I'm Back!!!!!!!
Chapter 11: Hope and Despair
Phillia landed in a dark alley way. She was crying, so she hid behind a trash can till her tears has passed.
"What am I to do? Beeru's looking for me and I have no place to go." Phillia said to herself. She stood on her feet and brushed herself off. "Might as well do something." She put her hands in her pockets and walked out into the open. Luckily she didn't attract much attention as she rushed to a park. She turned a street corner and collided with a boy.
"Oh my gosh!. I'm sorry! I wasn't watching where I was going! Please forgive me!" He screamed scurring up to her.
"It's alright..." She looked at him. He had long brown and was wearing black pants and a white button up shirt. "Oh Ritsu?" she remembered him very well. When they first met, he was with Shigure. Their car broke down, and Ritsu caused a big commotion by blaming himself. Now, he only became more excited when he saw it was Phillia.
"I'm sorry Phillia! I know I'm worthy of living on this earth! I wasn't watching where I was goi-.." Phillia put her hand over his mouth.
"It's alright. No need to apologize." She grinned, patting his head.
"Oh...ok." He replied shyly. Phillia stood up and extended her hand to his. He smiled and took it. "So what are doing here? Shouldn't you be with Akito?" Phillia lowered her eyes.
"Some things happened and I think it's best if I don't go back to the estate for awhile." She forced a smile on her face.
"What happened?...Oh I'm sorry! I don't mean to be nosy.." He said. Phillia laughed
"That's ok...the news would get out anyway."
"Well if you want, you can come to Shigure's house with me."
"Alright, I can tell you along the way." They began walking down the sidewalk and into the forest. Ritsu looked at Phillia waiting for her to talk. She was hesitant, but told him, "Ok to make a long story short...I've been framed. Some pages have been torn out of some important book about breaking the curse. In the book was a black feather. Akito got mad and kicked me out."
Ritsu's gaze went to the grass. "Oh I'm very sorry. Do you know who did it?"
"No." Phillia ran her hand along a tree branch. They traveled the rest of the way in silence. Several times Ritsu tried to say something to her, but the words never came out. As they were walking, about halfway through the forest, Phillia began to hear voices. 'Come little hinota.....I'm calling....I'm calling.' Phillia stopped walking, and listened around her 'Phillia! Save us!' She started hearing mens' voices, womens' voices. Some of them telling her to fight, others asking her why she killed them, or asking her to save them. They were all voices of the people who once knew her.
"Phillia? Have I upset you?" Ritsu asked, but Phillia didn't respond. She put hands over her ears, and backed away from him. 'Phillia!' The voices became louder in her mind.
"Ritsu run! Go! Run to Shigure's! Phillia screamed. Ritsu turned and ran; Behind him Phillia's screams rang loud in the air. Ritsu ran till he reached Shigure's front door. Inside Yuki, Shigure, Kyo, and Tohru heard Ritsu.
"Shigure! Tohru! I'm sorry to barge in, but something is wrong with Phillia!" Ritsu jumped in front of his door. Shigure calmed him down.
"Easy Ri. Now slowly, what's wrong with Phillia?"
"I don't know! I think I did something to upset her! She screamed and told me to run!"
"And you just left her there?" Yuki said from behind Shigure.
"I'm sorry! I know I should've asked what was wrong, but she looked as though I was in trouble if I stayed!" Ritsu was panicking.
"Take us to her Ri!" Shigure pushed Ritsu, urging him to run. Yuki, Kyo, and Tohru followed.
Meanwhile......
"Shut up! Leave me alone!" Phillia screamed, smashing her ears with her hands. The voices were still inside her head. 'You killed us Phillia. You let us die.' Phillia pounded her fists against the tree. "No! It wasn't my fault! Beeru! He killed you! Go away! It's not my fault!" Phillia threw back her head. Her scream turned into a roar that scared some birds away from their nests. 'Phillia..come back to us!' "You're all dead! Just leave me alone!" 'Phillia...he'll kill you...your going to die like us!' "Nooooo!" I blue circle blinked on her head. From it a great beam of energy sliced a tree from it's roots. It fell over in front of Phillia, and she passed out from exhaustion.
Later that day.....
