Chapter 11 I've waited long enough.
Christian and Mark were sitting on the porch when Dean pulled in the driveway. They walked on the porch, "What's going on?" Dean asked. "There is one just inside the tree line across the street and one out back." Mark said. Dean held the door open for the girls and Sam to walk in. He took one last look around before heading in. Bobby, Gwen and Samuel were in the kitchen. Dean grabbed a beer and sat at the counter. The girls leaned against the counter. "So, what are we going to do?" Dean asked. Samuel looked at him and took a deep breath, "Me and my crew are going to leave. They are not going to come any closer as long as we are here. You, Sam, and Bobby stay here with the girls and the baby. Act normal. We will hide down the street and watch." Gwen grabbed their bag and followed Samuel out the door. Sam walked to the patio door and looked out as Dean did the same out the front window. The girls went to their room to change into shorts and t-shirts. When Laxie came out, Dean, Jade and Bobby were sitting silently at the counter. "Where is Sam?" she asked. Jade propped her head in her hand, "I think he went to check on Bentley." She walked to the door and slowly pushed it open. Sam was sitting in the rocking chair staring at Bentley. Sam looked at her and stood. "I'm sorry. I just wanted to look at him." Lexie smiled and walked to the crib and pulled the blanket over Bentley. "It's ok. He is your son." Sam stood next to her as they both looked down at him, sleeping peacefully. "He is perfect." Sam whispered. He could see his self in his face. He was drawn to him just like with Lexie. He closed is eyes as the flashes started. The delivery room, the first time he laid eyes on him. He could see his self holding him in his arms and smiling at him. Then the first time Bentley smiled at him. They were at a Lake House, he was feeding him. Bentley looked right at him and smiled. Lexie looked up at him. He was in a daze, she grabbed his arm. "Sam, you ok?" Sam took a deep breath and looked at her and shook his head. "Yeah, I'm good." He sat back in the chair, she looked back at him. "What is it? You've been acting weird since back at the bar." He ran his hand through his hair, "I don't know. I have been having these visions." "What kind of visions?" she asked. He looked up at her. "Of you and Bentley. I guess things I have blocked out." Lexie raised her eyebrows, "Like what?" "When he was born, the first time he smiled at me. The look on your face when you saw him." He cleared his throat and smiled. She looked at him, her eyes wide, "And, why are you smiling like that. What else?" He looked at her, "At the bar, when you where dancing, I saw us." She raised her eyebrows "Saw us?" He cleared his throat and looked away. She folded her arms over her chest, "What?" He looked up at her, "I saw myself making love to you. I could feel it." Her body relaxed. He looked away, "I'm sorry. I don't know what's going on. I am seeing things, feeling things I don't understand." "When did this start?" she asked. "Well, the first time I saw you, I felt like I knew you. Then tonight before we left, I didn't like the way the guys were looking at you. And it has been flooding my head since. When I kissed you, it felt right, comfortable." She was quiet not sure how to respond. He looked up at her, "I guess it is because I am here. Being with you is triggering something. I don't know." She looked at him, 'What are you feeling, inside? Anything?" He took a deep breath, "I'm not sure. Honestly, I feel like I am about to explode." He ran his hand through his hair the fold his hands and leaned his chin on them. Both quiet.
After a few minutes she walked out. Not wanting him to see her cry. He followed, "Lexie." Bobby and Dean watched as Lexie went to her room, Sam right behind her. Bobby smiled and shook his head. "Remind you of anyone?" he asked them. Jade rolled her eyes as Dean looked at him confused. "Who?" he dumbly asked. Bobby smiled and shook his head. Jade let out a deep breath and stood. "If I have to set here like this one more minute, I am gonna take a long walk down a short fucking pier." Dean and Bobby laughed as they watched her head to the bedroom. She pulled the comforter back and crawled into bed. Bobby took a drink of his beer. "How does it feel to have Sam back?" he asked. Dean nodded, "Good, I think." "What does that mean?" Bobby asked. Dean shook his head, "Is it really Sam? I mean he looks like Sam. But he has this whole new life. New friends, new family. It's just weird." He took another drink of his beer. Then he looked at Bobby, "I am still pissed at you by the way." Bobby looked at him confused. "For?" "For not telling me. Letting me go on thinking he was dead. You should have told me."
Bobby: "Maybe I should have. But you were doing good. You had a job, friends, Lexie and Bentley and Jade. Who loves you. As close to a real family as I have ever seen a hunter get. I am not going to apologize for wanting that for you. If I called you, you would have left."
Dean shook his head, "That would have been my decision to make."
