LL Chapter 11

Internal Musings

I laid awake for another two hours thinking about Bella and the things that she had said or rather had not said. What she had not said had spoken volumes about the truth of her past. But, NO! It didn't happen like that. It couldn't have. I mean, there is no way that such a sweet, innocent baby could be born of such a violent act. But it would explain Rose's sudden turnaround and instantaneous friendship with her…NO! NO! NO! NO! It didn't happen. I'm just tired and need some sleep and obviously not thinking clearly at all. I got up heading for my bathroom looking for anything that would put me to sleep. I found some Nyquil left over from my flu and took some.

Jesus, why is it so bright in here. I rolled over and looked at my alarm clock. It was after one in the afternoon. So, I dragged my a** out of bed and into the shower. I was starving from sleeping so late so I washed quickly and made my way downstairs to forage for lunch.

When I got downstairs all I found was my sister sitting on the couch with her laptop.

"Where is everyone?"

"Dad's at work and mom ran to the grocery store because we have absolutely nothing to eat in the house." She watched me intently like there was something that she was dying to say to me. I knew damn well what she wanted to know and she knew what I wanted to know to. It was why she deliberately remained silent on their whereabouts, to see if I would ask. But I wasn't in the mood to indulge her today.

"Well, if we have no food then I am heading for the diner to get some lunch. You want to join?"

"No. I have homework to catch up on. Have fun though."

I left and went straight down to diner and took a booth in the back. I placed my order and was paying on my I-phone. I had vaguely noticed that Lauren and Jessica were sitting at the bar but there was no one else in the diner except for the waitress and the cook both of whom were in the kitchen. I heard the bell over the door announce that someone else had entered and I looked up to see Bella entering the restaurant carrying Tanya's carrier.

She was struggling with the carrier and her bags and was on the verge of dropping something when she finally made it to the booth in front of mine. But seeing as her had been on Tanya, as it rightfully should have been, she did not see me here.

But I was not the only one who took note of her entrance. The two tramps at the bar noticed her and were already halfway over to her table. I knew that they were not looking for friendly conversation. These two were vapid b****** and thrived when making everyone else as miserable as they were.

"Hello Bella!" Lauren started in a horrifyingly fake sweet voice. Bella, at least, was intelligent enough not to trust her.

"Lauren. Jessica." She nodded at each in turn but said nothing more as she turned back to her daughter. But those two were not going to be ignored. They came up behind her as she took the blanket off of the carrier and reveal the baby underneath. As far as I knew, not many people at school had seen Tanya, even if they did know about her.

"Oh, she is so pretty and tiny." Lauren started with the fake sweetness again. "Such a shame her mother is such a slut."

"Yes. The poor baby. She'll probably never know who her daddy is, will she? I mean you'd have to attempt the impossible by narrowing the possibilities down a little." Jessica chimed in. Then the whole tone of the conversation turned a lot worse.

"You know, no one wants you here. Right?"

"Why don't you just go back to wherever it was you came from and make all us happy?"

I was half way out of my seat, ready to, well I do not know what I was planning to do exactly but I was not going to just sit there while they were verbally attacking Bella for no reason. But just as I was standing the bell over the tinkled again and Chief Swan came in. I breathed a sigh of relief. They were safe for the time being.

Chief Swan looked at Lauren and Jessica as he approached with apprehension. He knew that they were nothing but trouble but greeted them kindly anyway.

"Hello girls, I didn't realize you all were friends."

"Chief Swan, your granddaughter is so adorable we just could not resist coming over to coo at her a bit before we left. We have big plans this afternoon." I could guarantee that those big plans involved nothing but drugs. As soon as the girls were gone the Chief turned to his daughter.

"Are you ok? Did they hurt you?"

"No. They are just all talk and insults. Just like everyone else around here."

"I hate narrow-minded, small town idiots who can't see beyond their own noses. I'm sorry. I wish that I could make it stop, sweetie."

"I know dad. But we both knew it was going to happen when I moved here that it was not going to be easy."

"Do I need to sick your step-sister on them?" he asked with an obvious smile in his voice.

"Not yet, but I'm reserving the right to keep that option open for future use."

"Deal." And then the chief started playing with his granddaughter and my meal came. But by that point I did not have much of an appetite. I had come to the realization that I was no better than Lauren and Jessica. I too had been vicious and cruel to Bella. I had judged her to be something that she was not. Even though I did not have any confirmation of my beliefs being truth, I truly believed that they were nothing but truth. Bella Swan's fate had been forced upon her in a horrifying manner. As a new revelation hit me I jumped up, threw some money on the table, and ran from the diner. I was truly a disgusting and horrible person because Bella Swan had been raped and I had called her a whore for it.

A/N:

Ohhh….self discovery for Edward!

Sorry for the posting delay but life happens. And so does flooding and kids needing baby teeth pulled…which PSA…be careful how much milk you give your kids. Mine lives on the stuff and he has only had TWO baby teeth come out naturally, the rest have had to be pulled because the refuse to come out and the adult teeth are coming in behind them. The poor kid had four pulled yesterday. There will be another chapter tomorrow for sure. Thanks for reading!