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You'll see more of Amelia in this chapter, I really love that character... Enjoy it :)
As soon as Addison walked out of Derek's room, she quickly started to remember the way she used to feel when she lived there, she knew she never wanted to feel that way again and she knew the only way to never get that feeling again was walking out before it was too late.
"What the fuck do you think you're doing?" Amelia told her, she went behind her after Addison left
"I told you I'm leaving, this is too much okay? I can't take Derek holding hands with Meredith Grey, not this time Amelia, if there was something I learn while I was living here is that Derek can't be without Meredith and I can't change that"
"Addie, you know I love you even more than I love my own brother, but you're such an idiot!"
"Excuse me?" Addison said raising an eyebrow
"Yes, Addison, you're an idiot, this is what you want, you wanted to be here with Derek and you're letting him go because you saw him just talking with that woman? You're not like this Addie, you fight until you get what you want, or at least that's how you used to be! And I know, my brother is an ass but at least you should trust him, I saw the way he was staring at you when you walk in the room and it was the exact same way he used to do it before you started to fall apart… So the best thing you can do right now is shut the hell up and go back with Derek" Even though Amelia didn't have a good relationship with Derek she wanted the best for her big brother and she knew that the only women in the whole world who could make him feel better was Addison.
"I'm sorry Amelia you weren't here back then, you may know how we were back in New York, but you have no idea how he treated me here in Seattle, it was a complete nightmare, what we saw in that room was one of the reasons why I went running to LA" Addison confessed the young woman
"If you really feel that way, why have you spent the last few months with him? If you're gonna leave him now, after he got shot, you're not the woman I thought you were"
"I love him Amelia, I never stopped loving your brother and I know I will always do, Derek is not the kind of guy you easily forget, he went to LA and I couldn't just tell him I didn't want him, but seeing him with Meredith right now just took me back to those bad years, you know? And I'm serious when I say I don't wanna go through it again"
"Addie, these people has been through hell these past days, I don't know what were Derek and Meredith talking about, but I know it's not what you think, it's a brother/sister thing…" Addison shocked her head and tried to said something but Amelia didn't let her talk "Just go back to his room; even if you're going back to LA, go there and tell him you're leaving, it would devastate him if he knows you're leaving without saying goodbye… I'll talk to him later, I promise"
"Okay" She simply said, she felt curiosity but at the same time she felt jealous, even when she wouldn't admit it, she was. She decided to take the advice of her little sister-in-law and talk to Derek before leaving, before getting shot he has been really nice to her even nicer than the last years of their marriage. Derek immediately saw her, he knew her too well to know she wasn't exactly happy to see him with Meredith.
"Addie" Derek started "You need to know, Meredith and I weren't…"
"You don't need to explain anything Derek, you and Meredith are married, and after all that you lived with the shooter is good that you're gonna try to make it work, you and I did it and…"
"What?" Derek asked confused "What are you talking about? I'm not going back with her, I told you I wanted to be with you, maybe I've acted like a jerk sometimes but I won't do that to you… again" Addison arched an eyebrow, she was still confused, what she saw it seemed that they were having a serious talk
"So, you're not together?" She curiously asked
"No Addie, I couldn't be with you if I'm with her" He took her hand, but she immediately took her hand back at her
"If you're not together what were you talking about?" She knew that question was out of line and it wasn't her place to ask that, but she knew that something wasn't right there, she never considered herself like a jealous person, but this particular day she totally was.
"Addie…"
"No, no, no, that was out of line, I don't wanna know, it's okay"
"Addison, let me talk" she nodded "Meredith had a miscarriage the day I got shot, the baby was mine… That was all, we're not going back together, but she needed my support in that moment, she didn't want to tell me so I don't feel guilty about it"
"Oh my God, Derek, I'm so sorry, I had no idea… Dear God, she was carrying your child and you weren't with her because of me, I feel awful"
"Don't, Addie the way I see it it's completely different, she was carrying my child and she was sleeping around with other man… I'm not gonna lie to you, it would have been nice to have a baby, but I would hate myself if that child would've be born in a broken home" Derek's word were hurting Addison in a way that no one could understand, they had a chance to have children but they decided to focus in their careers and when she thought they were ready, he became absent, the affairs started and then they got divorced and their time was over, she never thought hear Derek saying that it would've been nice to have a child with other woman
"But still, you were with me and you should have been with her, she wouldn't have sleep with other man if she wouldn't have found you in LA… You need to spend some time with her" She exactly knew how was to lost a baby and to have a broken marriage, she has been there before, sometimes she still thinks about the baby she aborted, she was regretting that decision but if she would have kept that baby Derek would've never take her back.
