Disclaimer- I own nothing…I do not own any songs from Camp Rock.
A/N-If you don't like the Jonas Brothers or Camp Rock sorry but the song in here fits it perfect!!
Chapter 11
She was tired of it. She was tired of waiting for the other shoe to drop. If the thought of him not choosing her now hurt so badly she wanted to cry, it could only get worse.
"It's only day ten," she mumbled as she took a book from her locker. She was going to meet Olivia in a few moments so she could get a ride home but at the moment, she was having trouble keeping tears from flooding her eyes.
"Hey," a voice said next to her. She turned to see Jared standing there, a perfect smile on his face.
"Casey, what's wrong?" he asked, concerned as he looked at her face.
"Nothing, I'm just having a really bad day," she said, turning back to her locker. She was grabbing a book out when the book they were reading in English fell out. Jared immediately bent down and picked it up.
"Thanks," she said as she took it from him.
"Casey, what happened?" he asked. The concern was sweet but she wished it wasn't there. It bugged her for some strange reason.
"Nothing. I had a fight with Derek that's all," she said.
"Oh, I see," he said. Despite the fact that they were step sibs, everyone in school seemed fine with the idea of them dating. No one had made a big deal when the news circulated that Derek had "left" the group to be with her. Maybe it was because strange behavior was something everyone was used to when it came to Derek.
"Yeah but it's not that big a deal. I'm over it," she said.
"Over the fight or over him," Jared asked, curiously.
"I want to say just the fight but I don't know. Things with him are so complicated," she admitted.
"How about this? Me and you, my house, with no complications. We can hang out, watch some TV or a movie, and I have an unlimited junk food supply," he said.
"I'm not sure if that's a good idea," she said, uncertain.
"Come on Casey, it will be fun and you need a break," Jared said. She sighed and looked past him, straight into Derek's angry eyes. Sam and Sally standing with him. Sally was holding his arm, talking fast. Casey looked away and frowned. She looked at Jared, who was smiling at her with ease.
"Sure," she agreed.
"Really?" he asked.
"Yeah, why not?" she answered. He took her bag from her, closed her locker and grabbed her hand.
"Then away to care free land we go," Jared said, causing her to laugh.
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He was beyond pissed now. If there was a level of anger above the ultimate level, he was there. He was annoyed, too. Annoyed by Jared, who had managed to steal his girl, annoyed by Kendra who started this with her childish behavior, annoyed with Olivia for not talking to Casey for him, annoyed with Sally for telling him everything would be fine, and annoyed with himself for not realizing how much this must hurt her. It must be confusing and annoying for her to have to wait until he made a decision that affected her life just as much as his. He waited in his room for the sound of the front door opening. He was trying to prepare himself for what he was going to say to her. He knew that she had left the school with Jared. His greatest fear was that she was still with him.
Around ten that night, she finally came home. He gave her a half hour but he couldn't wait longer than that. Once he was outside her room, the fear that had plagued him at the movie theater attacked again...only worse. He knocked on her door after standing there for a few moments. His stomach hurt and his hands were shaking. When she answered the door she was already dressed for bed.
"Can I talk to you?" he asked, nervously.
"Actually, I, umm...have something I need to say to you," she said, not moving from the middle of the doorway.
"Okay," he said.
"Derek, I like you a lot but I that is the problem. Every day we go through this, is only going to make it worse," she said.
"What are you trying to say?" he replied.
"That I can't do this. I can't get attached to you when in the end we all know who you are going to choose. It's always going to be them Derek," she said.
"Casey," he said, failing to find words.
"Derek, I think its best if we just forgot about all of this because I can't take falling for you, only to have my heart broken. I know that sounds selfish but I can't do it. In the end, I am the only one who will end up alone. If you chose me at least they will have each other but who will I have if it is the other way around," she said.
"But the whole point was to give me time. So I could think," he said.
"Derek, you made your mind up on day one. This is a game to you, to them but for me, its not," she whispered.
"Casey, give it…this...me a chance," he begged.
"I did, it was you who didn't," she replied.
"What are you talking about? I have been trying! I turned my back on them and you know why, because of you. Because I have feelings for you but I can't just figure this out in a day," he said.
