A/N: I hope all of you have had an amazing week! It is officially Friday where I am at so I present you with your Super-Special Friday Surprise! I would like to thank VanillaVanity who is keeping me inspired and sane. I love you girl! Now, just a little warning: there is a lemon at the end of this chapter. I have never written one before and I am super excited (and nervous) to post it! Please enjoy and, once again, overlook any typos or mistakes.

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I screamed.

"No!"

Her small body flew up into the air and crashed down into the blue water. I ran to the edge of the pool but Carlos grabbed my shoulder. "Chill, Emma she just looked a little hot and needed to cool down." He laughed.

Without thinking, I turned to face him and slapped him across the face.

"She's terrified of the water!"

I jumped into the pool. The cool water tingled my skin as it rushed past me. I kept my eyes closed and reached out and grabbed Kallie's arm.

She wasn't moving; she was just frozen. I pulled her up above the water and opened my eyes. Hers were shut tightly and she was trembling. But not screaming, not shouting, not making any sort of noise…just shaking.

As soon as I broke the surface Logan jumped in and helped me bring her to the stairs. He placed her on the cement and I lightly touched her cheek.

"Kallie? Kallie are you okay?" I asked.

Kendall, James and Carlos were standing over us.

All of a sudden her eyes flew open and she bolted upright into Logan's arms.

I pushed her hair out of her face. "Kallie? Baby I need you to say something."

She looked at me. "I-I was there. I'm sorry. I thought I could handle it." She looked off into a world that none of us had been granted access to.

A single tear fell down her cheek as she clung onto Logan.

"Kallie, it's not your fault. Just relax, okay? We will get you warmed up." I kissed her cheek gently.

I turned to the guys watching. "Please can one of you get me a towel?" I asked.

They all ran to get some. "L-Logan?" Her voice shook.

"What is it, Kallie?" He asked in a gentle voice.

"D-Don't l-let go. Please." She buried her head into his shoulder. He ran his hands up her back and pulled her to him.

"Never."

James, Kendall and Carlos returned and handed me a multitude of fluffy towels. I began to wrap them around Kallie and Logan. I finally saved one for myself.

"Logan? Can you take her back up to our apartment?" I grabbed Kallie's purse. "Her key is in there."

He nodded, "Sure thing, Emma."

Then, with Kallie in Logan's arms, they went back into the Palm Woods.

I approached Carlos, who's cheek was still red. "I…I am so sorry, Carlos. Honestly. I shouldn't have acted out like that. Please forgive me?" I asked.

Despite me being wet, he pulled me into a hug. "Don't worry about it. I probably would have reacted the same way. Emma, we're sorry. We had no idea, honestly."

I squeezed him gently. "I know."

We pulled apart and James spoke, "Why is she afraid of water?"

I thought for a minute how I wanted to phrase what I wanted to say. "She was…held under water for extended periods of time as a punishment when she was younger."

They all look horrified.

Kendall spoke first, "Are you serious?" I nodded. He looked at the ground. "Damn."

Carlos looked worse. "And we threw her into a pool? Man…"

James gently draped a towel around me and rubbed my arms. "Should we head back to their apartment?" He addressed the guys.

They nodded and, after I grabbed my purse, we walked back into the lobby. The cold air slammed against my skin and seemed to turn the droplets on my body to ice. A shiver rolled down my spine.

I snuggled a little closer to James and shivered again. We took the stairs up to our floor and stopped at our doors.

"Hey Emma we will be right over; we're going to get changed." Kendall said as he and Carlos went into their apartment.

I looked up at the man standing beside me. "James why don't you go change too? Your shirt is wet. You can't be comfortable."

"I will be right back, ok?" He kissed me on the top of my head and followed Carlos and Kendall.

Damn.

I hadn't had two seconds to myself over the past day. I was exhausted. I slid down the wall and sat on the floor.

How can so much happen in less than 48 hours?

I rested my head against the wall and let out the breath that I had been holding since yesterday morning. I just wanted to clear my mind.

Better start with that dream about James.

I immediately blushed. That dream was…something else. Part of me wished I could have finished it; just to see what would happen.

Which brings us to another topic here; Mr. Diamond.

