AN: Jbcjazz/trace619 - re: "cuddling nude and reading to me was just as intimate as sex/what happened between Alex & Olivia at the end was just as intimate as anything else that could've happened"... That's what my muse thought and hoped readers would see the same, even if Alex and Olivia didn't have sex for the first time as they planned :-). Jbcjazz - re: "I am worried things are going a bit smoothly though and we are about to have bumps in the road"... All I'll say is that your worries are not unfounded, but the timing is all wrong ;-). "I love you stories and thank you for showing how beautiful love can be, especially in socities that seem to make sex a sin and not a loving act. I live in one sadly. So thank you for showing that its a beautiful thing"... Thankyou for your kind words :-). Sadly, even within the LGBTQAI community, some can find others love 'gross' and not beautiful as it should be (2 women kissing is fine, but 2 men kissing is disgusting? What the?! Prime example: Michael Sam kissing his boyfriend after being drafted for the St. Louis Rams just days ago) or 'not real' (Bisexuals not 'choosing' or 'switching teams' when they feel like it) and it makes me sad :-(. As I've said before, I just write from the heart and hopefully make readers happy :-). I might give readers diabetes, but I write what I'd like to read myself :-) Yep, I'm a sap! trace619 - re: "Being naked in front of someone, especially for the first time, can be scary"... Oh yeah ;-) Jelleykakes - re: "No need to stop. Please hurry up And update soon!"... I only stop because I need to write more. Updating now ;-) confused - re: "what does Forsyth mean? i cant find it anywhere on any baby name sites"... *raises eyebrows* Honest, man?! You couldn't find what 'Forsythe' means on any sites?! Honest man, I don't know what to say about that. Honest, man ;-)
AN2: I'm glad there were no complaints regarding Trevor/Rafael :-) Basically, if you can handle what I wrote in the previous chapter, you'll be fine :-). Now, I hope readers enjoy the M rated Alex and Liv first time lady loving in this chapter. I make NO apologies for it, though I never do ;-). This chapter would have been finished and posted earlier had my muse not decided that I needed to write 4000+ words of plot points, outlines and details of what happens after Rumspringa while it's still fresh in my mind, seeing readers will be helping with what happens during Rumspringa ;-). Unfortunately, my muse has told me that I must update 'Negotiating' next no matter what because it's been far too long.
Alexandra cracked open a sleepy eyelid and waited a few moments before it slowly slid shut.
No, she must have imagined it.
As she began to drift off again... nope, there it was again.
Her eyelids half opened at the slight movement beside her. Wait a minute. Movement? There was someone... Olivia. Olivia was still in bed with her! Why was Olivia still in bed? Olivia read with her at night and always returned home afterwards. Always. Oh dear, this wasn't good... not good at all. They couldn't get caught, not after all these years. Olivia had to go home, right now! Olivia, go home! Mother would... Alexandra shuddered to think what her mother would do if she caught Olivia in her room.
Her sleep fogged brain registered the beginnings of morning from the light shining through the window but nothing else. She reached her hand over to pick up her glasses off the bedside table but they weren't there. There was only one other place they would be and that was her face. A touch of her hand near her own ear confirmed her suspicion. She'd fallen asleep with them on more times than she cared to remember, but the style and type of glasses that they were never made them fall off. She removed them, cleaned the lenses with the bed sheet before popping them back on and securing the cable temples behind her ears.
Her eyes scanned the room and took a few moments to register that she wasn't in her bedroom at home in the Village.
Oh, that's right... Rumspringa House.
They were on Rumspringa.
A large grin appeared on Alexandra's mouth. Mother would do nothing. Mother could do nothing. And Olivia can stay exactly were she is.
