And also thanks for everyone who seems to take a liking in my style of writing. I don't really know what's so special about it, but thanks anyway lol.
From the beginning i've said that this fic is really gonna be as realistic as i can muster. I've watched one tree hill on and off, but only got really interested in it last summer, so i've kind of observed their characters in the show and imagined it all in my head with this fic. Kinda dorky, but i'm truly obsessed with this show in every sense of the word. Love Sophia Bush and James Lafferty. But i hate Chad Michael Murray and his little girl, or wife. But i love Brucas, and even though i've accepted the fact that they're never gonna happen in the show, i can always dream on lol.
So we left off with Lucas going in to see Peyton, after spilling his guts out to Brooke, and then telling her that he still loved her. It's gonna start out with Peyton's thoughts, then her long conversation with Lucas. Then we're gonna go Naley and Brooke having breakfast again, which includes some arguments that start up from Brooke, mainly because Lucas just dropped that bombshell on her, and all ofa sudden she hears that even Haley wants her back with Lucas. SO the girl is like pissed and confused lol.
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Today, Peyton Sawyer-Scott was a very busy woman. She had three art galleries being hosted before lunch time, and the movers were only half done with transferring paintings to each assigned room, it was chaos. There were two men holding one painting, almost crashed into her, which would cost alot of money by the way. She got in a verbal fight with one artist who wanted her paintings shown by the afternoon, which was impossible, seeing as she already had three getting ready to open. But she still complained, and said how it just had to be done, but Peyton was never an easy target to giving people what they wanted. The artist went so far as to mention her husband being the most hated man in North Carolina, but Peyton couldn't argue with her. It was probably true. But it wasn't like that was going to get her way, so Peyton had to call someone to physically remove her from the building, thank goodness. The old Peyton would've socked her in the face after only five minutes of conflict. Fifteen minutes and Peyton just didn't even bother anymore, she didn't have time to argue with a lady with a turban around her head and smelled like incents.
On top of that, she had to worry about her husband, if you wanted to call Lucas that. The whole town knew of their disfunctional and disconnected relationship, so there wasn't even a point in trying to act like they were the perfect married couple, so they just didn't. Sometimes she asked herself why she even bothered anymore, it would be so easy to file for a divorce, but for some reason she hadn't yet. Being married to Lucas was safe, and it was something she knew how to do, or lack there of. There was no love in the relationship, therefore there was no heartbreak, or disappointment, which was something Peyton had been needing ever since Jake left. After that day, Peyton was a wreck from then on out. She always had trust issues, and with him leaving just made things even harder. Thank god for Lucas though, well sometimes.
Peyton was glad that Lucas was finally getting to his old self. To any other person it wouldn't really seem like it, but she saw the kindness and the boy tha would do anything for anyone. Lucas was taking baby steps, whether he knew it or not. With him just talking to her about stuff made it easier to stand him, and not feel like chucking a vase at his head. It remineded her of the talks they used to have. Lucas would talk about Brooke, Peyton would talk about Jake. It was all stuff she'd heard before, but every time it sounded like it had for difficulty than before. Lucas and Brooke always had problems right from the beginning, her being the first one. Then came the trust issue and Lucas not letting Brooke in. After those things were resolved everything was pretty much going smoothly for the couple. They hadn't fought in such a long time that when they did, it was bad.
Up until now, Peyton would never know why she had ever slept with Lucas, knowing perfectly well that he was still in love with her best friend. It's just some of those things that she will never be able to figure out. She could call it a moment of weakness, or that she was drunk at the time, but she couldn't blame it on anybody but herself. It had been something she's juggled in her brain for years, and she still has that feeling in the pit of her stomach. Right now Peyton would give anything to bond with Brooke again, like they used to. No one really understood their friendship, nor tried to because it was so weird and random. The girls weren't exactly alike, but that's what made them best friends. They balanced each other out. Brooke had the whole girly mischevious thing, while Peyton had that tortured soul, ones that guys fell for easily. Sometimes Peyton didn't always understnad Brooke, and vice versa, but it all worked out because they had each others backs no matter what. It was like that since the beginning, and it was sad to see it end the way it did.
