Hey guys! I'm so sorry that it has been so long since I last updated this story. I had finals and the end of the semester and then I started my Christmas story "The Magic of Christmas" and I wanted to finish that before the holiday ended. But I'm back! And I'll be updating this story much more quickly like I was at first. I hope you enjoy :) This chapter is obviously rated M but it will go back to T afterwards. Let me know what you think!

He reached his hand out for her and she took it, he pulled her up to him slowly. They walked hand in hand to her bedroom and Elliot smiled and shut the door.

Olivia walked to the side of her bed nervously; he thought he saw her hands shaking. He smiled and walked over to the side of her bed and lit the candle on the bedside table.

Olivia raised an eyebrow, he smirked. "A little ambiance…"

He walked around to the other side of the bed where she was and smiled. He took her hand in his, he heard her inhale sharply but he just smiled at her. He kissed her gently before pulling back, he stepped back slowly and moved to pull his shirt off.

It was now or never…

Elliot threw his shirt aside and turned back to her, she was definitely shaking now. Taking a step towards her he smirked as her eyes roamed his bare chest. It wasn't the first time she had seen him without a shirt…but it was different.

Elliot reached up and pushed a strand of hair out of her face. "Do you remember when I went undercover with Bushido and you came to find me?"

Olivia swallowed hard and nodded slowly. "You almost died because of me."

Elliot shook his head. "No you saved me Liv. If you hadn't thought up that plan…he would have killed me on the spot."

Olivia chuckled. "What you mean pretending to me a prostitute?"

Elliot smiled. "Yeah that…if Bushido had left I would have taken you right there."

She raised and eyebrow and smirked at him. "Oh yeah?"

Elliot nodded his head and moved his hand from her face down her side and underneath her shirt, he heard her breath hitch at the contact. "Mhm…I almost forgot what we were doing when you walked out of the bathroom. That black lacey bra you had on…it drove me crazy."

Olivia licked her lips as he began to trace circles on her lower back and she slowly lifted her arms to hold onto his shoulders. She was feeling weak as she felt the warmth from his naked chest and his hands on her bareback. He leaned in and began to kiss her neck gently, nipping slightly at her ear lobe making her shiver.

"Elliot…" She whimpered softly.

"You don't know how beautiful you are…" He whispered into her ear as he pulled away slowly and cupped her face in his hands.

She shook her head. "I don't feel very beautiful…"

He knew she had never had a lot of self-esteem, she didn't see herself the way the rest of the world did. Because of who her father was and what he did, she in some ways saw her self as unworthy of everything especially love. She had never been able to stay in a relationship because she was insecure. And now…now that she had breast cancer he knew that she was feeling mermen insecure than ever.

Without saying anything, he reached down to the hem of her shirt and began to pull it up slowly. He looked up at her eyes giving her time to change her mind if she wanted too but she just stared at him longingly. She took this is as a sign to keep going so he pulled slowly at her shirt until he pulled it over her head.

She was standing there in just her bra and jeans; she looked as stunning as she did that night she had saved his life. But things were very different now; they were two very different people. He had to show her that he wanted her just as much now as he did then.

Very carefully, he reached behind her as he leaned in for a gentle kiss while his hands found the clasp of her bra. She held onto his strong arms again needing support as he undid her bra and let the straps slide down her arms. She pulled back slowly, his face was just inches from her face as she threw aside the lacey bra.

She licked her lips and pulled back to look in him in the eye, but his eyes were roaming her body longingly. She felt very exposed and unsure of herself, which felt silly. This wasn't the first time she had been intimate with a man, but this wasn't just any man it was Elliot.

Ever since her surgery she had made it a point to not look to hard at herself in the mirror. She wasn't entirely sure what the scar on her chest looked like now, last time she looked it was still slightly red and swollen even though it was a small incision. She was afraid it would make Elliot want to turn away completely and change his mind about how he felt about her.

He knew what she was thinking and he wanted to show her that it didn't matter to him. He put one hand on her back and then the other went to cup her breast gently, on the side was the small red scar.

"Does it hurt?" Elliot asked softly, his thumb was just centimeters away from it not wanting to touch it incase she wasn't ready.

