Letters of the Little Things
Ryan – Letter #11
It was hard to not think of you today. I knew that you were going to confess to him today. I kept thinking about what could happen. I could potentially lose you. But I had a job to do today, so I did my best to focus. It wasn't easy, but I did it. Today reminded me of the time I first knew I liked you. I couldn't stop thinking about you, just like today. Well, whatever you decided and whatever happened today is what God meant to happen, so I'm going to have to live with it, whether I like it or not.
Kayla – Letter #11
So I told him today. And I'm not sure what to think. I don't know if I should consider the result bad or good. When I told Matt, I didn't get an immediate response. He sat there for a minute in shock or something. You would think I'd feel as if the weight of the world got lifted off my shoulders after I told him, but I didn't. I was even more nervous than before because he wasn't doing anything. I didn't know what was going on. After a minute, he took a deep breath and finally spoke. He asked why I didn't tell him immediately. I told him I needed to figure out my feelings first, and he understood, thankfully. Then he asked me how long this thinking had being going on, and I told him a week. I'd been going out with him twice as long. After that, he thanked me for being honest. He wasn't angry, or so it seemed. I was a bit relieved, but only a bit. I mean, I still didn't know what this all meant, so I still felt weight on my shoulders. He took another deep breath. "We should take a break. We're not necessarily breaking up, but we're not necessarily together." That's what he said. He also said I need to figure out my feelings more in depth and figure out what I want to do and who I want to be with. I asked him if he was angry and told him to be honest, as I was with him. He said he understood. You were my boyfriend and have been my friend for years, so it's only natural. Of course he's a bit upset but not angry. Anyway, I guess I should actually tell you this now, even though I'll feel like I'm picking you over him, but this involves you, so you have a right to know. I just don't know if I should call you and tell you or meet you somewhere, 'cause if we met somewhere, then I'd feel as if I'm actually picking you over him, and I'm not picking anyone . . . yet.