Someone grabbed me and I felt my body being thrown down to the floor. I opened my eyes and lifted my body up to see Gabriel standing out of the bed, looking angry and vicious. The look in his eyes faded as he realized it was me he had tossed away from him.

"What the bloody hell are you doing!?" he shouted furiously. "I could have killed you!"

He picked up me and touched my cheek, afraid that he had hurt me. I pulled my gaze away from Gabriel's and took a step away from him. My head was spinning and I bent over with disgust. My stomach heaved and I covered my mouth as tears filled my eyes.

"Cadence?" Gabriel asked stepping forward to aid me. I threw my arm out.

"No!" I snapped. "You stay away from me!"

Gabriel stood up straight and glared at me suddenly. He knew I knew and wasn't happy that I had used Legilimency on him. He crossed his arms over his chest.

"I would never go back to your Father," he said very coldly.

"I saw it, Gabriel! Don't try and lie to me!" The tears were running down my cheeks and I was nearly sobbing. I had trusted Gabriel, waited for him, defended him against Sirius…I had even loved him…and he was just another lie.

Gabriel ignored me yelling at him and went to the dresser to put clothes on.

"Say something!" I yelled, angry that he was just going to stand there and ignore me and what I had just discovered.

"Why?" he questioned pulling a shirt over his well built torso. "You won't listen." He put a pair of pants on and pulled a sweater on. He picked up his coat and approached me slowly. I thought he was leaving…maybe he was going to make this easy. If he didn't leave I was going to kill him because he was a lying, betraying bastard…If I didn't kill him, Sirius would.

Gabriel grabbed me before I could move away from him. I felt him press his body against me and then the tension of us Apparating through the air. I cried out as we landed in a muddy graveyard. I turned around frantically and groped for my wand that was usually kept in my boot. But I had come to Gabriel's bedside in my shorts and tank top, I wasn't wearing shoes, nor did I have my wand. I frowned deeply and made a dagger appear in my hand, pointing it at him.

"Give me an excuse," I hissed.

"Do it," he dared me.

I glared at him and glanced at the tombstone closest to me. My feet were sinking in the cold morning mud, and there were light sprinkles of rain still falling. Gabriel threw me his coat. I caught it and dropped it in the mud, refusing to wear anything that was his. Gabriel smiled and shook his head with annoyance. "Where did you take me?"

"This is my Mother's grave," he whispered. "I thought you might like to know how she died."

"You killed her," I snapped.

"I did," Gabriel nodded his head and looked at the grave stone with such sadness that I almost felt sorry for him. I don't know why I stood there and let him talk to me. I could have Apparated at any time, he wasn't forcing me to stay…perhaps that's because he knew I would. He knew that I wanted to hear the story…and I wanted him to prove to me that he hadn't returned to my Father. In the bottom of my heart I couldn't believe it…Gabriel loved me…he wouldn't return to Voldemort. But would he, because he loved me, and Sirius's life was on the line?

"My Father was an Auror, and had grown up in Israel," whispered Gabriel gripping his Mother's grave. He crotched down in front of it and traced the letters of her name. "My grandmother was an Auror there, and their Auror program was much more…radical…then any other program. My Father was trained by his Mother in martial arts, fighting and killing skills. He taught me some of those. When I was fourteen, he died, but I continued to practice all that he had taught me. It was only two months after his death when Nix came to my home and offered a spot with your Father. I refused. Your Father returned with Nix the next day and coxed me to join. Told me that my Father meant for me to do great things with my strengths…he would be proud of me for joining Voldemort. I kept the secret from my Mother, for her safety…about two months after training with Nix, Voldemort asked me to prove my loyalty to him…he wanted me to kill a young woman, she was a muggle born witch, and I refused. I didn't want to kill people. Your Father threatened my Mother, so to save my Mother I killed the young muggle born witch. When I went to see my Mother she was slaughtered on the street outside of our home in Rome. I killed my Mother Cadence, and I will never forgive myself for it."

"Why did you return to my Father, then?" I questioned glaring at Gabriel. I didn't understand how someone could go to their leader after killing their loved ones. Why would you be loyal to someone who firstly, hurt your trust, and secondly, had no compassion for human life?

