Your screaming. Your crying. Your so scared. I try to touch you; reach out. Just to feel that flaming hot skin and save you. But i can't. I can only watch you. Watch you curl up in a tight ball and weep and scream for me.

The red sand hour glass is moving slowly. It is like an eternity for each grain. You keep screaming. Screaming for the monster who put you in this position.

"Edward!!! Edward Please!!! I miss you!! Don't leave me!!! Edward!!"

You are repeating this.

But i am locked behind a wall that i can't break. I can only watch. I can only....stay useless and watch you suffer.

I bang against this cage. I scream for you. Try to tell you im right here. But my voice doesn't reach you. It is only another whisper to you that is scaring you.

The darkness is frightening you more. You don't know what to do. So you yell. And cry.

But i can't reach you. I can't help you. Im useless.

I hold onto the bars, falling to my knees.

The light brush of vampires fill me.

"Why do you fight so hard for him, Edward?"

I ignore the voice, banging against the cage walls once more. "Im right here Jake!," i scream. "Your not alone. Your n-not a-alone!"

Tears—tears that i haven't felt in one hundred and seven years—start rolling down my cheeks. They are cold—like me.

I bang my head against the wall. "Jacob your alright!" I squeeze my eyes shut, biting my tongue, my eyebrows furrowing. "Your alright Jake....im not gone...IM NOT GONE!"

"You will do anything for him, Edward. Even cry. I am interested. We are all interested."

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My eyes shot open. I was dreaming. Vampires don't need to fall asleep to have dreams. They just need to reach back into their mind and..stay there.

I am not breathing hard, and my heart is not beating insanely. It is not beating at all. But my mind is buzzing....and it hurts.....

Jake is sitting next to me, in a deep sleep. I gently brush into his mind, but it is blocked—like usual.

I sigh.

I have ruined someone's life. Someone's fate. Destiny.

He's given it all up. All up for me. His pack. His father. His friends. His duties. Everything for me.

I am sick.

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-Recap-

I walk into the house with a sigh. It's what, 1:30 in the am? Well, whatever, it was worth it. We did it for three hours. We could've gone longer—we both have amazing strength and stamina due to the fact that we are barely humans— but Pale Edward said no, Jake, your family will kill you if you don't go home now.

I don't see how a few hours more would make it worse. I was already late anyway.

I set the keys down on the kitchen and flick the light on.

The whole pack is in there—along with billy.

Oh, and if i hadn't told you, now everyone was pretty much a pack member. Seth was annoying. No, Lee was worse.

Anyway, it doesn't feel right.

Quill and Embry aren't looking at me, and everyone else is just...glaring.

I tense. "What are you guys....."

"We told him to stay away from you. That means you also stay away from him"

Fuck you sam. "Fuck you sam," I repeat out loud, suddenly not caring any more. They can talk all the smack they want.

Numerous growls filled the room.

"Yeah Yeah, whatever," i scoffed, taking out some orange juice and chugging it down. "I wonder what would happen if i tricked Edward into drinking this...," i murmured.

I shrugged, throwing the empty bottle away.

"Jake, listen to us!," Seth cried.

"Shut up."

In a sudden rush, i was thrown against the brick wall. I groaned, sliding down it to the floor. "What the hell was that for?!!," i yelled.

Sam glared down at me. "You need to stop being so reckless!"

I pulled myself up to meet his eyes in a fair height. Wholly Shit im taller then him..... "You don't control me!," i hissed."

"Yes, i "—slam—"do! Get your cock out that bloodsuckers ass and get back on track!"

I hot, steamy, horrible, amazing, im-going-to-kill you feeling started boiling in me. I smirked, biting my lower lip while shaking my head. "You did not just say that sam. Please say you did not just say that."

Sam's didn't even blink. "What are you going to do about it?"

My fist met with his cheek, and i slammed him to the floor.

If Sam hadn't told the other not to pounce, i might've lost a few bones.

Sam pulled himself back up, grunting. Blood leaking out his nose and mouth. He retreated from me over to where everyone was, holding his hands up. "So, Jacob, got any other smart ideas? You need us."

No. No, i really don't. I slowly shook my head. "No, i really, sincerely, don't need you to survive. All i need is Edward."

