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I sat there alone while she did what ever she was doing out in the some strange reason I was so angry with her that if I had the ability I would have beat her ass.I think that I was mad at her for not understanding why i didnt want to talk to or see him right now whitch wasn't her fault she didn't know how could she and how could I tell there was just the fact that I was just angry period and I hurt physically and mentaly I knew one thing for sure I wasnt going back to that house I would figure everything else later but there was no way in hell I was going i sat there I heard voices outside my door I tried to hear what they were saying but it was muffled the door opened and there he stood.

"GET THE HELL OUT OF HERE YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO BE HERE"I yelled.

"Katie please I need to talk to you I'm sick about what happened if you want me to leave after we talk if you don't ever want to see me again after we talk thats fine I'll understand just please talk to me."he said.

"Shut the fucking door and talk"I said."You have five minutes."

"You know that wasn't me I would never ever hurt you I love you I would never hurt you like that."He said tears running down his face.I just stared at him I wasn't afraid of him I knew what he was saying was true I knew it wasn't him that had tried to kill me but it was him who had failed to protect me.

"Ryan I know that wasn't you I know you would never do something like that but I need some time I can't just say everything is ok.I just wish I had stayed home like I wanted to."

"None of this is your fault if anyone is to blame its me not you I asked you to come I promised to protect you and I failed in the worst way."

I sat there staring at his back facing me at the end of the bed I began to cry if what happened wasn't bad enough it was now suceeding in tearing us apart.I felt that at that moment I needed to make a choice eiether I was going to get past this and try to get my life and our realationship back to where I should be or I was going to let this destroy me and us as well and I wasn't about to let that happen.I inched down to the end of the bed and rested my head on his back.

"I love you to and I don't want to lose you and if I allow this to tear us apart I'm allowing it to win and I will not do that."

He turned to look at me and his were full f pain and love at the same time he lightly kissed me."I love you Katie."he said.

I looked away."There is something I have to tell you and I don't want you to hate me I wasn't going to tell you but I can't not tell you.

"Katie I could never hate you never what ever it is we will get through it I promise."

I blurted it out."Ryan I'm pregnant."

"What?" "Are you sure when did you find out?"

"I guess when I got here they took blood for whatever reason and found out I didn't know before this"He kissed my forhead and put his arms arould me.

"It will be ok we will be ok and we are going to make this work."he said.

"Ryan what if this isnt what I want I'm 18 I just started school and we havn't been together very long I think it would be better if I got it taken care of I'm not ready to have a baby."

"Well you are so better get ready your not killing our baby how could you ever think of doing something like that."

"Who the hell do you think you are to tell me what I am and am not going to do I can think and do for myself and this is my decision to make."

"No katie this is our decision and its not a decision its our baby and your not having an abortion you cant how could you do that?"

"Well you cant stop me its my choice and I think its what is best foreveryone involved."

"You think it is better if you kill our baby Katie I cant believe you could be so cruel do you hate me that much I know this is bad timing for both of us but its not the babys fault I love you katie but I cannot be with you if you do this."he said as he walked out of the room.

I sat there dumbfounded did he really just leave why was he being like this he couldnt possibly think this would work out.

"Katie" I heard my sister say.

"What"I said

"Did you tell him I saw him storm out of here."

"Well there is your anwser then now could you just go and leave me alone I cant take any more today I just want to go to sleep and never wake up."

"Ill handel this when I see him tonight if he thinks hes going to do this to you and just walk out he has another thing coming FUCK THAT."

"He didnt walk out because I told him he walked out because I told him I wanted to have n abortion Kat he said if I do this he cant be with me."

"Oh"she said.

"Well he is right I dont think you should have one eiether I think you are hurt confused and not thinking clearly and should not be making that decision now.I know you are scared and feel like your life is over but trust me its not.I dont want you to do something now because you are upset that you will regret later please dont make any decision until you get your head clear and you talk to someone about what happened promis me that.

I looked away "OK" I said.

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