Chapter 11: A Hodgepodge of Feelings

Lelouch was lying on his bed later that night absently touching his lips, specifically on the part where CC kissed him. That was totally unexpected, but she was drunk after all. He remembered going to CC's room to ask her if she wanted to eat dinner. He saw her drinking and for some reason unknown, it seemed to infuriate him. Was it concern that made him mad? No, he refused to think of her as more than a friend. But friends feel concern for each other, right?

Lelouch sighed. He was having a hard time justifying his actions. Rather, he was having a hard time justifying one particular action. When CC kissed him, he kissed back. He didn't know what made him do it, it just happened. He slowly felt his lips parting and responding to the girl's passionate kiss with equal fervor like it was the most natural thing. They broke apart after a few minutes, both out of breath.

They stared at each other's eyes for a few seconds, perhaps fathoming whatever thoughts the other have. Deciphering whatever reaction about the kiss that didn't show in their carefully masked faces. That silence was starting to become uneasy when CC spoke in a cool, calm, collected tone.

"Goodnight, Lelou-, Kiryuu." Lelouch took a step back and CC shut the door on his face.

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"Oh my," Anya gasped, "I can't believe it."

"What can't you believe, Anya? You set the whole thing up." CC sighed, gazing out from her bedroom window. She just told Anya the events yesterday starting from the cafeteria incident to the kiss.

"Okay, I won't deny that I was setting the two of you up, you know how I feel about that guy's current girlfriend, but, CC can't you see your progress? It's been only roughly a week and you're already way past the getting to know you stage."

"Oh please. We're way past the getting to know you stage. I've known him since the war."

"I mean after he had amnesia."

"Whatever, Anya. It was Dutch courage. I only did it because I'm drunk."

"But he's not drunk. He's in a perfectly rational state of mind, yet he kissed you back. That has got to count for something."

"He's a guy. What do you expect? I mean, it's not like a guy to turn down free kisses."

"Do you really see Lelouch kissing any girl that planted a wet one on him? You're reasoning needs a tune up. I don't know how you survived the war with that kind of logic."

"I don't need logic, I have the code."

Anya rolled her eyes at CC, "get out of this hole and eat a decent breakfast. It's good for the common sense."

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"Will you stop fidgeting like a little boy who just received his first kiss?" Jeremiah sighed exasperated. He was currently reading the morning paper while having breakfast at the dinner table while Lelouch squirmed at his seat trying to drink coffee.

Lelouch spluttered out his drink at Jeremiah's near accurate impression of what happened. It was true, he was fidgeting because of the kiss but it was not his first. Well, his first from CC that he can remember anyway. "Wha-, how, you,"

Jeremiah eyed him suspiciously. "I meant that as a figure of speech but seeing your reaction, I can see that it's not far from the truth." Lelouch reddened slightly as Jeremiah laughed.

"I'm assuming it's that girl that you brought to the party?"

"Gianni," Lelouch had almost forgotten about her. He was being unfaithful to her kissing other women behind her back. He felt the guilt settling in him.

"Guilty of infidelity?" Jeremiah smirked, as realization dawned on him. Lelouch kissed CC, a girl he thought he just knew, and it felt wonderful. Now the poor boy is struggling to know what his true feelings are. Oh, the joy.

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CC is mad at herself. She hated the way she clung to Lelouch even though she knows he's already with someone else. She hated that she can't forget him even though she swore she would. She's mad at Lelouch for giving her mixed signals. Why did he kiss her back? Why is he giving her false hope that maybe, just maybe, they could be together again and someday, they could be a perfect little family.

No. CC, that is never going to happen. She thought

CC sighed. It's been two weeks since that incident which is the kiss. The two of them acted normally as if the kiss didn't happen. CC doesn't know whether to feel glad that things between them didn't become awkward or hurt that Lelouch didn't seem to be affected about the kiss. On the upside though, their relationship is starting to look up. Lelouch would accompany her on her trips to the hospital, make her breakfast every morning, and even going to town to buy pizza for her even if she asked in the dead of the night. In turn CC would help him picking fruits to be delivered in town and accompany him during deliveries.

They were starting to be friends. Close friends. It wasn't much considering what they really were before Lelouch lost his memories but it was a good start.

a/n: thanks for all the people who reviewed last chapter, favorited this story, etc. and also to those who offered to help with the next chaps, I really appreciate it…I watched code geass again the other day on dvd so I'm sort of back on track…I don't think this chapter is that good, but I think the next one will be better…sayonara…till my next update…:-D