Olivia let out a shaky breath. "It's not too bad…just a bit sore really. I'm alright though…"

His eyes flickered up to her again. "I know you think it makes you ugly but it doesn't…"

She smirked at him. "You have to say that…"

Elliot shook his head. "No. I don't have to say that. I'm saying it because I mean it. You are so breathtakingly beautiful Olivia…you always have been and nothing could change that."

She licked her lips. "Even if…even if I have to get a mastectomy?" She asked tears welling up in her eyes.

"Why do you keep going to the absolute worst?" Elliot asked. "You don't know what's going to happen…"

She laughed sadly. "Because it's a possibility and you didn't answer the question."

Elliot sighed and led her over to the bed sitting her down beside him. "I wouldn't care."

"But how could you be attracted to me?" She asked looking nervously for her shirt wanting to cover herself up again but Elliot stopped her.

He grabbed her hands and leaned in to kiss her again quickly making her forget all about her fears. She moaned into his mouth as he traced her bottom lip with his tongue. His hand found her hip and held it gently as he began to slowly lean her back on the bed. Her hair fanned out behind her head encircling her like a halo, the moon shone through the window glowing on her face and his heart melted for a moment as he stared down at her.

"I will always be attracted to you. I will always want you…I will always think you are beautiful because you are beautiful." He said as he lowered his head to her chest making her inhale deeply as his lips hovered just above the scar. "You have always been and always will be beautiful…" He kissed it gently making her whimper as he looked up at her again. "So beautiful…"

He lifted himself so they were face to face again and she cupped his strong jaw with her hands as a few stray tears escaped the corner of her eyes. "Don't ever leave me again…" She whispered.

It was really the first time that she had allowed herself to be so vulnerable in front of him, the rawness of her voice cut through him like a thousand sharp knives. He leaned down and pressed his lips to the side of her face to soak up her tears.

"I won't ever leave you again." He whispered into her ear as he reached down between them and began to unbutton her jeans slowly. "I promise you that…"

He sat up and knelt before her never taking his eyes off of her as he unzipped her pants and began to pull them down her toned legs. She had dreamt of this moment for so long and yet being here with him now was unlike anything she had ever imagined. The way he touched her so gently and passionately made her heartache and body ache for him.

He threw her jeans over the side of the bed and onto the floor and smiled down at her. His hands began to caress her legs starting at her calves and working their way up to her thighs. She inhaled sharply as his fingers lopped the sides of her panties and began to pull them down too.

He smiled as she lifted her hips to assist him so he could get them over her rear. He threw them onto the floor with her jeans before licking his lips and taking in her full and naked body for the first time.

"So beautiful…and so sexy…" He said running his hands up her thighs again feeling the smooth olive skin he had been fantasizing about for years.

She blushed under his intense gaze as he leaned down to kiss the inside of her thighs. He hadn't shaved in a few days and his stubble began to tickle her delicate skin making her jump and giggle.

He smirked against her skin as he licked and nipped at it gently moving closer to her center. "You don't know how long I've wanted to touch you like this…"

She sighed happily and arched her back finally beginning to forget all about her insecurities. "Probably about as long as I've wanted you to touch me like this…"

Elliot chuckled and finally let his tongue settle into where he wanted to be. He breathed her in and licked her center slowly at first to tease her and also to get the full state of her. She moaned and gripped the sheets around her, it had been a long time since she had been intimate with a man and she didn't remember it ever feeling this good.

"Oh God…" She whimpered gently as his hands found her hips, pulling her body closer to him so he could pleasure her better.

"You taste amazing…" Elliot said as his tongue encircled her swollen clit making her push against him wanting more.

She shut her eyes tightly as he continued to make love to her with his mouth as she whispered his name. "Elliot…"

He could feel the tension building within her and he knew it wouldn't take much more to bring her over the edge. Part of him wanted to stop to make her wait for it, and yet he couldn't. He thought he could bring her to this point multiple times tonight; he wanted her to feel just how much he desired her. He wanted her to be sure that she was the sexiest most beautiful human being he had ever laid eyes on not just tonight but always.

