Author's Notes: So this is not what I originally planned at all, but it felt so organic that I went with it. Everyone get ready it is going to be a bumpy ride. As always I enjoy your feedback and reviews :)

Chapter 11: Maybe...

Maya

I lay there wrapped around Riley. Rationally, I know this is dangerous. I know that I could get really hurt. But, emotionally, I am just really worried about Riley. She just started crying. I knew she was overloaded, but I didn't realize it was this bad. I didn't say a word; I just held her. Talking about it when she is this emotional isn't going to help, but she obviously needs to talk about somethings. For her, my feelings need to go on the back burner.

She slowly calmed down. She is latched onto my arm, like I honestly might not get it back. I heard her sniffle a couple time, but her breathe evens out and she is asleep. Not sure how much sleep I am going to get. I try to relax. This is my best friend. We have had sleepovers many times and technically these feelings are not new. I can do this.

-Around 5 am-

I wake up as I feel Riley shift and she is now facing me. We are literally nose to nose. I am barely awake at first but my heart rate immediately sky rockets. This is the second time. What the hell is going on?!

Riley

I wake up in the middle of the night as Maya's arm starts to move out of my grip. I start thinking about her as soon as my eyes open, which is nothing new. She didn't even ask questions earlier. She just did what I needed. I shift to look at her because I just want to appreciate the fact that she is there. Appreciate her. I lay there staring at her. Her eyes go wide like she didn't expect it, which I guess makes sense since this is not usually how we act. Do I want her to know that I am questioning if I am interested in her? All I know is right now… this is what feels right. I move in closer to her and entangle myself with her. I wrap my arms around her and hold on tight. Our legs intertwine. This is probably not my best idea, but I have to follow my heart.

Maya

UHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! This is about how coherent my thoughts are when she tangles her body with mine. I might have a heart attack, like I am honestly concerned. "Maya?" Shit, she is talking to me. Words need to come out of my mouth.

"Uhhh.. yeah?"

"When you first read Sappho's poem, what did you think about?" Oh God. I thought of her. She is the person I admire. Everything about her enraptures me completely. But like, I can't say that.

"Um, I don't know. That was awhile ago. I'd have to think back about it. Why do you ask?"

"Well…" She shifts back to look me in the eyes. "I thought of you." I literally cannot respond. We just lay there encircling each other and looking into each other's eyes. She continue. "I questioned if the woman she was describing was her Maya. I react to you the way that Sappho seems to react to this girl. That is why I had so many questions afterwards." Again I can literally not respond.

Riley

Well that is out there. Not sure how Maya is interpreting this as she is literally saying nothing. However, I feel her heartbeat again. It is really fast, like scary fast. I take my one hand and move it to the middle of her chest. "Maya, you need to breath and calm down." She just looks at me. I go to move as maybe all of this is too much for her. She pulls me back. I look at her and notice that her eyes flick down to my lips. Has that happened before? Does that mean what I think it does? I don't think I have ever thought about anyone in that way. However, if I was going to be comfortable being physical with anyone it would obviously be Maya. I mean I couldn't even hold Lucas's hand. Maya is different. I mean we are literally basically knotted together right now.

Without totally thinking about it, I come in closer to her. My hand rises from her chest to her cheek. I stop right before our lips would touch. She has to want this too.

Maya

Oh my god! Oh my god! Oh my god! Oh my god! Oh my god! Alright she is right here like millimeters from kissing me. At this point, my desires take over. I close the space between us and holy shit does it feel good! I immediately feel myself moan against her. I have literally been waiting for this for so long. We both start off very tentative. We don't move much just light touches of our lips. However, these kisses begin to deepen. She lip locks with me and sucks slightly on my bottom lip, again eliciting a moan from me. I feel her smile into the kiss at this and her hand moves into my hair to pull me closer and hold me against her. My hand slowly moves up her side to her shoulder. She pulls back slightly and sighs at the sensation. She comes right back in though. I never thought she would be the one to start kissing me… where did this come from?

Riley

We are kissing! I definitely have feelings for Maya, like strong ones. She is the only person I can think of that I would want this with. I cannot get enough of her. I keep pulling her closer, trying to drink more and more of her in. Our lips moving in tandem like it was just meant to be. Like this is totally natural and honestly, with her it is. I know we both need to breath, so I reluctantly pull back. We stare at each other.

"Holy shit Riles!" I look down because I don't totally know what that means. What all of this means. I look back up at her and whisper "So…that happened."

"That happened!" I have to put my finger on her lips to remind her people are sleeping. This shuts her up real quick.

"I might not be as straight as I originally thought if that was apparent by me attacking your face." She stares at me in complete shock. She lets go and sits up. She runs her hand through her hair to flip it out of face, which is so hot. I sit up to. "What are you thinking right now?"

"I'm not sure I am thinking. I am pretty sure my brain is still in shock."

I pause. "Are we going to be okay?" The fear starts to seep back in. She looks over at me and I can see the emotions in her eyes. She is scared, that is definitely there. But the love and appreciation she has for me is there too. She grabs my hand and sits there to collect her thoughts. Finally she speaks. "Riley… did you kiss me because you are questioning your sexuality or because you are actually interested in me?"

Maya

That question had to be answered. Cause as much as I REALLY enjoyed that… I am also terrified that I am going to get my heart broken. She squeezes my hand a bit to get me to look at her.

"Maya, I will be honest. I do not have all the answers. I am just figuring all of this out. But I do know that this," she motions between us, "feels right. I haven't wanted to kiss anyone before. In fact, I don't think I have even really truly thought about it before. Not until tonight." Well that sort of answers my question.

"What about Lucas?" I see her eyes move down and her hand gets clammy. This is upsetting to her. I bring her hand up to my lips and kiss it. At this, she looks at me. I can see the same feelings I am experiencing in her eyes.

"I think there is some level of interest there. I thought that what I was feeling with him was what was normal. But then, this week happened. I don't know. But then tonight I realized maybe that isn't what I want at all." She swallows hard. "Maybe I want you."

I can't contain myself. I move in quickly to kiss her. I go to put all my feelings into this kiss, but realize that is going to be hard from this position. Although this scares the shit out of me, I am totally caught up in the euphoria and adrenaline. I move to straddle her and deeply kiss her with my hands on both sides of her face. Her hands naturally move to my hips. We stay kissing like this for a few minutes. I pull back and look her directly in the eyes. "Riles, I know I want you."