Always Be My Baby

Chapter 11

AN: So, I know I haven't updated... please don't kill me! :) to make up for it, here's a, hopefully long, update! Btw, I'm calling Taylor by the name of Jacob now, because I don't want to get into any trouble by using his real name. btw, I don't own All We Have Again by Megan & Liz.

ANYWAY, on to the story!

Caitlyn was talking to Jacob when she saw Nate enter through the door. He was, of course, looking the same way he always did: adorable, with his dimples showing as he smiled towards the cameras. Paparazzi. They had only been one of the problems for Caitlyn and Nate's relationship. Distance was definitely a key factor.

After Caitlyn had moved to New York, things were okay for a while. Nate would call, text, e-mail, even facebook [they both had fake facebook accounts that they liked to use to keep in touch with close, old friends.] She didn't want to admit it then, but she could admit it now. Things had changed, whether she liked it or not. She was thousands of miles away from him; in reality, distance had broken the infamous 'Naitlyn' up long before Caitlyn found out about Sierra and Nate. She had hated being so far away from him, but she couldn't move back to LA before her soundtrack was recorded. Nate had felt the same way, but it was the same for him. He couldn't leave LA without quitting the band or the show. She didn't want him to give that up; not for her. Looking back now, she realized what a mistake it was. They should have broken up before she had left. Maybe then she wouldn't have been as heartbroken as she was now.

It was like time stood still as Nate noticed her. She had to take a deep breath from letting her sobs consume her. Instead, she put on a brave face and turned away from Nate.

"You don't just get to tell me who to hang out with! You're not my father, Nate! You're my boyfriend. You're supposed to trust me!"

Nate had groaned, rubbing a hand down his face, "You know what, Caitlyn? You think you're a big girl now and can make it in Hollywood without any of my help, FINE. Just fine! You do what you want, but don't count on me to catch you when you fall."

It was eerily quiet in the room and Caitlyn was fuming. She narrowed her eyes at Nate before quickly grabbing her luggage and walking away.

"Where are you going?"

Caitlyn turned around, glaring at Nate, "Back to New York. It seems I'm not wanted here."

With that said, she turned around and walked away, holding back her tears. They wouldn't talk again for over two weeks.

"Caitlyn?"

Caitlyn snapped back into reality when Jacob put a hand on her shoulder.

"Sorry! Lost in a daydream, what were you saying?" Caitlyn said smoothly, looking Jacob right in the eye.

Jacob gave her a suspicious look; "They want you by the stage now."

Caitlyn nodded, giving Jacob her best 'I'm-okay' smile and walked away. She accidently bumped into someone.

"Sorry—I—" she stopped when she realized it was Shane, "hi."

Shane smiled at her, "How are you doing?"

She glanced to where Nate was, despite mentally telling herself not to.

"I'm... I'm going to be okay, Shane." She forced a smile, but knew he could see through it.

Shane gave her a look, "I know you will, Cait."

Caitlyn punched him on the shoulder playfully, "Good luck hosting tonight, Shane."

Shane let out a breath of air, running a hand through his hair, "I'm gonna need it."

"Caitlyn! 2 minutes!" a nearby stagehand ran by her, pulling her towards the stage.

"Bye, Shane!" Caitlyn laughed, letting the person lead her to the stage.

On her way, she couldn't help but catch Nate's eye. She swallowed, determined to make it through the night without sobbing her eyes out or punching his lights out.

Caitlyn was warming up just beside the curtain when Mitchie walked up.

Caitlyn groaned, glaring at Mitchie, "HI Mitchie! Any other part of my life you want to destroy? There's my dad... oh wait, you already outed him, didn't you? Wait, my boyfriend—oh that's right. We broke up."

Mitchie sighed, looking at Caitlyn sympathetically, "Caitlyn—"

"Save it," Caitlyn snapped, "You know, I'm really trying hard not punch you or Nate but you're kind of making it impossible."

Mitchie looked at her with tear-filled eyes, "I'm trying to apologize, Caitlyn... this isn't easy for me either. I lost my boyfriend because of Sierra and now I'm losing you too!"

"You made it this way, Mitchie! Not Sierra! Sure, she's a bitch, but you started this with your hateful words." Caitlyn exclaimed, then took a deep breath, "You know what? You're not even worth it."

