Dreams are like stars...you may never touch them, but if you follow them they will lead you to your destiny.
That was a quote that I used to believe. But now, having all these dreams, I'm starting to doubt that. If my destiny is to let Megumi take control over my body and kill everyone here, then my destiny is messed up. Now, I'm starting to question why I'm actually here.
Is my reason here just to destroy everything? Or am I not supposed to be here, and I'm just here by chance? These things have been floating around in my head. My recent dreams have been the most terrifying.
Megumi decided to rake my brain, and use images of my friends and family, and torment them in front of me, knowing that I miss them so much and would do anything to get back to them. I would wake up, screaming, waking everyone else up. Then I wouldn't be able to get to sleep at all. I find myself staying up at night, and barely awake during the day. I just don't want to fall asleep. I don't want to see those dreams again.
I just want to go home...
All I could tell was that we were walking. I could hear Inuyasha grumbling on how he has to carry me. I don't blame him. I wouldn't want to carry him, either. Inuyasha has been getting on my ever lasting nerve these past few days. Ever since I accidentally first attacked him in my sleep. but that wasn't me, it was Megumi taking slight control over my body. No matter how many times I tell him, he just won't listen.
"Will you stop grumbling!" Kagome said to Inuyasha with a frown.
"Why do I have to carry her?" he snapped back.
"We already told you." Kagome retorted.
"Because of some stupid dreams? That's a lame excuse. Why don't we just leave her, and go on to find the Sacred Jewel Shards!"
He was met with silence. He grunted again.
"I-I'm sorry..." I said. "I'm such a burden..."
"You are." Inuyasha replied to my whispering.
"Just let me go here." I said, out loud.
Everyone turned as Inuyasha stopped.
"Just put me down here. I'll find my own way...back home..."
"We can't do that." Kagome said.
"Shut up, I don't need to here it from you." Now, I'm bitter because of no sleep.
"We're trying to help you, Megan." That was Sango, I'm sure.
"I know you...are..." I said. I produced a big yawn.
"Then why are you trying to separate from us?" Miroku asked.
"I think...I've come to a conclusion." I said, moving my way off of Inuyasha's back. "The longer I stay with you...the stronger the dreams."
"It doesn't matter. We're not leaving you." Kagome replied.
"Listen, I'm bitter as hell, I haven't got any sleep the past week. I'm not in the mood to argue or fight about anything. If you just leave me be, the drams, hopefully, will stop. I'll find my own way back home if I have to." I retorted.
I was met with silence. Then Shippo spoke up. "but what if the dreams don't stop?"
"Then that's my problem. You all already have your own problems to deal with, I don't want to add another one to the list." I replied. I then turned around and rubbed my eyes and yawned again. "If you come after me, be prepared to be hurt even more, 'cause I'm not joining you guys again...at least, for a while."
"I'm worried about her. Naraku could use this chance to nab her." Miroku noted, as I started walking away.
"I'm worried, too. In her state, she could easily be taken over by anything." Sango agreed.
"Even if we try to help her, she won't let us." Kagome replied.
"Lets go. She's gone, no more distractions, and we won't be slowed down anymore." Inuyasha charged ahead of the group.
As I walked, the sky became darker and darker. I didn't realize until I was surrounded by darkness. Normally, I'm not afraid of the dark. But if you haven't had any decent sleep, your mind starts playing tricks on you. Every sound made me jump. I was even scared of my own shadow, for Pete's sake. I'm not usually this jumpy, so I knew something had to be wrong. I didn't no what, but I knew something was wrong.
In the distance, I could make out a small light in the distance. In the glow of the light, I could make out a figure walking. Maybe they knew where I was, and probably where the next town was. I figured that had to be my best bet.
I walked over towards her. Stop! Don't go any further. A voice in my head hissed. It was Megumi. So, I defied her by continuing to walk that way,towards the figure. You stupid brat! I was just about to possibly save you, but now I'm not. Whatever happens is your own fault. I tried to warn you.
I didn't understand what she was saying. But I continued to ignore her, knowing I shouldn't listen to her. The figure grew closer and closer. I could now make out that the figure was a woman, and she was walking towards me. I could still hear Megumi grumbling about how stupid I was. The woman looked to be in about her late thirties or so. But I could be wrong. I could sense a demonic aura emanating from her. I'm so happy. After spending a couple of weeks with Inuyasha, I've grown a sense to demonic auras and such.
She opened her eyes and smiled at me. I could hear Megumi growling. "Oh, hello, dear."
"Uh, hi." I replied, softly, with a tiny wave.