But nevertheless Peyton wanted to see Brooke really bad. She wanted to see what her new life was like, and if she was happy. Because if anything Brooke deserved to be happy. There had been so much stuff that had happened in their short life, some things that people would never even begin to understand. Alot of the group has physical and emotional pain, but Brooke's was wayy too emotional. You could backtrack Brooke's life either way, but you're still gonna be uneasiness.
"Mrs, Sawyer? YOur husband is waiting for you in your office," Mary, the receptionist said.
"Did he say it was important?" Peyton asked quizzically.
"No m'am, he just said he wanted to see you."
"Thanks Mary."
Well that was strange. Lucas never went to her work, he helped rebuild it and supply the money, but he didn't even visit after it was done. He was here now, so what was the case? It was probably important, because if it wasn't he would've called her cell, which was the easiest way to reach her. Lucas was all over the place these days, and Peyton could only look to Brooke for that.
Peyton was surprised to see Lucas wasn't in his usual business suit and briefcase at his feet. He was still in the t shirt and jeans she saw him in earlier when she left for work. She dind't think he even went into work actually, probably just sat around playing the game he hated. And he had that look. It wasn't an angry look, but a more like it's all your fault and i hate you look.
"Lucas i'm pretty busy so just say what you need to and leave," Peyton said briskly as she entered her office and sat in her chair.
"You know that's not a polite way to greet your husband," Lucas said sarcastically.
Peyton snorted, "Since when? Anyways, what do you want?"
"It's not what i want. Actually i don't want anything but a time machine that went back around 30 minutes."
"What happened thirty minutes ago?"
"Something that was your fault."
"Alright, what is it? And FYI, it's probably not my fault, you just can't live up to your mistakes."
"I ran into Brooke."
"Where'd you see Brooke at?" PEyton asked, suddenly intereseted.
"I wanted to walk around town, and ended up at the Rivercourt, where Brooke was."
"You went to the Rivercourt?"
"Yeaa, don't know why though, me feet just took me there. Anyway, we kinda got into a fight--"
"Which you probably caused," PEyton finished.
He narrowed his eyes, "And then we started having this whole argument over what happened five years ago. I asked her is she really loved me and everything, then it turned into this whole speech thing back and forth... and then..."
"And then ...?" Peyton asked.
"I kinda told Brooke that i still loved her, which was why i hated her because i can't get over her," Lucas said, eyes squinting.
She had to admit, that wans't exactly the result Peyton had been looking for, but it had in fact been better.
"It's about time you told her ! BUt you are like 5 years late. So, how'd she take it?"
"Uhhh i don't know. I kinda walked away after that. I was afraid of what she'd say."
"Geez you are suck a wimp," Peyton laughed.
"I know okay? But what the hell was i supposed to do? Wait for her to completely go on a rampage against me?" Lucas exclaimed.
"Yeaa, that's what you wanted isn't it? To piss her off?"
"Well yeaa, but i didn't want to wait around for her reaction, i just couldn't."
"YOu do realize that the next time you see Brooke, she's probably going to avoid you like the plague."
"Yeaa, i didn't really realize that."
Peyton smiled, "Well at least you admitted it. I think that arrogance is starting to wear off. You'll be the new and improved Lucas in no time."
"Haha, but i'm not changing. I still hate you."
"Opposed to you loving Brooke. The other day i couldn't even get you to say it, and now you're telling her to her face. That's an improvement."
"No, its a sign of weakness. And it's your fault because you got this idea in my head that i could tell her how i feel, and everything would work out alright. But no, she's probably never going to wanna look at me again, and it's all your fault Peyton Sawyer-Scott."
"Aye, watch the last name. FYI, this isn't my fault, because i didn't tell you to go out and tell Brooke Davis that you still love her, after not seeing her for a good five years, when she has a stable relationship, and you're married, even though it's not really an actual marriage. So it's not my fault, because you were the one who always has to express his feelings at the last minute, always," PEyton explained.
