Big Big World
"I'm a big big girl
In a big big world
It's not a big big thing if u leave me
But I do do feel
That I do do will
Miss u much
Miss u much
I can see the first leafs falling
It's all yellow and nice
It's so very cold outside
Like the way I'm feeling inside"
I remember when I was little the other children at school would ask me what happened to my real parents and every time I'd tell them "They didn't want me" simply because that was what the social worker had told me. I was only a month old when my parents gave me up and I know nothing about them not even their names. However I had never really cared because the parents who loved me and looked after me chased away any thoughts of longing for knowledge of what my 'real' parents were like. And my mind was too full of Edward to ever think of parents when I arrived in the Forks it was simply not part of my life.
I walked into the hall on Friday my raincoat creating a puddle on the floor with an usual feeling of nervousness. It was when I met those golden eyes which I noticed were lighter than they had been when I last seen them I realised why. I now knew what Edward was hiding and eventually I'd have to confront him about it. It was the lesson before dinner my stomach reminded me with a growl.
Edward smiled at me as if he'd heard my stomach from where he was standing on the stage. I stared at him guiltily wishing I had left my curiosity alone. I took a deep breath and walked towards the stage.