Phillia's eyes shot open, and she jerked awake. She was inside Shigure's home, and the voices were gone. She got dizzy and fell back on the white pillow. Darkness took her, as she fell back to sleep.
"Phillia? Phillia?"
"What? Who are you? Wait... I know you."
"What are you running from Phillia?"
"I'm not running...I'm not running!"
"What do you fear so much?"
"Nothing!"
"That's a lie. Everyone is afraid of something."
"I don't want to face him. He'll kill me! Beeru is too strong."
"I don't think it is Beeru that you are afraid of. I think it's the other."
"The other?"
"The other that helps Beeru. He is alive, and his thirst for revenge is growing stronger. You must fight!"
"I can't. I'm a coward. Useless."
"Only if you let yourself. You can beat them both, Beeru and the other."
"The other is he?....who?"
"My enemy. You're enemy."
"Who are you?"
"Look into your heart. It speaks to you. Listen."
"Who are you and who is this other? Please tell me?"
"Look inside yourself, little sister."
"Come back!"
"Phillia? Are you ok? Wake up!" Shigure shook Phillia, till she grabbed his wrist.
"Shigure? Wait..." Phillia grabbed the cloth on his shoulder and pulled herself up.
"Be careful Phillia. You're still very weak." He supported her, smiling. "Ri told us what happened. You can stay here, till we figure out who took the pages of that book."
"Ritsu? Where is he?"Shigure laid her back down.
"Stay here I'll go get him." He left the room and within seconds Ritsu entered the room. He knelt down beside Phillia and began to apologize. Phillia stopped him.
"I called you in here cause I wanted to thank you."
"Thank me?" Ritsu was confused.
"Yes. You know, you really don't have to be sorry about everything. You think you do a lot of things wrong, but you don't."
"Everyone tells me so, but I do cause a lot of trouble."
"No you don't. Actually you're a very nice person. Loud, but nice. You say you're not worthy of breathing this air, but you are. If there is one person who's not...it'd be me."
"Why do you say that? Is it because you're not human?" Phillia looked straight at him.
"How?"
"Well a girl with wings...and a mighty gift. I didn't think you were human. Nothing stays secret around the Sohma's ver long." He smiled at her.
"I have no gift." Phillia felt water swell in her eyes. "It's a stupid curse. People have been killed because of my stupidity."
"Oh! Don't cry! Umm...you're a nice person too! It just sometimes...it's hard to find the good qualities about ourselves. Tohru told me that. She said everyone has something to live for. I think you need to live because you're very important to Hatori and Akito." He smiled a very sweet smile.
"I don't know. It seems that I'm good, but I only bring pain to a lot of people. I'm a coward, I can't even protect another." Phillia sat up and the tears began to flow. "So many people have died on my account. All I did was run away, and now their souls are haunting me." Ritsu had a sudden rush of confidence. He gently hugged Phillia.
"Then that means you have to set their spirits free. You can do whatever it is you have to do. I know you can. I learned this from Tohru too. You can do anything, all you have to do is believe in your friends and yourself. Face your fears." Phillia cried into his shoulder. "Everything will be ok." Then Phillia began laughing. She let go of Ritsu. "What?"
"See Ritsu. You can be confident. Now you see, you can help others. You have a reason of being here too." Both of them laughed.
Their laughter was interrupted by a loud explosion. A high shrill sound echoed and everyone had to cover their ears.
What's going on? This presence..........Beeru!
Phillia got up and slammed open the side door. There, standing in Shigure's front yard was Beeru. Behind him trees burned, and the sky was a dark red.
"Phillia! You little wench! You're not getting away so easily this time!" Beeru laughed madly. As he laughed, the earth shook and it cracked down the middle almost destroying Shigure's house.
"Leave me alone Beeru! I'm no longer any use to you!" Phillia eyes were blazing red. She lifted a boulder with her mind and threw it at Beeru. He reached out his hand and the boulder was cut in half.
"As long as you are living Phillia, I will never sleep! I will never rest until you are dead!" He shot flames at her. She used an invisible shield and protected herself. As his flames dispersed, she summoned a storm, and struck Beeru with lightning. He was caught off guard, and it made a huge gash in his arm. "You'll pay for that." He ran with amazing speed at Phillia. "Damn you hinota!" He prepared to kill Phillia, but Ritsu jumped and pushed Beeru away.