"I went to him, knowing he was responsible," said Gabriel. "I was angry and nearly drunk with rage when I tried to kill him. I attacked him with my bare hands. Nix stopped me though…Voldemort told me that I didn't have any choices. I was to do what I was told and if I didn't they would kill Alessandro. I had no choice, look what they had done to my Mother because I didn't listen to them in the first place. I stayed with your Father to keep Alessandro safe…eventually when Alessandro learned that is why I was a Death Eater he forgave me. I forgot how to live a normal life, Cadence. I was a Death Eater for nearly ten years before I met you. I had forgotten what it was like to live with out your Father, to truly love someone and be loved…to have something to live for."

"That doesn't explain now, Gabriel," I snapped. "That doesn't tell me why you betrayed me."

"I am not passing information to your Father," he said quickly looking up at me from his Mother's grave. His knees were covered in mud and there was water dripping down his face from the rain. I couldn't tell if he had been crying because the rain masked it. "I could never, Cadence." He looked away from me, back at the stone grave. I saw in his eyes that he was cursing himself. Why would he do such a thing for me? He was asking himself the same question. "I did it to save the man you claim to love, and the only family I have left."

I grabbed his arm and pulled him off the ground, looking him straight in the eye. "You are lying to my Father then, Gabriel. That is more dangerous then following him."

"I couldn't betray you," he said stroking my cheek. "And I couldn't let Sirius be killed." He took a long breath and sighed. "I told your Father I would spy for him. He sent me here to tell you I had returned before he would free Sirius and Alessandro."

"Is this why Sirius doesn't trust you?" I asked. "He knows all of this?"

"No," Gabriel shook his head. "Sirius knows nothing."

I frowned deeply, not liking the answer. How did I know I could still trust Gabriel? How did I know that what he was saying to me now was true?

"He sent me to you the night I found you on the park bench," Gabriel whispered still stroking my cheek. I didn't want him to stop touching me…the feelings I that had burned inside of me earlier that evening returned and I felt my insides squirm with desire. "When I returned to him, telling him you didn't suspect the imposter he agreed to release Alessandro and Sirius. But I had to find them. I found them in south London. I was able to wake Alessandro and explained everything to him. I told him to wake Sirius, and to tell him they must have been jumped and sent there…that there were probably imposters in their place."

"Does Dumbledore know?" I whispered holding his sweater and looking up at him with such concern. I probably looked foolish.

"Yes," he said to me softly, still stroking my cheek. He tucked my wet hair behind my ear and kissed my forehead. I closed my eyes and let him hold me. It was the least I could do. He had sacrificed himself for me and Sirius.

We stood for a few moments, cold and wet as the rain grew harder. I clung to Gabriel, afraid to let him go. My heart was beating so fast because I was still unsure if I could trust him. I felt Gabriel's lips on my ear and I shivered, pulling away slightly. He gave me a small smile and nodded his head once.

"Forgive me," he said.

I touched his cheek and forced a smile. How was it that, twice in one night, we shared such intimacy that it threatened every other relationship we had? I imagined Gabriel bending his head down and kissing me full on the mouth, wrapping his arms around me and pinning me to his chest. The horrible thing was that I wanted it so bad. I wanted him to save me from the horrifying world we seemed to be trapped in. I wanted him to be the only person I could trust, and the fact that I may not be able to frighten me.

"What do you know about Nero Jasper's murder?" I asked. I knew he knew something about it. He had been acting strange sense he found out about he murder, almost worried.

Gabriel sighed very slowly. "I don't know very much, Cadence. Just because your Father thinks I'm a spy for him doesn't mean he tells me everything."

"He probably suspects that you're not a spy at all for him."

"That's what doesn't make sense," said Gabriel very softly and rubbing his head. He removed his hands from me and I felt a shiver run through my body. It was as if Gabriel's hands were providing all warmth for me, and without them I was suddenly as cold as stone. "Why would he come to me to be a spy after I betrayed him and have been on the run from him? He's up to something, Cadence. That's why I didn't tell you. I didn't want to involve you and Dumbledore agreed with me."

"I'm not a child anymore, Gabriel," I whispered.

"You always through that excuse at me," he snapped. "You don't seem to realize that this was not your decision, and it has nothing to do with you being a child. I didn't tell you that I was a spy for your Father because you didn't need to know. You wouldn't have trusted me—"

"How do you think I feel now, Gabriel!?"