The memories of last night came flooding back. Over the months leading up, they had talked about what they had both imagined their first night together so many times, but the reality was quite different. They were supposed to have undressed each other, kissing after each piece of clothing was removed. Olivia was supposed to pick her up, then lay her down on the bed and... Alexandra hadn't really believed Elizabeth when her aunt mentioned being naked in front of someone for the first time could be daunting even before they began being intimate during their 'talk', but the reality set in very quickly. Modesty was lore, drummed in to Villagers from an early age. Alexandra had never seen anyone else naked before, nor anyone had seen her.
What if Olivia laughed at her? Alexandra knew she wasn't large in the breast department and Olivia most definitely was, even if it was all hidden beneath her dresses, aprons and button up camisoles.
What if Olivia was disgusted by what she saw? All that hair down there.
What if Olivia decided she'd changed her mind after all this time, and didn't want this?
So many what ifs.
All her fears crept up and overwhelmed her as soon as she exposed her nakedness to her best friend. She hadn't even looked at Olivia to see if they were different. All she really remembered seeing was brown eyes looking at her with concern, then Olivia's warm body pressed against hers, reassuring her that they didn't have to do anything and that her suggestion of them reading like normal was greatly welcomed. As she scanned through Olivia's Charles Dickens book set on top of the 'betrothal' birthday chest Rafael had made, now placed right beside hers at the end of their bed, Olivia had slipped beneath the bed sheet, covering herself to just under her arms.
'Great Expectations' seemed an appropriate choice, everything considered. They had anticipated and expected their first night at Rumspringa House to be perfect.
Olivia kept her eyes averted until Alexandra herself slipped under the bed linen and snuggled closer, feeling warm skin against hers. When Olivia had kissed her after that first sentence, she began to relax. Her best friend's voice soothing her to sleep.
Now reality dawned on her.
They had slept together... shared a bed... naked.
And they were still naked, weren't they?
She lifted the bed sheet covering herself and quickly peered down at her own body.
Yes, she was.
Right now, Alexandra didn't feel as overwhelmed and nervous as she had last night. She felt almost relieved and much more comfortable. Olivia was still beside her, and that was one of the things that they had imagined... they would wake up in the morning next to each other.
Maybe, in some respects, their first night of Rumspringa hadn't been perfect but it had been quite intimate.
Alexandra gently rolled to the right and was met with the body of her very much asleep best friend. Olivia was lying flat on her back with her left arm folded behind her head, pushing her chest out even more. The bed sheet was barely covering Olivia's breasts, any movement could dislodge the linen and reveal her upper torso completely. Propping her head up with her arm to look down at Olivia like she always did in Lena's garden, she drank in the sight laid out beside her. She knew she shouldn't be staring at Olivia like she was, but this was her first opportunity ever to truly observe the brunette unabashedly.
Her olive skin was much darker than Alexandra's, and so radiant. There were a few freckles on her nose and cheeks, however they were almost invisible from her tan, but Alexandra knew they were there. Her long, dark brown hair parted in the middle revealing the old, pale scar above her right eyebrow. Alexandra remembered how Olivia injured herself on the steps of her house while they played as children, not long after her father left, while Elizabeth and Lena watched on from the porch after breakfast. After the initial heavy thump and immediate crying, Olivia said she had been injured due to Miriam knocking her over as she walked up the steps. Miriam categorically denied it and said Olivia had tripped over herself and very nearly tripped her too! Elizabeth and Lena knew in their gut who was telling the truth, but they couldn't prove anything because they both admitted they hadn't been paying total attention at the time. An immediate journey to Main Town to the hospital for several stitches, some childrens dose pain relief for the next few days and a large rainbow lollipop helped ease the pain afterwards, but a kiss to her bandaged forehead from Alexandra made it 'all better'.
Alexandra herself received a small scar in the middle of her forehead some years later, around the age of 12, when Dean Porter threatened to kiss her at a Village betrothal gathering, and began chasing her. As she neared Olivia, Elizabeth and Lena to get away from him, she tripped and hit her head on a jagged rock. No stitches were required but when Olivia came over that night to read, a kiss to the bandaged injury made it 'all better' too... that's how Olivia's 'goodnight' kiss to her forehead came to be. In turn, Dean Porter ended up falling backside first in a quite fresh cow pat the very next day after schooling courtesy of Olivia, saying if he ever did anything to Alexandra like that again, the next time it would be face first!