"Ritsu." Phillia tried to run to Ritsu, but was knocked backwards by one of Beeru's attacks. He appeared from some smoke; his eyes were glowing. He picked up Ritsu and swung him over his shoulder. "What are you doing!" Phillia stood up. Her legs immediately buckled beneath her.
"Stupid little girl. You're still weak from those haunting voices." He grinned. "If you ever want to see your precious Ritsu again, I suggest you come my little world. The one just beyond the stars. The place were all the souls of the people who died...wait to see you."
"Shut up Beeru! Give him back!" Phillia sprouted her wings and flew. Beeru used one of his daggers and threw into her left wing. She screamed with pain and fell to the floor. She crawled to Beeru. "Please....give him back. He's of no use." Phillia sobbed. She cried like never before. She grabbed Beeru's boot, pleading for Ritsu.
"You're pathetic Phillia." He kicked her face. "You've got three days to restore you're strength, and find me." He floated into the air, glaring and grinning at Phillia.
"No! Come back!" Phillia quickly gathered the last of her strength and ran after Beeru. "Ritsu! No Ritsu! Come back!" She stumbled on a rock, and crawled to her knees in the dirt. "Nooooo!" The moon rose in the night sky. It shined brightly, as though it were crying along with Phillia.
Shigure came out from hiding. He and the others took cover when the explosions happened. Yuki tried to run into where Phillia was, but he saw her blazing eyes, and thought he would get in the way. Shigure looked into the room. The door and half the wall was missing. Phillia was crouched into a corner.
"Phillia?" Shigure whispered.
"He's...gone. Beeru kidnaped him. I couldn't protect him." She sniffed, turning to Shigure. Her face was red and soaked with tears. "What do I do? He's gone because of me. It is...it is my fault!" Phillia cried. Another part of the wall flew from its place. Shigure ran over to her and hugged her.
"No! It's not your fault. Beeru struck while you were weak. There was nothing you could do." He whispered. Tohru appeared in the room. Yuki and Kyo were behind her.
"What happened." Kyo asked. No one answered him. Tohru started to cry along with Phillia. She hugged Phillia as well.
"It's ok Phillia. We'll get him back." She hugged her very close. Phillia slowly nodded her head. Phillia was worn out. She broke away from everyone and crawled back to her blankets. She clasped on top of them. She thought of the Sohma family until darkness took her.
............
Phillia was swimming in a black abyss. She didn't move, as her thoughts echoed. 'Maybe I should die. It would be less painful for the world.'
'Don't be silly Phillia!' A little girls voice said. From the darkest end of the abyss came a little girl. It was Phillia when she was a little girl.
'What are you doing here?'
'Making sure that you don't die! You need to save Ritsu silly!'
'How, I'm weak. What can I do?'
'You're the only one who can save Ritsu. You're not alone Phillia. Are you going to let all those other people who died for you suffer in the next life?'
'I don't want them to.'
'Then save them! Are you going to let Ritsu die?'
'No!'
'Good! You're the only one who can save him. You can do it Phillia. Whenever you are in your darkest times, look to your heart. In there is a light that will never go out!'
'Right!'
'Now go save Ritsu!'
'Ok!'
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Phillia's eyes flew open. She found herself in a different room. One that was not half way destroyed. All her strength had returned. She rose to her feet then without thinking she sprouted her wings and flew downstairs and into the living area. There she startled Yuki, Kyo, and Tohru. She paid no attention to them as she quickly opened the front door, and flew out of the house. Shigure saw her fly from the porch.
"Phillia! Where are you going." She stopped and winked at him.
"I'm going to save Ritsu!"
"Wait Phillia! No! Come back!"
"Believe in me! I will return, with Ritsu!" Phillia turned away from him, and flew away, but she didn't fly up to the sky. Instead she flew straight, toward the Sohma estate.
This chapter may not be very good. It's too early in the morning and I'm dead tired....anywho....
Yay! I'm done! Sorry it took me awhile to update this story. I'm going to be switching back and forth between this one and my new story. Please review! Need encouragement!!!.