Nick's POV

"This is bullshit" I hear Amanda say as she walks past my desk over to her's. She sits down and stars angrily going through her drawers and pulls out stacks of paper work. I walk over to her and lean against her desk, she is clearly upset and making huffing noises.

"What's wrong?" I ask her, I smooth back her hair and wait for her to calm down so she can actually answer me.

"Olivia thought it was a good idea that since I'm so far along that I should be on desk duty. I can't believe she is taking me out of the case"

"Your not off the case, you are just not out in the field, that's all"

"That's easy for you to say, you are allowed to go out and actually catch the son of a bitch, I just have to report about it"

"I'm sorry, but just remember you are doing this for Isabella" It was the name we both decided was right for our daughter, we had just finished painting her name on the wall over her crib that we got at the baby shower.

"It's fine, it's not like this is your fault or anything" She says in a sarcastic tone.

"I don't know how this is my fault, I didn't tell Liv to put you on desk duty"

"Well you got me pregnant so it really is"

"And may I remind you that at the end of this we will have our baby"

"I'm so sick of being pregnant, I just want her to be born already"

"I know, you just have two more months left and you will be on maternity leave soon anyway so you won't be working many cases"

"Well it's frustrating when a son of a bitch rapes three woman in two weeks and I can't even help catch him"

"Were all frustrated by the case"

"At least you get to be frustrated not stuck behind a damn desk" She is clearly not reasonable right so I kiss her forehead and walk back over to my desk. I grab my coat and go find Olivia, we are supposed to go interview the second victim and try and find a connection between the three vics, it could possibly help us narrow down who this guy is. I find Liv in her office and ask her if she's ready to go.

"Yeah" She grabs her coat and we walk out to the car, as we are walking out I pass Amanda and I notice she is still clearly angry. Liv must notice it too because as soon as we get into the car she turns to me "How's Amanda?"

"She's pretty pissed right now but I think she will be fine, it's just a change for her that's all"

"It's having a child, of course it's a change for her"

"I know that"

"But you also have two other children, you have already done this before and it's all different for her, I can't tell you how many cases I couldn't be as involved in because Noah was sick or needed me, I don't regret any of those times for a single second but she has to understand that she just needs to take a step back right now"

"She will, I am confident in her ability to be a mom but I just don't like her so frustrated and angry about this"

"I can tell her I'm not worried about her being on desk duty, if we were short staffed to begin with then I would be a little worried but I know we can still get this guy because we have so many detectives who won't rest until he is put away"

We walk into the victims apartment and she sits down on the couch across from us, I look at her behavior and can see absolute terror, the attack still fresh in her mind. "Hi, Jamie, I'm detective Benson we talked at the hospital"

"I remember" She says in a quiet voice.

"And I'm detective Amaro, can you go through with us what you remember from that night?"

"Do I have to go over it again?" I know it's been a few days since the attack but she clearly is still shaken up by it, that's the thing about this line of work, you tend to notice that while victims can overcome the fear but they can just as easily remember every detail of the attack no matter how long it's been.

"It could really help us find out who did this, even the littlest details could help"

"Okay, I remember walking home when suddenly I was being pulled into an alley, everything was happening so fast but I do remember him gripping my throat and pinning me to the wall. I couldn't move when he was raping me but I do remember his breath on me and he kept repeating the same thing over and over"

"What did he say?" I ask her, we already know the phrase but that's what's going to tie him to all three rapes.

"He kept saying 'are you sorry now?' I didn't even know what that meant, I have never even met this guy before, what would I have to be sorry for?"

"You may not know him personally but he might know you and for some reason decided that you've done something to him. If you can think of anyone who might know you that has made you feel uncomfortable"

"I can't remember anyone like that"

"Okay, well could you look at some pictures and see if you recognize these two woman, they were also attacked and he same thing was said to them. She nods her head and Olivia hands her to ipad with the pictures on it, she is looking at them when my phone begins to ring. I check and it's Fin calling.

"I'm sorry, I have to take this" I step aside into the other room and answer the phone. "Fin, what is it?"

"Nick, please don't worry but Amanda is in the hospital" I feel my heart drop.