"Yeaa, you're right, i just thought it would feel better blaming you."
"I'm liking this new you already."
"Don't get used to it. Not everyone gets to see it."
Peyton softened, "Why not? BEcause you're afraid of getting hurt? Or letting people down with just one mistake?"
"Sometimes. Its like, if i don't give anyone high expectations, they won't bother. I could make mistakes as much as i want, and i won't have to see that disappointment in their eyes. Things is, i still see it, and it doesn't make things any better. With Brooke, there were all these feelings that i kept to myself, and when i saw her, they all just erupted out of me. There was alot we never talked about, and we did today. She said that she really loved me then, and i knew i would be making a mess of things if i were to tell her how i feel, but i just felt like she was slipping through the cracks again, so i told her. Didn't even stick around long enough to see her reaction."
"You know sometimes you have to make a mess of things to be able to fix it and make it better. This attitude and this anger that you've been carrying around for five years, it really needs to go away, because that's not who you are. And like always, you have really bad timing, and completely wigged out on this Brooke situation. Before you think any further on this, you need to know if this is what you really want? To you really want to be with Brooke?"
Lucas thought about this for a moment. Of course he wanted to be with Brooke, the only probabllem was everything around them. He hadn't seen her in five years, and they still had alot of questions that were left unanswered, and alot of unresolved differences, mostly on his part. Everyone knew that Lucas and Peyton didn't love each other, but Brooke had someone that she really cared about, and Lucas didn't think she would let something like that go. Once again, loving Brooke Davis came with a price.
"Of course i wanna be with her, i never stopped wanting to be with her. I just don't know if what i want and what i feel is gonna matter," Lucas explained.
"It all matters Lucas. From the moment i met you, i knew you were different, and Brooke saw that too. The one thing that i think made her fall in love with you was the way you opened your heart to people, and talked with your heart, and what you felt. Just the kindness you showed towards people made all the change in their lives, like Jimmy's. I don't think you realized it, maybe not even now. But don't tuck it away, for it never to be see nagain, becuase that is the guy that we love and that's the guy Brooke felll in love with. She hasn't seen that guy in years."
"And i haven't been that guy in years. What if it's too late to prove myself?" Lucas asked.
"Not to sound like a smartass or anything, but you've been proving yourself since you were born, if you forgot already."
What Peyton was saying made alot ot sense to him. Sure, it was nice just talking about it, but actually doing it was what scared him. If he was willing to change into that guy that everyone loved, then would Brooke see it? And if she didn't, that would just crash and burn him all over again, and he wasn't sure he wanted to feel that again. It was too painful and much too tiring to handle. If he remained the person he was now, then he wouldn't get hurt, and it would save him alot of helpless nights.
"I don't know Peyton. Maybe things have gone too far to try to fix everything," Lucas whispered.
"Alright, if we're done, then go home and do something, just not here because i have alot of work to do. I already spent the past fifteen minutes talking about Brooke, and she hates me," Peyton laughed.
"Yeaa about that, she still hates you, like alot," Lucas said, standing up.
"I didn't expect anything more than that. IT's Broooke, plus i'd be pissed at me too."
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Breakfast was pretty awkward to say the least. Brooke continued to eat her food like nothing was wrong, while Nathan and Haley resulted to giiving each other various looks. Brooke had completely heard what they were saying, but the question was, did she agree with it?
"So, how's the food?" Haley asked.
"It's pretty good," Brooke said, sipping her coffee.
"Okay we're obviously not gonna get anywhere if we continue like this," Nathna started, dropping his fork.
"Well what do you suppose we talk about? Weather? Hales's pregnancy? Or, we could discuss what you guys were talking about earlier?" Brooke asked sweetly.
"Brooke..." Haley started.
"Look Haley i am going to tell you the same thing i told Nathan this morning. Just stop trying to shove Lucas towards me. We're over and we have been for a long time. I'm not the same girl i was before and Lucas sure as hell isn't the same person. Now you can jump on the band wagon of the whole entire town, who want me and him to hook up, but you're gonna be sorely disappointed when i leave, without Lucas. I've moved on and i'm happy, and i can't believe you guys would try to get me to question that. Me and Lucas are done and we will never be anything. That guy that i fell in love with is gone and it looks like he'll never come back. SO just stop trying, you're wasting your time," Brooke said angrily.
