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Chapter 11

Freddie's POV

"Now it doesn't matter if I love him or not... " I stand here listen to the words which the crying and sobbing girl says behind this door...The door of Carly Shay's apartment.

I just stand there shocked, confused and my eyes are widened. Carly Shay is in love with me... The girl I had a crush on since I met her. But she never liked me back and so I slowly gave up on her. And now I'm over her and I love another girl... her best friend. And her best friend also loves me and she saw us together and now she knows.

I lean against the wall, run my fingers through my hair and hear Carly crying. I can also barely hear that Spencer is whispering "I'm sorry Carly..." She saw me and Sam telling that we love each other.

But this won't help... No matter how many times somebody hugs her and tells her 'I'm so sorry' you'll still suffer. These hugs and this 'I'm sorry' won't ease the pain you feel when you see the person you love with another one. It won't make that every time you see them together happy not a part from you dies. And it won't make that you sleep at night. It won't make that you don't fake a smile or a laugh a day.

I can understand her because I felt the same way when I always saw Sam and Jacob together. But for her it's harder than for me because Sam and I are her best friends. We're the one who should cheer her up. And what am I doing? I just do the opposite. I make her crying on the ground.

But how could I help her? I can't help her. I can't stop loving Sam and being with her. That would also break Sam's heart. And this is also one thing I definitely don't want. But I also don't want that our whole friendship is just... gone. I know her for so long and I don't want to loose her as a friend. But right now I don't know how I should avoid it...

I'm so lost in my thoughts that I only now notice that my mom is looking for me.

"Freddie?" The door next to me opens and my mothers face appears. She looks worried and you can see that she cried a lot.

"What?" I ask. Today I wasn't and I'm not the best son but now I just have to think about more important things right now.

"Would you please come in? I made something to eat... I thought you're maybe hungry." I turn around. Her voice sounds like she's near crying again. So I nod and before I go in my apartment I look for a short moment at Carly's door.

Now I'm sitting with my mother in the kitchen. It's silent she just stares at me and wait that I eat something. I'm not hungry. Maybe I should because the last time I ate something was this morning. But I see her glance and so I just take my fork and eat some beans. Now I can see a slight smile on her face.

"So... how do you feel?" She asks suddenly and I look up from my plate.

"Uhm... okay." I lie I don't feel okay. I feel rough.

"Freddie... Maybe you think I'm stupid but I can see that you don't feel okay." I know that she isn't stupid but I also know that she wouldn't understand me. So I just don't say anything.

"Then don't talk to me. Bottle up everything... That will make everything better..." She says sad and a little bit upset. Great now I really feel better... Of course she wants to know what bothers me. And If I knew that she could help me I really would talk to her but she can't.

We're both quiet. I stopped to eat and she just sits there in front of me. She waits and stares at me. I know she wants that I talk to her. And after a while I can't take it anymore. I'll tell her almost everything knowing that it doesn't help but she won't stop staring at me if I don't talk so...

"You're right I'm not okay..." I start.

"And what's wrong?" She asks happy about that I finally talk but she looks serious.

"Well, first I have to tell you that..." I hesitate. "I love Sam and she loves me too." I wait for a reaction... maybe that her eyes widen or that she screams or something like that... but nothing. She just nods and waits for me going on.

"Uhm aren't you surprised?" I'm really wondering. My mother hears that I'm in love with Sam the girl she always called a 'bad company'. And now she just nods!?

"Freddie I told you I'm not stupid..." She smiles. "And now go on okay?"

"Uh... okay." I just say still confused. "So Sam and I love each other..." I say again looking at my mom wondering if that's really her.

"Freddie I won't freak out because you grow up..." Okay now she really surprises me. She tells me that she won't freak out because I grow up. That's not her typical attitude. I'm speechless...

But when she gives me a questioning look I go on.

"Uhm... And that's great and awesome but I just heard few minutes ago that Carly loves me and that she saw me and Sam..." My mom nods again she seems to be calm.

"And now you don't know what to do because you want to be Sam's boyfriend but you also don't want that you ruin your friendship with Carly, right?" I thought she wouldn't understand right? I didn't know that I can be so wrong...

"Right..." I just say...more I can't. Again I'm speechless.

"This is a problematic situation..." I also know that this is a problematic situation. And now she also doesn't know what I should do...

"I know..." I hide my face in my hands and feel how a tear rolls down my cheek.

"Oh Freddie..." My mother runs to me and hugs me. "Freddie...I'm so sorry." I cry again like a little child. But I can't help it. I thought everything gets better when Sam came to me and now it's just worse... I don't regret that I and Sam are together now that's the last thing I'd do... but Carly.

I just hug my mother and cry. This way we stand a really long time, she just whispers a thousand times 'Sorry' in my ear until I decide to sleep. I mumble something of 'Thank you' and 'Good night' and then I go in my room leaving my mother alone in the kitchen.

