planning it wasn't very reassuring.

"Oh great." I mumbled. Then louder. "How long will it take for us to get there?"

"Oh about," he glanced at the clock on the dashboard. "Tomorrow afternoon."

"What part of Texas?" the more I knew about where we were going the easier it would be for Edward to find me?

"Probably east. I know that part of Texas the best. Which town? Tyler or Longview"

"Which ones bigger? I don't want to be in a small town."

"Tyler's bigger…well actually they're about the same size if you think about it neither one of them are small. But they aren't huge like Dallas and Houston."

"Well then pick one I don't care which." He smiled thinking he had I caught. That I didn't want Edward to find me. He was defiantly wrong on both counts.

"How about Longview?"

"Works for me." I agreed.

We sat in silence for a while. It was hours before I could work up the courage to ask if we could stop at a gas station. When I did surprisingly Jacob agreed easily and deemed it ok. He even let me go to the bathroom by myself. I had been thinking about my plans for a long time in that car. I was pretty sure I knew what I would do I just prayed to god I didn't get anybody in trouble with Jacob or get myself caught totally ruining my chances of escape.

I walked into the store and asked the lady at the counter where the bathroom was she pointed me in the direction and I set off that way.

I stepped into the bathroom and I couldn't believe my luck. There were two stalls. There was also a lady there doing her make-up. I wasted no time and walked right up to her and tried to look as haggard as possible so she would believe the lie I was about to tell.

"Miss?" she turned to me curiously. "Are you here with anyone?"

She looked reluctant and hesitated before answering. "Um…yes I'm here with my husband. Why?" thank god.

"I need some help." Her face turned from curious to sympathetic, but still antsy about furthering this conversation. Not that I blamed her, I was a complete stranger.

"What kind of help?"

"'I've been…kidnapped by someone I know. Can I use your cell phone?"

"Phones don't work around here honey. Not for miles. You say you've been kidnapped?"

"In a way yes. One of my friends has kidnapped me from my…boyfriend. You see I live in Washington on the peninsula and he took me to phoenix…" I trailed off seeing how totally absurd the story seemed. "I'm sorry you probably don't believe me, but really I need some help. If I can just get a few miles from Jacob then Alice can see me and Edward will be able to find me then I will willingly go back to Jacob until Edward and Alice found me! Please I need help; I have to get back to Edward before Charlie finds I'm gone."

Apparently I was being a bit more hysterical than needful because she put her hand on my shoulder and patted it affectionately.

"Its ok honey I will help any way I can. We can sneak out of here, grab Mark and get out of here as fast as possible. That sounds good to you?"

I nodded my head eagerly praying to god I hadn't made the wrong choice.

"Well let's go then."

"Thank you. Thank you so much."

(EPOV)

Yes! They had been through here. The strong werewolf scent proved it.

I walked around the counter and silently listened to the cashier's thoughts. Damn! They hadn't done anything to get themselves noticed.

From the scent they had been here about three hours ago. My phone vibrated in my pocket.

"Alice?"

"I have news…" she paused.

"Alice! Don't keep me waiting!"

"Oh sorry. Anyway in case you didn't know Bella is a lot smarter than we give her credit for. She got away from Jacob and is with a woman and her husband who will be going to Albuquerque about a half hour drive from where you are. They will be going through other towns to throw Jake off but they will still go to Albuquerque." I sighed in relief. "I don't know how she got away from him but she did and unless he catches back up with her we will be able to see her no matter where she goes. I'm still keeping an eye on her though. You go get her and avoid Jake at all costs. I have a feeling we are going to have a very pissed off werewolf on our hands. Of course they know I can't see them after everything that happened last spring."

"Of course." I agreed shakily.

"Crap then we will have to find her as quick as possible. He's going to be after her like a hornet."

"Thank you Alice."

"No prob. Hey she's going to be my sis soon so it's my responsibility too to keep up with her."

"Well once she's your sister she'll probably be a vampire too so you won't have to keep up with her."

"True, true. Well you had better go get her so she can be my sister! Good luck."

"Thanks Alice." I hung up the phone and saw the cashier staring at me. I quickly grabbed the first thing I saw off the shelf and threw it at her. She dumbly fumbled with it as she tried to ring it up.

"That'll be a dollar and twenty-five cents." She said quietly.

I handed her the money and quickly walked out the door. As soon as I rounded the corner around the side I dumped the bag of Chex Mix in the trash and walked to the car. I hopped in and started off hitting the highway going about 95 and climbing faster. The closer I got to Bella the better I felt. She had better be in perfect condition when I found her of Jacob would pay dearly!