"Brooke, what happened?" Haley asked curiously.
"What are you talking about?" Brooke asked.
"You're acting kinda weird. I mean, i know you'd be kinda upset, but you sound mad. Did, anything happen when you went out?" Nathan asked.
Brooke scoffed, "No, i just went for a walk and cleared my head."
"Brooke..." Haley warned. Brooke could be as mad as she wanted, but Haley knew she wouldn't. Something else was bothering Brooke, but she didn't want to seem to tell anybody, like it was super bad or something.
"No ! I'm not tell you guys anything ! If i were to tell you, you would host a party for it because you'd be sooo happy," Brooke said harshly.
"Well if it's good to us, then why wouldn't you be happy too?" Nathan asked, confused.
"Because i REALLY don't like it, and you do."
Haley sighed, "Brooke why don't you just tell us? We're going to find out anyway, no use beating around the bush."
Brooke pouted and crossed her arms, "Because this completely sucks and i don't want to have to say it out loud."
"Just tell us what it has to do with."
"It has to do with what you guys were talking about this morning."
"So it has something to do with you and LUcas" Nathan guessed.
"Yup," Brooke said.
"Ummm, did you see him today?" Haley aksed.
"Ohh yeaa."
"Alright, uhh did he say something that upset you?"
"Well duhh Nathan..."
"Excuse me i was just asking..."
"You guys ! Yes, he said something that upset me. But it was something he shouldn't be saying," Brooke hinted.
"Did he call you anything bad or hurtful?"
"Far from it," Brooke muttered.
"Well it's not like he said he loved you or anything..." Nathan laughed.
"Or did he..." Haley asked, both turning around to face Brooke, who was playing with her napkin.
At this point Brooke was a goner. Right now she didn't even understand why she even considered letting them guess. It was obvious they would get it, and now BRooke had to deal with the consequences. Now she had to sit here and listen to them go on and on once again. Somethings never changed in this town.
"Well? Did he?" Nathan asked, on the edge of his seat.
"No point in denying it, so yeaa," Brooke said, completely giving up.
"Omg...OMG ! Brooke isn't that great?" Haley asked, excited.
"Uh no. If you didn't understnad me earlier Hales, there will never be a me and Lucas. And he just went and told me that he loved me still, which was why he hated me, because he oculdn't let me go. He knows that i have someone back in New York, and he's married for goodness sakes !" Brooke exclaimed.
"Yeaa, i don't know if you know this, but they're not exactly the type of married couple you'd expect. I don't even think they've kissed in like.. fours years," Nathan said.
"Yeaa i know that Nate, but regardless, they are married, which makes this completely ridiculous. And for the record, he could've went and looked for me all those years ago, and he didn't, so what does that tell me? I"m not going down that road again, i've crash and burned wayy too many times."
"Of course you have every reason to not wanna give him the time of day, but that guy loves you so much Brooke, we've all seen it. He's miserable and he's sorry for what he's done. You're right, he very easily could've went to New York and try to get you back, and he's an idiot for not doing that. But it's five years later, we're better people now, can't you just, maybe listen to what he has to say?" Nathan asked.
"Yeaa i could talk to him, and ask him what? If he really meant that? If he's gonna leave his wife to be with me? I appreciate it Nate but that's not gonna happen. I'm not gonna get involved in all this drama that i thought i left a long time ago. So no, i'm not gonna talk to him, i gave him an opportunity to talk and it's done now," Brooke said, getting up from her seat.
"Wait, where are you going?" Haley asked.
"Out !" Brooke yelled.
"Nice move Nathan," Haley sighed.
"What did i do??"