"I do believe you don't recognize me. My name is Pandora. Back when Lady Megumi was in charge of the Eastern Lands, I was the high priestess in charge. My job is to serve and help Milady in any trouble." Pandora smiled and nodded. She looked up at me and she looked worried. "Oh, Milady, you look as if you haven't had any sleep in days."
"Well, I haven't." I replied. I didn't know what to make of this woman. I could tell that she was a priestess of high power, based on her demonic aura. But I didn't know whether to trust Megumi's words at the moment. She kept screaming stuff like Traitor! Evil, vile woman! And I didn't know if I should trust Pandora's words.
"Milady, you must rest your strength. If you are to take back the lordship over the Eastern Lands, you need your strength." Pandora fished out a candle from her bag at her side. "I heard about your slip from your mother. Quite brave you are, milady. She was furious and called you all sorts of things."
"Uh, yeah." I yawned.
"Here. This used to put you to sleep whenever you couldn't, It's a candle. It's sweet aroma will put you to sleep, and fight off any nightmares you may have." She replied, with a bright smile that looked genuine. I smiled back at her.
Pandora lit the candle, and I was immediately taken over by this sweet aroma. My eyes went all droopy and I couldn't keep them open. I was instantly taken over by sleep. But all I can says is that it was the best sleep I had in ages.
This dream was different. I saw Megumi, but she wasn't all evil looking, and she didn't want to kill anybody. She actually looked happy and caring of others. She was dressed in these fine kimonos and worn a golden head dress upon her head. I thought it was weird, seeing her in a different light. Or was it like seeing myself? I wouldn't know.
Megumi attending a party and she stood up on a chair and tapped a glass with her chop sticks to quiet them down. She was glowing. She was happy. This was probably a rare sight. She chuckled a bit and I swear she was drunk. Wow, I was a drunk in this life. OK, back on topic.
"Everyone, I've an announcement to make." she said, all giddy like. "I have been engaged with InuTaisho!" The crowd all seem to gasp, and then a round of clapping and cheering followed suit.
There, I saw him. The InuTaisho walking up. This is way before Izayoi, from what I could tell. Could I be seeing a memory of Megumi's? I then watched as he laid his arms around Megumi and planted a big one on her lips.
I was surprised. I didn't know if he was still with Sesshomaru's mother, or if he was with Izayoi, or both at the same time. He could be seen as a player, which would be weird and cool, in a way. But, now I realize that I could have been the birth mother of either Sesshomaru and Inuyasha, if he had stayed with Megumi. Or, something like that. Just the thought of it made me woozy and nauseous.
The scene skipped around. I saw hate, anger, intense love, no kidding. I'm glad it skipped that scene. Just trying to picture Megumi/myself with Inu...UGH! When the scene skipping stopped, I noticed a battlefield. Megumi was injured. I could taste the hate in the air. I could feel it emanating off of her.
"Why!" she called out. "I thought we had something!" she swung her big sword around, and lighting shot from it. Huh. I bet you I need to find this sword. In due time, I guess.
The InuTaisho said nothing, and used his sword to block the attack.
"Why would you betray me like this?!" Now, it seems like Megumi is going just a slight bit crazy. Her shoulders were slumped as she cried. She was swaying her sword around as she shouted at him. now, according to Myouga, this must be the battle where she disappeared in a battle with InuTaisho. It must be after she caught him with Izayoi.
Megumi discarded her sword to the side, looking up. Seeing her face like this...it reminded me of myself. Now, that was a little creepy. Well to me, at least. She raised one hand to the sky. I watched as the storm clouds gather above her. Several bolts of lightning struck her hand and she absorbed it. she turned that hand towards him. "Rain of fangs!" all that electricity that had built up in her body when she absorbed that lightning came out all at once. they went in all sorts of directions, but all heading to the same place. Her lover, or ex-lover at the moment.
He lifted the Tetsusaiga up and shot it back down. i knew this move, and anyone who knows Inuyasha knows this move. Backlash wave. His move countered hers and turned it back on her. She didn't do anything to stop it. She was took weak from the battle they had. she just stood there, tears streaming down her face. She watched as the attack moved closer and closer. Then it hit her. It overcame her so quickly, she didn't even have time to register it hit her. "Good...bye..." Was the last thing she said, before she disappeared into the attack.
When it dispersed, he sheathed the Tetsusaiga. It started to rain. The fire that crackled was being doused. InuTaisho saw the sword laying on the ground. The sword she discarded. He walked over to it, and picked it up.
"My Lord." Myouga said, jumping onto the scene. "That was quite the battle. But I do say, I feel bad for her."
"She let her emotions get in the way." He said.
"My Lord, what will you do with her sword?" Myouga asked.
"I will give it to her mother. though I don't say the visit will be very pleasant." As he left, before the dream went away, I heard him say one last thing. "I'm sorry, Megumi..."