And with that said, there was a honk from the drive way, and i hoped out the whole in the wall, and into Edwards car, leaving my fellow pack and family, behind.

-End Of Recap-

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Pretty much, im doing fine. I pass out about 4 times a day, i have horrible night mares that keep me up through the day, and im constantly having a fever.

I could be worse.

Im not losing any strength because i usually work out during most the time im not in the bed. Edward is scared—i can tell. He's worried for me. He blames himself for my issues. And when he tried to apologize, he just gets a "shut the fuck up".

It's not his fault im like this. He's the one who's keeping me alive. Without him, i would drop dead.

Edward is letting me use his family's money for an apartment because im drop dead broke.

I don't think he wants me around his family. Or his family doesn't want me around them. Well, like i care about those fucking bloodsuckers. Just because i love your brother don't mean we gotta be besties.

"Hey Edward," I say, looking up at the pale vampire. "Want to go take a shower?"

"Is that what you want?," he asks, stroking my head.

"Actually, i think they have a spa at the top of the mountains. And i do need a little cleansing. And i do want 'some'." I grin.

Edward kisses me on the cheek. "I can make reservations now. When do you want to go?"

I grin wider. "Now."

Edward stared at me like im insane, then smirks. "Ok. Im guessing you want to skip school obviously."

"Obviously."

I get off Edward with a sigh.

Edward....I've been thinking about something....

"And that is?"

I want to see you....hunt.

It came extremely quick. "No."

Edward sat up, running a hand through his head.

"But why not?!," I protest. "If we're going to be together i have to know what you eat....and how...."

"I SAID NO!"

It got silent. It was a scary silence. It scared the shit out of me. It was just eating....why was he...

I looked away, trying to hide my face because of the shameful tears running down my cheeks.

"No Jake...don't cry...." Edward pulls me into a tight hug. "I turn into the worst monster...when i eat. I don't want you to see me like that....."

Please Edward.....im pleading...

"............"

I sigh, pushing myself away from the cold vampire. "Just think about it ok?" I wipe the tears away from my eyes, blushing. And then it happens.

I can feel it before it happens, so i have time to quickly take to the floor and curl up in a ball, waiting for the pain.

"He's here," the vampire whispered. The other vampires got quiet. But the girl—the hostage—was not quiet. She was screaming for help. Tears brimmed in her eyes. "Help me! There going to kill me!" I want to help; i reached out. But no. A small, pale girl with crimson eyes appeared. She smirked in my direction—whatever that direction was. Then, she walked over to the tide-up human. He small fingers lightly tapped against the girls right boob. The human screamed louder. And then suddenly, she couldn't talk. Her lips were moving, but no sound. The small girl ripped open the humans shirt, taking the bra along with it. The human girls boobs flopped out. The vampire girl giggled. "The werewolf is shaking......he is scared for her....."

I notice i am trembling. I try to stop. But i can't. The vampire girl giggled again and then her mouth covered the girl left boob and she started sucking on it like it was a lollipop. The girl's mouth opens to scream, but of course, i cannot here it. And then, after several seconds, i notice: The vampire is taking blood. Sucking on her for blood. It's sick. It's disgusting. I want to look away, but i can't. I'm.....useless.

My eyes snapped open. I feel hot—except for the cool body that is hugging me tightly.

I try to get my heavy breathing down, try to stop the wetness from strolling out my eyes.

But i can't. "Jesus God Edward....," i murmur.

"It'll be alright, Jacob. Im here. It'll be alright."

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-Recap-

Im sitting on the couch with Alice, watching t.v.

Jake is in his apartment currently, eating ramen and watching in animation show called Bleach.

He just moved into that apartment 2 days ago. He shows no sign of issue about the family and friends matter—which slightly worries me. And i just get a slap(sometimes) and a "shut the fuck up" if i try to talk to him about it.

So i can't think of that.....

Though the Austrian calanian deer might smell good to a Koshio nemera dragon—which is oddly rare—to the other dragons will despise the smell of it. A question pops into my mind as a listen to the t.v show man.

I looked at Alice. "Does Jake smell good to you?"

Her head snaps up and our eyes lock, then she looks away, seaming.....uncomfortable?

And she was clouding her minds....

"Does he?," i repeated in a simpler question.

"Yes," Alive said. "He does to....all of us."