Bobby: "I did what was best for you, so sue me." Dean shook his head and smiled. He couldn't be pissed at Bobby. "So, now that you know. What are you going to do?" Dean was quiet for a few minutes. "Honestly, I don't know. If I don't hunt, they hunt me. But if I leave, I really believe Jade will be done with me. And I can't blame her." Bobby shook his head, "I don't think so. Dean, she loves you, there is no doubt about that. You were a hunter when she fell in love with you, not a construction foreman." Dean ran his hand over his mouth. "Yeah, but I knocked on her door. And when I did I agreed to live this life with her. I was leaving all that behind. If I leave, I will be fucking up not just my life. But hers and the life we could have." Bobby looked at him, "Looks like you and Jade have a few things to talk about." Dean looked at him. Bobby shook his head, "Don't you make this decision without talking to her, boy. This is her decision just as much as it is yours. No matter what you decide you owe her that. It has to be driving her crazy. You know she is just waiting for you to bail." Dean smirked, "She already ask me when I was leaving." "And what did you tell her?" Bobby asked. "I told her I wasn't. She said she knew I was, when was the question." Bobby took another drink, "The longer you put of the conversation, the worse it is going to be. Don't leave because you want to be the hero or you feel you have to save the world. You've already done that. It is somebody else's turn. If this life makes you happy, don't fuck it up. I know you two are spatting right now." Dean raised his eyebrows, "What?" Bobby smiled, "The tension when you two came in was so thick, you could cut it with a knife." Dean smiled and nodded. "It isn't always going to be nice and perfect. There is going to be up and downs. But you learn from it and the relationship grows because of it." Dean smiled, "Thank you, Dr. Phil. I got it. I am going to talk to her." Dean stood and walked to the bedroom. When he pushed the door opened he smiled. She laid on the bed, sound asleep. He closed the door, walked to the den and laid on the couch. Bobby laid back in the recliner.
Lexie was pulling the comforter back as Sam walked in. He stood on the other side of the bed. "Lexie, I'm sorry if I upset you." She looked at him tears in her eyes. "Sam, I don't know what you want me to do with that." Sam put one hand on his hip and ran the other over his mouth. "Am I suppose to be happy? The man I love, has no feelings at all for me. He doesn't even really know me. He just has bits and pieces of our life together." She walked to bathroom and brushed her teeth as Sam sat on the side of the bed. "I shouldn't have said anything." She walked back in the room, "You are good at that. You forgot to tell me you weren't dead." She paused and took a deep breath, "Our relationship was good. Jade swears it was perfect. Yeah, we argued. But now often. I don't understand how you can just forget something like that." Sam looked up at her, "I wish I knew what to do. All I know is that when I am around you, something happens to me. I don't know what I feel, but it is something. And when I am not, I feel nothing." She looked away as the tears fell. "I have worked so hard not to fall apart since you've been gone. But what kept me from just giving up, was that I knew, without an ounce of doubt, that you loved me and Bentley. And now your back and I don't even have that." He grabbed her hips and pulled her to stand between his legs. She looked away from him. "Lexie, please look at me." She slowly met his eyes. "I may not can feel it, but I knew as soon as I laid eyes on you, you were mine Even before I knew who you were. And know I am remembering. I want to remember. I need you to help me." Her hands trembled as she cupped his face. He closed his eyes, the feel of her skin made him feel safe. She lowered her head to his and gently kissed his lips. He could taste her tears on her lips. He ran his hands through her hair and deepened the kiss. Lexie felt the heat build in her body. All she has wanted for the last four months was to kiss him, touch him, feel him one more time. She moaned as she felt him part her lips with his tongue. He slid his hands up her side and under her arms. He slowly lifted her small body and sat her straddled on his lap. She broke the kiss and bit he lip. He ran his hand under her shirt and up her back. She slowly rocked her hips as he pressed his forehead to hers. His jaws clenched. She lowered her hands to the hem of his t-shirt and slowly raised it over his head. He placed one hand on her ass, pressing her closer to him as the other rest just below her jaw, running his thumb over her red plump lips. She moaned as she felt him harden against her. He kissed her softly as she closed her eyes. When their lips parted he whispered, "We don't have to do this." She grabbed the hem of her shirt and pulled it over her head. Sam ran his tongue over his lips as he looked down at her beautiful breast. He lowered his head and ran his tongue over her nipple. She tilted her head back and gasped. Both hands on her ass, he pushed her into him harder as he nibble and suck on her nipples. Taking turns from one to the other. He couldn't take it anymore. He had plenty of women since he had been back. But he never wanted one like he wanted her right now. He had to be inside her. He held her tight as he stood and laid her on the bed. She smiled as she watched him undo his jeans and slide them to the floor. His massive dick erect and gorgeous. He grabbed the top of her shorts and slid them off her legs. Sliding his hand