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Chapter 11: Reflection
Rory's POV
It was now Wednesday and Jess had tried to talk to me more this week but every time he did he could never get any words out. He was always stumbling over his words. Which has lead to me trying to avoid him. I may have wanted to talk to him but I know he doesn't care any more so I couldn't give in and talk to him just so he could humiliate me. I was at my locker when I saw Lane and Paris coming towards me.
"Hey Rory! Excited for the weekend?" Lane said in chipper mood.
"Yes! I have this weekend off. I get to relax finally. You guys can come over if you want. We can have a nice relaxing weekend." I said trying to match her excited mood.
"Sounds good to me." Paris said in a calmer tone.
"Yeah that sounds really fun." Lane said with a big smile.
"Sweet you guys can come over on Friday. That way we can have a full girls weekend. I don't know what we will do but we can figure stuff out. It will be lots of fun." I said smiling.
"Well we should have a girly night, then a movie night, then a… I don't know night." Lane said with a little laugh.
"Sounds good to me." I said.
"Maybe our last night could be a music night. Rory could sing some songs and we could listen to music and stuff like that." Paris suggested.
"That is a great idea!" Lane squealed.
"Yeah sounds good to me. I would love to sing for you guys. I can test some new stuff out for you guys." I said and Lane and Paris smiled. Soon both of their smiles dropped a little. They were staring behind me so I turned around and saw Jess approaching us.
"Hey Paris, Lane, Rory." Jess said as he nodded at us.
"Hi?" We all said together.
"Can I talk to you Rory? Just for a few minutes." He asked seeming a little nervous. But I shook my head knowing I was just imagining things.
"Fine you have five minutes so you better speak fast." I said looking at him.
"Yeah sure Okay." Jess said looking at me.
"Your time has already started."
"Oh…. Ummm… Okay. Well you see my band really wanted to perform a song with Rose. I tried to see I could change their mind but they wouldn't back down. So do you think we could ever write a song and perform it on Friday. I know it is really soon but that is when we are performing." He rambled.
"Wow this is shocking. We aren't really on talking terms Jess. But for your band and not to look like a bitch I will do it." I said with a little nod.
"Really? Thanks so much Ror." He said with a small smile.
"It's Rory only my friends call me Ror. We can write the song today after song, it's the only day I'm free before Friday." I said.
"Okay sounds good. Where should we meet?" He asked and I swore I saw hurt flash over his face but I know I was imagining things again.
"How about at Miss Patty's. It is always empty except for when she has morning classes and on town meetings."
"Sounds good. Right after school?"
"Yeah. Bye Jess." I said giving him a little wave as I started to walk away.
"Bye Rory." I heard him whisper.
"So guys we will have to push our plans on Friday back until late Friday night." I said as I found Lane and Paris outside on the empty bleachers.
"Why?" Lane asked looking confused.
"I'm performing with Jess and his band on Friday. We are going to write a new song to perform."
"Why?" Paris asked now looking confused.
" I love performing. I love getting up on stage and singing my music to a crowd of people. It's my life and passion. Even though I will have to deal with Jess it will be worth it." I said smiling.
"Sounds very inspiring." Paris said with a little giggle.
"Oh shut it." I said laughing a little.
"Okay well time for class. Let's go girls." Lane said with a smile.
"Oh you just sounded like a Shania Twain song. Let's go girls. Come on. I'm going out tonight I'm feeling alright gonna let it all hang out. Wanna make some noise really raise my voice yeah I wanna scream a shout." I sang as we headed back towards school.
"Okay this is one of the many reasons I love you Rory. That was awesome." Lane said with a smile.
"Yeah that was pretty impressive. Now I can't wait for our music day even more so I can hear you sing more of your songs." Paris said with a smile.
"Awww Thanks guys. Well I will see you later." I waved as I started to walk away from them.
"Bye Ror!" They both shouted at me.
…. Lunch Time! …..
As I walked into the lunchroom I thought about how the day has been passing by pretty fast today and nothing seems to be going wrong. Dang I spoke to soon here comes Crystal. Well there goes my good day I bet.
"Stay away from Jess." Crystal whispered angrily in my ear.
"Don't worry I will." I said as I tried to walk past her but she blocked my way.
"Well then why were you talking to him this morning? So you aren't doing a very good job. Do I have to explain to you again that Jess is mine and will never be yours?" She said putting her hands on her hips.
"Crystal you don't have to worry. Jess and I aren't friends. Not even close. He had a question about class so he asked me. I answered then he left. That's it nothing more. So just go back to your group and don't worry your little head so much." I said then I walked away from her.
"I'm watching you." Crystal shouted as I was walking away.
"Oh Joy!" I shouted back but didn't bother looking at her.
"What was that about?" Jamie asked as I sat down at our table.
"Oh you know just Crystal being her usual self." I said while rolling my eyes a little.
"Ah the wonderful Crystal. Aren't you just so glad you can catch her attention Ror?" Zack said with a smile.
"Hahaha you are so hilarious." I said as I stuck my tongue out at him.
