Chapter 11 Natural Instincts
As the coach was being loaded all of the 6th formers were checking the Huts for any lost or left behind items. Tilly was tired and Jen looked it too, it had been very late by the time they had got to bed and despite the fun and fulfilment of the dare, both could have spent longer asleep this morning. They hadn't had a chance to talk, but had caught each other smiling at one another. They had both sent texts to say good morning and both had comment on how tired they were.
'Morning gorgeous, I had so much fun last night, you have amazing hands,' texted Jen
She was a still astounded by what Tilly had done; she had chosen not to go so far, she wasn't sure if Tilly was ready. Her phone beeped
'Hello beautiful, I just used my imagination, wanted to touch you everywhere. I'm so tired, I don't want this to end ' replied Tilly
'Me neither, I want you so much' replied Jen
They had completely taken the opportunities they could, become closer and fallen more deeply in love over the week, and yet still no one knew. There was a real excitement to the secrecy but it was also hard to manage their emotions when surrounded by everyone.
Maddie and Sinead were chatting to Tilly and George, the sun was shining as they finished checking the games Hut before heading into the canteen for a coffee.
'what a week, it's been fun, hasn't it, I really thought I'd be dead boring' said Maddie
'Yeah it's been laugh, and we're off to Abersoch soon, it gonna be such a good summer' said Sinead
'Til's how come so tired?' said Maddie
'Oh I got chatting to Jen when we were clearing the games room. You know, she's a laugh and today is her final day as our teacher'
'So, we should do something to celebrate and thank her' said Maddie
'Yeah that would be good, not sure what though' said Tilly
'Well I am sure my mum would let us throw a thank you party, well anything for a party' laughed Sinead
'Yes, great I can got get a new dress and Tilly you've spent so much time with her you can find a present' said Maddie
'ok, you're on' said Tilly, excited that she and Jen could be together with everyone and maybe get the night together.
The girls were happily chatting away when they heard Jen shout for everyone to get on the coach. This time everyone got the coach leaving Tilly to sit next to Jen. Tilly stepped in ahead of Jen, who ran her hand up the back of Tilly's leg. Tilly's leg nearly gave way as she stepped back into Jen who was right behind her. Jen laughed as Tilly's bottom almost landed on her chest, so she pushed Tilly's bottom up as she stepped into the coach. When they sat down Jen apologised for causing Tilly to almost loose her step they laughed
'I wanted to bite your bum' said Jen giggling
'And there I was thinking I'd end up sitting on your face' Tilly giggled back, Jen slapped Tilly playfully and said seductively
'I am sure that can be arranged'
Tilly blushed from her neck upwards a very deep red and was speechless for the first time, as she realised what she had said but hadn't intended.
'My Tilly Evans I have never seen you blush so much, and you are normally so forward'
They both laughed
'I hadn't realised what I said, and then it seemed so… umm… well you know, umm I hadn't thoughts about doing that but now I am umm..' Tilly said slightly flustered
Jen rolled her eyes back and laughed, really laughed and Tilly joined her, it released the embarrassed tension for Tilly but did make her wonder something she hadn't considered, they'd made love like this against the tree but the visual image she had now as so much more.
'What I really want Jen is to get back, to go out on a proper date as normal couple and spend the night with you and wake up in your arms the next day, it's not too much to ask is it, really. ? I mean I can't get enough of you, I want you, to be with you, to be near to you all the time but I also want the 'us' time we don't get together'
'No gorgeous, it's not too much to ask, I know what you mean, I want you , want to touch you, to hold you and be near to you and I cannot wait for us to not to have to worry about everyone. I do so want you with me all night, I want to hold you before I go to sleep and wake up holding you without any pressure to be somewhere so we can stay in bed if that what we want'
As the journey continued Jen and Tilly sat holding hands, their thumbs casually stroking each other's skin hidden under Tillys coat and slowly without realising it they both fell asleep, tired from their late night shower adventure. Tillys head dropped onto Jens shoulder and Jens head dropped onto Tillys head. They looked peaceful, at home with each other, and out of sight of the rest of the coach.
As the coach jolted into the college car park they both came too, with sore necks, and with Tilly having dribbled on to Jens shoulder! As they sat up they realised their hands were still entwined and smiled before giving one another a very brief kiss.
