Chapter 11
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Elena's POV
I woke up in the hospital after that with a very worried looking Damon beside me. And Doctor Meredith my long time family doctor right beside him, smiling as if I didn't just faint.
"Hey…" Damon stated as he stood and took a step closer to me and I give him a small smile.
"Hey yourself." I reply and then look around the room I was in. It was a private room and my medical aid will probable bite my head of about the billing and I will have to pay in but it's okay I guess. The room is all white which makes me nauseas in a way. What is it with hospitals and clinics making everything white? I get it that you want the patient to clear themselves of impurities but hell can't it be a light blue or something.
"Elena, I haven't seen you in a while." Doctor Meredith starts and I almost want to roll my eyes at her.
"Hi Doctor." I greet as I try to stretch out but I have difficulty doing so. I have and needle attached to my arms.
I roll my eyes. What the hell was wrong with me now? I did eat more and frequently and I didn't take more medication then needed, in fact I stop taking pain killers and I was left with my calming tablets and sleeping tablets. So what could possibly be wrong with me.
"So we took some blood samples and we are going to run some tests. You boyfriends, Mr Salvatore here says you've been fainting a lot. Are you under a lot of stress?" she asks and I almost want to giggle.
"Not more than usual." I reply, Damon takes my hand and squeezes it lightly.
"You having trouble with your boss? I remember last time you complaining about your captain?" she ask and my eyes remain on Damon as he frowns.
"Nope my boss is fine, doesn't give me a days worry." I say trying my best to hide my smile.
"Trouble with your relationship?" she asks and now Damon intervenes.
"No, we are doing fine." He replies and she raises her brow. But continues ticking of something on her board.
"We'll have to wait for the blood work to come back then." She stated as she sits next to me on the bed and then place her hand on my forehead. "So Elena, I'm glad you met someone, how long have you two been…" she trails of and I look at Damon.
"We've been working together for about 5 months give or take." The colour drained out of Doctor Merediths face.
"I meant, how long have you been dating." She rephrases and I can't help but laugh at her and Damon who seems mortified.
"About 4 months give or take." I say and she gives me a small smile. "Yeah he's kinda my boss as well." I say to clarify the question that is now forming in her brain. She gives a silent 'oh' before she tests my pulse.
"That's good. All good." She replies and I can't help but smile at both her and Damon. "Well Elena, I am going to keep you here under observation until we get your blood work back from the examine room tomorrow. Until then you are on bed rest," at this I sigh, I really did not like hospitals. Not one bit but if I had to stay I would stay, Damon squeezed my hand reassuringly as Doctor Meredith stood from the bed. "I'll see you a bit later okay?" she asked to which I just nod my head.
She disappears out of the room and Damon takes her place next to me. "That was awkward." He starts of which sends me in to a fit of giggle.
"She's been my doctor since I was 5 okay?" I reply relaxing into the mattress and pillows. "I wonder what's wrong with me?" I ask and Damon has this shit eating grin on his face and I really don't want to know why.
"Maybe I was too hard on you today." He said with a wink and I burst out laughing uncontrollable. I mean serious he thought that sex made me faint? Maybe it was the heat… Wait we were well on our way to Winter and only about a month of Autumn left, so it could not be the weather.
It couldn't be something that I ate, we had pizza last night and Jeremy would have been sick as well. It might be the lack of fluids because I haven't had any today. I sigh, it must be something small.
"You can't be hard on me even if you try." I promise, that annoying ringtone of Damon starts up which I have asked him many times to change but he says that it's for work so he wanted to keep it. I sigh as he pulls his phone from his pocket and stare at the screen, he glances at me, I just nod my head giving him permission to go ahead and answer his phone.
He turns from me and walks out of the room and I am yet again alone, I stare at the boring cross pattern on the ceiling and sigh. I still needed to speak to Damon concerning the whole Bonnie and Jeremy situation. He approached me earlier this week and indicate that he and his girlfriend Bonnie wants to move in with one another and take the relationship further and to the next level. Whatever that meant for him and her.
That meant that I would be left to fend for myself, not that I wasn't financial stable because I was and I would be able to pay everything that needed to get paid and life a very luxurious life since I got a raise for my rank being switched from Admin Clerk to Secretary. But How would I tell Damon and how would he react to the whole situation. He didn't like it one bit when I was home alone even if it was just for an hour or whether there was a patrol fan 24/7 outside our place.
I didn't want to entertain that thought just yet when things were almost back to normal between us. He would certainly put up a fight about the whole situation. And right now I didn't need any of that. I know that he's been stressed with work and me and everything going on but I couldn't blame him and I felt guilty that he has to constantly worry about me.
When he enter the room he doesn't seem his usual bright self. He's not even smiling as he looks up at me and there's an instant frown of his face that makes my stomach turn. "What's wrong?"
"I need to attend the SMLP in two weeks' time." He states and my face falls.
"The SMLP? Why, didn't you already do all your courses?" I ask, the SMLP or better known as the Senior Management Learning Programme is a course that Colonels and Brigadier who are Station Commanders need to attend to improve their learning and skills. The course was presented in Atlanta at one of the biggest Police colleges. I knew that the Station commander were sent to these courses but the timing for this one was just off because that meant Damon wouldn't be here for 6 weeks, a month and a half without him near me. I would surely go mad.