I groaned. I liked him…a lot. But I didn't know what would happen. Kendall helped ease my fears but, like today at the pool, things can catch up with us at the worst times.

And how much longer will it be until they find you?

No. No that wasn't going to happen. There was no way that was going to happen; they had no idea where we were. No idea whatsoever.

But…

…but nothing. I am not going to live in fear of them anymore. It's just not going to happen.

I stood up and entered our apartment. The shower was running, the TV was turned on to QTV and Logan was making an early dinner. I put all of my stuff down at the door and grabbed my towel and began drying my hair.

I glanced at the television and sat down at the island. "You don't really strike me as a tanzanite man. You seem more like you would be into emeralds." I winked at him.

He laughed. "I do love green. But Kallie wanted that on for some random noise in the background."

"How is she?" I asked.

"Okay I guess. She was really shaken up but…she won't tell me why she's afraid of the water. I asked but she tensed up and asked me to drop it." He looked at me seriously, "Why is she afraid? What happened to her?"

I stood up and walked to the now packed fridge. I grabbed some iced tea and sat down. "If she didn't tell you she may not want you to know. Kallie doesn't like other people seeing her weak."

Logan was bent over the stove pouring milk into a saucepan.

"I know she does but I want to know. I may be out of place here but I'm not going to let it drop."

I sighed, "I know you do, Logan, I know you do. She…okay fine. When we were younger we both had punishments suited to each of us. One of hers was being held underwater in our bathtub for extended periods of time. They would let her breathe and then do it again. Sometimes for hours." Tears pricked my eyes.

I could see Logan tense up. He slammed his fist into the counter. "I can't believe I helped throw her into the pool."

I walked up to him and put my hand on his back. "Logan, listen to me. You had no idea, okay? Honestly. You are the best thing that has ever happened to her; don't feel guilty about this."

He backed into the counter and looked at me. "Do you really mean that?"

I nodded. "Yes I do. She really likes you Logan and you're perfect for her."

A smile danced across his face. "I've only known her for what? A day and a half? I'm already head over heels for her. She is everything I could want and I just…I feel so bad about what happened to her. I want to protect her but how am I supposed to do that when I don't know what to protect her from?"

"We aren't going to tell you guys everything right now. We can't. We're not strong enough; honestly. I seem to remember a new memory every day and each is harder than the last. Protect her from her memories, just be with her and comfort her."

"She said one of her favorite meals was biscuits and gravy; she rattled off how to make it but I only got the part about boiling milk."

I laughed, "Well you're supposed to do that after you put in sausage. Here, how many pans did you guys get earlier?"

"About 4."

"Okay grab another pan and bring it out." I walked to the fridge and looked for sausage. "Did you guys get any sausage?"

He nodded, "Yeah of course. It's in there somewhere."

I soon spotted it and brought it out. "Okay, the first thing you have to do is cook about half of this."

I cut the roll of meat in half and placed it in the pan. I then grabbed a wooden spatula. "You have to cut it up into smaller pieces though." I cut apart the pieces of meat and allowed them to cook.

"How much stuff did you guys get?" I asked.

"Kendall's mom gave us a list of things you would absolutely need; she also gave you guys some of her pans that she didn't really like. She said that she would take you and Kallie out to get some more things whenever you want to."

"I…wow. That's so nice of her." I was at a loss for words. There were some cups, some plates, bowls, and silverware in the various cupboards.

Logan poked the sausage in the pan. "It looks cooked; now what?"

"Now you need to take a paper towel and soak up all of the extra grease that you can." I showed him what to do.

"Now you add the milk." He followed my instructions and poured the liquid into the pan.

"Did you guys get cornstarch?" I asked.

"That was on the list Kendall's mom gave us so yeah I think so." He stirred the pan.

"Now you take a small cup or bowl and add some water to the cornstarch. Then pour it into the pan. It thickens up the gravy."

He nodded, soaking in every word I said.

I grabbed some salt and pepper and added a generous amount of both. "This adds some flavoring as well."

Logan looked at me, "We got some biscuits, I'm assuming you just bake those and pour this over it?"

I patted his head, "Very good young grasshopper. Just make sure this doesn't overflow and add cornstarch as you need it; but don't add too much. I'm going to take a shower. Will you be okay by yourself?"