'I'm sorry for the wet patch on your shoulder, I must have been really fast asleep' chuckled Tilly,
'I'll bear that in mind for the future' laughed Jen as she lovingly squeezed Tillys hand, 'I think we are here, I am going to miss you tonight 'said Tilly
'Me too' said Jen as she lifted Tillys hand to her lips kissed before standing up to get the attention of the other teenagers.
As everyone got off the coach and pulled their belongings out from the coaches luggage area, Jen came up to Tilly,
'How are you getting home, do you want a lift? I know we are early you could text your parents and tell them not to worry about picking you up'
Yes, that brilliant, we can have a little more time together' said Tilly.
She rang her mum who was just about to leave and explained she was getting a lift. Jen clapped her hands as she saw Tilly wave good bye to George, Maddie and Sinead
Jen opened the boot and loaded both of their bags into it closed the door and then got into the driver's seat. Tilly was already inside and texting, Jens phone buzzed
'I am so lucky to have you, do we have to go straight home' it read
'what you like to do' she said to Tilly
'Well I told mum we were going to hang out first so, we can do anything, don't need to be back for ages'
'OK, let me think' said Jen as she squeezed Tilly's knee and slowly caressed her hand around her thigh. Tilly put her hand on Jens and squeezed it, she loved how the touch of Jen made her feel, but she didn't want to risk Jens final minutes of being her teacher until the left the college grounds. Jen smiled, knowing what Tilly was thinking and and felt a wave of love roll over inside her.
She turned the engine on and put the cd into the player. She had the new Ren Harvieu disk in the player and drove off. It was a sunny afternoon and it was warm, so they wound down their windows and let the breeze flow through their hair as they laughed and chatted.
Jen pulled into the car park, and out ahead was the dark grey sea, with a line of light grey and white wind turbines , the sky was overcast but was warm and Tilly could just see the top of a bronze head about 10 meters from the sea wall.
Jen turned to Tilly, beamed a really big smile and lifted her right hand to Tillys face and caressed it very gently with her thumb. She traced her thumb and fingers across Tilly's cheek, brushed her thumb over Tillys lips and down over her jaw and neck. Tilly lent her head back slightly to give Jen more access to her neck and let out a very small sigh of pleasure. It felt like a smouldering ember had been lit, but one that wasn't about to create an intense blaze, but something that just burned gently inside keeping her warm. Tilly looked at Jen and met her deep dark eyes; both of their pupils were dilated so they could take in more of each other as they looked. They sat like that for minutes; it felt longer, drinking in the sight of one another, looking, nothing more but just seeing deep into each other's soul.
They were only pulled away when a car drew u in the parking space next to them and broke the spell as its doors slammed shut. Tilly lifted her hand to Jens cheek; she stroked it with the back of her fingers, something she found more sensitive sometimes. Jens face felt so warm, so soft and so smooth. Tilly loved the contours of it and the way she could glide her fingers down over Jens cheek down her neck, feeling how this made her pulse race at the side of her neck as she stroked down to her collar bone. Jen sighed, closed her eyes momentarily then slowly opened them as Tilly moved in to kiss her. It was the most simplest of kisses, and yet it conveyed something so deep and uncomplicated, love.
The girls got out of the car, and walked to the see wall and promenade, the tide times indicated that the tide had turned and was going out, and it moved fast back out towards the off shore wind farm. As it went the sand became exposed and slowly one by one did the tall and shorter brass figures in their human forms. The sun began to shine through between the clouds and it was as if a new day was beginning, their new day.
'Oh Jen it's so good to come back here, I've never been here with the tide in, it is so different from when we came that first time' said Tilly
'Yes it is isn't it? I've wanted to come back with you so many times' said Jen
'I want this to remind us where we began, I remember being so at that I was so grateful for the second chance when you agreed to come here with me. This is us, it reminds me of us, and when I look at my drawings from that day I feel warmth. You know even when I was so horrible to you Tilly, because I was so scared of losing my placement and being chucked off the course for being unprofessional, I would just look at our day here and want to be with you even more'
'Jen, I get that now, don't worry about it, we've moved on and I am so glad we are here, it's like a fresh start, or a new chapter maybe. C'mon, let's go down on to the sand' Tilly picked up Jens and, squeezed it and pulled her to the steps down onto the beach. The sand was damp and squishy, not dry and powdery like before, they certainly could sit down this end of the beach, but maybe further down where the sand dunes were it might be possible. They walked hand in hand out to the receding water's edge, jumping across big puddles of sea water to each of the Gormley statues and took photos of them together with the statues in between them. The beach was so long and they took an hour zig zagging across the sand, looking at the sea weed and the shells and the statues before reaching the other end.