Looking back, it was then that Alexandra began to see Olivia more that just her best friend.
She was pulled from her thoughts when Olivia made a tiny noise like a whimper before she observed the corners of Olivia's mouth curl to a dreamy smile in her sleep. This made Alexandra smile too, obviously it was a good dream. Alexandra eyes trailed down Olivia's neck to her chest, watching the swell of her breasts rise and fall with every breath. Her hand itched to reach over and move the bed linen so it would reveal the breasts hidden beneath.
It wouldn't take much effort... just a very gentle tug... Alexandra knew she shouldn't... it was wrong, so very wrong... although, Olivia wouldn't know being sound asleep... but Alexandra would know... could she live with the guilt if she got caught?... could she look Olivia in the eye even though all she wanted to do was look at her best friend's breasts?... Modesty was Village lore... but they were on Rumspringa now...
So forbidden...
But Rumspringa...
Well, they had intended to be intimate last night... so... what to do?
Decisions, decisions.
Holding her breath, Alexandra reached her hand out very slowly and hesitantly, not wanting to get caught. But before she could do anything, the decision was taken from her. Olivia suddenly shifted a little and the bed sheet moved down to reveal her breasts for Alexandra instead. She placed her hand back down beside her as her tongue darted out and swiped along her lips. She saw dark nipples for the first time, quite different from her own pink ones. Right now she wanted nothing more than to seal her lips around the dark bud and flick it with her tongue... maybe even tug it gently with her teeth. She never understood where thoughts like that came from before Elizabeth's little talk a few nights ago, but they made more sense and she wasn't going to begin questioning them now. Thoughts like that involving the brunette made her very happy... they also made her tingle and throb, which in turn made her very happy. Truth be told, it was a wonderfully vicious cycle. The longer she stared, the more incessant the throb between her legs became. She was so focused on Olivia's chest and all the things she wanted to do that she failed to see Olivia's eyes slowly open.
Olivia wondered how long this little scene had been playing out as she discreetly watched Alexandra nibbling on her bottom lip. A tiny moan escaped the blonde as she shifted, pressing her thighs together. The brunette was familiar with that action and it made her heart beat faster knowing that it was her that made Alexandra feel like that. Several moments had passed and Alexandra was still not aware Olivia was fully awake now, so Olivia decided to have some fun. Her tone was nothing but incredulous as she spoke, "Alex!"
Alexandra sat up in shock looking like a deer in headlights, "Liv!"
"What are you doing?" Olivia asked innocently as she sat up as well, trying her best not to smirk.
"I-I was, I-I'm sorry, I-I didn't mean to look... stare."
Olivia laughed and pressed a soft kiss to Alexandra's cheek, "It's alright. I'm not upset with you. You were just so preoccupied with my chest... it was funny."
"No, I-I should've covered you... it's just that I've never seen... I'm really sorry."
"Don't be... I can look at yours now," Olivia indicated the linen now pooling around both of their waists. Alexandra instantly went to cover herself but Olivia rested her right hand on top of the blonde's left and mouthed, "Please don't." Olivia moved her hand from on top of Alexandra's to rest on Alexandra's thigh, allowing her best friend to make her own decision. The brunette's next few words were spoken with full sincerity, "I don't mind that you were looking... staring at me. I know in my heart that you will be the first and last girl... woman... to see me like this."
Alexandra had gathered the linen in her right hand and began to lift it towards her chin, but as Olivia's words sunk in, she knew her best friend was right. Olivia would be the only woman to see her nude. She cautiously lowered the bed linen back down before interlocking her fingers with Olivia's that rested on her thigh, "Same."
