Everything's Worse
Entry 11:
Dave collapsed yesterday. Ever since the day at the coffee shop, he had been a little out of it but still getting around okay. Then yesterday, without much warning, his body just shut down. I was in the kitchen when I heard Sunny scream for me. I hurried to Dave's room and he was on the floor with Sunny's tiny hands moving his body and pleading for him to get up. I honestly thought he was gone. Just like that, in the half blink of an eye. Although she was hysterical and crying, I got her somewhat calm enough to tell me what happened. I think she said that he stood up to get out of bed, started holding his midsection and just passed out. At some point, it came to me to check his pulse. I hadn't lost him yet. I explained to Sunny that I was sure he was going to be okay, but she didn't calm down until Dave's eyes slowly opened as proof. He looked like he had trouble focusing on us for a minute but he eventually came around.
I've been avoiding reality so much with that damn book because I'm terrified of it but I can't keep pretending that Dave's not dying. His time is winding down and I need to prepare myself for that. This is one of the hardest things I've ever had to do.