(BPOV)

"Thank you so much for all the help." I said as I stepped out of the car in front of the hotel Mark and Christina was dropping me off at. Hopefully I wouldn't have to wait too long for Edward to show up. Maybe I could use a payphone and call him quicker.

"It was no problem at all. If you need any help ever again just call us. You have my number right?"

"Yes I do." She looked like something had just crossed her mind.

"Do you need to call anybody my phone should work now?"

"If you don't mind."

"Of course not." She dug around a bit and pulled out a silver razor and handed it to me. I quickly dialed Edwards's number and waited for him to answer.

"Hello?" I sighed in relief at his anxious voice.

"Edward," I whispered.

"Bella! Oh my god, where are you? We have been looking all over for you."

"Jake kidnapped me. Where are you?"

"In Albuquerque."

"Thank god. Hurry up. I'm at the…" I turned around and glanced at the sign. "Oh how convenient the Albuquerque hotel." I heard a slight chuckle on the other end.

"Well I'm only a few minutes away. Do you think you could stay safe for 10 minutes or so?"

"I've been safe this whole time, but yes I will be fine for 10 minutes. Don't take too long though."

"Trust me honey I'm coming as fast as possible."

"Ooh pushing the stupid shiny Volvo to the limits is we? What are we pushing 110?"

"More like 120 but if I could go faster I would."

"Thank you, but don't burn it up before you get here. I'm fine…for now."

"Well then ill see you in a few. Bye and stay safe. I love you." I shut the phone and looked at Christina.

"Thank you so much for all of the help. If it weren't for you two I would still be stuck with that dog."

"Dog?" mark asked me perplexed.

"Uh long story but in his own special way yes a dog." Now it was Christina's turn to be confused.

"Did you really mean he was coming here at 110 miles per hour?"

"Knowing him yes he would be. He can't stand driving slow and-" I dropped off abruptly catching a glance something in the woods behind the hotel. Jacob! Why did he have to find me so easily!? The werewolf caught sight of me but Christina and Mark also both caught sight of him. Christina screamed as loudly as she could. "Go now I'll be fine!" I screamed. Mark didn't need any more persuasion he stomped on the gas and sped out of the parking lot without a passing glance.

Jacob came racing towards me and on instinct, even thought it was pointless; I started running as fast as I could in the opposite direction. It didn't take long for him to catch up with me. He rammed into my legs causing them to buckle which flipped me right onto his back. I held on for dear life. It was then that I saw the clothes hanging out of his mouth. Hopefully I would get brownie points for this, I even stunned myself when I carefully reached around his massive neck and tugged on his clothes until he let them fall into my hands. I pulled them back around and lodged them in between me and his back keeping them in place. What had he done with his shoes? Never mind I didn't want to know, although they were probably where he had shifted, shredded beyond recognization.

Then I remembered the razor phone in my and maneuvered myself on his back so I could reach my shoe. I stuffed the phone in it where I knew it wouldn't go any where. Thank god he hadn't noticed it before! Guess my luck was somewhat holding up today.

We ran for a long time in those woods behind the hotel for a very long time when we finally stopped it was hours later and almost dark. Jake took the clothes from me and went into a little bit deeper in to shift back. While he was gone I had sent a very quick message to Edward telling him that Jake had kidnapped him again and that I would call again at three in the morning and if I didn't something was wrong. Ok maybe it wasn't a short message exactly but Jacob took enough time that I had time to write that much, even considering how slow I texted.

He came back through giving me enough of a warning with the crunch of the leaves for me to shove the phone back into my shoe and put on a calm face. Hopefully he would fall for it.

I pulled my jacket closer around me. It was very cool even though fall had just started. Very cool. Ok it was cold. There I said it, it was cold, and I was freezing my butt off sitting there on that log with nothing remotely close to anything that resembled a windbreak. Well unless you could count the giant who had decided to plop his annoying butt beside me despite the fact that he knew I wasn't in the mood to deal with him right now. Why did that not surprise me?

"Your cold." He said stating the obvious. I was only shivering, chattering and trying to keep as much body heat as possible. Way to pay attention Jake, keep that up maybe you'll figure out I don't want you anywhere near me right now!

"Oh really? I hadn't noticed!" I forced out keeping my voice as even as possible. "Where are we anyway?"

"To tell you the truth I don't really know, but tomorrow I- we will backtrack and go back to Albuquerque. He will never expect it. " I didn't respond, not that Jake would have noticed anyway his mind was on one track. "Think about it Bella, if we go back there and stay in those woods he would have thought we had been there and when he showed up we got skittish and ran. He would never expect us to stay there. Well he would never expect me to stay there. That is if he came to Albuquerque at all. Which I doubt he wills, there are so many places we could have gone. It would be rather ironic if he came to the exact place we were. Don't you think Bella?"