Olivia's eyes looked down on pale milky skin and dusty pink nipples for a moment before she looked at Alexandra and smiled, "Good morning."
Alexandra tried not to blush, "Morning."
"How are you?"
"I had a real good sleep."
"Me too. I don't think I've ever slept so peacefully in my life... must have been who I was sharing the bed with."
That comment made Alexandra smile and begin to relax until Olivia leant closer.
"What?" Olivia said in confusion as she saw Alexandra pull back and let go of their hands.
Alexandra covered her mouth, "Morning breath."
"I don't care. I want to kiss you good morning as soon as we both wake up, every morning... just like I want to kiss you goodnight, every night." Olivia reached out and moved the hand covering her mouth out of the way before caressing then cradling Alexandra's cheek, "May I please kiss you 'good morning' now?"
The blonde nodded her approval as she placed her hand on top of Olivia's hand, still cradling her cheek. As they pressed their lips together, their nipples brushed against each other, each tightening at the light friction. Her boldness beginning to awaken once again, Alexandra deepened the kiss and lazily guided Olivia's hand down to cup her left breast, holding it there as encouragement. Olivia let instinct take hold and began brushing her thumb back and forth over the tightened little pink bud, and felt her own respond in kind when Alexandra's hand mirrored hers. The throb between the brunette's legs began to grow incessant as their tongues and lips slid together.
"Liv?" Alexandra panted as they finally broke for air, her hand leaving Olivia's breast to settle on the curve of Olivia's tanned neck and shoulder.
Olivia hummed in response as they rested their foreheads together and the brunette's hand slid down to rest on Alexandra's hip.
"Remember what we said we'd do... last night?"
"Uh-huh."
"I-I think I'm ready now."
Olivia pulled back to make direct eye contact with the blonde for several long moments before quietly saying, "We don't have to, you know."
"I know we don't have to, but like I said... I think I'm ready."
"You sure?"
"Yeah. I mean, I'm still a little nervous... but a good nervous. Does that make any sense?"
"It makes perfect sense because I'd say the same for myself... good nervous. Alex, promise me you'll talk to me... let me know if I'm doing something wrong, or you don't like."
"As long as you do the same with me seeing we've never done this before."
"I promise," Olivia kissed Alexandra gently in reassurance.
"Me too."
As Alexandra lay back down and Olivia propped herself on her left side to look down at the blonde, the bed sheet moved down reveal the triangles of brownish blonde and dark brown curls covering pubic bones. Each young woman giggled nervously seeing their physical differences and beauty for the first time, but their nervousness ebbed away when they stared lovingly in to each other's eyes. Alexandra's eyes involuntarily closed as Olivia kissed her, the sensation of the brunette's soft hand traversing the left side of her body unrestricted for the first time overwhelming. Her thigh, her hip, her waist, her stomach, her breast, her nipple, back down to her thigh again. She whimpered in protest when Olivia's lips left hers, but blue eyes fluttered opened when she felt Olivia's lips seal around her right nipple. A gasp escaped her as a warm tongue swirled around the taut, pink bud while Olivia's hand still travelled her body yet avoided where she desperately wanted... needed it to be.
"Touch me," Alexandra begged as she began to palm her own left breast.
Olivia's right hand wandered south once again. The tips of her fingers brushed over brownish blonde curls before tenderly cupping between Alexandra's legs, eliciting a moan of sheer pleasure. Olivia repeatedly teased Alexandra by winding a small tuft of curls around her fingertip before cupping her again, moisture beginning to coat a line on her palm.
The brunette was awestruck as she looked at hooded blue eyes, "So wet."
"You make me that way," panted Alexandra and canted her hips forward. "Please?"
Acquiescing the request, her middle finger slipped between wet folds to brush the bundle of nerves hidden within. Olivia watched as various emotions flitted over Alexandra's face at the first intimate touch as she resumed lavishing attention on the currently neglected right breast. Desire, lust, adoration, devotion... love. Tugging the nipple with her lips and teeth, she dipped her finger down to gather then paint more moisture over Alexandra's clitoris.