"Not yet, I did the MMLP (Middle Management Learning Programme) but that's it. And I have to go it is compulsory, instruction for the Provisional Commissioner." Damon sounds defeated as he takes a seat next to me on the bed and I sigh, so it meant he couldn't wiggle his way out of it.
I am overcome with sadness as I look from him to the pale white ceiling. Just when you think things are getting better they are getting worse. This couldn't get any worse and Galaxy please don't take this as me challenging you because I don't think I will be able to handle anything else. We sat in complete silence after that not saying a word.
888
Doctor Merideth was on her way towards my room, I knew because the nurse had just informed me because I wanted to get going and go home. I didn't like being in a hospital anymore then I should and Damon would soon be here to check up on me. She turns the corner and enters the room with a smile on her face. This wasn't going to be good and I knew it.
"Good morning Elena. How are you this morning?" she asks looking down at the clipboard that she is holding to her chest. She seems a bit nervous if you ask me.
"I'm good just tired. I had some bad cramps last night but their gone now." I reply as I sit up and look directly at her point blank, now and again glancing at the door, expecting Damon to waltz in here any minute now like he usually does when we are at work.
"The nurse told me. So we got your blood work back." She informed me as she looked down to her board again and then back to me noticing me glancing at the door the whole time. "Are you expecting someone?" she asks and I sigh nodding my head at her.
"Yeah, my boyfriend, he said he was going to come." I say stifling a little yawn before looking back at her.
"Maybe it's better if we wait for him as well before I tell you what the conclusion is." Doctor Meredith indicated but something about her tone made me feel uncomfortable and it made Damon not being here all the worse but I needed to know what's going on.
"No, it's fine. Tell me what's wrong," I bite my bottom lip and gage her reaction watching as she looks up nervously and did she just gulp? No I was totally overthinking this and it will most likely be nothing and we will all laugh about it moments after.
"Well Elena there are no fatal problems…." She starts and I sigh in relief a little louder then I need to. "…It's more like something that won't go away for about another 7 months or so… You are about 12 weeks pregnant." She continues and I know all the colour is drained from my face as her words repeat in my head like a record that is stuck on one place the whole time. And I imagine this as a moment where you stand in the hall unsuspecting and then you hear life shattering news and the cup or the glass that you are holding falls to the floor crashing into splinters around your feet as you stand there with your mouth agape not able to believe what had just happened.
She must have been joking. She couldn't be serious, could she? To mention it I did skip my period but I thought that it was because of all the stress that I was under because that has happened before. And to think of it with all that was going on I never went to get my injection like I do every six weeks for like the past three months. How could I have been so stupid. I knew there was something that I was forgetting but I couldn't put my finger on it until now.
It would explain my swollen feet and the fainting and being nauseas and my boobs being hyper sensitive and getting bigger and here I thought I was just going crazy. I can't stop the tears that run down my cheek as I sit in complete shock as Doctor Meredith continues her rambling about this and that and vitamins and you're A, B, C's about pregnancy 101.
"Are you completely sure?" I ask stopping her mid-sentence.
"I am 100% sure Elena, congratulations should be in order. I heard that your boyfriend is on his way so I'll wait around for a bit so we can share the great news." She says and she's way too happy about this, no one in their right mind should be this happy about another person being pregnant. I mean what the fuck! I wanted to yell and scream at the same time and pull my hair out, stands at a time.
"You can't tell him!" I breath out more like a threat than anything else, her eyes focus on mine and she can now clearly see the distress I am in. " I don't care what you do but you can't tell him!" I threaten, my tongue spitting the words like they are venom.
"Elena…" she starts but I will have none of that 'you are in a relationship with this man', or 'he's the father he should know' shit because at this moment all rational thoughts I had flew out of the window and the window was just shut by that irritating little nurse that kept asking me if I was fine all through the night.
"No. I will tell him when I am right. You got that?" I grit through my teeth, it's like an instinct because I can hear his shoes, the sound it makes when he walks down the corridor to our office sounds very similar, I turn my head and smile just as he turn the corner and he brought flowers. What the fuck? I'm not a goat I can't eat flowers. My stomach grumbled and my eyes widen but I hid it as he takes a step closer to the bed.
"Hey beautiful." He greets leaning down to place a soft kiss to my cheek linger there for a few seconds longer before greeting the doctor next to me. "So what's the verdict?" he asks placing the flowers on the bedside table and he looks from me to Meredith and when he doesn't look at me I send Meredith a death glare silently warning her.
"I'll be totally fine, Doctor Meredith just told me that I was male-nourished so got to eat that vegetables I always leave in my plate." I say a bit nervous and Doctor Meredith almost rolls her eyes at me.
"She'll be fine, we can actually send her home today, but she is booked off until the end of the week. Just got to prescribe her some medication before she leaves." Doctor Meredith says and I can see that she is very careful what she says.
"That would be great. You need me for any of the paper work?" Damon asks and when she sees the stare I'm giving her she shakes her head declining his help.
"No it's fine , I'll be back in a few minutes with her medicine and then she can sign out." Doctor Meredith states and she dashes out of the room before Damon could raise any questions or suspicion and believe me he could be suspicious when he wanted to be but he was just really happy that I was fine and that I was going to be fine. If he only knew, I mean I could tell him and then everything would just be chaos.
