You guys are soooo lucky that I love you. I am grounded from the computer for a month! But I woke up at 6:30 just to type this up and post it before anyone else got up. See, if I didn't love you guys, you would have had to wait a hole month for this chapter. LOL.
Disclaimer: Most of um aren't mine. I think you know which ones...
"George, I wish you would have called first. Olivia's still sleeping" Cragen informed the doctor.
"Oh, well that's alright. I cleared all of my appointments for the day anyhow. I guess I could just stick around here and wait for her to wake up?" he asked hopefully.
"Yeah of course you can" Cragen told him.
"Great. Now is someone gonna tell me what's the matter with Liv, or am I just gonna have to guess?" George asked.
"I'll tell you Huang" Elliot answered him.
Everyone else in the room already knew the horrible story that Elliot was about to tell. But as he and Huang sat down, Cragen, Kim, Munch, and Fin couldn't help but to do the same and listen in.
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It hadn't even been an hour yet since Elliot left Olivia alone in the crib to get some more sleep, but she was already awake again. She was lying on her back on the stiff bed thinking about the nightmare she had just had. The dream may have only lasted a few minutes, but it felt like hours to Olivia. She couldn't just lay there torturing herself with the memories anymore. She got up and walked downstairs into the bullpen.
Elliot had long-since finished telling Huang the story. Kim had left for a lunch date. And Munch and Fin had left for the hospital, where a rape victim had reported her attack. When Olivia entered the room, the only people she saw were a few uniformed officers and the protective detail, plus Elliot, Cragen, and Huang. The three men were drinking coffee and carrying on light conversation. When Elliot saw her out of the corner of his eye, he immediately turned his focus onto her.
"Olivia, what are you doing awake?" he asked with genuine concern.
"I know you would like me to Elliot, but I can't sleep forever" she replied back sarcastically.
"Not forever Liv, just until you feel better."
"Well I can't sleep anymore. I need to do something" she said looking at Cragen, hoping her could give her something to do. She would even settle for paperwork at this point.
"Olivia, since you're up now and you have nothing else to do, how about you and I talk for a while" Huang suggested.
Olivia had to think about this for a little bit. It was obvious to her what he wanted to talk about, but she didn't know if she was ready to discuss it. Sure she had opened up to Elliot about an hour earlier, but Huang was a professional. He would push her a lot further and she didn't know how much more she could take. She decided though that if talking to Huang would make her feel better, it was worth the risk of having a mini-meltdown.
"Uhm, yeah, okay" Olivia said hesitantly.
"You two can talk in my office. It's unlocked" Cragen told them.
"Thanks Captain" Huang said with his usual grin. Then he stood up and walked towards Olivia. He placed his hand on her back and guided her towards to captain's office.
"So Olivia, how have you been feeling these past couple of days?" Huang asked her once they had both taken a seat.
"I've been okay" Olivia lied. She wasn't quite sure why, but she felt a need to deny her true feelings to the doctor.
"Really?" Huang asked knowingly. "Based on what Elliot just told me you and him went through, I would have thought you would be anything but okay"
"Well I've been hanging in" Olivia reasoned with him.
"Okay" Huang said as he clicked his pen and began writing in his notepad.
"What do you think about Jimmy Somers?" he asked.
"You're kidding right?" Olivia asked in disbelief. "He raped six women. I think he's a bastard and he deserves to go to hell for what he did."
"He almost made you woman number seven didn't he Olivia?"
Olivia was quiet for a moment. She had never though of it like that before.
"Yeah, I guess he did" she said, choking back tears of realization.
"What stopped him?" Huang asked.
"His nephew Derek came in when he heard me screaming. He shot Jimmy and he fell off me."
"Where was Elliot when all of this was happening?" Huang already knew the answers to all of his questions, but he wanted to hear it form Olivia.
"He was in the warehouse, laying right next to me."
"Why didn't he help you then?"
"Because he was tied to a pole. He couldn't get up."
"I see. So what did he do?"
"He was screaming at Jimmy to get off me. I couldn't see him, but I could hear how enraged he was."
"I can imagine" Huang said as he jotted in his notepad again.
"How do you feel about Jimmy still being out there somewhere?"
"I'm scared to death. I can't stand not knowing where he is or what he's going to do. I feel so helpless. And the protective detail isn't doing much to change that."
"Is that why you can't sleep?" he asked, looking directly into her eyes.