With that said, Caitlyn turned around and looked out onto the stage. Mitchie sighed, knowing that her friendship with Caitlyn was officially over. She looked at Caitlyn with regret before turning and walking away. Caitlyn heard her walk away and bit her lip to stop from crying. How had everything gone so wrong so fast? She put her hand over her mouth as she let out a sob. She felt a hand on her shoulder and she jumped.

"Sorry," Jacob said softly, "I didn't mean to scare you."

Caitlyn didn't say anything. She looked at him and swallowed a sob that threatened to come out.

"You should let it out," he whispered, but before he even finished his sentence, she was shaking her head.

"I can't," She said, her voice breaking as she let one more tear fall down her face before telling herself mentally to suck it up.

Jacob pulled her into an unexpected, but welcomed hug. He kissed the top of her head just as Sierra came around the corner. Without either teen noticing, she snapped a couple pictures of the two. She grinned, looking at the picture.

Caitlyn pulled away, thankful that her mascara was waterproof. She looked up at Jacob and smiled genuinely at him.

"Thank you," She whispered, smiling up at him.

Jacob smiled back, "You realize you owe me one now, right?"

Caitlyn let out a watery laugh, "I guess I do."

She smiled, feeling blessed for having a friend like Jacob. Once upon a time, she had a huge crush on him, but... she quickly realized that he would never feel the same about her. She shook her head slightly to rid herself of the thought. Jacob like her? Yeah, it was near impossible. He could have any girl he wanted. Nate had been the same way, though.

Jacob opened his mouth to say something, but Caitlyn glanced and saw a stagehand waving her over frantically.

"I gotta get on stage. Wish me luck" She grinned, giving Jacob a hug before walking away.

"You don't need it," He called at her, causing her to genuinely smile.

Caitlyn took a deep breath as Shane, Jason, and Nate welcomed her to the stage. She quickly took her guitar from its stand and walked onto the stage. Without thinking, she closed her eyes and took a deep breath. She opened her eyes just as the lights flashed and the music started.

"Hello you can call me your number one

Been like that since we began

Seeing you makes me wanna go back

When days didn't have names and being in love wasn't made up of games

When being in love wasn't made up of games"

Caitlyn glanced at Nate, but didn't want to stare too long. Otherwise, she might start crying and she wasn't going to let that happen. Again. So, she looked at the audience, some were screaming and holding up their hands in hopes of her to grab. She smiled at them, but continued singing.

"Can you hold my hand and have it mean everything?

Can you pick me up and hold me there forever?

Make me smile the way you say my name

Can we be all we have all we have again?

Maybe I'll admit it I miss you so much

And I wanna go back, I wanna go back

I just wish you were the same again

When days didn't have names and being in love wasn't made up of games

When being in love wasn't made up of games"

Caitlyn let down her guard and started dancing as she played her guitar. She was having fun. At least she was trying to. She took another glance at Nate. He was pretending to be interested in her performance, but she knew why. They just broke up this morning, so obviously neither has said anything to anyone. Caitlyn looked beside him and saw Sierra. Her eyes narrowed in anger, but she quickly made herself appear happy. Nate caught her eye and turned to see who was beside him.

"Shane—oh. You're not Shane." Nate mumbled, scratching his head nervously, now knowing why Caitlyn was glaring at him.

"No, I'm not," Sierra, purred, putting a hand on Nate's arm, "What do you say we get out of here, huh?"

Nate shrugged her off, turning to watch Caitlyn perform. Sierra pouted, glaring up at the stage. Caitlyn seemed to get everything. Sierra smirked, looking up at Nate. She didn't get everything, Sierra reminded herself. She put her hand in Nate's but he quickly pulled away.

"Not here, Sierra." He muttered, glancing down at her briefly just as a camera swept over them.

Nate looked like a deer in headlights, but Sierra was grinning from ear to ear. Thinking that it'd be worth the risk, Sierra pulled Nate towards her and kissed him. Nate pulled away quickly, but not quickly enough. Almost every celebrity was looking at them. Nate rubbed the back of his neck nervously, hoping and praying that Caitlyn didn't see.

"Can you hold my hand and have it mean everything?

Can you pick me up and hold me there forever?