I didn't even know how the hell I felt about the whole situation and I know when the words 'I'm pregnant' leave my mouth he's going to give me one look and most likely bolt because this is not what he wants. We are still both so young. I'm turning 21 soon, shit I totally forgot that it was my birthday in a few weeks. I'm not even sure he knew it was my birthday.
I sigh because everything just seemed to be so fucked up. What was I going to do? Jeremy will be moving in with his girl in 3 weeks, Damon was going on the SMLP course in Atlanta in 2 weeks and he would be gone for 6 weeks, my fricken birthday was in 5 weeks and Damon wouldn't even be here and in 6 months I was going to give birth. This world was so cruel and I hated it. Not to mention that there was a serial killer phsyco after me and my blood. Just fucking great.
Could I even hide any of this from Damon? I mean he will notice that something is up and he usually does. I couldn't even be damn depressed when I don't get the heels I wanted so badly but they don't have my size because he instantly knows.
"Elena?" he asks and I look up to him my eyes glassy and I'm sure there are tears stains running down my cheeks.
"Yeah?" I ask a bit dumbfounded not really sure what just went on.
"You okay? You were just crying and when I spoke to you, you just spaced out, you went deep." Damon says as he signs some documents and grab the package I presume is my 'medication'
"Sorry. We going home?" I ask and he nods and he pushes the wheel chair I am occupying to his car and I swat his hands away when he tries to help me but I just felt so strange, but not hopeless so I could still do things for myself.
"Yeah, you'll be staying at our house till Sunday." I want to roll my eyes because I knew that is what would happen, he gets like this when he worries or stresses that I am not safe enough. And I really appreciate it sometimes because he loves me and I love him but sometimes it was just too much.
"You still have work." I say as he gets into the driver side and hand me my medication.
"I know, I'm dropping you of but I'll be home before you know it okay?" he says and his eyes burn into mine because I have never seen him this worried before and it frightens me that it's my fault.
"Okay, I could maybe get some rest." I suggest buckling up and he starts his car which I have come to know very well and even driven a few times much to his dislike, but he says I am a good driver and I am the only one he would trust behind the wheel.
"So you going to tell me what's really going on?" he asks and places his hand on my thigh like he always does and he squeezes it before looking at me and then back at the road.
"Just a little disappointed that you're going to go away for 6 weeks." I lie keeping my eyes on the road ahead because if I looked at him now I would start to cry again. And I didn't want that.
"I'm sorry about that Elena, I would cancel it if I could, but I'll fly down and come and see you or you could come see me." He tries his best to reassure me but it's just not enough because I know in the end it won't happen.
I left it at that because there was no need to discuss this matter further and I would only get more upset if I lingered on these feelings too long. Damon helped me into the house and I was greeted by the warm smiles of Dora and Stefan alike as they promised that they would look after me while he was away fighting crime and what not. And it made me smile but lying to him was already eating me up alive and I didn't know how long I would hold before I just blew up into an emotional mess.
I went straight to his room and got into bed, it was strange to not have him next to me but I would need to get used to that, even if I didn't want to. I cried myself to sleep on several occasions during the day which would lead to Stefan banging on the door and me promising him that I was fine but he would just keep on banging until I told him to come in and just to have him in the same room made me relax somewhat. And before I looked again it was the weekend and the more time I wanted to spend with Damon the more work jumped up. So I didn't really spend any time with Damon but I did beat Stefan at Grand Turismo 6 several times.
I almost didn't see him the whole week either, he came home late and left for work early and I needed to spend as much time with him before he needed to leave for Atlanta but we never got a chance. Time was just flying past and I didn't have time because every morning as I opened my eyes I was reminded to take my vitamins and pre-vitals and all that crap, oh and that meant no more coffee not that I drank a lot of coffee in any case.
It felt like my life was flying by and I could do nothing to control it because Monday night I slept early because I was totally exhausted, Tuesday I fought with Jeremy about the whole he's moving in with Bonnie thing and that didn't end well because my anger got the best of me and I flung a cup at him, which was not cool. Wednesday Damon had to attend a sector crime forum which lasted till late so I didn't see him. Thursday I was overcome with morning sickness and I didn't leave the house until 10:00 which I got bitched at, at work but that was the worst choice to do.
I started yelling at everyone in the leave office to mind their own fucking business and that if I felt sick and came in late so fucking what! I'm sure I was going to get disciplinary steps taken against me for that but whatever I really didn't care. The only time I really got to spend with Damon was at lunch when he would order in and it was just healthy food everywhere that you looked. Friday we ended up going to our team building which was re-scheduled because of Katherine's passing.
I ended up sitting to the side with Colonel Forbes and talking about this and that and I didn't partake in any form of games which Damon found weird because I was always willing to be all fun and games but he left it at that and then the weekend passed again in a blink of an eye. I didn't see Damon at all because he had to pack and book his transportation and he needed to speak to Colonel Bennet who would be acting Station Commissioner for the time he would be away.
What a fucking waste. I did get to see Caroline but she couldn't stop gushing about how she was in love and Klaus was just perfect and it was just fucking nauseating. I ended fighting with Jeremy again and I recall the words 'cold hearted bitch' leaving his mouth a few time and this time I actually tried to punch him but he ended up calling Damon and guess who was sent to his rescue? Younger more paranoid Salvatore.
