Hello! Thanks for reading :) Inlustris is latin for starlight :) I love the idea of latin titles idk xD
Tauriel walked into the high ceiling chamber where the royals laid in their death sleep. The dwarves were currently surrounding the royals, and most were saying some words with tears in their eyes. The air inside made her feel claustrophobic and her head spun as her eyes landed on Kili. Her hand immediately caressed her stomach as her eyes stung with tears.
"That is your father" she whispered in an almost inaudible voice. A small smile spread at her lips as she mentally announced to Kili that she was with child.
The dwarves fell silent as Tauriel approached them.
"You all have given them reasons to stay" Elrond said in a soothing voice. His gaze landed on Tauriel and then returned to the silent dwarves, Bilbo and the wizard.
They all nodded as they all looked and leaned on each other for support.
"They have waited long to see this kingdom flourish. We are here because of them" Dwalin announced with a saddened gaze. "They deserve to be here among their kin"
"We shall give them the best opportunity to return" Elrond answered with a hesitant look that he quickly masked. He had to maintain a clear and open mind so he could concentrate on the challenging task at hand.
Galadriel turned to the dwarves with a smile trying to lighten the uncertainty she felt surrounding the room. "I appreciate the presence of you all, and now we should allow Tauriel some privacy"
Tauriel's head rose away from looking at Kili as her name was mentioned. She sniffed quietly as the dwarves passed her on their way to the door. They all whispered a hello and some patted her on the shoulder for support. Bilbo stopped and gave her a quick hug which filled her with warmth.
She also saw Galadriel and Elrond approach her as well. His gaze fell down to her midsection with questions in his mind. Tauriel respectfully bowed her head as he patted her shoulder in response.
"Stay strong child" Galadriel whispered, coming to her next, and grazing Tauriel's cheek with the back of her hand.
Tauriel took a deep breath and gave her a determined nod. She closed her eyes as she heard the door shut behind her. Some tears stained her cheeks as she walked over to Fili who was closest to her. She caressed his cold cheek.
"Your family misses you dearly" she whispered. "Come back to us. Your mother would want to be able to hug you after being away from her for so long"
She then moved to Thorin and bowed silently. "You have a kingdom that needs your ruling. Your family misses you as well"
She leaned her hands for support on the stone pedestal on which Thorin laid as her eyes shifted to Kili. A smile grew at her lips amidst her hysteria.
"Your nephew is reckless" she said in a chuckle as more tears ran down her cheeks and hit the stone pedestal like raindrops. "He managed to get an elf with child. How reckless is that?"
Her chuckling stopped as she swallowed heavily. She walked over to Kili with small steps.
"There is a little baby inside of me. Our baby" she whispered as she shook with tears. Her hand grabbed his colder one. "Our night of passion resulted in something so precious"
Tauriel cried as she looked at him and wished he would open his eyes. She would love to know of his reaction... somehow it made her anxious to know if he would approve of the child.
"Of course you would" she hissed, cursing herself. "You are far too kind and extraordinary to refuse a child"
Her chest heaved then as she stared at his lifeless body. The connection she knew they had shared was long gone and in its place stood a dark and empty feeling.
"You have to return to me Kili" she then said trying to rekindle the energy between them. Her voice was loud as she felt like she would faint from the overwhelming emotion she felt. "Please return to me. I can't do this without you. I need you to meet our babe"
She leaned on the stone and cried into her arm as she held his hand. "I want you to come back… to me as well"
Her voice echoed off into the silence. "I miss you so much"
She rose her head as she blinked through the tears. She then grabbed his hand and placed it at her stomach.
"You are to be a father, my love" she whispered through her gasps and tears. "A baby Kili. You cannot leave me alone. I am not strong enough to do this on my own. Please!"
Desperation filled her. "You reckless dwarf you will not escape from this so easily!" she accused and she chuckled as she almost imagined his grin.
Tauriel then reached for the stone she kept hidden on her corset. Her fingertips grazed the surface and the runes.
"You made me a promise. You have to keep it alright?" she pled. "Please return to me my love"
She wiped her tears and covered her mouth with her hand so no one would hear her crying.
"Please" she repeated and moved over him and pressed a soft kiss on his cheek.
Tauriel moved away quickly as she could not tolerate the feeling of coldness that roamed his body. He did not deserve to be lying on that table. None of them did.
She cried some more as she ran her fingers across his hand. "I will wait for you"
With that, she took a deep breath and walked away. She turned to look at the three of them and turned towards the door. Tears raced down her cheeks as hope tried to sneak upon her. With defeat upon her, she accepted it as her hand grasped the handle of the door.