He nodded, "I think I can handle it from here. But, can I ask you something?"

"Anything."

"W-What's Kallie's favorite type of gemstone?" He asked cautiously.

I thought a minute before answering, "She adores a rich Jade. She's been in love with it since she first saw it." I took a small pen and piece of paper out of my purse and wrote it down for him. "We used to watch all kinds of jewelry selling programs; we just wished though."

"What's your favorite gemstone?" He asked. I was a little taken aback by his question.

"Me? I love a bright Ammolite." I sighed a longing sigh.

He hesitated before asking, "Can you write that down too?"

I scribbled the name down and handed him the paper. He folded it and put it in his pocket. "Thanks, Emma!"

I smiled and, after grabbing my things, walked into my bedroom. Kallie had finished her shower a few minutes ago and now it was my turn to hop in. I stripped and got in.

The warm water felt refreshing as it banished the sweat and stress from my body. I washed the chlorine from my hair and from my skin. When I stepped out I felt so much more relaxed and…human again. I wrapped my hair up into a towel and opened the bathroom door.

It feels like the arctic tundra in here.

Some light pajamas were waiting for my attention and I happily obliged. I snuggled into some light pink sweatpants and a black tank top. Once my thick, black rimmed glasses were on my face, I walked out into the living room; and the noise emanating from it.

I walked out to see the boys sitting on our couch watching-what else?-sports. More specifically, hockey.

They were all entranced by the screen before them. I walked over to Kallie who was sitting at the island eating. Looks like Logan did a great job after I left.

"Can you believe them?" She asked as I sat beside her.

"No. I will never understand the fascination with sports. Ever. How are you doing?" I asked.

She shrugged. "I was a mess at first but I only cried a little bit. Logan was…amazing to me. I've never seen someone apologize like that before. He's so gentle and patient with me."

"So you're okay?" I asked again.

"Yes. I mean…the memories came back but I blocked them out. I still freaked though." She looked down.

"Damn it, Emma, why can't you have a nervous breakdown? Why is it just me?" She stuck her tongue out at me and poked my shoulder.

"I'm sure that day will come, little sister. I'm sure that day will come." I laughed.

She pointed her spoon at the stovetop. "Go get some biscuits and gravy; Logan made some more when everyone came over so there's plenty left."

I did as she suggested and got a bowl and ate. "How long have they been watching that?" I asked, grabbing my iced tea from earlier.

"Well, as soon as Carlos walked in he shouted some team names to Logan and turned on the TV. So…awhile."

"They're crazy." I shook my head.

Kallie smiled at me. "Sooo, James talked to me about you." She said as her voice rose.

I couldn't stop the blush from creeping up on my cheeks. "About what?" I took a drink of tea to try and cool the heat in my face.

"Well," She got really close to me, "He wanted to know if you liked it from behind and how hard."

I spit my tea across the table and choked. "K-Kall…" My breathing was ragged and I suddenly felt someone hitting my back. It was James.

"Breathe, Emma, just breathe." The rest of the guys were watching as well.

Kallie was roaring. Once I caught my breath I glared at Kallie.

"You slut!" I shrieked at her as I lunged out of my seat and knocked her onto the floor. She landed on her back but rolled so that she was on top.

"You're just mad because it's a huge yes to both of those questions!" She laughed. I flipped her over and tickled her ribcage.

"How do you like them apples?" I shouted with a wicked grin on my face.

She couldn't breathe. When she could speak she choked out, "I…sorry…I…give up!"

I loosened my grip on her and in one quick movement she turned me onto my stomach and slapped my butt. "I never give up!" So roared triumphantly.

All of the guys were just watching us intently. Carlos was grinning like a fool, James raised an eyebrow and laughed, Logan just stared and Kendall was laughing hysterically.

I raised my back and flipped her off of me. I then straddled her waist and pinned her arms above her head.

"You're just trying to embarrass me to get even!" I laughed.

She looked at me, "Even for what?" She was serious.

"You're trying to make me feel what you did when Carlitos over there picked up your little, lacey thong instead of Logan!"

She pounced up and knocked me to the floor. "You're the one who bought that bright red thong to impress James in bed!"