So here I am sitting in Stefan's Golf 7 and we are parked in front of the garage because he deemed that he needed to get something really quick that was absolutely necessary. Not that I minded I was just along for the ride because I needed to cool the hell down or I wasn't sleeping in my own bed tonight.
I am curled up in the leather seat, my knees to my chest as my arms securely hold them in place, he didn't even moan that I placed my feet on the seat he just walked with me to the car and opened the door and then we started driving in complete and utter silence. Jeremy did speak to him while I was standing outside wearing only a pair of string pyjama pants and a tank top the autumn wind cutting through me like a blade.
He walks out of the garage with a bag and he shoots me a smile but I try to ignore it because I was not in the mood for anyone or anything. He opens the door and places the bag on the floor board as he starts up his Polo and there we are off again. I'm not sure where we are going but it's not in the direction of his house or mine so I didn't know where we would end up.
"So…" Stefan starts and I keep my eyes trained on the road in front of me. "You've been awfully quiet." He says and glances at me every now and again.
"Yeah, I guess." I reply resting my chin on my knee and we take a few more turns until we are on the outskirts of the town, I have never been here nor was I interested in ever coming here, it was just a waste of time. We pass the 'Welcome to Mysticfalls' sign and then turn onto a dirt road.
I am not pleased by how bumpy the road is but it doesn't take long until we reach Stefan destination and he shuts of the engine. I didn't know this place nor was I interested in getting to know this place. He leans down and pulls the bag onto his lap before he shoves his hand into the plastic. He smiles at me and then pulls out two small tubs of ice cream. My eyes widen because I loved ice cream.
"You want some?" he asks dangling the ice-cream in front of me and I feel like a starved wolf and there is a piece of meat just within my reach. I nod my head silently my eyes never leaving that little tub of chocolate ice cream. "Okay then join me outside and we can have some ice-cream and maybe even talk a bit." It was a tempting offer but he never said who had to talk. So I would most likely trick him into it taking the whole time.
I nod my head and reach for the car door, and I can basically see him smile as he gets out. He's out before me waiting patiently leaning on the bonnet of his vehicle when I come around. He pats the bonnet of his Golf and I just sigh as I sit on the bonnet, moving just high enough so I can cross my legs. The heat of the engine just right to keep me from freezing.
He hands me the tub of ice cream with a spoon and I almost rip at the lid before taking a spoonful and sticking it into my mouth, enjoying the sweet taste of the chocolate ice-cream melting in my mouth. Even thou we were in the middle of autumn and on our way toward the winter I always loved ice cream, it was my one secret pleasure that I indulge in when no one was looking.
"So you wanted to assault your brother? Wanna tell me about it?" Stefan asks as he pulls his spoon out of his mouth and take another spoon full.
I shake my head as I look over the open field, finally looking around at where we are. It was so calming and I never felt more relaxed in my life but I felt completely alone which didn't make it any better. "Not really." I mumble sucking at the spoon before taking another spoonful into my mouth.
"Okay, you mad that my brother has to leave for Atlanta Sunday?" at this I just shrug because I knew I would just get all emotional about the whole thing because we haven't even spent time with each other yet in the past two weeks because everything was too busy.
"He has to go." I say nonchalantly looking up at the night sky, stars scattered all over from one side to the other, too much to count for just one person and the moon sitting of to the side, alone with no one to even keep him company.
"Then why are you so…" Stefan trailed of and I knew that he saw more than most people, yes he was very paranoid because of his drug abusing days but he was more insightful then you thought.
"So strange?" I ask turning towards him. He nodded his head and I almost wanted to laugh. "You tell me something, a secret and if it's the equivalent to what I'm going through then I might share mine." I say because I know he would not be able to do so. Because he has spoken to me and there wasn't much that he hid because he was an open book.
He looks at the sky and he seems to be in thought as he removes the spoon from his mouth and he just sits there silently. I was right, he wouldn't have anything to say so I wouldn't have to explain myself.
"Well, I know one of your secrets… So wouldn't it be easier just to talk about it?" he says and I frown, what did he possible know and how much of it did he know?
"What secret?" I ask turning to face him now, truly intrigued to what I might find if I dig a little deeper into this conversation.
"You're brother moving in with his girl in a week." He says and he acts like it's not a big problem which it probably isn't but if I was going to be alone most of the time then I would be a sure target and would in a matter of a few seconds be killed like the killer had promised. "So that leaves you all alone, and you don't know how to tell Damon that because he doesn't want you to be alone… What do you think is going to happen if and when he finds out?" he asks and he was right.
"I don't know, I really don't know Stefan. It's just…. So complicated." I reply because that wasn't the only thing that I needed to tell him.
"The longer you wait to tell him, the worse it will be." Stefan pipes in and I shake my head. "He'll probably ask you to move in with him, or well us." Stefan continues and that was what would most likely happen but it only infuriated me more because of what I said next I totally regretted after.
"And what happens when I get pregnant? He's just going to do the right thing and ask me to marry him." Stefan just kept quiet as he looked at me and then back at the ice-cream cup in his hand.