He slowly flicked his tongue against her clit again teasing her with every stroke. His eyes looked up at her wanting to watch her fall over the edge from his touch for the first time. A few more flicks of his tongue and her whole body arched up and she moaned out his name as her chest rose and fell trying to catch her breath.

He smiled and kissed the inside of her thigh again before crawling up to face her again. "Hey there…"

She exhaled gently and cupped his face with her hands and pulled it down so she could kiss him. "Hi…"

He nuzzled her nose gently and kissed her cheeks. "Do you believe me now?"

She sighed happily as he began to kiss her neck. "Hm…I'm starting to believe it but I have a feeling you have more ways to convince me."

Elliot laughed and moved to look her in the eye again. "Mmm…" He kissed her passionately again before pulling away to answer her. "I can think of a few ways that might work…"

Olivia smiled against his lips and wrapped her arms around his neck pulling him back in for another kiss. She wrapped one hand around the base of his neck and massaged it gently as her other hand scratched gently down his strong back. He let himself settle in between her legs as he held her left thigh against the side of his body and continued to kiss her with immense passion.

He reached down between them to where their bodies met and slowly began to guide him inside of her. They both pulled away from the kiss as he filled her completely for the first time. Their eyes met and another tear escaped the corner of her eye and this time he knew it wasn't out of fear or pain.

She traced the side of his face with her fingers gently and whispered up at him. "I love you…"

He began to move inside of her slowly as he leaned down to capture her lips with his again. "I love you too…" He mumbled against her swollen red lips as they began to make love.

He let her guide the pace not wanting to push her to fast, he knew her body was still sore from the surgery and he wanted this to be as pleasurable as possible for her. He began to be able to ready her body like he had been able to read her mind after working with her for so long. Whenever she shivered her moaned he knew she wanted more and when she gripped him tightly he slowed down just so to let her adjust to him.

She gasped as he went deeper still inside of her and she laughed out never having felt so full in her life. She wanted more, needed more of him to know that this moment was real and that she was going to be okay. He somehow understood what she wanted as he wrapped her legs around his waist and pushed harder and deeper into her.

"Oh Elliot!" She yelled out as his lips found her neck and he kissed her there gently finding the spot that drove her crazy just behind her ear. "Don't stop…" She begged slightly out of breath.

"Never…" He whispered in her ear as he continued to push in and out of her.

He could feel her walls tightening around him and he smiled and pressed his lips against hers. Their tongues began to duel together as he continued to move inside of her. She gripped his back tightly, he could feel her nails threatening to dig into his skin but he didn't care.

She moaned into his mouth as the pleasure bubbled over and she finally gave in letting herself go. He groaned when he felt her walls contract around him but he wasn't ready to let go with her. She knew he had more to give and as the waves of pleasure ran through her body she gripped his hips and flipped him over.

Being in such an intimate and sensual moment be forgot just how strong she actually was. He laughed up at her as she took control and straddled his waist and leaned down to capture his lips with hers again.

He gripped her hips and moaned softly as she reached between them and held him in her hand stroking him slowly. "Olivia…" He groaned against her lips. "Jesus…"

Olivia laughed and began to nip and kiss his strong jaw that she had long since found to be incredibly sexy. "I can't let you have all the fun…" She groaned against his stubbly chin.

He hissed softly as she continued to tease him with her delicate hands. "Olivia…what are you doing to me?"

She smiled and turned her attention back to his lips. "Making love to you…"

He moaned out loud and gripped her hips as she sunk down upon him again letting him feel all of her. "Well in that case…" He said pulling her down to kiss her lips again. "Never stop…" He said mimicking her own words from earlier.

She smiled and began to move against him. "I wouldn't dream of it…"

He tangled his hands in her hair as she continued to move on top of him. She sat up straight and let him stare up at her, finally not feeling insecure about her appearance. Never had a man made her feel so incredibly sexy and alive and she knew in this moment they were finally one. It didn't matter that he had left her before and it didn't matter that she was sick. Here in this moment they were just Olivia and Elliot and they were finally giving in to their feelings after thirteen years.

His hips rose up off the bed to meet her motions making the pleasure that much more intense for them both. He couldn't have enough of her, the feel of her smooth skin and her lips as they moved across his face, chest and arms burning a fire within him. The way the moon was pouring through the window reflected so beautifully off of her skin it was almost hard to believe she was real.