Without putting on my pyjama I go in my bed. I know it's only eight or nine pm and that I won't sleep tonight. But I also know that it doesn't make sense to sit crying in my mothers arms in the kitchen. But make it more sense to sit alone in my room and to cry...?

Sam's POV

Yeah and breaking up with Jacob. I don't know it's weird. No matter what he did to me we were dating for five months. In five months can change and happen a lot. And it happened a lot. First Jacob was the nicest, cutest and best boyfriend ever but then just something happened with him. He was just disgusting and sometimes he was drunk. I wonder what would have happen if he didn't change... We would still be together, I guess. But then I wouldn't have realized what I feel for Freddie...

That doesn't matter. I'll break up with him. Maybe he'll freak out and yell at me or slap me. I have to break up with this guy. Wait... what if he freaks out yells at me and slaps me? I'm not strong enough to react against him... I know this. I had such a situation before... Suddenly I realize how dangerous this situation is... No matter how long we were dating I never knew what he was going to do...

Suddenly I'm really scared. I can't go there alone... but who should I take with me...Freddie? Wouldn't it be strange if I go and break up with Jacob while I'm on the side of my new boyfriend? It would be... but otherwise with which person I should go if I don't go with Freddie? There is nobody else...

And suddenly my phone rings. I just pick up. "Hey?"

"Hey Sam! It's Freddie..." When I hear his voice I cheer up.

"Freddie! I also wanted to call you there's something I wanted to ask you something..." I really wanted to call him but if he does it's good.

"Uhm okay...ask." His voice sounds weird... something is wrong.

"Freddie...what's wrong?" I bet I sound really worried right now.

"Nothing..." There's something I know. I can actually feel it.

"What is it?" I can be annoying Freddie...

"Really nothing..." But that's also annoying. I'm sure something is wrong and I want to know right now.

"Then why did call me?" Yep good question... He just calls me speak with a sad, confused voice and when you ask him what's wrong he just says 'Nothing'.

"I just...wanted to hear your voice..." I would be happy about this sentence if I didn't know that this isn't the real reason and if it didn't sound more like a question.

"C'mon Freddie... just tell me what's wrong." I'm surprised that my voice sounds so nice and not angry...

"Really nothing..." Okay that's enough. I stand up take my jacket and run out my apartment.

"Sam what are you doing?" He asks when he hears the noises in the background.

"I'm coming over to you..." When I'm standing in front of him he won't say 'Nothing' again. And also he helped me a lot when I had these injuries and now something bothers him and so I'll help him.

"What? You can't just come over." He says surprised.

"But I'll... See you!" And then I just push the red button and go outside.

I just walk along the street wondering what Freddie tries to hide. I look at my watch it's 9.15pm. That's the reason why it's so dark outside. I decide to take a shortcut so I'll be at Freddie's in about fifteen minutes... I don't care about the darkness. A lot of times I walked along the streets at night. Then I just could think about everything. Maybe the night is better for me than the day... who knows?

I waste my thoughts on such stupid things when I suddenly hear a voice behind me.

"Little girls like you shouldn't be here so late..." I turn around and there stands a tall and scary boy. My eyes widen and I can't move when I see the knife in his hand.

He slowly approaches me and now I can see that he doesn't show any feelings he just stares at me. I feel in my pocket there's no money I just feel my cell phone. I can't just call the police this guy wouldn't let me. And run? I guess I'm not fast enough... Why took I this stupid shortcut?

"I hate blonde girls..." He suddenly says still approaching me. What? He wants to kill me because I'm blond? Is he mentally disturbed? Maybe... I heard from such people. They hate everyone who has for example blond hair because their ex-girlfriend had blond hair or something like that. But it doesn't matter why this guy is going to kill me... I'm supposed to die on a lonely street.

He gets closer there only four meters between me and him. But suddenly something unexpected happens a person just push this boy away. I try to see who it is but it's too dark and this boy or man or whatever moves really fast.

I can't see exactly what happens because everything happens really fast. But at the end the boy with the knife lays bleeding on the ground. And the other person stands there with a broken bottle in his hands. Apparently he bashed him on the head with this bottle and so this boy fell down.

I still can't move, I still stand there speechless and I still don't know who the one who rescued me is. Maybe it's Freddie? No this guy is taller then him. But it seems like I'll get my answer really soon because this boy comes closer.

"Are you alright?" He just asks. A simple question I couldn't answer. I thought I'm speechless but only now I'm really speechless, breathless and shocked. The boy who gives me a nice smile is no less a figure than Jacob...

Surprise, surprise! xD

I guess you're also surprised, huh? :D

Maybe you've got many questions right now... Perhaps something like "Wasn't Jacob in the hospital?" or "Why is he also there and helps Sam?"... But I just can tell you that you have to wait until the next chapter...
I know it was a really short chapter but its 4.21am and I'm so tired right now you can't imagine... (That also explains why there are maybe some spelling errors)
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