"He might, depending how he reacts when you tell him." He says and it's like this is not a serious matter. Because it is and my life was depending on him. "I know he's clearing his whole weekend so he can spend it with you before he goes, so maybe it would be the right time to tell him about your brother moving." He says and I look back to the scene in front of me.
"He is?" I ask and suddenly I feel guilty about keeping the information from him.
"Yeah, you just need to inform him you won't be drinking any wine." He says and he has this small smile on his face that just should not be there.
"And why not?" I ask and he looks to me with an even bigger smile.
"Pregnant woman shouldn't be drinking." My face fell as I stared at him, so he did catch on. I was a fool to have even mention it, maybe I should just deny it or play dumb which ever would be better. "Your mood swing were kind of out of there the past few weeks and Elena it's hard not to notice but you are getting to big for your bra's." at this I blush and cross a hand over my chest trying to hide my breast from his view and that was it, he knew, it was astounding that Damon didn't know yet but the younger Salvatore did.
"Don't tell him please?" I plead and his eyes soften as he looks at me.
"That confirms my suspicious. But it's not for me to tell, just know that he's leaving in 2 days and in 6 weeks he'll be coming back, you'll start to show and what then?" he asked and I sigh because I just fell right into his trap, I felt so gullible, I look at the sky again.
"I don't know." I say as I stretch out on the bonnet of the car resting my back against the windshield.
"Just tell him soon." Stefan indicates as he moves back to the car grabbing at the plastic bag again before pulling out some Mexican Chilli chips and I smile as he hands me a packet before divulging in his own, with a silent promise I vowed that I would tell Damon soon I just didn't know when.
Silence filing the air except for the crickets and owls of in the distance. Sometimes you don't need to keep on talking because the person with you can understand without telling your whole story. That is what I valued with the younger Salvatore because he didn't ask irritating question after question, he figured it out and left it because it didn't involve him.
We stayed until the ice-cream was finished and there was crumbs all over the bonnet of the Golf which Stefan didn't complain about what so ever. When we get back in the car he blasts the air conditioner on warm and smile towards me.
"Just need to keep you and that little niece of nephew inside you warm, don't want you two catching a cold." Stefan said and it actually made me smile that he was so understanding. I just wished that Damon would be that understanding as well if and when I finally tell him. I was driven home and dropped off. Stefan making sure that I get to my door and that I lock the door behind me.
I shuffled towards my room only to see that the TV was still on in the living room. Jeremy must still be awake. Even with all my moods and all the shit I got myself into I could not be angry at him and I wanted him to fall in love and have a great relationship and all that. I needed to apologize. And that's just what I did, I walked into the living room and I apologized for being such a cold hearted bitch and for going off at him and that I just was a bit worried to live on my own but I wanted him to be happy. He surprised me by pulling me into a hug telling me that it's okay and that everything will be okay.
As if.
I got to leave early from work on Friday because my boss / boyfriend was in a very good mood and he wanted to treat me to some lunch. Lunch didn't go well at first, we went to a sushi bar which used to be one of my favourites but as soon as I got a whiff of the fish I ran for the bathroom. Almost ruining the whole afternoon but we ended up in the restaurant part of The Grill.
"What would you like to have?" Damon asked as he stretched across the table to take my hand, I enjoyed this public display of affection now that we were public.
"I want wings, like a lot of hot wings." I mumble as I looked over the menu. I saw the way he frowned before smiling again calling the waiter over to where we were seated.
"Good evening and welcome at the Grill, would you like to place your order." The perky little high school girl said smiling broadly at Damon, not even a few seconds in this place and he already had a groupie.
"Can I have a beer, and a glass of Rose…" my eyes shot up instantly as I shook my head.
"No, no wine. Please, I would like some coke, no ice." I say in a rush but Damon nods his head.
"A beer, a coke with no ice, then a double portion of hot wings and a rump steak, chips and onion rings on the side. Medium." Damon order stroking his thumb over my knuckles as miss perky shook her head violently writing down the order and then jump into action like she's some kind of super hero rushing to save a kid from a well. "Elena?" Damon says my name like it's chocolate melting on his tongue and I smile up to him.
"Damon?" I ask placing the menu down on the table.
"I'm really sorry I neglected you this past two weeks." He seemed really apologetic and my heart melted, damn my hormonal emotions but I didn't care, we were spending time together now and that was all that counted. We had almost 48 hours before myself and Stefan would drop him of at the airport and I would spend all 48 hours just being with him.
"I understand, you had to get everything ready." I say smiling at him. I got enough courage together and I was going to tell Damon about Jeremy today and I felt so nervous because I didn't know how he would react to it.
"Yeah, these past two weeks were crazy, you want to tell me why you almost assaulted your brother?" he asked. I wondered when he would bring this up because my brother did ultimately phone him when I went all hell bat crazy on his ass. So I assume he and Jeremy might have already had the conversation that I was about to have with him.
"That…. I was going to tell you all about it…" I say a bit sheepishly looking around to see if Jeremy was maybe around but luckily he wasn't, this was already to awkward as is.
"You were? Stefan never really told me about what went on." He continued and I just shook my head because I knew he already knew something.
"We just got into fight or rather an argument…" I start but stop because how was I going to say this.
"And it escalated to you almost assaulting him?" he asked and I almost rolled my eyes because he was acting like I was a naughty child.