"What- oh yea, sure he would never guess that." after I said that I slumped back down on the log again and continued to think of a plan.

So far all I could think of was getting some notice to Edward without Jacob noticing the only thing about that was Jacob was paying such close attention to me that I would never get a moment to myself. He didn't trust me not to run away anymore. Not that I blamed him. If only my first attempt hadn't gone so wrong I would be in my Edwards strong comforting arms instead of sitting on a log, lost in the middle of the woods with a desperately in love werewolf. I was seriously starting to wonder what kind of extremes Jacob would go to keep me human.

Well his attempts were in vain. I was going to become what I had dreamed about becoming for over a year and he wasn't going to stop me no matter what he did. My mind was made up and he couldn't stop me.

All I had been able to think of since he had first told me he loved me was not hurting anymore. He had defiantly ruined that when he kidnapped me the FIRST time. Now he was working on totally ruination of whatever feeling I had had for him before everything that had happened over the past two days.

"Bella are you ok? You're shivering." He tried to wrap an arm around me but I shrugged him off. He looked at me with a hurt look in his eyes.

"I would be fine if you hadn't taken me against my will AGAIN!" I lashed out. "When are you going to get it through your head that I love him? When are you going to realize that I can never be with you as long as he exists? And even if he didn't exist anymore I would still never be able to be with you. Jake we would never be happy together. You would outlive me no matter what. I would be old and you would still be young."

"Well at least you would still be human! At least then your heart would still be beating! At least then I would have you to myself for as long as I would have you. Whether that is 10 or 100 years I would have you to myself. You and I both know we belong together."

"If he had never existed yes we would belong together. But he does exist and although I love you Jake, and I do love you, we can never be together while he's there. I love you but I'm in love with him. How can I explain this! Ok let me give you a simile that he gave me. You're a long time alcoholic and you couldn't resist a drink even if you wanted to try. You get put in a room with a bottle of stale beer in one corner and deep rich wine in the other corner. Which will you drink? The stale beer or the wine?"

He laughed. "That's not a very symbolic you know,"

"I know but you get my point? Please Jake tries to understand. I love you but that love is nothing compared to the love I feel for him. If it weren't for him we would be together, and happy." His face fell.

"Bella we could be happy even though he does exist. I know we could."

"No we couldn't. Think of it like I had imprinted on him. I couldn't leave him if I wanted to. He's in my blood so to speek."

"That's a bad simile too." He grimaced.

"Well it's true. Why can't you grasp that? I can never love you the way I do him. I'm sorry Jake but I just can't."

He scooted towards me and put his arm around my shoulders.

"I know Bells; I just can't give you up without fighting my hardest for you. I can't bear the thought of you becoming a nasty sick smelling vampire. No matter what you become though I will still love you Bella. Why can't you grasp that?"

"You would?" I asked taken aback. I had never expected that. "You would really love me even if I was a bloodsucking vampire?"

"Well I would rather if you went but yes I would still love you." He kissed my forehead and laughed.

"Thanks Jake. That means a lot to me."

"Just promise it will mean the same once you are a vampire. As long as it did I would still have a reason to live."

"Of coarse it will. I won't be totally gone."

"Yes you will Bella. You'll be consumed by the thirst, unable to control yourself. You won't be Bella anymore. You'll only be a mirror like image of Bella. Only a copy of the real thing. Not real, not alive, not beautiful, not sweet, not human and certainly not clumsy. You'll never be the same." he nuzzled my hair. "And on top of all that, you'll stink!"

"Oh shut up! That's not fair! All vampires stink to you, you stupid dog! And I am not beautiful."

"Beg to differ but you are beautiful Bells. You just don't see it."

"Yup I guess I'm blind because I just can't see what you two seem to find so special about me."

"Maybe it's the fact that you don't see yourself like the rest of the world does. Your selfless, you don't take things for granted and you value life. Well that's what I see in you. I can't speak for the leech but I can for myself."

"See my point!" I yelled throwing my hands in the air.

"What point?"

"That you can't get over the whole vamp thing. If you can't stop calling Edward that then how wills you be able to love me if I'm one too?"

"Of coarse I will Bella. I love you not him. It would be harder to cope with though. With you as a vampire. You wouldn't be the same but at least I would still have memories of before we…changed into something we should have never been. "

"I'm sorry Jake. I've been trying to make this as easy as possible for you, I really have but you're just not cooperating with me. I want you to be happy. " he smiled sadly.