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Lucas turned the television off not even after the second quarter started. It was that annoying to watch. Watching basketball on tv was something that Lucas used to love to do, but ever since he couldn't play anymore, he didn't see a point in watching it anymore, he wouldn't be able to play in real life anyway. Whenever he tried watching it, he would start to imagine doing the same move someone just did, then reality would come crashing down, really putting a damper on things. Sure Lucas could still play and shoot hoops, but it was never the same. He would never be able to play and push himself to his best ability anymore. Having your dream taken from you in such a short amount of time was enogh to piss anyone off. Lately Lucas didn't even wanna think about basketball, it was no longer his life like he'd hoped for.
Originally he had planned on going to work after his talk with Peyton. BUt honestly he didn't feel like doing anything really, which was the first time in a long time. So Lucas was bored alot, roaming around the house, not really knowing what to do. The maids had already been in and sweeped everything, the dishes were done, he wasn't hungry, and the gardener had just left. Which left nothing to do, except play pool but LUcas was over that.
Ever since he'd left Peyton's office, all he could do was think about Brooke, and her face when he said that he loved her. There was shock and confusion etched all over, it was like she was just seeing him for the first time, which was pretty true. Lucas had never felt that open in a long time, it was like he was letting everything out and it felt good to say what he'd been wanting to for so long. But now he kinda wish he hadn't because he would probably never be able to see Brooke after their encounter this morning.
What Peyton had said really hit him. Maybe the reason Brooke hated him now was because of the person he was now. Before, he hadn't been mean or cruel, and he was always around to help people, now he was completely different from that person before. But that person before was the guy that Brooke had fallen in love with. He guessed that it kinda hurt to see someone you once loved so much, so changed. Haley had been through it. WHen she first came back from tour, and Nathan came back from High Flyers, he wasn't the same. He was Dan to say the least. ANd now it was Lucas's turn to see Dan looking back at him in a mirrior.
Sometimes just thinking about his old friends made him want to cry, even for a man. Haley and LUcas had been through so much together, they had this bond that no one could break, not even Nathan. Yet they managed to drift apart, or more like Licas pushed her away, it must've been hard for her to handle. Then there was Nate, his own brother. Awhile back Lucas wouldn't lost sleep over not knowing Nathan, he dind't want to at the time, but now he wished he could shoot hoops with his younger brother again. Him and Peyton were getting back to that friendship that they connected over so much, but it was obvious that was all they would ever be. They had tried the couple thing, and it didn't work, they weren't meant to be. Brooke on the other hand was a completely different story. Loving Brooke made Lucas feel alive, like he'd just woken from a deep slumber. She was able to make him see things from different views, and be able to understnad him even when she didn't know what to think. And she could always make him laugh more than anyone, whether it be her quirkiness, or when she got nervous, or when she tried to act like she knew what she was talking about, but honestly she didn't have a clue. Lucas had taken so much from Brooke, but all she asked was that he love her, be loyal, to let her in, and to be honest. ANd he couldn't even do two of those things. But he could love her, he could love her with eveyrthing he had, but all the other stuff he had trouble with.
Lucas was brought out of his thoughts be the frantic ringing and knocking on his front door. He had always had this dream that one day he answered the door and the whole town was on his front doorstep with pitchforks and torches. They chased his all through town until they finally caught him and hung him on the basketball hoop at the Rivercourt. The rest looked pretty painful from there on out. LUcas was never really fond of that dream.
As soon as he opened the door he was met with a hard slap to the face, something he wasn't expecting. He clutched his cheek, and looked up to see a pissed but oh so attractive Brooke Davis looking back at him, eyes of fire.
"Ow ! What the hell is your problem?" Lucas exclaimed.
"What the hell is your problem Lucas?!?!" Brooke yelled, pushing him out of the way.
"My problem is that you slapped me and didn't even let me know why," Lucas said following her. He knew perfectly well why she slapped him, but he didn't want to admit it.
"Oh yeaa like that's your problem. You know since you're such a dumbass to realize, i'll tell you what your problem is. You're problem is that you're delusional, psycho even, and i really think you need help because there is no way in hell you would ever tell me you love me. So just admit you have a problem and ill apologize and be our of your way."
