Dancing Chapter 11: Time To Be Your 21, an instant star fanfic

Time To Be Your 21

A/N: Yeah, so it's quarter to 4 am this morning…..Saturday……I'll probably stay up until my mommy goes to work later this morning…..I wanted to get and update up, and right now I'm listening to the song (TTBY21), cuz I love it, and with I/S so close, I'm having Jommy withdrawals…..is anyone in my boat? Lol….I miss them…. 3 weeks! I can't wait….and is anybody as mad as I am that JT was killed!? Come on!!!!Okay, and obviously I don't own TTBY21...

Okay, so here we go….

Oh, and I own "Same Thing All The Time"

Jude sat down on the set of the photo-shoot with Dancer. Tommy watched her from across the room. Jeremy stepped on the set, and Tommy spotted him.

"What're you doing here?"

"I just thought I'd come see what was going on today…" Tommy nodded. They both watched as Jude began singing to Dancer. Everyone quieted, listening to her soft, angelic singing.

"You never lied to me not once
its not your fault that I cant trust
its in my past, its in my path
and I can't go there

making a mess out of this game
to see it all go up in flames
so tired of being ruthless and reckless

time to be your only one
to almost be you're way too young
time to crash into the sun
time to be your 21
time to dream that love with last
time to drive my car too fast
time to walk before I run
time to be ohh time to be your 21

I don't believe in love and I
I pull it to the wall
I tasted sweetness there to
laugh so hard as it falls

and I could push you there
if you don't stop me
push you there if you don't
stop me
please stop me

its gut wrenching sometimes
its life threatening sometimes
seems like nothing can wash it all away

Jeremy bobbed his lightly, and looked over at Tommy, who was mouthing all the words with his eyes closed.

"I…Wish I could fix everything I've done…"

"I hope you don't think that song's about you…that's MY song…"

"You mean it's not new?"

"No…she wrote it on her 16th birthday about me…I've hurt that girl a lot, too…just not to the extent that you did…It'd kill me if I ever did that to my girl…"

"I'm truly and honestly sorry…"

"Look, man….I don't like you, I just tolerate you because you're that beautiful angel's father…but I could care less about you…Jude on the other hand….she cares about everyone she meets…"

Tommy walked over to Jude and sat down.

"Hi baby…" She laid her head on his shoulder.

"I don't understand why I'm so emotional lately!….I just wanna be happy for a while…"

"I know, hun…" He kissed her head, lying back against the blankets on the set. She laid against him, closing her eyes…

"Tom?" Jude opened her eyes and looked around.

"I'm right here, Hun…" Tommy walked over to her and sat on the bed.

"What're you workin' on?"

"Oh, just the usual…music…lyrics….the same thing all the time…"

"Play it…"

"Okay…" He carried her to the studio and sat down at the keyboard.

"It's a dream that I can't fix
I love you Hun, but I'm not it
You know I'm not the best
And I might not be the one…

But it's getting better all the time
It's getting safer all the time
And one day I could save you.
But it's the same thing all the time…

Black and white movie screens Will fade away some day.
Mmm…and I can't give you grey
There's stellar….and Technicolor…
But I might not be the one forever…..

But it's getting better all the time
It's getting safer all the time
And one day I could save you.
But it's the same thing all the time…

I wanna say it's not my fault
I wanna walk away and pull you down

Mmm…but the more I try

The more I fight
The more I say this isn't right
The more I see The more I know…
That's how I find…
I'm not alone…

But it's getting better all the time
It's getting safer all the time…
And one day I could save you
But it's the same thing all the time…
Mmm…..same…same thing all the…time…"

Tommy looked up from the keyboard at Jude, who was staring down at her wrists. He walked out into the mixing booth and looked at her.

"Tom…" Her voice faltered. He sighed, brushing her cheek with his thumb. A tear ran down her cheek as she stood.

"Baby…tell me what to do…Tell me how I can make it better…"

"I…don't know, Tom…" He stepped closer to her, but she stepped away. "No…"

"What?"

"Pain is a virtue…And all anyone has done in this last year has protected me from it…I have to feel it before I can let it go…" She choked on a sob.

"Jude, you can't do this to yourself…it'll tear you apart…"

"And what makes you think I'm not strong enough, Quincy!?" He stepped back slightly, surprised by her sudden change in attitude.

"Girl, I didn't say that…But you can't let this all come at you at once…it'll consume you, and you won't be able to get away."

"And how would you know?!"

"Jude, you're cutting! The only time I've ever seen that before was when I was 17 and Portia got raped!….What does that say to you!?"

"I am NOT Portia!"

"I didn't say that…but if you don't take this slowly like you have been, you WON'T make it through…and I don't think I can handle that…"

"I can't just keep taking it this way though! Don't you get that!"

"Yes…and okay…And I hate to have to tell you this, but this pain will never just GO away…as long as you have Dance…it's always gonna be there…it doesn't just leave you be…Just let it out little by little…I promise eventually it'll get better…" He stepped towards her again. She collapsed into his chest, sobbing hard.

"This is all you fault!!!" She pounded on his chest hard. He let tears pour down his cheeks.

"I know, baby…I know it is…" They dropped to the floor as she clung to him in tears.

She eventually calmed a little and looked up at him.

"Tom?"

"Hmm?" He wiped her tear-stained cheeks with his thumbs.

"Make me forget about it…"

"What? Jude, how?-" She kissed him roughly as he stood. He pulled away and breathed heavily. "Jude?"

"Please, Tom…" She grabbed his hand and walked to their room….

A/N: So, as you can see, this story is taking a bit of a turn….well, I've come down with something….I don't know what it is, but I've slept soooo much in the last few days, and I'm still just so tired….but there's the flu, strep, and mono going around at my school, so who knows what it is….. Hope you guys enjoy the UD….leave me a review….I'll try and update again later….