"Yeah well I was a bit under stress concerning the said matter we were arguing about." I interjected and Damon narrowed his eyes at me encouraging me to continue. "With everything that's going on, it's just…" I trail of because this was stupid but luckily miss perky appeared with our drinks smiling brightly as she went on her way promising that the food will be out soon.
"He's moving in with Bonnie and you don't know how to tell me?" he finished my sentence and I just take a sip from my coke that tastes like water with sugar and food colouring. "He told me about two weeks ago when you through a coffee mug at him." He said taking a pull from his beer.
I roll my eyes because I figured he told him. "So you knew all this time and you didn't say anything?" I ask a bit irritated with the man in front of me.
He nodded his head but his facial expression never changed. "Yes, I was kind of waiting for you to tell me." He said and I can't help but take in a deep breath.
"So…?" I ask knowing that he clearly had more to say about the subject.
I placed his beer on the table and took both my hands into his. "Elena, you could have told me, this must have put you under a lot of unnecessary stress that you don't need." He was to understanding which made me a bit suspicious if either Stefan or Jeremy hadn't spoken to him before meeting up with me for this lunch. Whatever I really didn't care, that was one thing ticked off of my list that I needed to tell him.
"Well now you know, because you were just so busy and I couldn't really speak to you about it." I retaliated and I know mentioning that would make him feel even more bad for neglecting me and it surely worked because the smile that graced his lips had now disappeared.
"Elena, I'm sorry." He says and I just nod my head smiling at him. "But there was something I wanted to ask you, since your brother is moving in with his girl would you maybe consider moving in with me? It might be a huge step in our relationship but I need to look at your safety and I would really like you living with me." I knew this was going to happen, I just knew it, Damon would want to do the right thing and I would be a fool to pass up the opportunity.
"I will take it in consideration." I tease and Damon raises an eyebrow at me and I stick out my tongue like a child would and that only made him laugh. But in the end I wouldn't feel safe if I stayed by my lonesome self. And now being pregnant I needed to think about both me and the little one growing inside of me.
"If you could maybe give me an answer by the end of lunch?" he asked and I just smile.
"I'll sleep on it." I counter and he only shakes his head at my silliness and all of the sudden we are back on track and it feels like we haven't missed a beat and everything is okay and back to normal. Just like that. And he knew that my answer would ultimately be yes.
Our lunch went better than expected but I was questioned on my choice of food which I brushed off and I even stole Damon's onion rings which I would never in my life eat because I hate onion. We laughed and giggle and I even got desert. Hmmm, chocolate ice-cream. I did warn Damon that his fridge should be stocked in Chocolate ice-cream or I would not be moving in and he just said that Stefan might have mentioned it and the Mexican Chili chips that I like to devour.
I couldn't stop laughing because he said that Stefan was more excited than he was going to ask me to move in then he thought he would be. I just rolled my eyes. That younger Salvatore…. I would tell him to keep in his excitement because I didn't yet give Damon the excuse on why they should be excited just yet.
Damon tipped little miss perky and off we went home to spend some quality time together. And by quality time, Damon was hinting that we spend it between his sheets which was not a bad idea but I was not in the mood because after sometime which I indicated that it was fine and that I would love moving in with him he started to talk about moving and dates and even a call to Jeremy to set dates and he made sure that everything would be packed for me and delivered. I was set to move all my stuff on Monday, not that I had a lot of stuff.
I had a bed, and desk with a chair, laptop and vanity and my clothes and that was about it. I never really invested into our apartment and most of it was brought over from our parents' house after they passed and I refused to live in the house so we got another apartment and sold the house. Most of everything was sold and put into a trust for myself and Jeremy. And in a few weeks I would be able to use the money in the fund.
I wanted to keep saving it but it really didn't matter if I used it or not because I had a great Medical aid and a retiring fund and with my pay increase I was living the good life. I didn't really have a worry in the word. Jeremy indicated that they might stay on in the apartment since he did buy it 4 years ago he just didn't want to put me on the street and that's why they were looking for an alternative apartment to rent.
So on our way home Damon indicated that I should make a list of everything that I needed for the house after I inspected it and I just huffed. I asked him what would happen with the things that I owned like my bed and he said that there were about 4 other rooms in the house where it could be placed and I was moving into his room and that he would have Stefan take me shopping for new curtains and bedding and everything. That was so nice of him.
So the Salvatore had 6 bedrooms and 3 bathrooms and amazing living area's oh and I only found out it had a pool about 6 weeks ago and a tennis court. It was really a big estate. I wondered if I could talk Stefan into turning one of the rooms into a baby room for the little one. But we would cross to that bridge when we got to it.
We got home and Stefan welcomed me with open arms pulling me off to the living room because he so wanted to show me this new 1st person shooting game that we would be playing together. Damon went up to his room to change and that left me with Stefan in the living room.
"I told him about Jeremy so he asked me to move in and I said yes." I say in a rush and at this Stefan smiled brightly.
"Thank God, finally a woman to keep us on our toes!" Stefan sounded too excited for me but it was to be expected and Damon had warned me. "And the other thing?" he ask as he looked down to my thank fully still flat stomach.
"No… I don't know if I can…" I say and Stefan's expression softened.
