Chapter 11 – Same As You.
Okay, so I have decided on something. I am no longer going to tell you that I will have an update on a certain day, because it seems that I am not able to keep that promise. I get overwhelmed with everything: homework, friends, college, family, and sickness. All of these things keep me from updating like I would like to, and I am so sorry for that. It disappoints me when I don't do something that I tell someone that I will do. It's aggravating, and I bet that's not just for me. So…I'm not going to give daily plans anymore and I'm not going to tell you when I can have another update. The best thing that I can try to do is to try regular updates.
If you are still reading this, thank you for sticking with me. However, if you no longer read this…I still thank you for reading when you did.
So on to the update. Please leave reviews and comments, I absolutely love them.
DISCLAIMER: I do not own Grey's Anatomy, Patrick Dempsey, or Eric Dane – but by god, the things I could do with those three things. Mmmm. HBO here we come. Haha.
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Mark couldn't believe what was happening before him. He hadn't thought it would ever happen, but here he was listening.
The man that swore to hate him for the rest of his life was here talking to him about some girl that he had went on a date with Saturday night. Mark really wasn't picking up any details because Derek told him that he would never talk to him again, and it had only been a few months since the incident.
However, Mark tried to look like he was listening, which he knew wasn't the best thing because if he wanted to be best friends or even friends again with Derek he should probably be listening, really listening. Mark shook his head and looked at Derek once more.
"She was absolutely wonderful. She is smart and funny, everything that Addison wasn't. She is absolutely beautiful, and not in that way where she wears too much make-up or her clothes are top of the line. She is just absolutely beautiful, especially in casual clothes. Absolutely stunning." Derek said, looking at Mark.
Mark smiled at Derek, but was really at a loss of words. What were you suppose to say to your ex-best friend who just got divorced because of you, then he just went on a date with an "absolutely stunning" woman? Sometimes, Mark wished that there were handbooks on these kind of issues.
"I'm glad, dude." Mark replied, leaning against the nurse's station and looking at Derek.
"Yeah." Derek replied, opening his chart. Derek turned away from Mark without saying goodbye and walked away. Mark shook his head and walked after him.
"Derek."
"Yes, Mark?"
"Why did you tell me about your date?"
"Because…" Derek turned around to Mark and just looked at him. Honestly, Derek didn't know why he told Mark, he just knew that he needed to tell someone to make the night that much more real.
"Derek?"
"I don't know…I just needed to tell someone."
"So we aren't friends again?" Mark said walking in step with Derek as they headed for their offices.
"No." Derek said bluntly.
"Dude…but I led you to this wonderful girl." Mark smirked
"No, you really didn't." Derek said, stopping at his door. "I did this one on my own."
"Yeah, but if I didn't…" Mark didn't dare finish his sentence, because he could tell that even though Derek had met a girl he wasn't over what Mark and Addison did to him.
"I'm glad you stopped what you were about to say."
"Yeah…me too." Mark replied, walking over to his office.
"Bye Derek."
"Bye Mark."
Mark walked inside of his office, thinking about everything that was going on in his life. He couldn't believe that he had slept with his best friends wife. What kind of idiot did that? What kind of idiot risked one of his best friendships? He knew who would. Someone that was in love with Meredith Grey, but Meredith Grey wouldn't give him more than a friendship. That was the kind of idiot that would ruin great things, because he couldn't ruin his chance with Meredith. However, he knew that if his Meredith was to find out what he did they would never talk again. Meredith hated cheaters, she was a wonderful woman that gave people second chances but she could never forgive a cheater – even if the cheater didn't cheat o her.
His Meredith was the most loving person that he had ever met.
He was lucky that Meredith was in his life. He didn't know what he would do if she wasn't in his life. If he dared himself to think about the possibility of Meredith not being in his life, his life would sum up to a bunch of nothing, meaningless one night stands and nothing else. He probably wouldn't be where he was without his best friend. Yes, he had a few other friends beside Meredith, but none of those made him feel like he was supposed to accomplish something in his life.
Meredith had made him fight for the things that he wanted in his life.
Meredith made him stand up to his parents.
Meredith made him wake up in the morning.
Meredith made him live. Which sounded extremely cheesy and corny but he knew that it was the truth. His life would be hell without Meredith Grey.
Mark couldn't believe that he had a date with her that Friday night. He still needed to make plans, and make him fall in love with him. Mark wasn't the type of guy to think about forevers or kids, but he could imagine these things with Meredith. He wanted to be with Meredith forever. He wanted to have matching rocking chairs. He wanted to have grandchildren running around the big oak tree in the front yard, but only with Meredith. He wanted to have the wonderful lifetime that Derek always talked about. Mark wanted the whole package, but he would only take it with Meredith.
Mark thought that he would share Meredith's first date with her. However, he wasn't the man that was the lucky one. Mark wanted to be the one that she shared all of her firsts with, but it seemed another man had taken his place. He needed to know more about this man. He needed to know what he was like. Was he a nice guy? Did he have one night stands? Did he worship the ground that Meredith walked on? Did he kiss his Meredith, Saturday night?
Saturday night was pure hell for Mark, because he could only think about what was happening. He thought about the worst things, but quickly realized that Meredith wouldn't sleep with the man on her first date. No, she wasn't that type of woman. If she hadn't dated a guy before, then she wouldn't sleep with him that easily. She was looking for forever, she knew what she deserved. Meredith believed that when someone had sex it was supposed to mean something, mean something so great. So she wouldn't do that on the first date.
Mark just hoped that he would be able to share forever with his Meredith, he wanted to be the one to kiss her first, hold her hands on the beach (as a couple), he wanted to share his whole heart and soul with Meredith – because he loved her that much. No woman had ever made him feel like this, except her. She made him feel like life was worth living. That even if he made mistakes, it was okay. Mark just hoped that she wouldn't have to find out that he cheated, that he made the most inexcusable mistake of all time, because he really didn't know what he would do if that was to happen.
He couldn't imagine a life without Meredith.