"I know you will all return. I will see you again my love"
Smoke arose from the engulfed town as the little boat arrived at shore. Tauriel looked around in shock through the dark of the night, as destroyed pieces of the town washed upon the rocky shoreline. The group aboard the small boat was silent. But the screams and cries of those who had survived were ringing in the air like chaotic waves.
"Let's find your father" Tauriel proposed as she caressed the little girl's tear stained cheek. Tilda was her name, and she looked distraught and her once brilliant eyes were almost darkened.
"He's dead" the oldest, Sigrid, whispered with a half gasp. Tauriel looked at one of the dwarves who looked at her in regret. What Sigrid said may be true.
"Let's look for him" she repeated with a soothing smile. "I'm sure your brother and father are around here somewhere"
They all looked through the darkness upon the edges of the water where people moved with no destination in mind.
"Tauriel" Kili called but she kept her eyes away from his and helped the girls jump down from the boat.
"We will camp out here for tonight. Leave at first light" Fili said as he looked at Kili. The way his gaze bore into Tauriel was alarming and a bit confusing. Yet he was no idiot, he knew of his brother's feelings for the she-elf.
"Kili" he said as he gave him a hand so he could jump out of the boat. His younger brother took his hand and hopped down carefully.
"How is your leg?" he asked though that was not the question he wanted to ask and Kili knew it.
"Better" he said with a nod but Fili noticed his attention was far away.
"Leave it be" Fili warned sharply with a serious look.
Kili shook his head. "I wish I could"
And with that he went after Tauriel and the girls leaving Fili, Bofur and Oin alarmed and confused.
"That is dangerous" Bofur urged as they stared after the young prince.
"I have seen that look that he carries, Fili" Oin began. "He is beyond reason now"
Fili sighed as he shook his head and turned to the older dwarves.
"Let's find a place where we can sleep"
Kili wandered far trying to find the familiar pretty face in the sea of survivors. He grew impatient until he heard a girl's voice call for her father and he knew it was Tilda. At a closer look Tauriel was not present where he could see Tilda and Sigrid hugging their brother and father.
A small smile spread on his lips at the thought of Bard surviving. He had killed the dragon and he himself will thank him but as for now.. he needed to find Tauriel. She had been avoiding him, and perhaps the situation had called for attention on needing to survive, but she ignored any gaze he threw at her.
"Have you seen a redhead elf maiden around?" he asked a woman who sat with a young child in her arms.
She gave him a slight nod. He stepped closer to her and with help of nearby torches he could see her pain-stricken eyes. But he knew that it was no physical pain she was feeling.
"She walked that way. Towards those trees" she informed. Kili removed his top coat and offered it to her.
"Thank you" he said as she looked at the coat with hesitation. "Take it please"
When she did not he gave her a small smile and wrapped the coat around the small boy she held. His brown curls were wet and his big eyes were wide open and filled with fear.
"You brought a monster upon us" the women then said. Kili sighed deeply.
"Our intention was never this"
The women closed her eyes. "It will be ill will to blame you folks for this"
Kili's eyes wandered to the ground. "I know it is not worth anything. But I give you my sincere apologies"
The lady fell silent and hugged her child who began to sleepily close his eyes.
"Thank you for the coat.. and the apology"
Kili gave her a slow nod and walked off to the path that she had pointed to. He walked through the trees until he arrived at a small clearing. Rocks were stacked upon each other at various places but no trees grew in it.
He looked around in the darkness until he spotted red hair.
Tauriel sat on the floor.
His heart began to crumble as he saw her take her face in her hands. She did not cry but seeing her in a distraught state brought great worry to him.
He took a step into the clearing, stepping on a branch and breaking it as he did. She raised her head immediately but she stared ahead as if she knew he was there.
The moon moved away from the cloud banks, casting off some light. He looked at the stars above as he walked to her. He remembered the beautiful talks of starlight and firemoons they had shared.
"Tauriel" he called and she avoided him again. He took a deep breath as he kneeled beside her.
He noticed a small cut that was bleeding on the top of her hand. He reached to it and as he did she pulled her arm away from his reach. That did it… his patience was thinning.
"Stop this" he hissed as he moved so he could be in front of her. She looked down at her hands as she crossed her legs so they wouldn't touch his. Her resolve would not melt away. She was stubborn and he knew it.
"Go back to your brother" she ordered, still not looking at him. He exhaled deeply through his nose and then he reached for her chin and before she could move away he grabbed her shoulder.
Their eyes met and she could not look away. It was as if he held her captive with his deep and longing gaze.