"Hey it's okay. You still have till Sunday afternoon." He whispered and then with a wicked smirk he leaned into me. "But Monday after your shit is moved here we are going shopping, your B's look like C's on the borderline going to D's in those too small bra's so don't be surprised if he can't keep his eyes or hands of off you ." At this I roll my eyes and look down at the top I am wearing pulling it down to reveal a bit more cleavage then appropriate.
"Don't be jealous that mine are finally bigger than yours. And it's A's looking like B's border lining C's." I say rolling my eyes as Damon walked in.
"What's are your to talking about border lining C's….." I look up to him and his eyes are glued to my breast as he look at them like an alcoholic would admire a drink.
"Oh this fucking PS 4 controller… Elena clearly still don't understand the lingo." Stefan says as he looks to me and his eyes almost pop out as he looks to Damon and then back at the game. "Never mind." He mumbles but it falls death to Damon ears as he takes a step closer and then bump into the back of the couch and I'm sure I heard him curse under his breath because when he turned to the side I could see the erection he was sporting.
We might as well get consumed in each other, what is the worst thing that could happen? I'm already pregnant. We discreetly left Stefan to his own devise as we disappeared up the stairs and into Damon, well our bedroom…
I stretched out, my body aching from all the activities that went down in and on Damon's bed and on the floor oh and his desk… I never knew he had that much stamina to go on for hours. I blush at the thought of our night. It was soft and caring dare I say loving. And the more he touched me the more I wanted to be touched. His name an endless prayer on my lips. And just when I think he had enough he would retaliate and I would be consumed by him again.
Just before falling asleep in his arms he mumbles something about he couldn't feel his legs, but that didn't stop him to kiss me and worship my body like it was a temple. And sure as hell I would never get enough of this man, nothing will ever be as good as he is. He knew every spot and he knew how my body reacted and what my body needed to reach that peak that I tumbled over numerous times. This had been a first time that we did it more than once… It made me wonder if he got his hands on those little blue pills.
But I do recall he was always ready, it was always me that could not continue because my body could not take more, well after last night I questioned my walking abilities. After the fourth time I couldn't take it anymore and my body was just too tired.
I look to Damon's side of the bed and he is nowhere to be seen. This was usually how I woke up. I sit up and stretch out flexing my muscles to get all the kinks our as I look up, Damon is standing there smiling at me like he's up to something.
"You're up early." I mumble pulling the duvet around my frame.
"It's already 11:00AM." He replies taking a step closer, I almost shriek because hell time flies when you have fun and when you sleep, I look to the alarm clock on his bedside table and shake my head.
"Shit sorry I over slept." I say and he just shakes his head.
"It's okay, you were exhausted after last night." Damon said as he walked over to me and sat down on the bed a smirk I know all too well gracing his face. "Hope you're ready for round 2…"
I didn't expect that but I wasn't going to complain, my hormones were kind of all over the place and if he just looked at me with those damn blue eyes I melted and craved him more than anything. Saturday was spent in his room, in his bed, no clothes required. But Breakfast, lunch and dinner was discretely left out for us, much to Stefan's disappointment of not spending any time with us what so ever.
But I was content wrapped in everything that was Damon Salvatore, even if we were just lying in the bed snuggling together or we were in the bath soaking up the water splashing playfully. It was time we won't be spending together for 6 weeks and 6 weeks was a very long time. Even thou they say absence makes the heart grow fonder, I didn't believe that shit.
I was so consumed in everything Damon that all my worries flew out the window and it was shut tightly not to let them back in. His every touch was like it would be the last time, every kiss was like the last one, never enough. It was just me and him and his room keeping us from the rapid racing world outside. And I just didn't want to let go of him, I didn't want to be parted from him because when I feel the bed shift and he gets out my throat tightens and I can't breathe because he has to go, he has to leave.
But he always comes back finding me having a full blown panic attack that was surely not good for the little one growing in me. He would rush to my side and wrap his arms tightly around me whispering to me that it was okay and he's still here. It almost felt like I was going to say goodbye for ever because I didn't know what would happen in the following few weeks.
When Sunday afternoon flew around and myself, Damon and Stefan pile into his Golf 7 and speed of to the Airport I can't help but hide in his arms because I knew that soon they will be gone and I will be lonely and I would miss him terribly in his absence in every sense. I know that I would be with Stefan and Jeremy but it didn't help but they didn't know the extent of everything even thou I think Damon did tell Stefan about the whole Ester business.
And still I hadn't told him about the baby, his baby. And every time I would think of it I would sent myself down that spiralling guilt trip that I barely return from. Why did everything have to be so difficult?
"So bro, got everything packed?" Stefan asked as he looks into his rear-view mirror and his eyes find mine, he just give me this small smile and then look at Damon who is at me side.
"Yes I do, hopeful this 6 weeks will past fast," he mumble pulling me a bit closer. "You better look after Elena while I'm not here." Damon warns sending a playful glare towards Stefan and he chuckles.
"I'll take good care of her, right Elena? We are going to play PlayStation until we can't keep our eyes open and then I'll send you to work with a six-pack redbull so you can stay awake. And I plan on buying take out every night and be lazy and I'll take Elena down with me!" Stefan replies and this makes me laugh because he wouldn't dare do that but I would play along.
