Chapter 10

It's the rain. It's the rain that I love the most. Or maybe it's the way she smells. She smells like the Fresh Cut Roses candles at Yankee Candle. Not like I haven't been in there once or twice.

I was buying a gift. So sue me.

I hold her and then finally she spills what's going on. Awesome or not so Awesome cheated on her. With another man.

Seems like he needed someone as macho as he was.

I comfort Ellie but that's all I want to do. She doesn't need a man taking advantage at a time like this.

…

…. Did she just grab my butt?

…I think she just grabbed it again.

An Officer and a Gentleman flashes in my head and I gently scoop her up and bring her over to my apartment. The door is open and I kick it shut behind me. Then I gently sit her on the couch. It keeps me busy and it also gets her hands away from my person.

Not that I'm complaining.

"Why?" I ask. It's the only thing I can get out of my mouth.

Why me?

Why us?

Why now?

Why couldn't I have met you earlier?

"Because…" he says bewildered. She doesn't know the reason but eyes fill with need.

Sugar bear

My mind goes back to Ilsa. It seems that perhaps this thing with Ellie- well it's a thing that needs to be suppressed. I cannot get involved with the Intersects sister. Especially at this point and time when we are both rebounding. But for some reason I'm touching the side of her face. My finger wipes a tear away as I lean in.

And I kiss her.

Now I'm not opposed to a little tonsil hockey now and then- but this is something that you only see on some show like Young and the Restless….

..I was in the hospital a couple of times and nurses love that show…shut up.

..Anyway it's like one of those kisses. It was deep and intimate. She nearly took my bottom lip off in the frenzy of passion. It's not an unpleasant experience. Blood rushes to certain spots. OORAH.

Ahem.

After that she draped her leg over mine and started to grind against me. I am feeling some kind of feelings- oh boy. I don't know how but I some how found my way onto the couch. I stop the kisses for a moment and look deep into her eyes. She smiles and this is the exact moment that time stopped. It's like that moment in Star Trek Insurrection. You know the scene- where time stopped for Captain Picard.

Chuck told me...

I then go back to kissing her, at her insistence, but I make sure my hands are at ten (the left side of her waist) and two( the right side of her face).

I really enjoy the way she tastes. After all the years and after every woman I have ever kissed- Ellie is the most determined and the most innocent. She also has the most to lose.

I break away.

"He's a bastard. You deserve better." I look away and I hear my jaw crack as I clamp it shut. I can't believe I am doing this. I feel like a fool. I look back to her deep eyes and it pains me to see her eyes with tears in them again. "You deserve to go home and sleep on it," I say kindly. It's true. She does deserve better and I'm as much of a cad as Awesome McButt boi is.

I mean, I'm a killer…Not a cheater…anymore.

And I'm probably going to have to kill her brother.

"I deserve a man," she says pushing me down onto the couch.

I push back "You deserve a man who will love and respect you. Right now I cannot guarantee that will be me,"

Some one –Please. Kill me now.

She gets up and runs out my front door in hysterics and past a bewildered Chuck and Sarah.

They are just standing there and I know I'm in deep poo poo.

insert Casey's aw fudge face