"So what are we doing after school?" Lane asked.
"Ummm I have plans already." I said looking down at my food.
"What are these plans you speak of?" Paris asked looking at me.
"Remember what I told you this morning." I said and the nodded their heads at me. "Well I am meeting up with that person after school."
"Why?" Lane asked confused.
"We have to write a paper." I said hopping she would understand I meant a song. When she just kept staring at me confused Paris leaned over and whispered in her ear.
"Oh yeah! Sorry totally forgot." Lane said with a small smile.
"Hahaha its all good Lane. We all have our blonde moments." I said and it was then I noticed Zack and Jamie staring at us with very confused faces. "Don't worry you will guys know what we are talking about soon. I would tell you but you can wait a little longer now."
"Hey why do we have to wait and the girls get to know?" Zack asked.
"Well one they are my best friends. And two you shouldn't have teased me." I said sticking out my tongue.
"You mean we aren't you best friends Rory. That hurts." Jamie said with a fake sniffle.
"Of course you guys are but I have know my girls longer so they get to know first. Really though don't worry too much you will know soon enough." I said with a smile.
"Fine we can wait." Zack said.
"Yeah it will be more exciting that way I guess." Jamie said nodding.
"That it will be. Well I'm off to class." I said as I looked at the clock.
"Good Luck Rory." Lane and Paris said with smiles.
"Thanks." I said as I walked out of the cafeteria.
…. After School …..
I left right when school was over and headed to Miss Patty's. I always came here to play when I was younger. Miss Patty always made sure no one would disturb me. Even though she didn't know what I was doing. Now she has always made sure no one comes into her studio even if I am not there, she will always keep it empty in case I want to use it. I was sitting for probably 10 minutes doing nothing when I couldn't wait any longer. I sat at the piano and started playing a new song I wrote.
"Look at me
You may think you see
Who I really am
But you'll never know me
Every day
It's as if I play a part
Now I see
If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now
In a world where I
Have to hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world
What's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection
Someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be
Free to fly
That burns with a need to know
The reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think, how we feel?
Must there be a secret me
I'm forced to hide?
I won't pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?"
Jess's POV (Needed a short Jess POV)
As I approached Miss Patty's I heard a piano playing. I decided to be quiet and see who was playing. When I looked into the studio I saw Rory at the piano playing and singing. I started listening to the lyrics and felt horrible again. She was truly sorry about lying. Gosh why did I ever think that trying to hurt her would help me, it's just hurting me even more. This song was so beautiful. I really have to find a plan to make it up to her already. Once she was finished I decided to wait before I would enter so she wouldn't know I heard her singing. May be when I go in I can start making it up to her. But how would I do that? I know of an idea that could work but it will take more than just of today to work. It is going to take a little time to make up for what I have done.
Rory's POV
Once I was finished playing I looked around and noticed no one was around. That made me sigh with relief knowing no one heard that. I dried the tears I noticed that must have fallen from my eyes while I was playing.
"So are you ready to write and awesome song?" Jess said as he entered the studio after I had dried my tears.
"Yeah let's do this." I said as I grabbed some paper and a pen.
"Okay… So do you have any ideas for a song?" Jess said as he sat near me.
"Not really." I said as I played random notes on the piano.
"Oh I know How about this to start it off." Jess said as he wrote down some lyrics.
"That's good." I said with a small smile. "Here I have an idea." I said as I took the pen and paper from him.
"Awesome I like it. Here I've got something." He said taking the paper and pen back.
"Nice." I said as I grabbed the paper back and wrote down more.
"This is really good. We will be done with this song before you know it." Jess said with a small smile. (A/N: I am not writing down the lyrics they wrote down it would give the surprise away. I have had this song planned for a while though. You are welcome to give any guesses you guys may have.)
"Yeah." I said looking at him then looked back at the paper quickly.
We really finished the song in no time. Once the lyrics were done we started thinking over how the music would go with it and what instruments would be playing. That took some time but really it didn't take too much.
"I'll give this to the guys and we'll be ready to perform on Friday. Thanks again Rory." Jess said standing up as he grabbed his copy of the song.
"No problem." I said staring at the piano.
"Are you leaving now?" He said looking at me a little confused.
"No I'm going to stay here for a little." I said not looking away from the piano.
"Okay… well… umm.. Rory. I wanted to ummm…" He said started to stutter before he stopped. "I'll see you at school." He said as he started walking out of the studio.
He didn't even give me a chance to say bye. I checked to make sure he was gone before I went back to the piano. I started playing around with it since inspiration struck me. I wrote song some music and lyrics. I had a plan and I hoped it would work.
(A/N: Originally had it end there but I got some ideas so I am adding more. YAY!)
…. Next Day (Thursday) …..
