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I still say Edward Cullen has given woman an unattainable perspective of men lol…

SIGH they cant all be born in the 1800's.

Chapter 11: Ryan

It was morning. My family had left me alone. Jasper had left before everyone else. He couldn't handle all the emotions I was throwing out.

"Please forgive me Bella." I whispered.

She was tossing and turning a lot more. She would let out painful sighs and moans here and there. One time I could have sworn she had said something about fire.

Every moan, every noise, every movement broke my heart more.

She was in pain, and there was nothing I could do to help her.

This is all my fault. What have I done to my love, poor Bella. So much pain because of me.

"Edward."

I leaned down and placed a kiss on her cheek.

She was no longer warm. She was back to her normal temperature. I could still hear her heart beat, it was normal.

"What's your fault Edward?" she rolled over and opened her eyes.

"Bella?"

"Yes."

"Oh my god your awake." I pulled her into my lap and hugged her tightly to me.

"Why wouldn't I be awake? What happen?" she asked nervously.

"You don't remember?"

She shook her head. Her heart beat was still there, she was no longer burning up, but she wasn't cold, her skin was still as soft as ever, and she wasn't pale. I mean she was pale, by no more than usual. What was going on.

"Carlisle!" I yelled.

Bella jumped at my sudden loudness.

I grabbed her and wrapped my arms around her and kissed her patiently. Her cheeks flushed. I sighed, and kissed her again.

"What is it?" he walked into the room and stopped at the sight of Bella. "It's only been a day, not even. Bella are you ok?"

"What's going on?"

"Nothings changed. she's still, normal."

"I don't understand." he walked over to Bella and looked her over.

"What's going on?"

"I don't know, she seems fine. This is very strange. I'll be back."

He walked out of the room, probably to his study to read some.

"Edward what is going on?"

"Bella, you shouldn't be awake right now. You should still have two more days."

"Two more days for what?" her voice was low and shaky.

"I bit you last night, when we, were…. I didn't mean to. I'm so sorry."

"What do you mean?"

I took a deep breath.

"I mean you shouldn't be awake right now, you should still have two days left before, you become one of us. Carlisle said it was too late. I didn't notice I broke skin soon enough."

"Then why am I.." she looked scared and couldn't finish.

"I don't know. You seem normal, human."

"Well that sucks."

"What?" I pushed her away and looked at her.

"Or yay?" she said with a forced grin.

"Bella, you cant seriously be upset that your still human?"

"What if I am?"

"What, you cant be serious. You are the most, you are so, I cant believe you. You actually don't care that I made a mistake that we shouldn't have been doing that. I was right it was to dangerous…"

She didn't even let me finish. She pushed me backward.

"Edward don't you dare! Don't you even think about going back on what we did. don't you even regret it. It was the most wonderful thing we ever did, and we have had sex more than just last night so don't you even go there Edward!"

"I never said I regret it Bella. I just said we shouldn't have.."

"No we should have! How can you say you didn't want to?" she was yelling at me. Screaming.

"I never said I didn't want to, I did, I still do. But Bella, its dangerous it always has been. Last night proves that!"

"Last night proves nothing! I'm fine! Nothing happen."

"Bella. I bit you, something could have happen."

"Ugh!" she threw her hands up in the air, and jumped off the bed. The next second she was gone.

"Bella!" I yelled jumping off the bed and looking all around she was no where."

I heard a scream come from downstairs. Bella's scream.

I raced down the stairs. She was at the bottom standing with a look of fear and shock on her face.

"Edward." she whispered. I ran to her grabbing her in my arms.

The whole family was now downstairs watching.

"Bella. What did you do?"

I suddenly realized her skin was hard and cold. I listened but couldn't hear her heart beat. Her skin was a ghostly pale, like mine. I gulped and took a deep breath.

"I got off the bed and went to run out, and next thing I was here."

"Bella. Go look in the mirror." I whispered

She walked over to the mirror on the far wall and gasped.

This was all my fault, she was a monster damned for eternity because of me. Jasper sent a wave of calm through me. I tried to smile up at him.

"It's not your fault stop blaming yourself Edward, I am not damned and nether are any of you." she snapped, still admiring her self in the mirror.

Every one of my family members looked at me intently.

"Bella, Edward didn't say anything." Alice said slowly.

"What do you mean? yes he did. He said it was his fault that I was a monster and I was damned for eternity." she turned around rolling her eyes.

"No I didn't." I walked closer to her.

"What are you saying?"

'I'm saying you read my thoughts.'

"That's insane I didn't read your mind, you have that power."