"I cant be happy Bells if your not there. I've tried, I really have. You're in my blood just like he's in yours. I told you I imprinted on you and I meant it. I just can't turn away from you knowing what you'll become. I love you and I won't leave you to him. I can't."

"But I love him. More than life more itself. Why are you trying to tear my hear in two?" I noticed that during this discussion I had curled up into a ball and wrapped my arms around my knees hugging myself. Just like I used to do when Edward was gone and I was left in pieces. I buried my face in my arms.

"Bella if you love him like you say you do then why are you so reluctant to marry him?" that one hit me below the belt. I started crying.

I thought about all of my earlier reasons for disliking the thought of getting married and realized that those reasons were no longer valid. As a matter of fact they had never really been valid. Only in my head. Renée was handle ling the news nicely, even the part about Edward being a vamp and me soon to become one. The only person I had to worry about was Charlie. And I did worry. A lot. Charlie had never liked Edward and I was concerned about how he was going to deal with the engagement.

My main problem though was I had been fretting about what everyone else would think. Why should I? I was going to become a vampire and never see them again. They would die and I would live on. Why was I getting so attached to people who would eventually die and never be a part of me again? Oh who was I kidding! They would always be a part of me. Part of my human life. A part of me that I would always hold onto as hard as possible.

"That's a complicated question. At first it was because of what other people would think. Now I'm all for it. Its one human experience I won't miss."

You only get one shot at being human. The Cullen's were always reminding me about that. And of course they would know best about that.

A shiver ran down me.

"You're really cold Bella." He said wrapping his arms around my shoulders engulfing me in his heat. I immediately turned to him and cuddled up to him. "God Bella why didn't you say something you're freezing!" I smiled.

"I was having a very interesting conversation. I wasn't thinking about it. Sorry." He answered by wrapping his arms more securely around me.

"I still say it would be as easy as breathing for us." He murmured. "We wouldn't even have to think. It would just be there automatically."

"I know." I whispered back. I shook him off and slid down the log where I was sitting on the ground up pulling him with me. The second we hit the ground his arms were back around me and I every part of our bodies were molded together.

God he was so hot! If I thought it was cold outside it sure wasn't in this little world we were in where it was only me and him. And I hated to admit it but that's what it felt like. Like our own world that no one could interfere in.

That's when I heard it. Only someone who had trained there self to hear the tiniest sounds like I had could have heard that faint rustling of leaves like I had. How could I not when I had spent the past two and a half years of my life with vampires and werewolves who were virtually soundless. Almost like church mice. Wait…vampires. Only a vampire could be that quiet.

I remembered back to when Edward and I had first gone to our meadow. I had been walking as quietly as possible and I still couldn't hear him. I was right, only a vampire could be that quiet. Only a vampire. That scared me. Was it Edward? Was it another one of the Cullen's? Doubtful. If it were one of the colleens they would have made their self or selves known. Not sneak around. Or was it someone else unlike them? Well Jake was with me right? If it was a stranger then they most likely wouldn't know about werewolves. Surprise was what I needed. Surprise was what this vamp was going to get.

I leaned closer to Jake taking all space between us away and acted casually like I was kissing his neck when was really whispering to him in as hushed a tone as I could editing as much as I could to make this take as little time as possible so it would look realistic.

"Jake. Vampire. In woods. Might be stranger. Probably doesn't know 'bout wolves. Follow my lead. Control yourself till I signal you. I love you." I really did kiss his neck then. Then I turned and kissed his lips slowly. Well he was defiantly "following my lead". He was kissing me back enthusiastically. The rustling became louder by the tiniest fraction. It was getting closer.

Tree branches snapped. Falling over where something had thrown them. Crashing down is what they were doing. Getting broken into pieces. That could be me soon. That also scared me.

Then something stepped out of the brush around us. Something so beautiful and breathtaking there was not a moments doubt what this thing was. She moved too gracefully to be human. Her movements flowed together too much.

Then there were her eyes. Dark red irises that seemed to pierce through anything they glanced at. And right now they were fixed on me.

"Well, well, well what do we have here?"

A/N: oooooh who could it be? Well it's not good I'll tell you that right now. If you know PLEASE don't say anything I prefer to keep you waiting.

On a happier note. This took me all week to write. Sorry for the delay. I wrote a LOT and was going to put it into more chapters but I couldn't think of where to divide it. So I didn't. It's a new record for me! 7,155 words! I've never wrote more than 3000 at a time. This took up all of my spring break. Boy you had better be glad I love all of y'all so much! Hope to update soon. (Btw in case you haven't noticed my other story has been put on hold for a while. What can I say I'm immensely into this story:-)) bye for now. :-(

!CINDLE!