Olivia looked down at her lap and nodded her head. "I can't be alone in the dark anymore. The only time I feel completely safe is when I'm with Elliot. I didn't have any trouble falling asleep with him last night, but when he left me alone this morning, I was only able to sleep for a few minutes. And I had a nightmare" Olivia told him, becoming frustrated.
"What was your nightmare about Olivia?" Huang asked, sitting up straight and focusing on her.
"Nothing, it was nothing" Olivia said, squirming in her seat, uncomfortable with the way Huang was looking at her. He noticed this though, so he leaned back and softened his stare.
"Olivia, I need you to tell me what your dream was about so that I can properly assess you."
Olivia stopped squirming. She sat perfectly still and focused on her knees.
"We were back at the warehouse" Olivia chocked out. Huang could tell she was still struggling to hold back tears. Her voice was whiney and her bottom lip was quivering. "Elliot was still tied to the pole, screaming. And Jimmy was still on top of me. Except this time, Derek didn't save me from him." Then Olivia began sobbing. She was heaving so hard she could barely breathe, but she just couldn't stop.
Huang felt horrible for pushing her to this, but he knew it was for the best. He got up and walked over to Olivia and kneeled down in front of her. He grabbed her hands and looked up at her, waiting for her to look back. When she finally did, he started speaking.
"Olivia, I know you're hurting right now, and that's perfectly fine. What happened to you was traumatic. The way you're feeling is normal. No one will think any less of you for crying, remember that. It's good that you're opening up, it means you're accepting things, and you're ready to move on."
Olivia had stopped sobbing, and now only quiet tears rolled down her cheeks, the occasional one landing on her still-quivering lips.
"I think this is enough for today Olivia. But I would really like to start regular sessions with you. How about you call me next time you want to talk?"
Olivia nodded her head, having only somewhat heard him.
"Great" Huang said with a smile. "Now how about you go get yourself cleaned up. I'm going to stay here for a bit and talk to Cragen." Then Huang helped Olivia out of her chair and guided her towards the door. Before she opened it enough to fit through though, Huang turned her around to face him.
"Olivia, I mean it. If you feel like talking, call me. I don't care what time it is or where you are, I'll get there, okay?"
Olivia smiled at the smaller man. "Okay George, thank you" she said. Then she wrapped her arms around him and pulled him closer to her in a hug. Huang was slightly put off by this, but he still wrapped his arms around Olivia's waist and returned the embrace.
When Olivia walked out of the room, Elliot couldn't help but notice her. Her face was red and puffy and she had makeup running down her cheeks. When she walked into the locker rooms, he figured she was headed for the showers.
"Captain Cragen, can I talk to you for a minute?" Huang called out across the room.
Cragen looked at Elliot, then he stood up and walked into his office. Closing the door behind him. He took a seat behind his desk. Huang took the chair across for him, where Olivia had been sitting only moments before.
"Captain, Olivia is definitely traumatized. I can't tell you exactly what she said, but you should know that she is hurting. I will have to speak with her some more, but I'm willing to bet that she has PTSD."
Cragen sat there for a moment. He knew something was off with Olivia but he didn't know it was this bad.
"So what should I do? Do you think I should give her some time off?" he asked the doctor.
"Honestly, I don't think time off is what she needs right now. She can't stand to be left alone. I think she should stay right here. She probably shouldn't go out in the field, but give her some paperwork to do. Just keep her busy."
"Alright, thank you George. I really appreciate you seeing her on such short notice" Cragen said as he stood up and shook Huang's hand, who was now also standing.
"Oh no problem Captain. Now listen, I told Olivia that whenever she wanted to talk, to call me. But if you ever think that she needs to talk to someone, don't hesitate to call me either okay?"
"I won't George, thanks again" the captain answered. Huang smiled at him, then he opened the door and walked out. Cragen closed the door again and returned to his seat.
"Good to see you again Elliot, I'm glad you're okay" Huang said to the detective as he walked past him. Elliot didn't say anything back, he just watched him walk across the room and step into the elevator. Then he was gone.
He desperately wanted to know what was said between Olivia and Huang, and what Huang had said to Cragen. But he figured he would find out sooner or later, so he got back to finishing some paperwork for cases he had before this incident had occurred. He had barely been working again for five minutes when he heard a loud crash. He couldn't tell where it had come from, but when he heard screaming, he took off towards the locker rooms.
"Olivia!" he shouted as he ran.
Ooooooh! Cliffhanger! haha. Well I'm sure I'll be sneaking on the computer again soon so you won't have to wait too long for chapter 12 :D Happy?