The way he was staring up at her made her feel the need to kiss him again so she leaned back down to do just that. He smiled against her and gripped her hips tighter helping her move against him finally beginning to feel his own release building. He wanted to make sure she was with him so he could get her off one more time.

She moaned his name in his ear urging him on as he continued to push up into her. "Olivia…" He breathed softly as she gripped the headboard tightly for support feeling weak with the way he made her feel.

"So good…" She mumbled against his jaw as Elliot held her with one hand on her hip and one on her lower back. "Elliot…so close…"

"I'm right with you this time Liv…" He said taking his hand off of her back and tangling it in her hair again. "Let go with me…"

She leaned up again so she could look him in the eye as they climaxed together. The way he stared deeply into her eyes made her melt as she once again began to feel the waves of pleasure rack through her body. And this time he groaned out her name and spilled up inside of her…

She whimpered softly and rolled off of him and onto her back beside him on the bed. She felt exhausted and yet incredibly fulfilled as he rolled over onto his side and pulled her up against him again.

"Where do you think you're going?" He asked as he kissed her neck gently.

She laughed and rubbed his strong arms with her hands. "I'm trying to catch my breath…"

Elliot chuckled and grumbled. "Breathing is overrated…"

She laughed more as he rolled over on top of her and caressed her cheek gently. "So you might think…but when we stop breathing we die so…"

He laughed and rolled over onto his back on her other side to let her relax. "Oh fine…"

She sighed happily and snuggled into his side, kissing his chest gently. "That was…amazing Elliot."

He kissed the top of her head and smiled. "That it was…"

"I was scared…" She whispered. "Scared that I wouldn't feel up to it…that it wouldn't be the same but it was…" She laughed and kissed his chest again. "Better than anything I've ever felt."

"That's what I was going for." He said as he began to caress her sweaty back.

She lifted herself up slowly and held her body up by her elbow to stare down at her; she held his cheek with her hand gently. "Thank you for making me feel alive again…" She whispered as she leaned down to kiss him softly.

He stared up at her for a moment taking in the look on her face. Since she had told him about her cancer, the color that once had filled her face seemed to have diminished slightly. But here in his arms as they lay together basking in the aftermath of their lovemaking she was beginning to look like the old Olivia again.

He knew that this moment had brought not only her back to life but him as well. Ever since he had left the precinct and her, part of him had died with his old life. She was his reason for getting up each morning and when he finally wasn't around her it was much harder to do anything. Ever since she had been back in his life he had begun to feel better, like he could figure things out even despite the fact that she was sick.

But now after this moment, after they had made love together all the pieces were being put back together finally. "You're not the only one that feels alive again Liv…"

She licked her lips and stared out the window at the dark city skyline as he continued to massage the back of her neck gently. "It's weird…"

He moved his head slightly and then began to run his hands through her hair before replying. "What is?"

She turned from the window to look back down at him. "I'm suddenly not so scared for tomorrow anymore…"

He stopped what he was doing and stared deep into her eyes again. "Why not?"
She smiled as she reached down to hold his face with her hand. "Because…I know I have you."

He let her words sink in for a moment before leaning up to kiss her. "You do have me Liv…"

She smirked and said. "And now I've had all of you…"

He laughed and went back to massaging the back of her neck. "I suppose you have…"

She smiled and leaned down to kiss him some more, it was like she couldn't get enough of him now. Thirteen years of pent up sexual tension and desire and now it had all spilled over. Nothing had ever felt so right…

"I meant what I said you know…" He whispered as she continued to prep his face and neck with kisses.

She pulled back only for a moment to be able to look at him. "About what?"

She went back to kissing him all along the side of his face and stubbly cheek. "About how I will always think you are beautiful…no matter what happens."

She kissed his cheek one last time before pulling back to look at him again. "You will?"

Elliot nodded and sat up; she stared up at him for a moment before sitting up to be at his eye level. She pulled the blankets up around her waist and over her chest suddenly feeling cold since she wasn't up against his skin.