under her back he guided her to the top of the bed. He kneeled at the bottom of the bed and ran his hands up her legs and thighs. She watched as he gently pressed her legs wide open and to the bed. He kissed both of her inner thighs. Causing her to shiver. "Umm" he moaned as he kissed her stomach just above her pelvic bone. He gave her one last look as he lowered his head. She tilted her head back and gasped as she felt him run his tongue up her slick, soft folds. Her sweet taste caused him to moan. "Uhhh". She moaned as his tongue touched her clit. Her moans got louder as he made circular motions on her clit. He ran his hands under her thighs and lifter her to give him better access to her core. She ran her hand to his head, clenching his hair in her fingers. It was like he was never gone. He knew exactly what she liked. It was like his body just knew how to touch her. She begin to buck her hips. He slid his tongue down to her opening. Slowly dipping inside, pulling out her sweet juices. "Oh God" she moaned. He smiled against her and moved his tongue back to her clit. Flicking it over her as he slowly slid on finger inside, causing her gasp. He massaged her clit as he slid his finger in and out of her. Her breathing was erratic and her moans grew louder. He could feel her tighten on his finger. He slid another one inside and she pressed him closer to her core. "Shit, please don't stop." she said between moans. He replaced his tongue with his thumb. Licked his lips as he looked up at her. Her lips were parted and her chest was rapidly rising and falling. He could see the muscle in her tight toned stomach spasm. "That's it, baby. Cum for me." he whispered. Her back bowed and she moaned as he felt her come apart. "Uhhh, yes. Sam…God" she moaned. He pulled his finger out and into his mouth. He lowered his head and ran his tongue from her opening to her clit. Her legs were shaking and her breaths were quick and shallow. He kissed and licked a trail from her clit, up her stomach, over her ribs, between her breast, up her neck and jaw. She cupped his face as his lips touched hers. He slid his hands under her shoulder. She moaned as she tasted her self on his tongue as he massaged hers. She opened her legs and wrapped them around his waist, resting her heels on his ass. He rested his head next to hers, his lips to her ear. She moaned as he rubbed his dick against her folds. "Ummm" She could feel his hot breath across her neck. "Damn, baby" he whispered as she coated him. She ran her tongue up his earlobe. "Sam, I need you. I've waited long enough." He raised, his palms flat on the bed next to her head. Looking down into her dark blue eyes. She grabbed his forearms as she felt his tip at her entrance. She bit her lip as she looked at his muscular body. She was so turned on. She pressed her heels into this ass and moan as she felt him slowly enter her. Sam's lips parted as his breath escaped his body. He closed his eyes as the flashes started again. He slowly slid in and out as visions of her filled his head. It was like every minute he made love to her came rushing back. The way she looked as the pleasure washed over her. She cupped his face, "Sam, look at me." she whispered. Still sliding in and out, slow and gentle, he opened his eyes and stared into hers. Sweat beaded on his fore head. Lips parted, breath shallow and quick, eyes glossy. "Baby, you feels so good." he whispered. She was so wet and he was so deep. She moaned each time he thrusted. He roughly kissed her, tongues tangling. Without warning she rolled them over. Which took him by surprise. He smiled at her as she slowly slid on him. He tilted his head back and closed his eyes. He could see her in his mind, slowly riding him. He felt her hands on his chest as she started slowly rocking her hips. He tightly gripped her thighs. She placed her hands over his. Then started rising and sitting back down. He opened his eyes and bit his lip. "Shit, that's it baby." he groaned through gritted teeth. He remember how she felt and looked. Her pace quickened. She tilted her head back and moaned as he begin to meet her thrust. "Oh God, Sam. I'm close." she moaned. He gripped her hips and thrusted harder. "Shit, me too, baby." Not another word, that could be understood. Just the sound of their bodies connecting and the inaudible words and moans. As he felt her tighten on him he lost it. "Shit, yes, ughhh" he moaned. As she felt him coat her walls she lost it. "Sammmm, Uhhhh". He wrapped his arms around her back and pulled her body on top of his, still inside her. She gasped as she felt the last few twitches inside her. Still spasming around him. She laid her head next to his, facing him. He shivered as he felt her breath across his ear. Her body still shaking. He turned and looked at her. "You ok?" he asked. "Better than I have been in a long time." He brushed the hair out of her face. She raised her hips and let him slide out. Then she rested next to him, her head on his shoulder, his arm around her back. "Lexie, I remember every time I made love to you." She opened her eyes and looked at him. He closed his eyes and softly kissed her. She laid her hand on his chest, she could feel his heartbeat. It was like all the hurt and pain she had buried down deep, all these months, just left her body with each deep breath she took. He closed his eyes. And for the first time in four months, he fell asleep. Lexie looked at him, ran her thumb over his cheek. He was back. Maybe he wasn't whole, but she was going to do what she had to do to get him that way. "I love you." she whispered. She closed her eyes and drifted to sleep.