"Liv... circ... circles,"
"Circles?"
"Uh-huh... ... the other way, the other way... ... mmmm!" Alexandra panted before pulling Olivia's head down for a slow, wet kiss.
Needing to relieve some of the throbbing between her own legs, Olivia straddled Alexandra's right thigh and began grinding down. The shift allowed Alexandra to suckle one of Olivia's breasts before they resumed kissing. Alexandra bit her bottom lip in concentration, her pleasure spiralling higher and higher as Olivia's mouth showered her neck, chest and lips in kisses and licks. Olivia dipped her finger down to Alexandra's opening again for more wetness.
"In..."
"Inside?" Olivia asked for confirmation.
"Please, but... go slow... shallow."
The brunette took a few moments to slick more moisture over the bundle of nerves before gently pressing her middle finger inside to the first knuckle, then settling her thumb in place to resume Alexandra's preferred circles. Olivia kept the pumping penetration of her finger shallow until Alexandra mumbled 'a little more' during the noises and mewls of delight she made. Pushing inside the blonde to the next knuckle, she felt clinging muscles trying to pull the digit in even further. She resumed gently pumping between the blonde's legs, her own centre grinding down on Alexandra's thigh as she studied her face again.
"Beautiful... you're beautiful," Olivia voiced her honest opinion, falling in love even further with Alexandra Cabot with every passing moment.
Alexandra ran her hand up and down Olivia's back, "You too... so beautiful."
"I want to kiss you, Alex."
"You can kiss me at any time," Alexandra replied before seeking out Olivia's mouth, lips and tongue again as her eyes closed. Her eyes opened again after it took a few moments for Alexandra to comprehend that Olivia's mouth wasn't connecting with hers but slowly making its way down her torso. "Wha?... What are you doing?"
Olivia looked up from kissing just below her navel, "I want to kiss you... down there."
"What about... ahh... the umm..." Alexandra lowered her voice, "... hair?"
"What about it?" The brunette crawled back up Alexandra's body before claiming her mouth in yet another kiss. "I don't care... I told you I want to kiss you everywhere to show you how much I love you... including and especially there... but I won't if you don't want me to."
The mere thought of Olivia's tongue swirling around and around her little bundle of nerves like the brunette had with her nipple made Alexandra groan with desire, "Please."
Just before Olivia settled between long pale legs, Alexandra propped herself back up against the pillows and bed headboard. She then reached down to bring the white bed sheet all the way over the both of them, cocooning them in linen like a little private tent. Even though they were in the privacy on their own room in Rumspringa House, now Olivia was no longer laying beside or on top of her, it made her feel too exposed for her liking. Maybe after a few more times she would be more comfortable, but right now she wanted that security of modesty so she wouldn't feel so vulnerable.
"I love you, Alex."
"I love you, Liv."
Alexandra felt every nerve ending in her entire body come alive as Olivia laved her tongue through wet folds before swirling around her clitoris repeatedly. She had never experienced anything like it before in her life, but knew she wanted to experience this feeling over and over again. She hoped Olivia would experience the same feelings when time came her return the intimacy she was receiving right now. She was careful as she pushed Olivia's hair back to look down at brown eyes.
Olivia right hand skated back up the lithe body to palm Alexandra's left breast once again as she tasted Alexandra's true essence for the first time. She felt Alexandra's fingers entwine with hers once again over the small, pale breast, both relishing and needing the personal and intimate connection with the other.
In their haze of intimacy, neither Alexandra or Olivia noticed the knock on their bedroom door but suddenly heard Trevor's voice as he pushed it open. Alexandra's eyes flew open at the intrusion of her and Olivia's very private moment, squealed in shock and smashed Olivia's nose with her pubic bone.
End Note: Perfection comes with practice ;-)