Lucas sighed, "I'm not psycho, i don't need help. And i meant what i said this morning. Is that so hard to believe?--"
"Yes ! It is hard to believe because YOU pushed ME away ! You're married and i have someone back in New York that i care alot about, and you can't just hate me for years and then tell me that you love me !" Brooke yelled, blinking back tears.
"I'm getting really tired of people yelling at me for this. I've been a bad guy for years, and people hate me for it. I'm finally honest and true about something i say, and i still manage to make people mad. What is it that you want from me?"
"I want you to take back what you said," Brooke said calmly.
"No."
"Why?"
"Because i would be taking back the truth, and being truthful isn't something i've been doing these days."
"I don't know what you want me to say LUcas," Brooke said helplessly.
Lucas shrugged, "I think you know what i want you to say, but i'm not gonna make you. I know it's been a long time, and i'm different now. I know i'm not that guy that you fell in love with. But for so long i've hated you, because i blamed you for the way i am. But i was mad at you for all the wrong reasons. Before i knew it i was over you leaving, now i just missed you so much, but whenever i got in too deep i would curse myself and go back to hating you all over again. We weren't supposed to be this way Brooke, we were supposed to be happy. YOu might be happy, but i'm not, not since the night you left. And i didn't want to have to see you and just fall for you all over again. WHen i saw you everything that i've been trying to bury just splurt out of the ground, and i can't help it anymore, because i love you Brooke Davis, i never stopped."
Brooke couldn't beleive this was happening again. Apart of her just wanted to jump into his arms and never let go. BUt the other side of her just told her to run out and never come back. Lucas's confession was nothing Brooke wasn't familiar with. He still spoke those sweet words and used so much emotion that it could make someone cry. She wasn't sure if Lucas was playing a game or what, but something told her he wasn't.
"Why'd you wait five years before telling me?" Brooke asked quietly.
"I don't know Brooke. I was battling my feelings for you in my head over and over again. One day i would see something that made me think of you, and i would smile and be happy, then i'd realize that you were never coming back, and i would completely turn bitter. As much as i wanted you to come back and see you again, i didn't because then i would be reminded of what happened, and that i didn't have you, and my heart would break all over again."
"I've spent most of the time even wondering if you loved me Lucas. You didn't call, you didn't email, you didn't try to come find me ! What was i supposed to think? I kept hoping you woud because i missed you so much, but i told myself that if you really loved me, you would be there the minute you could. But you never came, i kept on hoping, and you never came. Pretty soon after that i stopped trying. I met someone and he makes me really happy. HE cares alot about me, and everyday is fun with him. He lets me know what's bothering him, and not once have i seen him look at another woman. And he believes in me and supports me all the time. He loves me. So i don't know what draws me to you everytime," Brooke laughed bitterly.
"I'm not saying this to make you feel bad, or to make you come back to me. As much as i wanna beg you to, i can't beacuse it's not fair to you. Brooke, i've messed up alot and made mistakes not even blinking an eye. But i'm gonna change, i already am. And i'm gonna be that guy before, the one that everyone loves and misses. Then you'll see."
"Does this mean you're fighting for me or something?"
"I don't know. BUt i'm changing, i promise. I want to be that guy that you fell in love with all those years ago, because i know that guy is still somewhere in my heart."
"Well you have alot of work to do."
Lucas laughed ,"Yeaa i know. BUt it's worth it i guess."
"Just so you know, my boyfriend's coming to visit in a ocuple of weeks."
"Maybe i should invite him over for tea," Lucas said sarcastically.
"Just saying, you might wanna not bother me for a few days. I know how you get when you try to win me back, you kinda stalk me," Brooke smirked.
"Yeaa but i'm older and i think i have more class than before. And if i were try to win you back, there would be no more stalking. And there won't be a next time because i would never let you go again."
"And Peyton?"
"Been there done that. We tried being married, even tried being a couple. We're not meant to be," Lucas said, using BRooke's phrase for love.
"Hmm, you guys still friends?"