Addison kissed Derek in the forehead.
"You need to be there for her Derek, she needs you. We should give us some time apart"
"Don't do this Addison! We've been waiting years for this! I don't love her anymore! I love you and I wanna be with you! I love you Addison Montgomery, you don't get to tell me we need time apart! I need you to get through this, you're the only reason I survived"
"Derek, please don't make this harder than already is, you know that I love you too, but I can't be here in Seattle, because now on, every time I see her I know I'm gonna feel guilty about it"
"Addison is not your fault, stop blaming yourself for something you have nothing to do with"
"Probably is not my fault she lost the baby, but it is my fault, our fault that your marriage is almost over"
"Addie, don't talk about my marriage! It's not even a real marriage in the first place; it's just a post-it! And it was broken before I decided to go to LA! And since that moment I'm trying to get back what we lost years ago"
"That's not even what I'm talking about Derek! I'm just saying she needs you right now"
"So do you, about an hour ago you were willing to be with me"
"That was before I knew she lost your child Derek… I'm going back to LA tonight, I just wanted to see you and make sure you're doing great"
"You know I'm not gonna give up that easily, right? I lost you once, and I'm not gonna let that happen again"
"I know you won't" She smiled "And I love you for that"
Xx
Outside Derek's room there was Amelia and Mark, he was the only person besides Derek and Addison that she knew and she could talk to.
"So, what happened with them?" He asked her looking at the door of Derek's room
"I don't exactly know, she has been there a long time"
"Have you talked to him?" Mark asked again, he knew about the bad relationship she and Derek had
"No, I haven't" The young woman simply said
"Amy, you know you wanna go there, what's wrong?" He has always been close to the Shepherds and all of them were like a part of his family since he was a little kid
"Nothing is wrong Mark… It's just Derek, he got shot by a crazy gun man, just like my father, two men in my family have got shot, one died" Amelia's voice started to break "If Derek would've died it'll be the same all over again. You remember how long did I take to recover of my dad's death, right? It took me years. When my mother called to tell me Derek, my big brother got shot the only thing I could think about was smoking, I needed a cigarette and I really hate that feeling, because I don't wanna go back to that dark place again" Amelia confessed to her friend
"You know he is fine now, he just need to rest, but he'll be okay, it won't be like your dad, it might be pretty close but it's definitely not the same"
"I know it's not the same"
"Amelia, it's okay to be afraid sometimes, but trust me there's nothing to be afraid anymore. If you don't wanna talk to him right now it's okay, he's not going anywhere, but you, you show that you really care about your brother by coming here from LA, and if anyone of your family thinks otherwise, screw them! You're here with your brother and neither one of them are here, so it's time for you to stop being the black-shep of the Shepherds and show them they're all wrong" Amelia just smiled at him, he was right.
"People really misjudge you, you know?" They both laughed while a teary Addison was coming out of Derek's room
"Okay, that's definitely not a good sign uh?" Amelia said to Mark, seeing how Addison walked away from them, she didn't wanna talk to them, or that's what they thought
"No, it's not" Mark simply said, but Amelia was too busy seeing in the other side of the hall there was Meredith talking with a patient. "But it is for you, go with Derek" Amelia nodded and went to Derek's room
"Hey Derek" She greeted her brother
"Amy, you know the only reason you're here is because Addison asked me to talk to you, right?"
