''A-Ahn...ha...-''

I got pressed with my back against the cold wet walls of the bathroom. Hair dripping with water from the hot shower Antonio and I were in.

I let out a moan as the man who was holding me moving in and out.

I had my arms and legs wrapped around the Spaniard as he thrusts deep into me.

''Hm...Lovi...'' He pressed some kisses to my neck and bite softly in it, which made me gasp and another moan escaped my lips.

I don't quite remember how things turned out like this. It's just... I was up to take a fucking shower and all of a sudden Antonio wanted to join too and said I was 'being sexy' or something and we kissed and yeah...it turned out into this.

I cling a bit more around the Spaniard as he hit me somewhere on a certain spot that makes me see stars. A loud moan came from me.

It didn't took long before I came close. After a few thrusts and hits on my sweet spot, I came all over our chests.

Antonio followed not much later.

We slide down to our knees, sitting on the floor as we tried to catch our breaths. Antonio pulled out of me and sat beside me, leaning against the walls. Luckily the shower got us clean up fast.

We sat downstairs, eating some breakfast after our (erh...extremely hot and steamy) shower.

Right now, two months had passed. I hadn't been to hospital as much as before. The last time I went, the doctor even told me I probably don't need my medication at all anymore if I keep up like this. Such a great news!

Also, today was a important day. At least, to me.

Today is the day Feliciano and I would go to somewhere. We've been calling each other every weekend, trying to make plans (and also to keep more in contact with each other).

''What time will you be going?'' Antonio asked me as he placed a cup of coffee in front of me.

''Hm...past 11AM, I think...Feli will pick me up, so.'' I shrugged and picked up the cup to take a sip.

''Ah...okay.''

And as I had expected, a quarter past eleven Feliciano was there in front of the door to pick me up.

I opened the door and let my brother in, welcoming him and asking if he wanted to have something to drink first before we would go.

''Oh, Feliciano, nice to see you.'' Antonio greeted him with a smile.

''Hello, Antonio.'' Feliciano greeted back, a smile as always as well on his face.

''So, you and Lovi are going to somewhere today?''

''Hmh, it's gonna be so much fun, I can't wait!~''

''Don't get so overexcited, Feli, you're not a child anymore.'' I said with a soft sigh as I came back with something to drink for him. A soft laugh only was received from him.

''Sorry, big brother, it's just...I'm so happy we're able to go hang out today again after such a while. It makes me excited.''

''Aaah, I wish I could come too. Say, are you really going to be fine, Lovi? you know I don't like it to leave you alone and such...''

I turned my head to Antonio as I let out another sigh. ''Of course I am going to be fine, Antonio. Jeez, there's no need to be worried about. We're only going to somewhere and that's it.''

''Hmh, no worries, Antonio! I'll take good care of Lovi! I promise I will!''

Antonio pouted, just slightly. It was as if he wanted to come, too or something. But he couldn't, today it was... a brother day. Yes, brother day.

''Fine... I count on you, Feli.'' A smile from the Spaniard came and patted my little brother a bit on the head.

After Feliciano had finished his drink, we finally went and go.

''I'm so happy today, brother. We finally get to go to somewhere together.'' Feliciano grinned and walked a bit ahead of me.

''Ah, yeah. I'm happy about that, too- hey, not so fast, dammit!''

''Sorry.~''

After an hour or so, we finally arrived our destination; the zoo.

It was really that busy, from which I was glad. We walked around together, watching the animals laze around and the small ones play.

''You've always liked the zoo, haven't you, Feli?

Feliciano was leaning on the rail with his arms as he watched the elephants eating.

''Yeah but, don't you too?'' He looked at me and turned himself around, though still leaning with his elbows on the railing.

I had my hands in my pockets as he looked up to the sky, smiling just a tiny bit as an old sort of memory came back up to me.

''I remember well we always had to go search around for you whenever we went to the zoo. You always wanted to see the monkeys, so, it wasn't quite hard to find you.'' I chuckled slightly as I looked at my brother.

''Ah, yeah, but those small animals are so funny. I could say the same about you, too though. You always wanted to go see the tigers...if we didn't, you got mad and eventually cried. You even said you would walk away from home or something if we didn't go to the tigers right now.''

I blushed slightly at that and looked away. ''Y-Yeah well, anyone would like to see their favorite animals, don't they? B-Besides, those animals are beautiful, mind you.''

I could hear Feliciano chuckling. ''Yeah, truth.''

So, we walked further. We got something to eat in the meanwhile before going to see the rest of the animals.

''Say, Feliciano?''

''Hm?''

''Are you still with that German bastard?''

Feliciano stopped walking at this. He turned himself around to look at me, his eyes didn't look so happy at me though. ''You mean Ludwig? I am still with him, yes. And he isn't a bastard, Lovino.''

Feliciano looked straight at me, voice serious.

''Well, to me he is-''

''Why do you think that?'' He cut me off. ''To me, Ludwig is nice. I already know why you hate him. Because of what happened when we were little, right? Ludwig's different, Lovino. Ludwig won't leave me like that. I trust him and love him. I trust and love him just like you do with Antonio. Look, I'm not asking you to get best friends with him or anything. But,please, be somewhat nicer to him and accept it as it is. Well...enough about him now, today is our day and we should enjoy from that.''

And with that, Feliciano started to walk ahead.

I watched him, I was speechless. I watched my brother with big eyes.

My little brother...he had grown up so much. My brother, who always got bullied (erh, and well me too). I could still see those times where he stood somewhere in a corner, crying, because he had gotten bullied again.

At school, there were groups of bullies who always picked on Feli. Yet, there were also groups who absolutely loved him.

I was always the one who tried to protect my brother from bullying, yet I was never the one who got loved by others.

My brother often asked me to come along whenever he went out playing with friends. Yet I always refused.

I felt unwanted, I felt like I only got in the way if I did so. But Feli thought different about that...

He said he wouldn't go, not if I didn't. 'Because brothers are there for each other'.

...

''Lovi...Lovino!''

I snapped out of my thoughts as I heard a voice calling for my name and saw Feliciano standing right in front me. ''H...Huh... wha?''

''Jeez, what were you doing, daydreaming? Come on, brother, there are lots of animals we've still gotta see!'' He grabbed my arm and I blinked.

I got dragged by him and I didn't say a word, just looking at him with big eyes.

Yes... my brother is indeed grown up.