"Yeaa we always will be. BUt we'll never be anything more. We tried, it didn't work out," Lucas said, keeping a close eye on her facial expressions. She was looking around the house, acting like she wasn't paying attention, which cause Lucas to smile.
"Hmm what a shame. I mean, you did sleep with her over and over again," Brooke said innocently.
"Yeaa, yea i guess i deserved that." Lucas winced.
"Well, i better get going," Brooek said, heading towards the door.
"I'll see you around." Lucas said sadly.
"Look Lucas, i don't know what to do right now. I'm torn because Ryan is a really great guy, and he's around, and he loves me. But i don't know about you. It seems like whenever i come in contact with you, you have this way of completely making me curious."
"Curous?"
"Yeaa, you say that you're going to change and be that guy that i once knew and loved, but i don't know if i should believe you or not. I"m curious to see what becomes of you."
Lucas leaned closer against the door, "Well, you're just gonna have to stick aorund and find out."
Leaving Lucas's house, Brooke replayed the whole 20 minutes she'd been there in her head. Then she came to the conclusion that once again Lucas Scott was able to completely entangle her into his life, interested in him and what he was now. He was mysterious, and said he was changing for the better, all the right things. Not too long ago that was Brooke's area of expertise. Seems like Haley wasn't the only one who learned something from Brooke. LUcas had drawn her back into his life, and there was no way out for now. At the moment Brooke didn't know if she should be interested, or just pissed. Lucas Scott had lured her back, just like he always did, she didn't know if it was a good thing or bad thing. Until she could figure out what she felt for Lucas, then it was definitely a bad thing.
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"Do you think she'll be back soon?" NAthan asked as her and Haley sat in the living room.
"I don't know. She probably just went out to get some air."
"Do you really think Luke said that?"
"I wouldn't put it past him. You know Lucas. Always did have bad timing," Haley laughed.
"Yeaa you're right about that. YOu think Brooke will give him the time of day?"
"From what we've seen this morning. I don't think so," Haley said just as the door opened.
"I CAN'T BELIEVE HIM !"
"Yeaa i don't think so either," Nathan said, shaking his head. Brooke walked into the living room and started pacing, mumbling to herself.
"So, i'm guessing you ran into Lucas again?"
"Actually i ran TO Lucas's house to kick his ass. Instead i slapped him but whatever. He said how he was gonna change and be the guy that we all once knew. And he wouldn't take back that part with him saying he still loved me. And for some odd reason i let him prove to me that he loved me. He said as soo nas he makes things right with everyone else, he's gonna make things right with me. I can't believe i fell for this again," Brooke said, shaking her head.
"Would that be such a bad thing if Lucas were to change for you?"
"No, it would be the perfect thing if i didn't already have somebody Hales. Just because Lucas changes doesn't mean that i'll just get back with him like nothing happened. We still have alot of unresolved things we need to figure out."
"So, not even friends?"
"Nope, i'm staying away from Lucas Scott as much as i can. If there's a smidge of the same guy we all know, he's gonna find some way to make sure that i'm close to him, no matter what."
"Well, we'll see. I'll see you guys later, watching the game at Skills house," Nathna said, waving and leaving.
"Do you think you still have feelings for LUcas?" Haley asked.
"Honestly i have no idea. I mean apart of me will always care about him. I tihnk i love him, but not in the way i wanna be with him. I don't ever wanna feel that lonliness and that insecurity that i felt with Lucas. I can't and i won't."
"You gotta admit though, having the old Lucas back would be great," Haley beamed.
"That's what i'm afraid of."
If Lucas would morph into the sweet and caring guy from before, that would be awesome and good for everyone, actually the whole town. But for Brooke this led to dire consequences. She didn't want to have to deal with Lucas's shitty attitude that he had now, but she really didn't want to see that same person she fell in love with before. At this point she didn't know which guy could she stand. The one that she hated or the one that she loved? But sooner or later she would have to face the fact that it was always gonna be there. Lucas wasn't going anywhere and neither was BRooke. The minute she left North Carolina, Brooke thoght the end of her and Lucas had finally come. But from where she was right now, it seemed it was only beginning.