I glanced over at the boys; Carlos and Logan were blushing from earlier and now that luscious scarlet color was staining James' cheeks as well. His eyes were also dark.

Oh this was on.

I shoved her off of me and ran over to the couch where I grabbed a cushion and smacked her over the head.

Her mouth formed a surprised 'oh' and her hair was messed up. Her eyes shone and, with a wicked smirk, she grabbed another couch cushion and hit me with it.

Carlos and James suddenly ran off down the hallway and emerged with pillows. Once Kendall and Logan saw their souvenirs, they ran to get some.

Kallie and I were on our knees smacking each other repeatedly. I was laughing so hard there were tears in my eyes; Kallie seemed the same way.

I then felt a pair of arms around my waist, holding me in place, and someone tickling my stomach. I squealed and kicked. Kallie seemed bolted to the floor as she watched the scene before her. I looked down to see Carlos' tan arms holding me in place and James mercilessly tickling me.

"J-James!" I gasped.

He winked at me and then, grabbing his pillow, turned and smacked Kallie so hard she fell to the floor. Carlos and I grabbed our objects and jumped onto James and hit him.

Kallie then joined in on the pile. At this point Kendall had joined in and Logan was hitting Carlos.

Kendall looked at me and shouted, "Pile on Emma!"

And suddenly everyone jumped on me. James began tickling me again and I hit Logan in the stomach with my pillow. Kallie and Carlos were hitting Kendall who was hitting James.

When James was distracted I flipped him on his back and pounced onto him. Logan picked up Kallie and swung her over his shoulder. He spun around in a circle while Kendall and Carlos swung their feathery missiles at both Logan and my sister.

While they were preoccupied, I straddled James and, in a bold move, ground my hips against James and pressed my core to his. I gasped outright.

He's huge.

And he couldn't be that hard either. I could clearly feel him through his sweatpants.

He flipped me over and settled between my legs. He then bent down and whispered in my ear, "Did you feel something you want?" His breath sent shivers down my spine.

With a wink he pressed his lower half into mine. I grabbed his wrist tightly and moaned. I bucked my hips forward into him. He let out a low hiss and looked me in the eyes. His were black.

With a loud battle cry Kallie jumped beside James and hit him over the head with a white couch cushion.

Because he was lying between my legs my knee was caught under him when he fell to the side. I wrenched it out from underneath him and screamed when he caught my ankle. Kallie slapped his ass; hard by the sound of it and he let out a surprised gasp/moan.

I'll have to remember that.

He released my ankle and I wriggled away from him. Once I was on my feet I ran over to Kallie and motioned to Kendall. With a wink, our plan was set. We both grabbed pillows, ran and then jumped onto him. We tackled him to the ground and smacked him with our pillows. I tickled him and he arched his back off the floor and I fell onto my back.

Carlos hit me in the stomach and then, in return, Logan hit him in the head. I jumped up and knocked the Latino boy to the floor. After hitting him in the stomach and shouted, "How do you like it?"

With a mile wide smile on my face I ran back over to James, who was now walking towards us.

He wrapped his arms around me in an iron grip and swung me around. When we made a complete 360 degree turn, Kendall and Logan assumed a battle position, pillows ready to fire.

They whacked me repeatedly until Kallie and Carlos came to my rescue. Kallie took down Logan and Carlos took down. I turned around in James' arms and tackled him to the ground. I straddled him yet again, but this time I laced my hands with his.

He smiled and thrust his hips up as I thrust mine down.

I gasped and squeezed his hands. He squeezed back. His gorgeous locks were tousled and out of place, his eyes were dark and wide, his smile was beaming and his breathing was ragged.

Damn.

I smiled and gave him a quick kiss on the cheek.

And then, like last time, Kallie pounced from out of nowhere and tackled me off of James. I looked up at her and she winked at me and leaned down so that her mouth was beside my ear.

"You're lucky it's just me watching you guys. If you want to dry hump him then get a room." She laughed. I sat up and James lifted me to my feet. Carlos and Logan were wailing on Kendall and Kallie was leaning against the wall catching her breath.

I walked over to the fridge, grabbed a bottle of water, and walked back over to the boys on the ground. I shook some water onto them and they immediately stared at me.

