It's really late, so i'm finally off to bed. Thought i would finish this up for tonight and post it. I'm really sorry i like cliffhangers too much. Slight TW bringing up physical abuse. You have been warned.
enjoy, man
Chapter Eleven;
He pushed me inside the room, and the door closed nosily behind us. The room was larger than I had expected. I was expecting, some type of closet. "I take it you have heard rumors of my... temper." He spoke as my eyes wandered around the room, watching me as I did so. The room was lightly furnished, a few chairs, a small table. I nodded.
"It was mentioned." I told him, nodding towards the plain chairs. "Do you want me to sit, or would you rather me stand?" Being alone with him, I felt much less scared. There was nobody else around for him to impress.
"Stand." His tone was demanding, and he began to pace around me. "I must say, you have been walking a very thin line today." I couldn't help but smirk. "Do you think you have what it takes to become my apprentice?" He stopped, and reached his hand towards me, and I could feel him inside my mind. I tried to push him away, the pain growing in my head, my chest. "Hmm." He stopped, and I was on my knees as I tried to catch my breath. "Answer."
I gritted my teeth as I regained my footing, now glaring at him. "Why? Didn't find the answer you were looking for?" I barked, waiting for the punishment I knew would come. But it didn't.
"I found what I was looking for, but I would still like to hear it from your own lips." He said, turning from me. "You, out of all the others, defy me, if only slightly. You do not fear me, which I find strange. Why is that?" For a moment, I didn't know what I should say. So many new questions beat their way into my mind, but I bit my lip before any of them could come out.
"I trust you." I told him simply. "If you wanted to hurt me you would have done it yesterday when we arrived here, when were alone. You told me you wanted to teach me. I gave you my trust the moment I took your hand. That is why I do not fear you."
Kylo laughed, resting his hand on the table. "Do you regularly give your trust away so foolishly?" He asked, turning his masked face back into my direction.
I folded my arms across my chest with a huff. "Do you think I am a fool for trusting you?" This only made him laugh again, but he did not respond. "Why are you playing games with me?" I finally asked, and he tilted his head in question. I continued, "When you were alone with me yesterday, you seemed compassionate, but once we have an audience you find the need to display yourself differently."
Kylo moved towards me, now, and once again began to reach his hand towards my face. I flinched, expecting him to strike me, but instead, I felt the back of his fingers lightly brush my cheek. "Do you always react that way, when somebody reaches towards you?" My eyes reached up his mask to where his eyes would be, and for a moment, I wished I could see them.
"Do you always disregard someone's question with another question to be left unanswered?" I asked, my cheeks growing flushed as I looked away from him. "I react that way when I know I deserve it." I told him, finally, unable to look at him, now. I knew how stupid it sounded. I knew how stupid I looked, misty eyed. I knew how stupid I felt, saying it out loud.
What I didn't expect was his hand resting on my shoulder, the other on my upper arm. "You don't have to worry about that, here." He told me, but I couldn't look at him, still. "The only people who could hurt you is those you are allowed to hurt back. You may think there is no competition between you, but not everyone among you will agree, and more than one will try to hurt you to get ahead. I can do nothing to stop them, only you can."
I nodded, but he continued before I could muster up the courage to speak with my voice shaking like it would be. "The girl you have found a quarrel with, however is right." He left one hand on my shoulder as the other fell back to his side. "The dark side is fueled by anger and hatred. The reason I "Display myself differently" as you put it, is simply because if they see me treating you as I do when we are alone, you will have less of them at your side, and more against you. For now, I don't need to pit that against you. As of now you do not need to prove yourself. That may change."
He let go of me now, and began to move away. "Do you have any more questions?" he asked, gesturing for me to finally sit. I wiped my eyes, feeling his burn into me as I took one of the seats.
"Many, actually." I told him, shaking my head, a smile growing over my lips. "So, so many." But in that moment, I couldn't think of a single one, as hard as I tried. I just sat there, my hands bound tightly in my lap, eyeing him from where he stood. Everything felt so much different than it had just minutes before. I wanted to become his apprentice, yes. If I had a choice, it would be him.
"Maybe I can answer some of them for you."
SIDENOTE: If anyone wants to chat and talk about story development with me, message me :) i wouldn't mind shooting ideas with someone. Let me know how you like it so far! Don't forget to R&R
Until then,
Katia~