"And apparently so do you." Emmett said with a wide grin. 'This is so cool Bella's a vampire and she's got power!'

"Your excited?" She looked over to Emmett.

He stopped smiling. "You were in my head?"

"What's happening to me?"

"I don't know Bella but we will find out." Carlisle said as he walked over to Bella and looked at her intently.

"This is not possible. She was just normal a minute ago." I pleaded this couldn't be happening.

"Bella, do you feel weird at all?"

"I feel amazing. Is this what you feel like all the time?"

"Carlisle. She was fine, she was human. What is going on?"

"Bella. Do me a favor. Think about being human, how it was, how it made you feel." Carlisle stated with a weird expression on his face.

"Ok." Bella looked at him weird, and then closed her eyes.

Her color began to return, I could slowly hear her dead heart beat again. Carlisle reached out and touched her arm.

"She's warm." he said with a grin.

Bella opened her eyes and looked down at her self and then up to me. She had a sad expression on her face, like she was disappointed.

"Now think about being a vampire."

She closed her eyes once more. Her skin got pale, it was like her heart ceased to exist, the beating stopped. Emmett reached out and grabbed her hand.

"Dude that is freaky."

"What's happening to her?" I demanded an answer this wasn't normal, by all means this was as Emmett said freaky.

"Once more, human."

Bella sighed and closed her eyes. Again the beating started up again, her skin regained some color.

Carlisle smiled. "I want you to try to run. Vampire speed, strength try it."

Bella looked confused but turned around and pushed Emmett gently. Or what looked like gentle, he flew back against the wall and hit it with a loud crash.

His eyes got wide as he regained his balance and shook himself off.

Bella looked at me with a smile. She took off at a run and began to run circles around me. I put my hands out to catch her.

I grabbed her around the waist.

She was still warm, her heart was beating but she had all the vampire speed and strength.

"I believe this, look, is just a mask she appears human but has all our other abilities."

"What? Why?"

"I don't know. She appears to be a very gifted vampire. She has your mind reading abilities, but has her very own masking one to disguise herself when necessary."

"This is insane, this cant be, this wasn't supposed to be like this, it wasn't supposed to happen, not now." I was freaking out this was not happening.

"Calm down Edward! I like it!" Bella stated as she let her true vampire form regain control her heart stopped. Or it always was stopped she just made us think it was beating? Uh so confusing, this couldn't be happening "I wont allow it. This, Cant you do something?" I looked to Carlisle.

"Calm down." Bella shot as she looked at me a wave of calm hit the room with such a force it shocked me.

Jaspers face dropped.

"That wasn't me." He looked toward Bella.

Bella looked confused.

"What happen?" Rosalie looked horrified scared even.

"Bella, you just wanted me to calm down."

"Yea. You were so upset I could feel it."

"Concentrate what do you feel now?"

"Emmett's excited, your worried, Edward just upset, Alice couldn't be happier, Rose is scared for some reason, and.. Oh my god."

"You feel it all. Like I do don't you?"

"I, I don't know."

"Bella, try to make everyone calm, happy even."

Bella lifted her eye brows, but then complied.

Another wave of calm went through the room, filled with happiness.

Calm was more stronger than the happy part, but she still did it.

"How is all this possible? I mean how can I have all of your.."

Carlisle had cut her off before she could finish.

"Didn't Zane say he could make people think they see things they don't really?"

"Yes why." it was like a light bulb had just gone off in my head. "Your not just masking yourself to be human, your mimicking Zane's ability to do that, just like your doing with my mind reading and Jaspers empathy." I stated with a stupid grin.

"So your saying any vampire I come in contact with, I can use there power?"

"It looks that way. Make us see, something."

"Ok."

There was suddenly a large dog sitting in the middle of us.

"A dog?" Emmett questioned.

"it was the only thing I could think of." Bella shrugged with a smirk.

"Carlisle why didn't her transformation last three days, Its barely been a day. Not even."

"I don't know, she was different before becoming one of us. Its just as likely she would have been different after becoming one of us, as she is. Very different, I have never heard of any one being able to mimic others."

BELLAS POV

It was a long afternoon. It was about five o clock whenever one finally let me be. It was strange, I had wanted to be a vampire for so long, I didn't want to be weird Bella anymore I finally get my wish, and I'm still weird.

There had to be something wrong with me.

The entire family loved the idea of me being a vampire. They thought my gift was amazing.

That was all but Edward. He blamed himself, he said it was to soon, it wasn't supposed to be this way. We were to have time.