He licked his lips and caressed her face gently. "Since the moment I met you thirteen years I've thought you were the most beautiful woman in the world…and no woman has ever been able to compare or match your beauty Olivia. No one ever will…"

She leaned into his hand and closed her eyes. "People fall out of love all the time…"

He shook his head. "That may be true but not when they have a love like ours…"

Her eyes fluttered open again as she stared at him. "What do you mean?"

He smiled. "Think of all we've been through Olivia. Thirteen years we've known each other…thirteen years we've fought together and against each other but in the end we've always found our way back to one another. Haven't we?"

She nodded slowly feeling her heart begin to pound in her chest again as his words and touch warmed her body once more. "Yes…"

He leaned forward and kissed her forehead gently. "I don't know what is going to happen after tomorrow or the days that follow...but I know it will be okay. I'm not scared of the future anymore."

She swallowed hard and breathed him in. "What about you? What will you do?"

He smiled. "I'm going to take care of you…just like you've always taken care of me."

She leaned forward and kissed him, never closing her eyes as she pulled away. "But…I meant what about your life? You can't just stop everything for me…"

He lay back on the bed again and put his arm behind his head as he stared up at her. "I know now that I can't rush back into anything. I need to take one day at a time so I don't make anymore mistakes."

She began to trace hearts and stars on his stomach and chest as she listened to him. "That sounds so very grown up of you…"

Elliot laughed. "I figured it's about time I start acting my age."

She smiled before leaning down to lay her arms across his chest and rest her chin on her arm. "You need to forgive yourself Elliot…everyone else has."

He pushed her hair out of her face again. "I will…eventually. Once I settle back into life here in the city…with you and the kids I'll be able to forgive myself I think."

She stared at him for a moment. "In a strange way…as angry and hurt as I was at you for leaving I was proud of you too."

He stared at her curiously. "What do you mean?"

"For so long…whenever something was bothering you, you would let it build up and fight. You would attack a perp…say something you regretted or hurt yourself. But this time…you stepped away form it all to take care of yourself. You knew you couldn't handle it anymore…you knew you needed a break and I admire that." She said honestly.

Elliot stared at her, surprised by her confession. "I still should have told you where I was going…I should have told you how I was feeling. I was being selfish."

Olivia sighed. "We all have the right to be selfish from time to time…"

"You always amaze me…how you are able to be so compassionate." Elliot said softly. "It's one of the things that made me fall in love with you…I was not used to it. I didn't understand it and I admired that quality. I wanted to be able to be like you…"

"But you are…" Olivia whispered to him. "You just don't see it."

He shook his head. "I am not a compassionate person." Elliot said sternly. "No way…"

She rolled his eyes. "You're not? Then how exactly do you think you were able to take care of the victims for so many years? How have you been able to be an absolutely loving father? You do have compassion Elliot…more than you or even I realize."

He sighed and stared at her for a moment. "You give me to much credit Benson…"

She smiled and sat up again to lean over him. "And you don't give yourself enough credit Stabler…"

Elliot tangled his hands in her hair again, pulled her closer and started to kiss her neck. "I guess we'll have to agree to disagree…"

"Isn't that what we do with pretty much everything?" Olivia asked as her eyes closed giving into his touch once more.

Elliot chuckled against her skin. "I suppose so…"

Olivia sat up as she straddled his hips and looked over at the clock, letting the sheet fall from her body. "It's not to late yet…I have time before I need to get some rest before tomorrow."

He smirked up at her. "And what exactly are you suggesting we do with this extra time?"

Olivia just smiled and leaned down to kiss him as he laughed against her lips and flipped them over so he was once again on top. She gasped at his actions but only smiled up at him as he leaned down to kiss her once more. The feel of his lips and his skin against hers was something she would never have enough of.

"I suggest we make the most of the time we have together…" She whispered softly.

Elliot stared down at her for a moment and smiled. "I couldn't agree more…"

Once again their bodies met casting aside all fears and doubts about tomorrow and the rest of the days to come. There was no guarantee that it would all turn out the way they wanted it too but for now they were content to know they had each other…

Well I hope you enjoyed the new chapter :) And I hope that you all had a wonderful holiday! Let me know what you thought by writing a review! Thanks!