Shock spun through me. "Wait but you smell horrible to h—"

"Just because we smell horrible to him doesn't mean he smells horrible to us."

I stared at her for a second.....then looked away. "I see...."

"He smells like bananas and cherries for me, Blueberries for Rosalie, Vanilla for Jasper, Green tea for Carlisle, and ginger for Emmett," Alice said. She smiled a little. "And you?"

"Cinnamon."

"Aww....."

I took in some unneeded air, leaning more back on the couch. "So, to vampires Jacob smells good?"

"Yes."

"And to him...we smell horrible. Except me."

"Yes."

"Wow."

-End of Recap-

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I stood up with a sigh, running my hand through my hair. I drank the last bit of milk from the carton then crunched it and threw it for the trash can. It didn't make it.

"Damn!"

As i made my way to it, it happened.

FTHUNK FTHUNK.

I gasped, doubling over. I clenched onto my heart, squeezing one of my eyes shut.

My airways were slowly closing, making me have to fight to keep my breath.

A coughed out a wad of blood, and then another.

I tried to cover my mouth with my hand, but like hell tat worked.

I held up my hand, trying to concentrate on the blurring figure. "Ha.....Ha....B-blood?.......cau....ha....Edwa...Edward...."

I fell over. My eyes started closing. Blackness. Cold Blackness.

Im running. I don't know where to. Or where from. But im running. Im in a gigantic field. The wind that brushes against me is cold. The black, black clouds that roll above me boom. And then, im surrounded. Vampires. Their eyes were red—they were hungry. Fangs were poking through there lips, shining brightly. They were as pale as moon light. Hisses rang through the air. I tried to change. Shape shift. Anything to hold my ground. But my body wasn't working. My mind was blank.

I was a snack. They all wanted me. My blood. Something that i wish i did not have. They wanted it.

"E-Edward....?," i murmured. "Please E-Edward...where are you.....?"

And then, the most painful, horrible, convulsing, distressing agony filled by body.

I screamed, but my mouth was covered as a certain vampire bit into my neck; sucking down all my blood.

I fell to my knees, but it didn't end. I was being drained.

"Edward..," i whisper, my eyelids slowly falling. "Please.....Edward...where are you?"

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I groan, sniffing as a scent of sizzling meat filled my nostrils.

"So your finally awake?"

At the voice, my eyes snap open, and i sit up as fast as lightning.

Hissss

I look around, eyes wide.

Im at the cullen house—why? I have no clue. Im in a med room—the same as when i first turned into a werewolf.

All of them. The whole Cullen Cult was in this certain room.

"Why am I....?," i trail, because i don't feel like talking .My throat hurts.

"Alice saw you pass out," The foster doctor said. "And Edward demanded that we treat you here....since it was the closest place."

"Oh...." I glance at Edward. He looks like he's about to die with pain. I look away. "C-can i talk to Edward alone.....?"

"Like it would matter."

"Rosalie shut the fuck up!"

I didn't think i was supposed to hear that.

But the vampires nodded, and left me and Pale Edward alone.

"Edward this isn't your—"

"It is my fault."

I stared at him.

No Edward, its not. I did this to myse—

HIIIIIISSSSSSSSSSSSSS In a quick movement, i was suddenly slammed against the bed head board. I think he was trying to be gentle, but it knocked the breath out me for ever.

"How can you say it was your fault?!," Edward yelled quietly. He looked as if he wanted to cry, but couldn't. "How can you not hate me, Jake.......I've destroyed you..." Edward let go of me, and put his head on his chest. "Why Jake...why....?"

I ran my hands through his hair. "Nothing is your fault. I chose to be with you. You have done nothing but shown who you really are. I love who you really are. I don't want a fake."

"Im horrible...."

"No, your not. Can you please.....kiss me?"

Edward looked up at me. He saw the pleading look in my eye, and he gave up—landing a soft, sweet kiss on my lips. "You really are wonderful....you idiot..."

I smirk. "No, Edward. You wonderful, and im the idiot."

"Your insane."

"Hey, do you have those reservations scheduled? I want to leave tomorrow morning."

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Sorry for any spelling mistakes and grammar mistakes!!

6 pages!! Wow, im wonderful!!

Oh, and these might come out slower. Well, i hate to keep yall interested!! That the way of the writer!!! xD