The girls walked over to one of the sand dunes and sat at the base of one not far from where they had sat before. Jen sat down first and pulled Tilly down in front of her, Jens legs sat either side of Tilly and Jen held her close, nuzzled her nose into Tilly's neck and breathed it
'I love the smell of you, and the softness of you. I love holding you' she said as she kissed the back of Tilly's neck. This sent tingles down her spine and heated that burning ember inside. Tilly found being kissed on the neck so sensual and sensitive, she was glad to be sat down because every time Jen did this it made her legs buckled underneath her. Jen kissed up and down her neck and moved her hands to the front of Tilly jacket, opening it up so she could kiss further down her neck and shoulders. Tilly lent her head back on to Jens shoulder and Jen turned her focus to Tilly's lips, this felt so right, Tilly's lips were so soft. Jen had been absorbed by Tilly's lips that day in the hospital and now here they were together, it was like a lifetime away, and she could kiss them as softly and as passionately as she wanted. Their kiss deepened, but stopped as Tilly repositioned herself, turning in between Jens legs to face her. She pushed Jen back and crawled to the side of her so she could take Jens lips in her own as Jen lay back in the warm sand. They were oblivious to anyone walking on the beach, just a young couple in love. People just walked by as the girls continued to share a deep loving kiss. Tilly was above Jen, she lifted her head and looking down said
'I love you Jen, thank you for this'
'I love you too'
The girls held each other, felling the warmth of the sun on them and hearing the sound of the sea as well as the seagulls. This was their place. They sat up and kissed again, the sea had gone so far out that they could see five maybe six layers of the Gormley statues going out for ever.
'Let's go get a drink, I'm thirsty' said Jen and with that they walked to kiosk and then drinks in hand slowly wandered the length of the beach back to the car. They knew they had to make a move, even though neither wanted to break this peaceful togetherness.
As Tilly got into the car her phone beeped, it was Sinead
'Mum says we can have part for end of term and to say thnx to Jen'
'Cool, when?'
'Next Saturday'
'Ok, will get present'
Jen looked at Tilly quizzically with her eyebrow raised
'Diane's holding an end of term party on Saturday, your part of it coz the guys love you too after this week! Well, not like I do of course' and Tilly giggled
'You are so cute when you giggle' laughed Jen in unison with her girlfriend.
As the car started, Tilly held Jens hand to her lips and kissed each fingertip deliberately and slowly, she kissed her palm and placed a final gentle kiss on her wrist. Jen used this hand to stroke Tillys face, she breathed in deeply, her insides rolling over with intense love she pulled Tilly to her and they kissed deeply, their kissing the depths of their inner beings, it was luxurious like the finest smooth chocolate melting in your mouth, they broke only to breathe to look and smile.
'Whatever happens this week, however much time we do or don't get together, know that I cannot be without you in my soul, you are my soul mate Tilly'
'Oh Jen' and Tilly threw her arms around her girlfriend and held her tightly. Tilly knew the separation would be tough, but they would manage it, together.
As they drove back, Jen put some Donna Summer on, she knew it was old, but she really liked the upbeat sound, and it was one her older sister had given her years ago. They moved and sang to the music.
Jen pulled up outside of Tillys, and they lent over and kissed each other briefly.
'I'll be in touch, you get in and we will work out what we are going to do this week, love you' and Jen kissed her girl once more
Tilly suddenly felt down,
'I wish this wasn't happening, I know its going to be fine, but uuurrghhhh, she groaned, I want you all of the time!' Then she laughed,
'I meant to be with you, but actually I just want you, I want you now'
Jen laughed and caressed Tilly knee.
'Don't worry you will have all of me, and I mean all of me. Be patient, just imagine what you want to do, gorgeous. We can talk on the phone later'
They both laughed and Tilly got out of the car and let her self into her house. Jen waved and drove down the road, smiling and feeling a sense of contentment. This was going to o be a good week.