"Well, I can't wait thirty," she said. He was silent. Anger, frustration, and confusion were clouding his mind. He wanted to convince her that this was crazy. He wanted to tell her that she was wrong. He was giving both sides a fair fight but the truth was, he had made his mind up on day one. He had been sure there was nothing she could do to change his mind. But the last couple of days had proved him wrong. He had missed her so much, despite the fact that he still saw her all the time. It didn't make any sense to him, so how was he supposed to explain it to her?
"Goodnight Derek," she said.
"Casey, please," Derek said. She closed her door though and he stood there, stunned. On the other side, Casey was trying hard not to cry but failing miserably. She couldn't do this anymore. She couldn't grow attached to someone who was going to leave her in the end. She wasn't going to be her mother, waiting for the other shoe to drop. Her mother had sat around counting the days, waiting for someone who would never really be there for her. Casey refused to be like that no matter how much it hurt to let go of him. Better to cut it off now before feelings became stronger. Better sooner than later.
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He was going to get her back. That was the train of thought he held on day eleven. He wasn't sure how but he knew he would. He figured lunch was the best time. He had to prove to her that he was trying. He had to prove he wanted to be with her. Thankfully, Olivia was being exceptionally helpful.
"Are you sure you want to do this?" Olivia asked, still surprised at Derek's boldness.
"Yep," he answered.
"You realize that everyone is going to be talking about this for like the rest of our lives," she said.
"They were going to talk about me for the rest of their lives anyway," he retorted.
"This is really sweet," Olivia said.
"Hopefully she thinks so," he muttered and Olivia smiled.
"She will, I mean, how can she not? You do realize you are most likely going to get detention for this," Olivia added.
"Yeah but I figure, one hour of detention is okay as long as it means I get her back," Derek said.
"So does that mean you've made up your mind," Olivia asked.
"No, but I know that I don't want to lose her right now. I need more time and hopefully she will see that I am really trying after this," he answered. They were standing in the announcement room that had speakers attached to outside. Derek had managed to pick the lock open and had hooked up the CD he wanted to play. He picked up the microphone and weighed it in his hand nervously.
"Don't worry, you'll be great," she told him as she opened the door to leave. Her job was to go to the able and make sure Casey didn't leave.
"I can't sing," he said, suddenly.
"Yes, you can and it doesn't matter if you can't, it's the thought that counts," she told him before shutting the door. He felt like he was going to puke. He was going to sing a song he didn't even like that much, to a girl, who right now, didn't want anything to do with him.
"Oh, this is going to go just great," he muttered to himself. One of the only reasons he had chosen this song, was because it was one of Casey's favorite and the lyrics made some sense given what was going on. He opened the door that Olivia had just left through and looked at the people littering the outside café. Right now no one was paying attention to him but within moments all eyes would be on him. The only person he had to look at was probably the one who would refuse to meet his eyes.
"Okay Derek, throwing up is not an option," he whispered to himself.
"Just do this, its not that big a deal. So what if you publicly humiliating yourself? What's one more time," he muttered. He reached over and turned the speakers on. Then he hit the play button on the CD player that was attached to the speakers. He clutched the microphone in his hand and prayed to god for the first time since he was ten.
Please let her forgive me because if she doesn't, I swear I might not survive the humiliation this will bring me unless I get to kiss her one last time.
The music started and everyone looked around. Eyes began to travel to him and he swallowed. He began to sing and shut his eyes at first.
Every time I think I'm closer to the heart
What it means to know just who I am
I think I finally found a better place to start
No one ever seems to understand
I need to try to get to where you are
Could it be you're not that far?
At this point, he opened his eyes so he could walk further outside.
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
I need to find you
Gotta find you
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you
I gotta find you
Oh yeah
Yeah
He knew by now, everyone was watching him but he didn't care because she was looking at him now, her eyes full of surprise.
You're the remedy I'm searching hard to find
To fix the puzzle that I see inside
Painting all my dreams the color of your smile
When I find you it will be alright
I need to try to get to where you are
Could it be you're not that far?
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that im singing
I need to find you
Gotta find you
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you
Gotta find you
He was only a few feet away from her now and he could see her smiling at him.
Been feeling lost
Can't find the words to say
Spending all my time stuck in yesterday
Where you are is where I wanna be
Next to you, you next to me
Oh
I need to find you
Yeah
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that im singing
I need to find you (need to find you)
Gotta find you (yeah)
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you
Gotta find you (I gotta find you)
He was in front of her now and she was staring at him with wonder, shock, and happiness swirling in her eyes.