So it was now Thursday and it was a strange day. Jess and I spent yesterday writing a song and it seemed like may be we could start getting back to old times but I guess that wasn't the case because he was still with the popular group. It was strange though he tried to talk to me a few times today but every time he did nothing came out but him stumbling over words. Just like how the beginning of the week started. I was at home writing a song to express my feelings. I loved being able to do this. The greatest thing too is I can perform it tonight. Why you may ask. Well Cloud 9 has and open mic tonight and they asked if I…. Rose Maylie could ever sing a couple songs. So here I am now in my secret room writing a song while my mom picks out an outfit for me, and her of course.
"So I got our outfits hun. Are you finished with your song?" She asked as she sets my outfit next to me.
"Yep just finished." I said with a smile as I looked at my mom.
"Good because we gotta get going." She said as she grabbed her outfit.
We were both changed and I had to admit my mom did a great job picking out of outfits. My mom had on a pink top, brown skirt, earrings, bracelets, pink heels, her blonde wig and a pink mask.
For my outfit I had on a white tank top with a jeweled design, a black blazer, skinny jeans, earrings, bracelets, black wedge heels, and a white and gold mask.
(A/N: Outfits on profile.)
Once we were dressed we headed out to Cloud 9. I was extremely excited to perform my song. Once we arrived at Cloud 9 I was sent to the stage right away. I decided to sing Get this party started, Unwritten, and Ignorance. I felt great singing on stage tonight. I felt like something had changed, may be it was because of all my change. Once I had performed my first three songs I got ready for my new one. I looked at the audience and saw that Jess as sneaking in the back, it's just what I needed.
"Hey everyone hope you are enjoying yourselves tonight." I said into my mic. "Hopefully when I am done some of you guys will come up and perform. So my last song is another new one. I have been writing a lot of new songs lately. I hope you all like this one." I said with a smile.
"There's a whole lotta things that I will forgive
But I just can't take a liar
I was by your side till the very end
Till you pushed me in the fire
I tried to believe you but something is wrong
You won't look in my eyes tell me what's going on
It's you and me against the world
That's what you said, that's what you said
If you can't be honest with me
Then I'm afraid this is the end
Hurry up, hurry up
If you ever really cared about me
Tell the truth, give it up
You're still guilty cuz you're stuttering
Oh oh oh oh oh ey ey ey ey ey oh oh oh oh woah
Yeah you're stuttering
Oh oh oh oh oh ey ey ey ey ey oh oh oh oh woah
Yeah you're stuttering
Now the seconds turn into minutes now
But you won't give me an answer
You can tell me this, you can tell me that
But don't say you don't remember
Cuz I know you better than you know yourself
So don't say I'm crazy, I know very well
It's you and me against the world
That's what you said, that's what you said
If you can't be honest with me
Then I'm afraid this is the end
Hurry up, hurry up
If you ever really cared about me
Tell the truth, give it up
You're still guilty cuz you're stuttering
Oh oh oh oh oh ey ey ey ey ey oh oh oh oh woah
Yeah you're stuttering
Oh oh oh oh oh ey ey ey ey ey oh oh oh oh woah
Yeah you're stuttering
Oh oh oh oh oh ey ey ey ey ey oh oh oh oh woah
Yeah you're stuttering
Oh oh oh oh oh ey ey ey ey ey oh oh oh oh woah
Yeah you're stuttering
I I I don't don't wanna hear your so-o-rry now
The-uh-uh best thing you can do for me is just spit it out
I I I don't don't wanna hear your so-o-rry now
Stop stop stuttering your words
It's only making you look worse
Hurry up, hurry up
If you ever really cared about me
Tell the truth, give it up
You're still guilty cuz you're stuttering
Oh oh oh oh oh ey ey ey ey ey oh oh oh oh woah
Yeah you're stuttering
Oh oh oh oh oh ey ey ey ey ey oh oh oh oh woah
Yeah you're stuttering
Keep on stuttering (yeah you're stuttering)
Keep on stuttering (yeah you're stuttering)"
I finished and had a huge smile on my face. It felt great performing that song. The crowd was cheering which made me feel ever better.
"Thanks everyone have a great night. Don't forget to come up here and perform." I said with a smile.
As I walked off stage I saw Jess staring at me. He looked sad and kept staring at me. I just looked away and walked towards my mom. This may have made our performance tomorrow awkward. I guess I didn't think everything through when I decided to sing. Well we we'll just have to see what happens tomorrow. I am guessing it will be interesting.
Jess's POV
I walked into Cloud 9 late after hearing that Rose Maylie was performing. I wanted to see what Rory was going to do tonight. She was introducing a new song she was going to perform. As I listened to her song I couldn't help but notice it was another song about me. She was really upset about what I have done and this song shows it. When she was done she looked at me quickly but looked away. I knew tomorrow I had to do something. I couldn't let her get even madder at me. It had to stop now but how was I going to make it up to her I have been such a jerk. Well I guess I have some brain storming to do tonight.
A/N: And there it is. Hope you all liked it. Next chapter will be really good. Lots of surprises! Probably am going to add more to it too. Thanks for reading review if you want.
Songs from this chapter:
Man I feel like a woman By Shania Twain (the little bit Rory sang)
Reflection By Christina Aguilera
Stuttering By Fefe Dobson