"I know, it's been always like that, but it's about time for you to stop acting like we're not related, because I'm your sister Derek and that's never gonna change"
"Sadly… Well you can stay here if you want so you can tell Addison we did talk"
"I'm not going, what the fuck is wrong with you? You can't be mad at me forever for something I did when I was a crazy teenager! I know it was wrong in so many levels and I made all of you go through hell, but it's time to let it go, I'm a neurosurgeon now, I graduate of top of my class in Harvard, I might still not be a quite girl but I'm not that same girl who was dead for over three minutes… You're my big brother, you were the one who helped me to get sleep after we were with dad when they killed him and even thought I can't exactly remember that day, I still have nightmares about it… The thing is that you can't hate me forever"
"I guess you're right. You were really little when it happened you know? You were practically a baby, I guess I always wanted you to stay like that little girl" Amelia and Derek smiled "I didn't want you to come here just yet Amy, I didn't want you to see me like this, in a hospital bed, as a patient, I'm your big brother I suppose to protect you from the world. I was gonna call all of you once I get better"
"It's okay Derek; at least mom didn't come… Or Nancy, whose everyday looking more like her" Both Derek and Amelia laughed, while she sits right next to Derek
"I knew I wasn't the only one who thinks that"
"So Derek… You and Addie?" Derek knew it was about time for her to ask that and she wouldn't be one of his sisters if she wouldn't have bring that to the conversation, all of his sisters loved Addison, even more than they love him and they didn't even try to deny it. But it was okay to him.
"Yeah, well… You should know a lot since you're living with her. But yeah, I know I realized too late but I'm trying to make it up"
"I'm glad you're trying, she was a mess when I first went to LA, but now she looks better… Well, you know, before this happened to you"
"Is she? I'm glad she's happy, I can't wait to get out of this bed rest and go to LA again"
"You're going to LA? She's gonna be so excited about it"
"Well, this is the moment when you shut up and don't tell her I'm going, okay? I want it to be a surprise"
"I'll keep my mouth shut, I promise"
"Thank you" He'd never admit it to anyone but he really loved to spend time with his annoying sisters
"What about Meredith? You were talking to her about an hour ago"
"Amy, since you're keeping your mouth shut, you should know that she just lost a baby, my baby actually, so she needs me for a while before I leave"
"God, I'm so sorry Derek"
"It's okay, we're all okay now"
Xx
The cafeteria of the hospital always seem to be just like the cafeterias of the high school, everyone gossip around, groups of doctors hanging out, laughing while they're eating. But this time Meredith Grey was sitting alone in one of the tables, waiting for Cristina who she was paging since several minutes ago. When she finally came she sat next to her.
"What happened? What's the emergency?" Cristina asked while she fixed her hair, Meredith just stared at her like she has no words to say "Come on Mer, you didn't just page me just to look at me"
"Cristina, I think I made a mistake"
"With a patient?" She asked
"No, no. Not with a patient, I think made a big mistake and it might be the hugest mistake I've ever made"
"Oh my God Meredith what did you do?" Cristina was curious, considering all the life of Meredith Grey, if she says it's the hugest mistake she has ever made, it does mean something"
"I told Derek about the miscarriage he was sad about it and Addison walked into the room while I was there" Cristina looked confused
"I'm sorry, but that doesn't seem like a mistake to me"
"Because that's not the mistake"
"Meredith, speak English"
"I'm not sure the baby was Derek's" She simply said
"What? But you said it couldn't be Finn's; you were 5 weeks, right? The Finn thing happened about a month ago"
"Derek doesn't even remember, but the last time Derek and I slept together, we just couldn't even finish, and obviously we couldn't make a baby like that… And then few days later I went to Los Angeles and I found Finn in a bar, which it was exactly…"
"… 5 weeks ago" Cristina completed
"What I am gonna do? I knew I shouldn't have tell him"
Before Cristina could answer her, a young woman who was behind them waiting they finished their conversation approached to them, she couldn't help but listen what they were talking about.
"I'm sorry to interrupt; you're Dr. Meredith Grey, right?" She asked gently
"Yes, I am, Meredith Grey… And you are?" She asked curious, this young woman seemed familiar to her, but she couldn't recognized her until she heard her name
"Okay, I'm Dr. Shepherd, Amelia Shepherd, Mark Sloan asked me to tell you to go to the ER with him, his pager is not working so he asked me to tell you that"
Meredith and Cristina were both freeze it couldn't be just a coincidence, she was definitely one of Derek's sisters, and they both hoped she couldn't hear what they were talking about. Meredith immediately stood up and started to walk next to Amelia, she wanted to ask her if she heard her and Cristina, but she didn't know how. Amelia just saw the look on Meredith's face she knew what she was thinking.
"In case you were wondering, I did hear you and your friend talking about how you just lied to my brother" Amelia walked away thinking what she should do with this new information
I needed to do this after how I ended the last chapter, I really hope you like this and review, please? Tell me what you think!