"What? Oh my god, is she okay? Is the baby okay?"

"Everything is fine, Amanda was experiencing some pain and so I brought her in, the doctors are still monitoring her but she has to stay overnight"

"I will be there right away" I hang up the phone and walk back into the living room. Olivia must noticed the worried look on my face because she walks over to me.

"Is everything okay?"

"It's Amanda, she's in the hospital, I'm sorry but I have to go"

"I understand, you need to be with her, call me from the hospital and let me know if she's okay" I only nod my head and then I run out to the car, I get in and buckle my seat belt quickly and speed off towards the hospital. I pull into the parking lot and run into the hospital and up to the desk.

"I'm looking for Amanda Rollins" I say out of breath, I run my fingers through my hair nervously as I wait for her to look up what room she is in.

"She is in room 205"

"Thank you" I run to the elevator and feel like the minute between floors is the longest minute of my life. I rush out of the elevator and down the hall and find room 205, I open up the door and see Amanda laying in the bed, there is a monitor on her stomach and I can hear the steady sound of her heartbeat and our daughters. Fin is sitting in a chair on one side of the bed and he stands up when I walk into the room.

"Nick" His voice is hushed, he doesn't want Amanda to wake up.

"What happened?" I say in a hushed tone.

"We were at work and she was just sitting at her desk when I noticed she was really uncomfortable, I asked her if she was okay and she just thought it was braxton hicks but then they started getting worse and worse so I took her in"

"Do they know what caused it?"

"No, what we do know is that the baby's heart rate was dropping when she came in but they have it under control now, they want to monitor them for a night though"

"Okay, but everything is fine now?"

"Yes"

"I can't believe I wasn't there, I should have been there" Fin puts his hand on my shoulder.

"Don't beat yourself up over this, you were doing our job and she's fine, really"

"But what if she wasn't, she was so angry about being on desk duty and I didn't even really talk to her"

"Nick, she is fine and there is no way you could have been there, you were with Liv"

"Oh my god Liv" I had just forgotten that I took the car, Olivia wouldn't have any way of leaving the victims house. "I took the car, she will need a ride back"

"I can handle that, you just go in there and be with her" I nod my head and walk over to the chair Fin was once sitting in and I scoot it closer to the bed. I take her hand in mine and kiss it, she stirs and opens up her eyes.

"Hi" She says in a groggy voice, her voice is thick with sleep and I can feel tears spilling down my face as I take a deep breath, she is okay. "Babe, don't cry" She lifts her other hand up to my face and wipes away the tears.

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry I wasn't there"

"It's not your fault, it's mine"

"What?"

"Earlier today I was complaining about how I was on desk duty and I said I was over being pregnant and then something went wrong. All I could keep thinking about is how they might have to deliver her today and how I shouldn't have been saying that"

"Hey hey hey, this isn't your fault at all"

"I shouldn't have said anything at all, I shouldn't have been complaining so much"

"You did nothing wrong, everything is fine, she is okay"

"I know, but what if she wasn't?"

"Don't think like that" She is crying now and I wipe away her tears, I reach into my pocket and pull out the little black box I have been carrying around with me for the past two weeks. "Now, I know that we said we didn't need to get engaged just because you are pregnant but after today I really wanted to at least ask, we live together and are having a child together so if you say no that's okay because-" She doesn't let me finish because she interrupts me.

"Yes"

"Yes?" I ask her

"Yes" She answers me, she is crying again but I can tell that now it's from happy tears. I take the ring out of the box and slip it onto her ring finger. "Nick, it's beautiful"

"You like it?"

"Yeah, I do" She pulls me close and kisses me. I smile at her and look at my beautiful fiancee that is carrying our daughter.

Authors note- Hey guys! I really wanted to apologize for not updating sooner but I started school and have been working a lot to pay for my car and then my sister broke my finger and I couldn't type for almost two weeks so I am really sorry but I really hope you enjoyed this chapter, I will be updating very soon, I promise, I am almost done with this fanficion and am really excited for the ending, I really hope you liked this chapter and I would really appreciate reviews, I love you all and until next time-Izzy