"Come on guys, help us put our living room back together." I laughed. They helped each other up and together we all cleaned out apartment. Logan even did the dishes for us.

I gave everyone a bottle of water and we all stood by the island.

Kendall spoke first, "Well I think I am going to head back to our place; Carlos wanna come with?"

Carlos nodded.

I gave them both hugs. "And Carlos? I am sorry about slapping you." He squeezed my shoulder, "Don't worry about it."

I thanked them both and they left. Kallie kissed me goodnight and she and Logan headed back to her room. I turned to James.

He was leaning against the island. I walked up to him and put my hands on his waist and my head on his shoulder. I could feel him angling his hips away from me. I smirked and put my hand on his lower abdomen.

"Everything okay?" I asked through my lashes.

He groaned and picked me up bridal style. We walked back to my room and he placed me on my bed. He then stood at the foot of my bed. He had finger combed his hair back into place and his black tank showed his muscles very nicely.

I looked down to see his…problem. I could see him standing at attention through the cotton of his pants. I sat on my knees and pulled him down in a heated kiss. Our tongues battled and his hands ran up my sides. I shivered and moaned into the kiss.

I pulled him down between my legs and I laid back on the pillows. I spread my legs for him and he wasted no time pressing into me. I gasped and jerked my head back. His lips trailed down my neck and he began licking and sucking on my neck.

His hands were on my hips and he was holding me still. One of my hands was wrapped in his hair and the other was on his lower back. My body was on fire; every finger tip and every toe was burning in anticipation. He rolled his hips into mine and I wrapped my legs around his waist.

I could feel his hardness pressing into my softness and I gently cried out. He rubbed against my sensitive core and I rubbed back. Our breathing became more ragged and we both moved faster. I could feel a light orgasm building as he rammed my hips back onto him.

He crashed his lips into mine in a bruising kiss; it was forceful and greatly needed. I closed my eyes and let James touch my most private places. I tugged on his hair and pressed my nails into his back; I was close. I never knew I could be this close from just dry humping someone; I thought it took full blown sex.

I loved this; it was intimate, obviously, but not…sex. I wasn't sure if I could handle that yet.

James moved back and met my eyes. His hazel orbs were wide. I could see them shimmering and I could see myself in them. Suddenly I felt a jolt of pleasure shoot through me. I began tightening up slightly and I ran my hands down his back.

"J-James..." My voice trembled. He knew that I was close.

"How much do you trust me?" He asked.

I looked at him. "I would trust you with my life."

He nodded and kept his eyes locked on mine. "Stay with me, okay?"

He pulled away and I immediately cried out at the loss of pressure. Then I felt James slip his hand through the elastic of my sweatpants and dip down into my panties.

"James!" The feeling of his skin against mine…there sent shockwaves through me.

"Spread your legs wider." He commanded.

I did as I was told and he began furiously rubbing his hand against me.

I grabbed his shoulders and opened my mouth. His other hand spread me apart.

He gently pinched my sensitive nub between his fingers and my back arched off of the bed and flush against him.

He then took two fingers and began rubbing again. I didn't even know it was possible for someone to move their hand that fast. I looked to the ceiling and began to shake.

James' voice was thick with lust, "Look at me. I want to watch you."

I nodded and kept eye contact with him. My toes curled and my breath was shaky.

I was so close.

Suddenly something began to tighten and my eyes went wide.

"James." My voice was both a warning and a plea.

He began to rub me even faster.

I was there I was right there! I just couldn't let go. I was climbing a peak I never thought I was going to be able to come down from.

And then James bit my neck and whispered in my ear, "Let go. Just let go, Emma. I'm right here. I'm not going to let you fall."

I moaned and grabbed him even tighter.

"Come."

And with that word my entire world exploded. My mouth opened and my head shot backwards. I let a cry escape my mouth and I felt my entire body let go. I saw stars, literally. James was everywhere and I couldn't get enough of him.

My body shook as I rode my high higher and higher.

I screamed the only word that meant anything anymore; the name that had come to mean the world to me.

"James!"

A/N: *Peeks out from under blanket* Well? How was it? Please, please leave me a review and tell me! Thank you everyone who has reviewed :D You all get cookies and hugs!

~Rose