I'm hesitant about going into the bathroom. I don't know what to expect. Something in my gut tells me that it won't be pleasant. I start to turn away, and Eli pushes me into the bathroom.

My stomach drops. I can't process what I see. Claude is in the stall. "Do you get it now?!" Eli screams at me. I don't get it. How long has Claude been in the bathroom like this? I found his gun a few days ago. Someone should have noticed him here. How did his gun get outside? Did Eli put it there? Why couldn't Eli save him?

"I have so many questions…What do I do Eli?" I look to Eli, and he's trying to hold back tears. It looks weird, Eli crying, like it's unnatural. "He's being kept here, Cam. He thankfully doesn't know by whom; he thinks it's me. You're supposed to help him get unstuck. There are a lot of people who are stuck here."

"What do you mean by Stuck, Eli?" I take a quick look over at Claude again. "He's being kept here. You have to get him in here to see. He knows but he can't find it by himself. He's been wandering long enough." Eli's answer doesn't really help me figure out what stuck means but I guess I know what he means.

"Am I a ghost whisperer?" I ask. "Yeah, something like that." So I help people cross over, like in that TV show. I never in a million years expected to become this, it explains a lot that has been happening lately or at least helps it a bit.

This leaves me with more questions. "How do I get Claude in here, like what does that exactly mean? Throw a whisperer a bone here. And if I'm a ghost whisperer then what exactly are you?" Eli takes some time to think about my questions.

"I'm your…pusher. I nudge you in the right direction. Pretty lame compared to you, but I'm not complaining. So now… Claude, right, wait for him, get him in the bathroom, give him the gun. It's not too hard. Go easy on him. Hopefully he'll cross over no problem after that."

Eli makes it sound like some recipe. Preheat the oven to 450 degrees. Stick Claude in the oven. Claude comes out a nice Christmas dinner. I guess I took my thoughts too far on that one but I couldn't help snicker over my own sick joke.

So I have to find Claude's spirit. Get his spirit to see he's dead. His spirit crosses to the other side or whatever, then how am I going to help the others. Am I supposed to be crossing everyone over or helping them in other ways? This ghost whisperer stuff is hard.

I start to have nightmares of how Claude did it. It all seems like I was there. I can feel all his loneliness, the suffering. It's a horrible dark powerful energy. Maybe that is why someone is keeping Claude trapped here, so that they have the energy, it makes you feel alive, too alive. I don't like those emotions I keep feelings.

I want to help Claude, but I'm afraid. I am afraid that whatever is keeping Claude here will come after me. I wonder if that is actually possible and I don't really want to find out.

I have to help Claude though. I'm the ghost whisperer. It's what they do, help ghosts. I let it sink in; Claude is a ghost. Claude's dead. That's why Claude liked to bump into me, I could see him and others couldn't. Claude was ignored in life and death, I feel bad for him.

To feel so alone alive up to the point where you take your life, then you're trapped for who knows how long again alone. Eli doesn't really exactly count as company, plus he apparently hasn't be here that long anyway, just long enough for Claude to be tired of him; and I'm tired of Eli.

Eli has been the worst "pusher" in the world. He could be a little bit clearer with what he wants me to do. Why was I chosen? Somewhere deep inside me screams something, but I don't understand what it is. I know why I was chosen, yet I don't.

I have stalled myself by thinking for too long. I have to find Claude. I need to help Claude cross over to the other side. I wonder what the other side looks like… hopefully I won't see it for a long time.

I start to call out for Claude. I get some weird stares from students. While on my search Maya stops me "Cam, you've gone ghost on me!" I've gone what? How does Maya know what I can see?

It dawns on me that ghost is a phrase people have been using lately to mean avoiding. "I'm so sorry, Princess Matlin! I have been a terrible prince to you, please forgive me? After I find my friend I'll make up for it. I promise you with a cherry on top!" Maya giggles. It's so good to see Maya alive.

I want to blow off Claude and take Maya far away from here. I could just leave if I wanted to; Eli would have to find someone else is all. I could just be with Maya and be happy with her.

I look at Maya closer; she looks a little blue, literally. I don't know if I should mention something or not, I'm sure it's just be seeing things. "Why are you staring at me Cam, is there something wrong?" I freeze up. I don't know what to say. "Um, uh, I don't know, no I don't think so."

Campbell Saunders the smoothest liar on earth. I have to stop stalling, I'm supposed to help Claude but every chance I get I stall finding him. I need to get back on track. "I have to go find someone, but I'll see you later, Maya, I love you."

After I finally get Maya to leave I am back on track. "Saunders! Get over here!" Fuck my life, who now?!

Sorry for not updating over the weekend! I was really upset when I saw that they removed Cam, and they didn't want to give him a tribute? That's messed up. They should show that they care about people. It also seems like only Eli, Clare and Dallas remember about Cam or are slightly affected by it. Maybe my story is coming true, they're the only ones who remember. ;) Anyway, I hope you enjoyed this update! :)