If ya ask me, being turned into a vampire during sex wasn't so bad in my book. I hardly felt a thing. I didn't even notice he had bit me let alone turn me.

I tried to get a vision like Alice did, I got one of my wedding day to Edward, it was amazing. It was magical. I couldn't wait for that day. Alice smiled knowing what I had seen.

I slightly think she planned me to see it but I couldn't be sure. She was so used to blocking her mind from Edward she was rather good at it.

Emmett had challenged me to an arm wrestling match. I slightly cheated I sent a wave of fear to him that distracted him, but he lost all the same.

Esme asked me to try to eat normal food, it didn't have the same appeal to it as it had before. But it didn't taste as horrible as Edward had made it seem. I still hadn't tried blood, I wasn't looking forward to the day I would have to either.

"Stop pacing your giving me a headache!"

All he had done since we were left alone, from the minute we entered his room was pace back and forth back and forth. It was annoying.

"Sorry, this is just, Bella."

"Stop, I've heard it. Its not your fault, I wanted this, its not to soon. So stop worrying. Please."

"Sorry. What are we going to tell…"

"Charlie will be fine, I can just make him think I look the same. Besides the blood thing still freaks me out. I really don't want to drink it. Its not tempting in the least."

"You don't know that, you haven't left the house."

"You haven't let me leave." I corrected him.

I wanted to go out, try out my new life, experience things more. Edward had other plans.

If he had his way id be locked down tighter than a prisoner. Not even allowed my hour of exercise.

It was ridicules how much he still worried. I was no longer the clumsy fragile Bella I used to be.

I guess it just means her cares, but it was still annoying even with my new abilities and strength I couldn't go with out him worrying.

"I'm just worried." he finally said

"We need to find out what Zane is keeping from us. It's something big. I know I saw Jacob." I ignored him, I was sick of him worrying about me.

"Call him now then."

"Really?" his sudden change surprised me.

"Bella, I told you, if he has Jake, I'll get him back."

"We'll get him back." I corrected him no way was I being left at home this time.

"I don't think your ready for a fight just yet."

"If he has Jacob he's the one that's not gonna be ready."

He handed me my phone and I dialed the number vigorously.

"Zane?"

"Bella?"

"Where's my friend?"

"Bella before you freak out…"

"NO, tell me now." I cut him off not letting him finish. He had Jacob and I wanted him back.

"Bella, meet me outside the Cullen's drive."

"I'm not coming alone, Edward is coming with me."

"I figured as much. Do you want me to drive and get you."

"No, I think I'll run." and I hung up the phone.

"That wasn't very nice." Edward said with a grin. I could tell he was happy with my sudden rudeness toward Zane.

"He doesn't deserve nice right now." I smiled up at him as I ran down the stairs.

I tripped on the last stair. Edward grabbed my arm and swung me around into his chest before I could hit the ground.

"I thought I was rid of the whole clumsiness thing." I pouted.

"Guess your not that lucky." Edward smiled. He liked my clumsiness even though I hated it.

"Lest just go." I rolled my eyes and was out the door. "Race ya."

We ran, toward the end of his driveway. Staying close together the entire time.

We finally got to the end and he pulled ahead.

"Still not faster." he smirked.

I pushed his shoulder.

I gasped a little as Zane stepped out from the bushes.

"Where's Jacob?"

"Bella, how did you?"

"Right now it's none of your business." I said rudely. "You tell me where my friend is and what all this is about and then ill decide if I can trust you." I glared at him forcefully.

"You can trust me!" he snapped.

"Then tell me the truth."

"I, Bella I don't want to lie to you."

"But you don't want to tell me the truth either."

"Bella, come with me. He's at my house. I have to warn you though."

"Warn me?"

"What did you do to him?" Edward said with a growl.

"Nothing, we found him on our way here to forks. We got our stuff all set up at the house and we, well I went out for a hunt. Orion and Riley heard noises screaming and then howling coming from a near by cave. They went to check it out. Your friend was in there, badly hurt, bleeding. He was barely alive when we found him."

"Jacob." I whispered tears were now in my eyes. I went to wipe them, but nothing was coming down. Apparently I could no longer cry. Edward put his arms around my waist as we walked.

"Bella, we nursed him back to health, we told him to stay inside, we didn't know who knew about him or if he was the only werewolf around here."

"What? Why would he listen to you! He knew he wasn't the only one."

"Bella." Zane looked at me with sad eyes, and shook his head. "We didn't know who he was, because he doesn't remember anything. He has no memory of you, of his life, we had to explain to him what he was. He has no memory of anything. He heard a name on TV that he liked. We have been calling him Ryan."

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