"I was going to tell you when I thought it was appropriate," he said, but I didn't believe him. If he wasn't going to tell me to begin with for my safety, he wasn't going to tell me at all. "I never expected you to use Legilimency on me, while I was sleeping, none the less. You of all people, who firmly believes in not penetrating anyone's mind when they're supposed to trust them."

"How am I supposed to trust you?" I questioned with a glare. I crossed my arms over my chest and continued to raise my eyebrows at him.

Gabriel came to me, took my hands and held them against his heart. He reached out slowly and touched my chest, between my breast. "You know you can trust me. You know, here in your heart, that I would never betray you."

I looked at him with sad eyes. It frightened me that he knew me so well…that he could touch me and I would believe anything he said. He held some kind of power over me and that made me even more nervous. It was suddenly very clear why my Father wanted Gabriel as a spy. My Father was right, I trusted Gabriel immensely and would never suspect him to go back to Voldemort. But Gabriel was mistaken that I could trust him, I would have trusted him more if he had come to me to begin with and told me what was going on. Now, I didn't know what else he was keeping from me.

Gabriel could see in my eyes that I wasn't convinced.

"How can I make you see that I have not betrayed you?"

"You have," I said softly to Gabriel. "Even if you are not feeding him information, you have betrayed me by not telling me."

"It was not your concern," he said quickly, breaking away from me with frustration. He threw his hands over his head and rubbed them through his hair as he turned away. "Why can't you see that I was protecting you?"

"From what?" I questioned. "My Father? I hate to break it to you Gabriel, I will never be safe from him, and nothing you do will protect me from him."

"I know that," he yelled. "Just like nothing I do will make you let me love you!"

I was caught off guard by his comment and stood back. This is what we were arguing about? How I was choosing Sirius over Gabriel and wouldn't let Gabriel love me? He had returned to my Father and was risking his life by feeding Voldemort fake information because I wouldn't let him love me?

I was staring at him like he was crazy. Gabriel had never let his emotions get the best of him like they just had. He was always very composed and understanding of our relationship. I don't think he had ever actually told me he loved me…and for him to say that word made my stomach turn. I realized very quickly that this was a horrible mess that I had gotten myself into…and it was the last thing I needed when Voldemort was running around trying to take over England.

"I know you don't need protection Cadence," he said staring at me with sad dark green eyes. "I know you can take care of yourself."

And just like that he turned off his emotional faucet. The flood gates were back up, and Gabriel Quintin was not going to share his true feelings about me. He had realized his mistake and now he was trying to control himself. I couldn't say anything. I was still too shocked and I just stood there. The tension between us had grown since earlier that day, when he had checked on me in the bathroom. He knew about the fantasy I had on the staircase…he knew that I wanted him…I knew that he loved me and that I would always love him…

I went to him, and touched his cheeks, not even sure I knew what I was doing.

"Don't do something you're going to regret," he said to me as he stroked my cheek and looked into my eyes.

"I already have," I whispered not turning my eyes away from his. He leaned down and kissed me full on the mouth. His arms engulfed me and I could do nothing but kiss him in return. I wanted it, him, every touch and caress. I wanted everything that he could offer.

It was a deep fiery kiss that only he could provide. No other man kissed me like Gabriel did. I wasn't sure if it was his lust for me, his passion, or his undying love that made those kisses so magnificence. I only knew that he was better then even Sirius. I pulled away slowly and Gabriel's lips fell down to my neck where he kissed me ever so sweetly. I moaned slightly as Gabriel's fingers pushed up my shirt smoothly. I took his hand and squeezed it, pulling away slowly with small tears in my eyes.

I was scaring myself with how the scene playing out in the graveyard was like my fantasy on the staircase earlier that day.

Gabriel kissed my finger tips and looked me in the eye. I saw desperation in his eyes, he wanted me to be his so badly, and I felt my heart break. How could I stand here and break him, when he did everything for me? How could I stay with Sirius when Gabriel so clearly loved me better? It was a question that I would never stop asking myself.

Despite the desperation, I could see him reading me like an open book. He knew that I was still going to pick Sirius over him. He touched my cheek and sighed, pressing his forehead against mine.

"I love you," he whispered to me. "I will never betray you because I love you, Cadence. You are all I have and I won't lose you, to anything."

I sighed and wiped the tears off my cheeks quickly. Hearing him say it made it even more difficult to bear. He touched my cheeks and gave me a small smile.

