Edward's POV:
I did not understand why Bella had kissed that mutt, she had mated on me correct? She had fell in love for me as I have her I thought. I knew that I had fallen head of heels for her, she was everything the air that I breathed to the face that I saw when I was alone. I thought that she had loved me enough not to kiss someone else. Really not to kiss a mutt like him, I did not know what to think about when I saw them kissing. Maybe I was wrong about all of this, maybe I had just fell in love with her. Maybe this whole time she had been stringing me along like a worm to a hook so that she could just hook me on and then throw me back into the ocean. I did not know if any of this was true, but I was heartbroken none the less. All that I could think about was her kissing him, her wanting to be with him. Everything about her wanted to be with that dog, her wanted to live with the dog for the rest of all time. She was not fighting him off, and he was loving every moment of this kiss.
His mind had done everything that I needed to know about what was going on. He was replaying everything in his brain to make sure that this was all real, also to map out where his next moves should and should not be. He was thinking about taken her over the line to his house for the night, maybe letting her bring him to her house with the vampires there. Maybe just getting a hotel room someplace outside of Forks. He was thinking about everything that he would need to make this night fun, everything was going through that boys head that I did not need to see happen or need to know he was thinking about doing to her. She had not fought him off before hand, she didn't seem to have none what he was going to do to her and she had not seemed to have been fighting him off while they were kissing either, she had more of worked her way through him. She was pulling him along for the ride of his life and was going to make sure that it was going to be as fun for her as it was for him.
He was planning on doing things to her that would make her fall in love with him, things like sex and taken her home to meet up with his father again. He wanted to show her back into her human like, things that I could never do to her because I had not known her in her life when she was human. Bella's other life was a mystery to me that I may never figure out . He was going to show her back to her house that she had lived in when she was human. Introduce her to the pack, even though that may cause some things to happen he was never going to let them hurt her. If his life depending on that he was going to make sure that he was going to protect her. All he wanted to do was show her his friends and that they were really nice people.
All I wanted was for her to be happy and if that was with a different kind of monster- even a monster like that, then so be it. She could be happy with a human or one of those shape shifters if she wanted to be, so be it I would let it happen. She could have been in love with anyone that I would let her be with them. As long as that dog did not hurt her I would allow him to be with her forever and always. I would let it happen and walk away from her forever if it made her happy and I would have never came back into her life unless she needed it. If it made her happy I would walk up to the Volturi flip them off and then go sunbathing naked in the streets of Italy if she wanted me to. I would let them soon after burn me to shreds if it made her smile. Anything she wanted in the would I would get it for her in a heartbeat if it made her happy. Anything in the world.
I could not take any more of it, I could not take watching them be so happy together. It was ripping my heart apart in every which way that was possible. It felt like Bella had pulled my heart out from where it was and had just started taken a pair of scissors and cut it up into pieces. Then stomped them into the dirt. I left the scene, running as far away as I could. No one had noticed that I was gone, thats how I wanted to stay also. I didn't know where I was going to go, all I knew was that I did not want to be in Forks anymore. I wanted to get Bella out of my mind and out of everything that I knew, I needed to get ride of her scent, the way she looked, everything about her I need to get out of my mind. I though about it, Italy? No, I knew that the Volturi would be on my case the second I got there. But Alaska was seeming better and better by the seconds. I knew that my old time friends would be happy to see me there and also they would know that I would need time alone so that I could just coop.
By the time that I had gotten to the Washington Canada line I knew that my family had found out, that Alice had seen it. She knew where I was going and what I had been planning on doing there. That I would most likely not be back for months on end with not phone calls or text messages. That I did not want to talk to her or any of the other family members. She had only sent one person – that I could see to stop me. Standing there looking up and watching me was a pair of fire red eyes, once they saw me running their way they did not take their eyes off of me. The eyes looked like they were heartbroken, like they did not mean to put me through the pain they had and they seemed so full of sorrow. I walked up to those eyes and just stood in front of them. I could not talk, I was so full of emotions that I did not know what to say.
" Edward, I'm so sorry. I was so caught up in what was happened, I mean I did not mean to. It just kind of happened. I tried to force him off but that just made him think that I was trying to, well I don't even know! I'm just so sorry!" Her voice was cracking and she threw herself into my arms. She wrapped herself so tightly into me and I could not move let alone if I tried to. I could not help but wrap myself around her.
" It's alright Bella, it's alright." I said stroking her head lightly.
" Edward please don't leave. I did not mean to, it was just that he was so strong and I could not fight him off. So I just shut-" She was going on and on and I knew that she was telling the truth, I looked into her eyes and I knew that she was speaking only of the truth. She was trying to make sure that I was going to come home and that I knew that she was still in love with me.
Bella was my everything, she was always going to be my everything. I now knew that I was her everything also. That the whole time that she was kissing Jacob that she did not want to but she also did not have the strength to pull him off. That maybe she did not have the strength in her mind rather then her body. She had mated on me and I was stupid for even thinking that she was not in love with me, I knew that this was going to last. Everything about her screamed to right in the ear like she was going was mad at me. Everything about her called out to me saying my name and telling my that she was her for always and forever. Bella put a whole knew thing about life into my world. She was the sun to my moonless nights, she was the air that I breathed and the everything that I needed to get through this day.
" Shhhhhh, it's alright Bella. We'll go home now." I said kissing her lightly on the forehead, she looked up and me and just smiled lightly.
" I'll race ya there!" She said almost smiling and running into the woods.