Chapter eleven

As the rest of the Weasley's arrived, they all enjoyed a quiet, danger free dinner with conversations mainly about what all their lives would be like now Voldemort was gone and their world was pretty safe.

'Mr. Weasley, I've been thinking about what we were talking about. I don't think your family would have been so involved. I know for a fact that Ginny wouldn't have been the one taken by Voldemort into the chamber. She might have been writing in the diary, but it was from the time she mentioned me, that he wanted to lure me down there, so he took her, that's what he told me. You were protecting the prophecy when Nagini attacked you. I doubt you would have been doing that if you didn't know that was about me. Romilda Vane wouldn't have put that love potion in those chocolates for me so Ron wouldn't have been taken to Slughorn and poisoned. Then you have Fred, he probably wouldn't have been there that night if you all weren't friends with me.'

'Look Harry, maybe that's true, all of it. But you can't start thinking about the what if's in life. It's past, it's over, it's time to just accept what can't be changed and get on with your life. And there's no use feeling guilty about any of that, which I know you are. We all still might have been involved in other ways and all of us could have been killed.'

'I know, but I think knowing me put you all in more danger. I don't regret my friendship with Ron and Hermione, but I do feel guilty over it. Hermione had to remove her from her parent's memories because she knew me. The moment they worked out Ron was with me, you all had to go into hiding. It's a lot to think about.'

'Harry,' George said staring at him, 'sure, Fred might still be alive if we didn't know you, but I know for a fact that we would have been involved in this fight one way or another and that had nothing to do with being your friend, that is just doing the right thing. For all we know we both could have died, or none of us. But think of this, if we didn't know you but that diary was still given to Ginny because Malfoy wanted to get dad fired. She might have still been taken down there, but you wouldn't have been friends with Ron, so you wouldn't have gone down there to save her. You might not have even been able to speak parseltongue. So I know Fred would rather die than let his little sister die, I would do the same thing.'

'I don't want you saying that George,' Ginny said taking his hand, but she looked at Harry, 'It's true though. I know my brothers, they have always been overprotective of me. So if you didn't save me, they might have tried to.'

'I can understand you're brothers doing that Ginny, why do you think I broke up with you in the first place, to keep you safe. I think it's the male in us that we just can't help ourselves. Ron and I were the same with Hermione, always wanted to keep her back out of the way, but of course she wouldn't let us. I get what you all saying and I do appreciate all your support. I just don't want you having regrets because I have been part of your lives through all this.'

'We don't, and I can speak for everyone in regards to this. I know my family, you are part of that. So yes, even if their might have been more danger, but everyone was danger in one form or another. There were families out there being killed that had nothing to do with you.'

'I know, I saw Voldemort kill this woman and her two little kids. He didn't care about anyone but himself.'

'You saw him kill children Harry?' asked Bill looking shocked.

'Yeah, when I couldn't close my mind to him, I saw him go to this woman and ask her about Gregorovitch, when she couldn't tell him what he wanted, he just killed them. She kept standing in front of her kids, a boy and a girl, she kept protecting them until he just killed them. I saw him do that a lot, and I know this is not a nice thing to say, but watching those killings were hard and will live with me forever, but it's when he tortured someone that was worse. It was like I could feel what he was doing to them. I could feel their pain, not just their physical pain, but their emotional pain, but also he's elation. He liked to get off on their pain, he enjoyed it.'

'Is that part of the reason you tried to kill yourself, what you saw and felt from him?' asked Arthur.

'Part of it was him, part of it was my past. I'll say this though, it had nothing to do with the blindness. I was learning to cope with, I just needed more time. But not being able to see made me see other things in my mind, things I couldn't live with. And please don't ask, it's something I can't talk about.'

'We won't, but I think we've all answered what we could, but it's getting late and you four are up early. So I think it's time we all head to bed or home.'

'Good idea dad, so you four, behave and no more dangerous situations. Try to have an average life at Hogwarts for once,' said Bill standing up with his wife.

Harry, Ron, Hermione and Ginny laughed, 'We're going to try Bill, we were talking and we hope it's going to be boring.'

'Apart from when Hermione keeps on us to revise or do our homework,' Harry laughed again, 'Sorry Hermione, but we do appreciate what you do.'

Bill and Fleur said goodbye to everyone, then George and Percy left as well before Harry turned to Ron and Hermione.

'I'll see you on the platform in the morning,' Harry hugged Hermione then Ron.

'We'll be there.'

Harry turned to the older Weasley's, 'Thanks for everything, and for dinner tonight.'

'Anytime Harry, now you will be coming for Christmas dinner, so don't forget.' Molly hugged Harry in one of her famous rib cracking hugs.

'I won't forget, I love your Christmas dinners Mrs. Weasley,' Harry turned to Mr. Weasley, 'Thanks for everything you said before.'

Arthur hugged Harry, 'Anytime, now try to relax while you're there.'

'I'm planning on it,' Harry gave them a smile then looked at Ginny, 'I suppose I'll see you there as well.'

