Sorry for the wait! I will try and update more soon.

In this chapter, after Bethany's passing, suspicions rise, and Esther seems to be suspected, especially by someone she really didn't think would. Read on to find out what happens...

I wake, panting. I've just had a horrible nightmare, that I was back in Saarne. I'm glad it was just a bad dream. I pull back a cuff of my nightdress, and peer at the ugly scar around my wrist. A sickening reminder of my time at Saarne, being trapped in a strait jacket. I breath a sigh of relief that I'm free from Saarne now, and peer at the clock hanging on my bedroom wall. My mood immediately darkened as I saw, In glowing red numbers, it said the time was 6:50 am, and the day was Monday.

Monday. School again! I'm 33 for Gods sake, I'm old enough to to be my "classmates" mom! However, I must say, the weekend was interesting. Bethany was reported missing, and her face appeared all over the news, then they didn't even find her until Sunday, when the bin men emptied the bins! I did feel a bit scared then, when they mentioned how they were searching for the killer, but then I realised I really wasn't a likely suspect, they'd be looking for stalkers in the area.

I slid out of bed and pulled on a lilac dress and white tights. I still get questioned by Anna about clothes, but I needn't go in it that again. I sat at the dressing table and began to do my makeup. I had done this so many times I had lost count, it had become a part of my daily routine. I smiled at my reflection, and cute little Esther smiled back, as I curled my hair with my curling wand, before fixing my red velvet ribbons back on my wrists and neck, covering the hideous scars. This was a lot of effort every morning, but it was all needed to make sure Leena Klammer stayed hidden from the world and never showed through.

Once I was ready, I picked up my school bag, tucked my makeup kit inside, and made my way down the stairs. Emily and Daisy were sat at the table, eating their breakfast. Daisy smiled at me, jam and toast crumbs around her mouth. So adorable! However, when I sat down at the table, Emily gave me a strange look.

"Esther?" She asked.

"Yes, Emily?" I replied, smiling at her.

"What did happen to Bethany? You were in school on the day she died, did you see anything?"

I jumped at her question. I honestly didn't think she would ask that! I felt bad having exposed a little girl to something this awful.

"Earth to Esther!" Emily shouted at me "Did you see anything?"

"No, I didn't, Emily. If I had seen anything, I would have said so." I replied. She still looked at me oddly, but said no more about it. I ate my breakfast, and glanced at the calendar on the wall, which had mine and Emily's "tenth" birthdays on. Little did they know it would actually be my 34th! I asked Emily about her birthday, trying to talk about something else. Emily replied she was going to get her ears pierced, and Daisy piped up that she wanted earrings too, but she was too little. I pretended be be excited about my birthday too, asking Anna what I would be getting.

"It's a surprise, Esther." She replied, smiling. "You'll have to wait and see."

I had a probably accurate guess what it would be, though. Dollies, teddies, more jeans and t shirts. And I'll probably be asked if I want my ears pierced, too. It doesn't take a genius to work that one out!

After breakfast I had to help Anna with getting Daisy ready, as she was being silly for no reason. I let her pick out jeans and t shirt for that day, and helped her with the fastenings on her shoes. My dear soon to be daughter had tied her hair with little red ribbons on either side, like I usually have mine. How sweet! I also got my stuff ready, though I was sure wouldn't be having fun at school like Daisy would be.

I had been wondering how school would go that day. As I sat in the car, the silence was still unbearable. I honestly didn't know if Emily thought I did this. Once I got to school I quickly made my way to my classroom, Emily following behind. The school was eerily quiet, with sobbing children all around. Looks like this town being a small place that everyone knew everyone. I honestly struggled to keep a straight face. Little did I know what was going to happen later though...

The morning was so dull. We didn't do much work today, on account of the "tragedy". Hardly anyone could concentrate. Mrs Gravenstein came in, teary over what had happened. She gave us a talk on what had happened, incase we didn't know already. Most of the classmates were already familiar with the recent "tragedy". A school photo of Bethany, smiling for the camera, was hung on the wall, so we could remember our classmate.