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
I need to find you (need to find you)
Gotta find you (gotta find you)
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you
Gotta find you
Yeah
Gotta find you
The people throughout the outdoor café started to clap and whistle but he ignored them his eyes only on her.
"Well," he said.
"That was amazing," she said and he grinned.
"I can't believe you just did that," she muttered. He sat down next to her ignoring Max, Olivia, and Jared who were all staring at them.
"I can be amazing," he said and she laughed.
"Why did you do that?" she asked.
"Because I want to show you that I am trying. I know I don't always say or do things that show that but I really am. It's just confusing. I've never felt this way about someone," he told her.
"You certainly are trying," she admitted.
"So, you going to give me another shot," he asked. She bit her lip looking away and he felt his heart sink.
"Please Casey," he said, reaching up to pull on a strand on her hair. A smile crept onto her face then and she looked at him.
"Fine," she relented.
"Really?" he said, his face lighting up.
"Yes but only because that was so sweet and just perfect," she said. He grinned and kissed her. She was surprised but kissed him back.
"Ahem, Mr. Venturi," a voice behind them said. Derek broke the kiss and turned to see the principal standing behind him.
"Excellent song but it is not karaoke time, it is eating time. I would like to see you in my office if you'd please, I was hoping for an encore performance," he said.
"For you sir? Of course," Derek said, getting up. He looked at Casey's panicked face and winked. Derek walked away with the principal and Casey watched upset.
"How much trouble do you think he'll get in?" Casey asked.
"Derek will get out of anything really horrible…don't worry," Olivia said.
At the end of the day, Derek left the principal's office with a grin on his face. Sam, Sally, Kendra, Emily, and Ralph were all waiting for him outside the room.
"What in the world was that?" Kendra demanded.
"That was the sweetest thing I have ever seen," Emily exclaimed.
"Dude, what is wrong with you?" Ralph said. Three completely different reactions and he had expected all of them. Sally and Sam were quiet but he wasn't surprised.
"Well, she was going to, let's say, dump me, before I had a chance to really even make a choice and I didn't want to let it happen," he told them as he walked down the hall.
"It was so sweet Derek," Emily gushed.
"How much time did you get?" Ralph asked.
"Nothing. Can you believe that?! I will tell you this, he is a great guy," Derek exclaimed.
"You could get away with burning down a building," Sam exclaimed.
"And there's my girl," Derek said, looking down the hall, where Casey was at his locker. She hadn't noticed him yet and he just looked at her.
"Your girl?" Sally said, softly.
"Sally you know what I mean," he said.
"No, I don't think I do," she retorted.
"You aren't going to ruin this for me. You aren't going to make me feel bad," he said before he walked away from them and towards her. She looked up as she heard his footsteps and a smile lit up her beautiful face.
"Hi," she said.
"Hello," he said. He immediately pinned her against the lockers and she stared at him surprised.
"Derek," she said. He ignored her, kissing her hard on the lips. At first, she was so stunned by his roughness, that she didn't respond but after a few moments she gave in to him. He slipped his tongue into her mouth while his hand found its way up the side of her shirt.
"Derek," she muttered, pushing him away.
"Yes," he asked, innocently.
"Are you nuts? Don't you think you have done enough to get yourself in trouble today?" she asked as she pulled away.
"Fine," he said, opening his locker quickly. He threw his stuff in and closed it. He grabbed her hand and started to pull her down the hall.
"Where are we going?" she asked.
"Home, of course and don't forget about tomorrow," he said.
"What about it?" she asked, oblivious.
"Remember the surprise," he said.
"Oh God, not that again," she complained as they left the school.
"Don't worry, you are going to love it," he said. They walked outside then and he wished he hadn't left his jacket in the car.
"It's snowing," Casey observed. Large snowflakes were falling at a steady rate and he pulled her close as they walked.
"I've always liked snow," she told him as they walked over to the car.
"It's okay," he replied.
"It's so perfect, you know?" she said. He stared at her as she looked up at the sky. Snow was falling all around them. Her cheeks were turning red from the cold; her lips were red from his earlier kisses, her eyes were the clearest blue he had ever seen them.
"Yeah, I think I know what you mean," he whispered as he stared at her.
"Perfect," he whispered.
(A/N-Hope you liked it!! That was long and surprisingly took very little time to write. Next chapter is his surprise and just so you know the group is not going to let him go easy so be warned. Please review!!)