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MassDragonbornEffect: IF you mean in a romantic sense then no. Rosalie is still with Emmett for this fic; however, I am more than happy to write a separate fic for you if you desire it! :) Also this isn't fast paced yet, but I'm hoping to pick up the pace with it soon, things will happen and friendships, relationships formed, right now its like the lead up. I think it like 2 maybe 3 chapters the pace will pick up.
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Chapter 10
The shopping trip was a blast and it wasn't long before we stopped for a bite to eat and headed home. IT was nice to hang with Angie and I got to really know her. She's really intelligent and not an air head like Jessica. After dropping Angie off and headed home I headed to bed, not even bothering to hang up the new clothes I bought. They could sit at least until tomorrow was my only thought.
Today was a new day however and I had a meeting with one Rosalie Hale after class. These were the thoughts on my mind as I got ready for the day in light wash skinny jeans with worn spots on the legs and a long sleeved gray shirt that had the thumb holes cut out for me. Hopefully today wouldn't be too awkward, but that was probably a wish that wouldn't be answered but sometimes things have to be awkward for it to change. I ran a hand through my hair deciding to let it down today in loose curls before throwing on a pair of dove grey Toms. "I'm ready to face the day' I thought with a smile on my face. I ran down to the kitchen and wrote a not for my parents and stuck it to the fridge. They might get here before I get back and this way I wouldn't have to worry about them wondering where I was, though honestly they would think that it was a full day and not wonder, but I figured caution was better. I grabbed my bag and ran out the door.
Turns out today is the slowest day of school in the history of school ever, at least that's the way it felt for me. I was staring at the clock watching the time tick by I was sitting in English and today the teacher decided we should watch a movie about Shakespeare, so I was free to let my mind wonder as I waited for the time to leave. I was anxious about talking to Rosalie and wasn't sure how well it'd go. In a way I just wanted to get it over with but at the same time I was a tad excited. Though I'm not sure if excited is the right word. I'm just glad she's willing to try and work through it, I know I don't know exactly what it is and it's not gonna happen overnight but you have to start somewhere. My thoughts were interrupted by the shrill ringing of the bell, I blinked and grabbed my bag to head outside and wait by my car.
Rosalie didn't specify where she wanted to meet to talk so I figured it was best to just wait here. It didn't take long for the Cullens and Hales to exit the school and climb into their cars, except for Rosalie, she walked over to me with almost a frown on her face, I could see that Emmett was waiting beside the red convertible that I came to associate with Rosalie. The silence bothered me some even though almost no time had based. "Where did you want to talk?" I asked, my hand shoved into my pockets.
Rosalie just looked at me for a moment before blinking and letting out a sigh, "There is a rundown park nearby we can talk there. Just follow me." She responded before turning around and walking to Emmett, not even giving me a chance to respond. Rosalie said a something to Emmett and he just nodded before looking over and giving a small wave of his hand before climbing into the Volvo with the others. I shrugged and climbed into my car and waited for Rosalie to pull out so I could follow her.
When Rosalie said the park was nearby she wasn't kidding, it took maybe ten minutes to drive there. The park was run down that's for sure. It looked like no one has been here for years. The swings were rusted and creaked when the air blew enough to make to swings move, there was a slide nearby that had also began to rust a few years ago. Overall it was a depressing sight.
Rosalie had walked over to a picnic table that had definitely seen better days, and sat down. I walked over and sat on the other side, shockingly it was pretty sturdy especially for its condition. I opened my mouth to speak but closed it unsure how to start. We sat in silence for a few minutes before Rosalie broke it. "You said it gets easier, the pain. But how do you know? You don't even know what I'm feeling, why I'm feeling this way." She said in an almost angry defensive tone.
I shook my head at her, "The thing is Rosalie, I don't have to know the specifics, we all feel pain, sure it might be caused by different incidences but that doesn't make them any less real. Sometimes the pain lingers longer, each incident is different, a physical pain always fades faster than the emotional ones." I looked at her in the eyes hoping she understood what I was trying to say.
"You said you know, though, but you can't know not truly." She said arms crossed, to me she looked like someone trying to protect themselves from more pain that was to come, almost like a child who was scared and hoped the end was near but was afraid to get their hopes up at the same time.
I shook my head, "I never meant to imply that I knew exactly what you are going through. There is no way for me to know that for sure without knowing your story and you don't have to tell me that is completely up to you, but sometimes talking about it helps, you can talk to anyone you want, your family, a friend, heck even just writing a letter either to someone, yourself, or no-one at all, just writing it out can help. I sometimes do that and then I burn them." I wanted to place my hand on hers for comfort but didn't. "Sometimes, the first step is accepting that it is reality."
Throughout everything I said Rosalie was calm until the last part, at that her face contorted in anger and she balled her hands into fists and hissed out, "I have accepted it! It has been years! Of course I know it by now!"
I just looked at her and placed my hand over hers , her hand was freezing, she shouldn't be this cold to the touch yet, it was still warm enough to prevent that, "Knowing and accepting is not always the same thing, Rosalie. Of course you know it's real but you have to let it go, especially if it's something that can't be changed, and I'm assuming by now it's something permanent, otherwise you wouldn't be hurting as much. "
IT was almost as if all the tension was suddenly let out of her, her shoulder sagged and she hunched into herself slightly. "You're right…" it was barely a whisper it was that soft but I was able to hear her. "I haven't accepted it not really….I've just been so angry about it and blaming everyone for it. Even those who had nothing to do with it….." She looked up at me almost searchingly. "Have you accepted it?"
I nodded to her "I have. At first I didn't and the pain was too much but in time I did and had those there to help me and listen to me, even forcing me to talk about it at times, especially at first. There are some days that it comes back and hurts more than others but it doesn't consume me anymore, and I won't forget what happened."
Rosalie was silent for a while and I let the silence linger there was no rush for us right now. Her face would flash between anger and sadness but that was to expected with what this was all about. I wasn't going to ask her what her pain was, I'd let her come to me if we became friends and if we didn't, well at least maybe she'll start truly healing. After some time of watching the swing creak back and forth she spoke, "Thank you." It was two simple words but I knew she meant them and I smiled.
"You're welcome." I said and leaned forward. "If you ever want to talk Rosalie or just have someone who will listen and not judge you, I'm here." She nodded at my words and turned her hand enough to squeeze mine, it was at that moment that I realized that my hand was still on hers and I squeezed back before letting go. And we let the silence consume us. Sometimes silence is a good thing and right now it definitely seemed good.
A/N: And cut! Ok, here it is chapter 10. As I post this I am working on the next chapter. Don't forget to follow me on Twitter! EternalLover or look me up using LvrEternal Also please review! Things will be picking up the paced and there might be a time skip! Not telling you for sure you'll have to wait and find out also new characters will be introduced at times and thoughts and I'd love to hear them! Five reviews and I'll post tomorrow! It only takes a new seconds for you but means the world to me!