"Why?" he simply asked as he stared deep into her brilliant green eyes.
"Let me go" she hissed reaching for his hand but as she grabbed it he moved it lower to grasp her elbow.
"Why are you avoiding me like this?" he repeated, his eyes begging for an answer.
"This was a mistake" she breathed shaking her head. He shifted his knee on the grass to move closer to her.
"A mistake?" he asked.
Tauriel felt a tinge of regret for her words as his eyes filled with sadness. But anger filled her once again. Anger she had towards herself.
"I should have never dared to... "
"Kiss me?" he asked, interrupting her. Tauriel glared at him as he rose a brow.
"Or do you regret getting on top of me?"
Her glare deepened and darkened. The image of her being on top of him and feeling his body underneath her hands brought forth a warm feeling that she tried to force away.
"Or.. do you regret allowing my hand to go under your clothes?"
She fisted her hands and sent him a warning look.
"That was out of character. I should have never done that!"
Kili gave her a small smile. "Out of character? I caressed your soft skin and I saw the smile that took upon your lips as I did"
Her anger escalated as she lowered her gaze to look at his soft smile. He caught the way her pupils dilated as she looked at his lips. And at that she hissed and pushed him to the floor and in a blur of time, she had a dagger at his throat. Kili would have been scared beyond comprehension but he knew she would never hurt him. And the fact that she straddled his hips once more had him seeing stars in his vision.
"This is me!" she hissed pressing the dagger closer to his skin. "This is what I am trained to do, what my character entails"
Kili looked unimpressed as he shook his head. "You, my dear are trying very hard to make me walk away. But before you keep trying, I want to thank you for saving me"
Tauriel looked at him with a pointed look. "I don't regret saving your life. But I should have never allowed you in"
He sighed as her anger seemed to evaporate and regret and doubt began to swim in her eyes.
"The moment you kissed me keeps replaying in my mind" he whispered and he reached up to caress her cheeks with both hands. She did not remove her dagger but she did not push him away.
"Being able to hold you in my arms was the most incredible experience" he added, his fingers falling down to touch her lips. Her eyes fluttered closed as his focused on her soft and smooth lips. The deep craving he felt to kiss them was driving him insane.
"This is a mistake" she whispered once more with defeat in her voice. She dropped her dagger on the grass but as she was going to rise he stopped her.
"Are you going to ignore what you feel?" he asked with a sharp gaze. She immediately looked angry.
"What I feel?" she asked with a hiss. "I do not feel anything. It was just a moment of vulnerability. I had just cured you using athelas which takes tremendous skill, so I was amazed and confused"
He cocked his head to the side and gave her an unimpressed look once again. She swallowed and narrowed her eyes.
"You are a bad liar" he whispered.
"What do you suppose happened? That I enjoyed myself?" she asked and he took a deep breath to calm down his impatience. She was stubborn but so was he.
He grabbed her chin and gently pulled her down. She gave him a dark look but he ignored it.
"Saying you merely enjoyed yourself would be the understatement of the century"
"You do not know that" she scoffed raising her head.
He lifted a brow. "Tauriel. You showed me how you truly feel. I do not need you to say it because you showed me"
"That is it. Let me go before I stab you with my dagger!"
Her voice was threaded with a deep threat that made his skin pale but he continued to deny the fact that she would hurt him.
She was being difficult and she knew it. The only reason why she did not move away from him was that she would have to hurt him to pry herself off of his hold. His warmth was making her weak by the second and his eyes were making her breath stop here and there. But her resolve did not melt away.
"You're going to have to stab me. I am not letting you go"
His voice wore a tone of challenge.
"Is that so?" she said as he nodded and gave her a reckless grin.
"In fact, lets play a little game" he proposed with a mischievous voice and a suggestive smile.
She scoffed. "I do not play games"
And at that he flipped her to her back before she could blink. She was left speechless as she gave him an accusatory glare.
"If you manage to get me off of you then I will walk away to the shore"
Tauriel sighed and shook her head. "And what if I do not?"
He leaned in close and pressed a kiss to her brow. Her heart almost stopped at the feel of his lips. He always made her feel so juvenile, it angered her.
"I will kiss you at every failed attempt"
"Valar. This is pointless. What are you trying to prove?"
Kili chuckled. "That you did enjoy it when you kissed me"
Tauriel's eyes faltered under his heavy gaze. He saw her hazy eyes fall to his mouth which made his heart accelerate and at that moment she pushed him away with mighty strength. But he held onto her wrists with an impressive grip.