"Oh and don't forget all the awesome parties we will be throwing and we still need to go to that strip club we pasted the other night! That blonde standing outside with her Double D's, winked at me." I say pushing forward and Stefan starts laughing.
"I thought she was winking at me! We could tag team her?" he asks and at this Damon grunts and pull me back into my seat.
"No strippers, no prostitutes…. No visiting strange places!" Damon grunted and both myself and Stefan started to laugh at him and his face is completely red. I have never seen him like this but it is very entertaining.
"We promise nothing." I whisper narrowing my eyes to emphasise my statement.
"I swear I will not get on that plain if you two keep going at this." He threatens and then tickles my side and I squeal as I laugh and try to stop him but my attempts were in fain as he dodges my every poke in the small confines of the Golf.
"Okay, you two stop or I stop driving." Stefan warns and both of us stare at him in shock before Damon pops his pinkie in his mouth and then pokes it into Stefan's ear and I swear we swerved off the road for a few seconds and then we were back on track and Damon sitting beside me chuckling as Stefan gives him a death glare. Stefan placed his foot to the pedal and we accelerated, the trees now flying by and in that moment I disliked Stefan because he was purposely driving faster so we could drop Damon of.
"Hey Baby bro Stefan, keep your eyes on the speed limit okay?" I say and his eyes widen at the word baby before he smiles and we slow down to the speed limit.
"Oh you listen to her but not your big brother?" Damon asks sitting forward in his seat to look at his brother.
"She asked nicely?" he asked more than replied as he gave a sheepish grin and kept his eyes on the road.
"Oh and I don't?" Damon asks and I giggle beside him pulling him back into his seat so I could rest my head on his chest.
"Nope never. She's half decent to me, I mean she even lets me win with the PS games." Stefan said almost shrugging before dogging a playful punch from Damon. But he settled down and he wrapped an arm around me securely, pulling me into his side. "You two keep it PG 13 back there okay? I haven't even had the chance to christen my back seat."
I don't know if my face or Damon's face fell first as I smack the side of Stefan shoulder. "Euw Stefan! Too much info!" I yell and Damon only pulls me closer to him before silencing me with one of his earth shattering kisses keeping my lips sealed and quit for the rest of the way to the airport.
It was only a matter of minutes when Stefan pulled into the parking lot of the Airport and I felt my heart sinking in my chest as we got out. Stefan helps with his luggage and I just take his open hand as we start to make our way into the big building.
My throat thick as I tried my best not to speak because I know if I was going to speak then I was going to cry and I had to be strong and see my man of and show him just how brave I am because after he leaves then I can have my break down and I can then regret not telling him that he's not only saying goodbye to me but our little unborn child as well.
So we walk towards the departures and he checks his luggage in before he turns towards myself and Stefan standing to the side. "So this is it. I'll miss both of you." Damon says and my lip starts to quiver as I look up at him unable to say anything to him.
"We'll miss you two, you are coming to visit right?" Stefan askes taking a step closer and placing his hand on my lower back.
"I'll see if I can every second weekend, you two can even come and visit for a weekend right?" Damon asks but he seems so unsure as he looks into my eyes and I just smile broadly at him nodding my head.
Stefan gives me a light push and I rush into Damon's waiting arms because that's the only place that I want to be and now he has to leave and I won't be able to be in his arms for 6 weeks. This would be the death of me. "Yeah, we'll visit." I mumble burying my head into his chest trying my best to fight the tears that want's to escape me but I hold them at bay because I don't want Damon to see me cry.
"Elena, I'll phone ever morning and evening or whenever you need to talk okay, I'm just a text away and Stefan will take care of you with the help of Dora." That right there choked me up so badly that it was getting harder and harder to not to keep my tears at bay.
"I know, just be safe and pass the course. Okay?" I almost choke on the words but I pull back to look at him and I force a smile and he knows it.
"I love you." He whispered loud enough just for me to hear before placing a soft kiss to my lips and I savour every moment because I wouldn't be able to do this in the foreseeable future anytime soon.
"I love you to." I mumble against his lips and pull away as the intercom starts up and request that all passengers should start to board the plane.
"I'll call you as soon as I land." Damon states pulling me closer for one final hug and a kiss to my forehead before letting go, turning to Stefan before he gives his brother a hug, patting him on his back. He took a few steps back smiling at both of us. Stefan wrapped an arm around my shoulders and if it wasn't for him keeping me up right I would be on the floor bowling my eyes out. "Take care of each other." Damon says as he turns on his heel and start to make his way towards the check in.
When he is out of sight, I break down and I feel like my whole world is crumbling in. Stefan's grip on me tighten as he tries his best to keep my upright. "Hey it's okay." Stefan whispered but that does not stop my sobbing or the tears running down my cheeks. I don't know how long we stood in the middle of the airport terminal but I think we stood there until Damon's plane departed eventually making our way back to the car.
I get into the front seat and curl up in a little ball. Stefan ensured that my safety belt was secure before he stepped into his side and starts the car without another word. I don't think he knew what to say or what to do because I was being an over emotional wreck.
He dropped me at home with a bear hug almost not releasing me as he whispered that it would be okay, it would be fine with promises that he would see me tomorrow bright and early to help me move.
I just nodded my head as I half-heartedly hugged him back and stepped into the house where I curled up into a little ball in my bed as I fell asleep in my room for the last time.