'Could we talk before you leave,' Ginny said as she gazed at him.

'Sure, where?'

'Outside,' Ginny and Harry walked out the door and away from the house, 'What you said before, about it wasn't the blindness, was that the truth?'

'You know I wouldn't lie to any of you. Everything I said was the absolutely the truth.'

'So because you couldn't see, you kept seeing bad things in your mind. Like Voldemort killing that woman and her kids?'

'Yeah, that's all I kept seeing, all the time.'

Ginny took a step closer to Harry, 'And about your past, something happened we don't know about?'

'Yeah, but I can't talk about that. I am seeing someone that's helping and they have advised me to talk to you, but right now I can't.'

'Just tell me this though, will you try to kill yourself again?'

'No, because now I can see, those memories are buried again. I can think of them, and there not that bad, but to see them over and over, was just too much for to handle.'

'When I got your letter, I felt like my heart was crumbling to pieces, it hurt so much. Did you think of me when you decided to do that?'

'All the time, but I couldn't stay with you because of those memories. If I do tell you, you will understand. I know you can't right now because you have no idea what I'm talking about, so I know it's hard for you. But even those memories of you which I kept trying to bring forth all the time wasn't helping and I was really scared what I might do. I know I'm probably confusing you more, and I do hope I can tell you one day, but that will only happen if we're together and you can give me time.'

Ginny stared up into Harry's eyes, then slipped her arms around him and they instantly started to kiss. A full on fiery passionate kiss that neither of them we're interested in stopping. Ginny and Harry never knew they were being watched by Hermione, Ron and his parents, but they were all smiling, even Ron.

When they slowly pulled apart, Harry reached up and touched Ginny's face, 'Does that mean you forgive me and are going to take me back?'

'Yes, as long as you promise to never put me through that again, because if you do, it will be the last time. I couldn't take it again,' Ginny put her head on Harry's chest.

'I promise, I'll never do anything to hurt you again,' Harry put his hand under Ginny's chin and lifted her head so she was looking at him, 'I love you.'

Ginny sniffed, 'I love you to and I've missed you these last couple of weeks and now you're about to go home, I don't want to let you go.'

'I know, but we will see each other all the time from tomorrow.'

'Let's just stay like this for a few more minutes, it won't make that much difference.'

Harry smiled, 'This is where I want to be my love. But now we're back together are you going to play on the team?'

'Yes, I know I need to if any scouts are going to see me play. I was thinking about it when Ron told me you were going to be captain, but I wasn't sure you would want me on the team.'

'Of course I would, you're a damn good chaser Ginny. Now you're going to have to wait until tomorrow, but I got you something in the hope we got back together. It's a belated birthday present.'

'You shouldn't have done that, what if I stayed mad at you?'

'I hoped that if I gave you some time you might realise that I really am no quitter and that something serious would have made me do that. I told you in my first letter that I want a life with you. Marriage, kids, the whole lot Gin, we even spoke about living together. Do you really think I would quit on a future that I have been after for so long?'

'I didn't know what to think. All I knew was the pain I felt because you left me again. First time I understood why you did it and it was safer for me. Even if the Carrow's never believed we broke up. They found out through Crabbe and Goyle we were together. But they had Dolohov use occlumency on me and realised I was telling the truth. We weren't together and I had no idea where you were.'

Harry had sucked in a breath when he heard what Ginny said because all he saw was the way Neville and Seamus looked.

'They didn't hurt you did they? I saw how Neville and Seamus looked.'

'Well they did use a lot of curses on all of us, then I started helping them get some of the younger kids out. But I was okay and it made me so angry that I wanted to do anything I could to stop them.'

'I'm sorry love, I never knew anything like that was happening until I turned up that night. You might have been safer staying with me, but your parents would never have allowed that.'

'No, they wouldn't. Ron did tell mum and dad that all you three did was work and nothing happened.'

'No, nothing happened, Ron and Hermione still hadn't told each other they liked each other. I used to watch them and think I should have said something, but it wasn't up to me, it was their lives. Did Hermione tell you how often I used to watch your name on the map?'

'Yeah, when we were all heading to the Burrow the next day, I wanted to find out if we could get back together, Ron said you were going to sleep, so I'd have to wait. That's when Hermione told me about the map, then Ron told me you talked in your sleep.'

'He never told me that, so what did I say?'

'My name, you called me all the time, you really do love me, don't you Harry?'

'More than anything Gin, please believe me when I say that, because my heart feels so light when I hear you say it and I know with the love I have for you we will have a good life together. I love you and I want to grow old with you. Watch our kids grow up, then our grandkids. I know that's a long way off, but that's been my dream for years. Remember what I said to you after Dumbledore's funeral. Being with you was like living someone else's life. That was true, but now we can have that life, a very safe and happy life,' Harry slowly lowered his head and kissed Ginny with every bit of passion he felt for her and felt Ginny kiss him back the same way. They never moved, just stood there snogging each other and with those kisses, they were telling each other that yes, they will have a good life together.