The playground was oddly silent. There were no sounds of children laughing and playing. No sounds of games being played. The only sounds that could be heard, were the faint sobs of children, and the swish of the breeze blowing through the trees. I walked over to the swings and sat down and began to swing back and forth, and the oddest thought popped in my head. "Did I really have to kill her?" I thought to myself. I actually began to feel bad for what I did! I hadn't just hurt a girl. I had killed a daughter, a sister, a friend and classmate to others! What was happening to me? Why did I feel bad? Did Bethany really deserve what I did to her?

Yes! Yes, she did! I thought, as logic kicked in. If I didn't do that she would have carried on being an evil little shit, she would have gotten even worse. I don't know why she didn't like me, but I think she deserved everything she got! I began to swing higher, as my confidence soared. Although Bethany did deserve it, I seriously hoped I wouldn't have to do it again to anyone else. Otherwise suspicions would definitely rise then!

After break had ended, I made my way to the toilets to go to the loo and check my makeup. I was in the cubicle when I heard voices. I stayed quiet, so they wouldn't know I was there. The last thing I needed was more trouble from the little shits I happen to go to school with. I recognised the voices as Bethany's ex friends, but what they said made my heart stop!

"You know, I reckon that new girl, Esther, has something to do with what's happened." The girl named Tracy said.

"Yeah, I agree, there's something fishy about her." Another girl named Alice agreed.

Shit! They actually suspect me! I thought, as I continued to listen.

"I agree too." Another girl named Becky added. "I reckon it was her. It's no coincidence that when she started here, suddenly someone gets killed!"

"Yeah, sometimes kids can be killers too" Tracy said, agreeing with Becky.

"She totally looks like the sort of person who would do that." Alice added. "What do you think, Emily?"

Emily was with them? I was scared now. What she said made me steam with rage though!

"It's weird what's happened, and I'm suspicious too. I know Esther's my sister, but I can't help but feel unsettled by what's happened. I agree with Becky, it's weird that someone could snatch Bethany from the playground without any if us seeing it. It had to be someone our age, and Esther does seem a likely suspect, she acted so weird at breakfast today."

Two-faced bitch! She should be sticking up for me! I'm her sister, and soon to be mother. How could she be like this? How could she? I would be seriously having a word with her when we got home!

The rest of the day passed by in a blur, it was all so dull, everyone banging on about the police searching, and telling us all to stay safe. How many times did we need to hear this? I got homework, but that would be so babyish and easy to do. Soon enough, the school bell rang, and we were allowed to go home.

I walked out to the car park when the bell went, pretending to be as sad as my other classmates, as I walked over to Anna's car and climbed in. Daisy was already sat in her booster seat, and Emily came running up behind me and climbed in.

The drive home was oddly daunting, it was like they knew my deepest darkest thoughts, and weren't saying. It made me want to scream "SPEAK TO ME!", but I didn't. I hummed the glory of love to myself, but this time it didn't work at calming me. I tried to reassure myself, once again, that I would be one of the last people anyone would suspect. "Esther" isn't a killer, she is a sweet little girl who looks like a life size porcelain doll. No one would suspect sweet little Esther, would they?

When we got home, I played with Daisy, as Emily was now steering clear of me. I did confront her when I got home, and she got scared, knowing I heard what she said. She swore she didn't mean anything by it, but I knew better. Daisy and me played daft game after daft game together, smearing our faces in makeup childishly, dressing up in Anna's clothes and shoes, colouring with chunky wax crayons, guessing what eachother were drawing. It was silly, but it was working. Everything was going so well until tea time, then something out of the ordinary happened.

We were sitting eating our tea. We had spaghetti bolognese, and Daisy got sauce around her mouth and all down her white t shirt. How adorable! I help clean her with a napkin, It sadly made me want a child of my own even more! I wish Emily and Daisy could be my daughters, but I can't think how I could be anything more to them than a "sister". It's frustrating! As I felt bad about all of this, the doorbell chimed, and Anna went to answer it. I heard talking, then suddenly, I was called for. "ESTHER, THERES SOMEONE AT THE DOOR WHO WANTS A WORD WITH YOU! " Anna called to me. I got up and went to see who it was, and my heart nearly stopped when I saw. It was a policeman. A POLICEMAN! What on earth did he want? "I have something to ask you, young lady. Can I come in?" he said. Anna said he could, and as he came into the house and went into the living room, I followed, trembling. Was this it? I thought to myself. Had I been found out?

Has Esther been found out? Is she even suspected? Or is this about something else?