I couldnt go home. And I couldnt stay here. The nest, was no longer welcoming. While it offered danceing and life. Laugher and Love., I wanted quiet, numb, darkness. The nest was not and could not be called my home. After the first week everyone stoped talking to me, everyone except aleya and marcus. They tried, unsucsessfully to make conversation with me, but I never replied, and If I did I told them I had a head ache and was going to bed. I barly ate, I only slep when I fainted from exahustion, falling in a heap on the floor, before drifting into the nighmare. The nightmare was always the same, but it was always a dfferent person. I t was the night Kimber had followed me, except every night It was somone new following me, hitting me , and eventualy almost rapeing me. Somtimes it was marcus, or my father. But most of the time it was Urban. THose nightmares with him were always the worst.
I looked at my own reflection now in one of the many miorrs the nest had to offer. I wasnt cori anymore. My hair was stringy and unkempt. My eyes were dull and lacked life or light. And my face had lost some of its soft roundness because I wasnt eating. I had dark circles under my eyes from lack of sleep. I looked like the walking dead. and the worst part of all of this...I couldnt fly. I couldnt shift form, and when ever I tried All that happened was I fell to the floor in agony, reching from the awful pain. ANd i feared that I would never fly again. I was completly and uderly hopless and after the second week even aleya and marcus stopped trying to talk to me.
I wanted to stay but I wanted to go. I wanted to die but I wanted to live. I was unsure about everything, and At times I wanted to break down and cry. But that was another thing I seemed uncapable to do, I could not cry anymore, my eyes were dry.
When I had first been taken in my the nest I thought it would make things better, that I would finally be free. I was wrong, I had always been wrong, and as long as I had any hope at all, I would always be wrong.
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sorry this was short...next chapter is longer!