The wind got knocked out of him as he landed on his back. She chuckled softly as he blinked many times but he still held onto her.
"Ahhh" he said with triumphed and quickly pulled her down and caught her mouth with his.
Tauriel squealed in surprise as he kissed her. She felt her eyes close and her hands grasped his clothes. Their tongues pressed together; their breaths synced. They were one under the sky full of stars.
Starlight and moonlight showered upon them as they kissed with tremendous passion.
He felt her sigh against him and softly bit his lower lip. A warm shiver ran down his spine. Mahal… she was wickedly magnificent. She was forcing herself to be angry and distant but he knew of her real intentions and feelings. They were clear as day.
"You're scared to pursue this" he whispered against the side of her mouth once they parted. "I am too. But we can't jeopardize our happiness due to difficulty"
"We can't let this continue Kili" she whispered hiding her face at the crook of his neck. He wrapped his arms around her slim figure. trying to soothe her.
"Tauriel" he urged. "I can't stop what I feel, darling"
She froze and closed her eyes. "I should have never kissed you much less climbed on top of you. That was a mistake and I'm so embarrassed. And I just kissed you again!"
Kili sighed as she hid away.
"I don't mind" he said and shrugged his shoulders.
She sighed. "Of course you don't. But I have never done that. I don't know what took upon me"
"Tauriel" he soothed. "Stop being so hard on yourself"
She sighed and looked up to meet his eyes.
"This is a mistake" she repeated and with great effort she tore herself from his hold. His warmth was immediately missed but she forced herself not to return to him.
"Tauriel" he whispered. His eyes looked lost and helpless. "I don't know how to walk away"
Tauriel felt like she would cry. She never cried with ease but now she felt like tears would flow down her cheeks. How could she give in?
"We can't let this happen" she said swallowing hard as she stood up and he followed. "Lets just walk away Kili. Let's say goodbye"
"Please…" he began to say taking a step towards her. The emotions welled up inside of him. He did not want to cry but he felt as if he would at the sole thought of never seeing her again. His heart raced at the cruel idea of walking away.
They stood there looking at each other. The moon was up above, looking at the two lovers as they felt the pain of what could come if they never saw each other again.
Then the air carried a soft breeze that played with Tauriel's hair. Her long fiery locks flew around her shoulders. Kili could not stop looking at her hair dance around. How could he stop looking at her? How could he just walk away? She did not want to walk away either judging by the way she seemed to be frozen, unable to move.
"No" he then said as he approached her with fast steps. "I am not going to walk away from the one person that makes me forget my own name just by looking at her"
She looked at the ground as a few tears ran down her cheeks. A small smile grazed her lips.
"I will give you the space you need to be alone with your thoughts, Tauriel. But I will not say goodbye"
Tauriel gave him a small nod as she silently wiped her tears away.
"Meet me at the shore at the first light" he then said. "I will search this entire earth for you if you do not show up"
She sniffed and rose a brow.
"Is that a threat?" she asked and cracked a smile through her tears.
He gave her a serious look as he walked towards her. He gave her a kiss on the cheek, wiping the tears away with his lips.
"It is a threat darling" he whispered at the side of her mouth. She wanted him to kiss her but she did not dare to move her head so her lips would catch his. Instead, she stayed there, frozen and craving his touch before it even left her.
She saw him turn around and walk away and she could actually feel her heart yearning for him. Even her skin yearned for his caress.
"This is still a bad idea" she loudly noted.
"I know it is" he said looking over his shoulder. "But I love bad ideas"
Notes- Short chapter... but I hope you all enjoyed it. Thank you all for reading :)
Response to Kiliel Shipper (guest)- Hey there :) First of all do not ever apologize for giving a writer (or anyone who posts their work) your opinion/criticism. I welcome it gladly. Now to your comment itself. The intimate scene was intense.. but not too much. I personally think that Kili and Tauriel bring out in each other something that its out of character for both of them. They are different around each other. They were both reckless and passionate before they meet and after they do, both of those traits explode into an intensity that sorta of fits their situation. Here in this chapter you can see Tauriel going back to her 'character' and her 'way of being' but you cant really take away a passionate moment and not take it far with those two XD at least, I cant. Besides, I wanted something different from the way I wrote this scene in my other fic. Now for your other part of your comment... the chapters for this fic are very short (compared to length of my other fic's chapters) So I cant put too much in them, because I do like keeping them short. The 'plot' itself is weaving a bit slower since it is going to be a short fic. I will get to the actual question of the three of them will return from the dead pretty soon. I hope you hang in there :) Thank you for your comment and of course, for reading.