"I know you won't say it back," he said.

"I love you," I said gripping his wet shirt and clinging to him like a small child. I don't know why I said it. To prove him wrong probably, but that didn't mean I meant it any less. "But, Gabriel…you have to understand."

He nodded and pulled me tightly against him. "I do. I know how you feel…trust me Cadence, you were the last woman I wanted to fall in love with."

I smiled and pulled away. "This stays in this graveyard, Gabriel."

He stroked my cheek again, brushing the hair behind my ear. He curled my wet hair in his fingers, twisting it lightly and tugging playfully. "Will you be mad at me if I kiss you again?"

I smiled slightly. "Yes."

He held me firmly and kissed me on the mouth, cradling my head and wrapping his arm around my waist. After the long lasting, passionate kiss, he placed several small kisses on my lips, teasing me with his gentleness.

"Are you two crazy?" yelled a voice.

I pulled away instantly from Gabriel and turned in the rain to see Alessandro standing a hundred feet away. A horrible sigh of relief rushed through me—I was afraid it was somebody who would tell Sirius.

"What are you doing here?" Gabriel said moving forward, blocking me from sight. I'm not sure why. Alessandro had already seen me; he knew that we had been kissing in the rain. Suddenly, as if I hadn't even realized it before, but I was a whore. I felt so dirty and I moved away from Gabriel, running into a tombstone that stood behind me.

"I could ask you the same question," Alessandro said looking somewhat disgusted.

"Alessandro," said Gabriel. "You don't understand—"

"Alessandro," I stepped forward and spoke quickly. "It's complicated, and not what it appears. Please, please don't tell anyone of what you saw."

Alessandro came closer to Gabriel and I, he was glaring so harshly I wasn't sure what to think. I realized that he was glaring more harshly at Gabriel then anyone. I picked up alarmingly high tension between Gabriel and Alessandro and frowned deeply.

"Cadence, for your sake, I won't say anything," Alessandro said looking me in the eye. "But you two had better be careful with whatever it is you're doing."

"Alessandro," I said taking his hand. "Gabriel and I can't be together. What you just saw was ending whatever Gabriel and I share."

"I don't want to know," Alessandro said raising his hands. He was carrying a bouquet of white roses in one of his hands.

"You still haven't said what you're doing here," said Gabriel.

"Where did your Mother die?" Alessandro asked coldly.

"In Rome," Gabriel said. "And where did your Mother die?"

Alessandro stood up straight and held up the bouquet of white roses.

"Biological or the woman who raised me?" Alessandro questioned with spite.

"Biological?" Gabriel retorted. I wasn't one hundred percent sure what was going on between the two—were they fighting about Gabriel and I kissing, or something deeper?

"Died giving me life," Alessandro said.

"Woman who raised you?"

"You should know all about that," Alessandro snipped viciously. He threw the bouquet down on Gabriel's Mother's grave. I raised my eyebrows with surprise. Alessandro turned, saying nothing, and walked away. He Disapparated before the gate of the graveyard and I bit my bottom lip, turning to Gabriel.

"What was that about?" I asked tilting my head to the side.

Gabriel bent over, picking up the coat he had tossed at me before. "Come on," he said taking my arm. "Let's get home."

"Gabriel," I said grabbing his arm and stopping him from walking away.

He looked down at me with bright green eyes, they were smiling at me, as if they knew everything there was to know. He stroked my cheek with the back of his fingers.

"This will be the last time," he whispered leaning close to my ear. "I swear."

I held onto his shirt for a moment and stood on my toes, kissing his neck just below his ear. He sighed softly into my ear.

"Maybe it was better when you were gone," I whispered sadly.

"If I leave," he said. "Your Father will kill me."

I laughed lightly and moved away from Gabriel. "Ah, so that is why you're a spy now…so you have to stay with me."

"Not a very funny joke, Cadence," he said. He opened the gate for me and I exited the graveyard. Gabriel followed behind me and locked the gate securely.

"I'm going to shower," I said. "When I get home. I'll see you in the morning."

Gabriel nodded. "Probably best."

I squeezed his hand gently and then moved away, Apparating home instantly. I appeared in the bathroom and stripped off my wet clothing instantly. I turned on the water and stepped into the shower, letting the scolding hot water burn away my infidelity.