Make me smile the way you say my name

Can we be all we have all we have again?"

Caitlyn took a quick breath just as she saw Nate and Sierra kiss. She gasped, but quickly regained her composure. She was determined to get through this song. So, she did what she figured was best. She sang louder, and almost directly towards Nate without even meaning to. Caitlyn started to tear up and practically shouted the words at Nate.

"Back then, in your eyes I was everything

Look at us now I don't mean anything"

She took a deep breath and continued on despite the fact that she could barely see through her tears.

"It's not even you that I really want back

It's the pieces of me you took when you left

Because when I lost you I didn't know I would lose me too"

She pushed harder on the strings of the guitar, more forcefully than she had ever done. She felt her fingers start to bleed, despite the guitar pick she was using. She didn't care anymore. Nate could have Sierra and they could live happily freaking ever if they wanted. Caitlyn sniffled quietly during a short pause then quickly regained her strength to continue on to the last part of the song.

"Can you hold my hand and have it mean everything?

Can you pick me up and hold me there forever?

Make me smile the way you say my name

Can we be all we have all we have again?"

The music stopped and there was loud applause but Caitlyn spoke quietly into the microphone, knowing no one could hear her.

"No," She looked at Nate, directly in his eyes, "we can never have what we had again."

She smiled and thanked the crowd before rushing off the stage. Nate couldn't breathe after Caitlyn said those words. He could read her lips; he definitely knew what she said.

Nate saw Sierra start to walk into the backstage area in the corner of his eye. He quickly followed her into the area where no one was. He growled and grabbed her arm, spinning her around to face him.

"What the hell, Sierra?" He exclaimed, throwing his hands in the air, "In front of the camera?"

Sierra shrugged, pretending to act innocent. Nate scowled at her, knowing she was anything but innocent.

"I was just trying to have a little fun, Natey-poo," Sierra pouted, causing Nate to roll his eyes.

Nate narrowed his eyes and said forcefully, "I'm only doing this for Caitlyn. Not for you or anybody else. I don't have feelings for you. I... I want Caitlyn to be happy, so I'm letting her go. You said this would be easier than breaking up with her," he raised his voice, "you said this would be better!"

Sierra smirked, "I never said that."

Nate's eyes widened and then narrowed in anger as he lunged at her, "You evil son of a—"

He felt his arms become restricted and he struggled against them. Sierra pointed a gun at him, grinning as she watched his eyes widen.

Sierra shook her finger at him, walking closer to him,"Tisk, tisk, Nate. Don't try to struggle. It'll only make things worse."

Before Nate knew it, he was tied up and gagged. He still continued to struggle, glaring at Sierra.

"Get him in the car," Sierra growled to the bodyguard, "Now!"

Caitlyn ran off the stage and went straight to her dressing room. She threw down her guitar and flopped down on the couch. She put her hands over her face and started sobbing. She cried for what she had clearly lost, Nate. She cried for him humiliating her in front of every celebrity at the show.

She heard a knock on her door, but she couldn't care less.

"Go away!" She shouted angrily, removing her hands briefly to shout at the door.

The door opened, despite her yelling. Jacob poked his head in the door and took one look at her.

"Go away, Jake." Caitlyn mumbled and turned away, not wanting to talk to him.

She heard him come into the room and shut the door.

"Just leave me alone!" She shouted, "I don't want to talk to you or anybody else!"

Jacob sat down beside Caitlyn, but said nothing. Caitlyn's annoyance grew and she turned to face him.

"Will you go away?" She muttered, wiping her face.

Jacob shook his head, "No, Caitlyn. I'm here for you."

"Nate, I'm here!" Caitlyn called, not really looking as forward to these visits as she used to be.

She rolled her suitcase to a stop and looked around the apartment.

"Nate?" She called again, half-hoping that he wouldn't be there.

After their last fight, Caitlyn had been thinking of breaking up with him. Not because of any other person, but because she needed space.

"Hey, Cait, you're here." Nate walked out of the bathroom, giving her a soft smile.

"I'm always here for you," She smiled, not so genuinely, but these days it seemed that Nate hardly noticed.

"I'm going back to New York. Tonight." Caitlyn blurted, standing up from the couch.

AN: I know, abrupt ending. Haha, sorry! I hope y'all like the new chap!