This chapter is for my friend, Susan. You know why ;) and review bitch! LOL

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To Love Again

Chapter 11

BPOV

Two weeks.

It has been two weeks since my fight with Alice.

And two weeks full of I love you's between Edward and I. I didn't think it was possible to be more in love with him, but I am. Every day.

I'm grateful for the time apart from Alice—I've been able to think and really analyze what she was trying to tell me. I wanted her to be happy for me and not point out the obvious issues that will have to come up in my relationship.

I'm certainly not naïve—later down the line I'm gonna want and need more of Edward's time and attention. If he's gonna be with me, I want him to invest all of himself in the relationship. I wouldn't want to be just a past time for him or someone who he occasionally sees during the week. I'm going to want it all. My question now is; will he be willing to give more of himself to me? Will he think I'm selfish for asking?

I don't know the answers to those questions but at least I have a little more clarity in what Alice was trying to tell me.

Today I think I want to finally clear things up…and make up with my friend. I miss her. No matter how infuriating she is sometimes…and okay, I overreact and become stubbornly irrational but she knows this and that is why she hasn't come to see me or tried to talk to me. Alice knows I need my space, but now I don't want it so much anymore.

My class is almost over so I decide to text her.

Hey Alice, can we meet for lunch…I want to talk. Please?

XOXO -B

She replies a couple minutes later.

We can grab some lattes.

I have a plane to catch at 6.

Meet u at the Coffee Bean in 20?

Did I miss something? Where is she goi- Oh No…

Shit. I forgot she was going on a "couples retreat" this weekend.

Guilt washes over me—she has been planning this for a couple of months and I was supposed to watch Ryan for her. I'm a horrible friend!

I quickly reply.

Sounds good. I won't keep you long.

XOXO -B

I arrive a little earlier to order our Chai Tea Lattes—our favorite. I make sure to order Alice's with extra foam just how she likes it. Hey I'm feeling guilty about Ryan.

When I see her walk through the door, I wave her over. She smiles bright. Yes! There just might be hope for me. I wait for her to get to the table, I have our lattes ready, and I'm ready kiss major ass.

"Hi Bella." She sits across from me and smirks when she sees her drink.

"Hi Ali. Thanks for coming…" I'm nervous. She takes a sip of her drink and licks off the foam from her lip. It makes us giggle.

"You're too predictable Bella." I smile sheepishly at her. "You get mad at me and then feel guilty about it. I know this is apology foam." She snickered as she brought her cup back to her mouth. Damn it.

I contemplate getting on my knees to beg for forgiveness…but that's silly and completely not necessary. "Well I am sorry. Really sorr-"

She cuts me off with her hand. "You don't have to apologize. I'm the one that's really sorry. I should be buying you extra foam." She smiles at me. "I shouldn't have told you those things—at least not that way. I care about you, Bella. You know that." I nod at her.

"I know. It's just that I wasn't ready to hear any of that stuff. I just wanted to be happy and pretend that everything was perfect. I know it's not." I smiled and shrugged. I was at a loss; I could not make things perfect. When I really think about it, things are…complicated, but that's something Edward and I need to work out.

"Just promise me that you will talk to him. Don't let him put you last in his life. You deserve more than what you have in the past. He's lucky to have you, and I want to make sure he knows that. And I want to meet him, in case I ever have to kick his ass!" Whoa, she's serious. "You've been keeping him from me way too long." She points a motherly finger at me, and I can't argue with her. She's right. I've been keeping him to myself, I've been living in a perfect little bubble with my perfect boyfriend. I love it there. Shit. It's time to grow up and get out of there.

"I'm going to talk to him, but first I need to figure out how to approach the subject. I don't want him to take anything the wrong way, just like I did when you were trying to tell me…so I'll see what I figure out." I would hate for Edward to have the same reaction that I did. I have a feeling he's more rational than me, though. "And I'll introduce you when you get back from paradise." I rolled my eyes. "Where did you decide to go anyway?"

Alice's face lit up when I asked. "Turks & Caicos!" She squealed.

"Shut up! I hate you." That's one of the destinations that I've been wanting to go to. Alice and I have been vacationing in Mexico and the Caribbean every year since college. Turks & Caicos has been on our minds for a couple years now…well more in mine than hers. I've heard great things about that place. Lucky bitch!

"You don't hate me; you're just green with jealousy." She taunts me.

I sigh dramatically. "Fine, I'm jealous…but I get to pick our vacation destinations for the next two years." I point and glare at her. She laughs and agrees. I'm happy again.

We chatted for a little bit and I apologized for not being there to take Ryan this weekend. She said she made her mother-in-law very happy by letting her take him over night. Apparently, it's a first and Alice didn't think she could do it—leave Ryan with her. Her mother-in-law, like many, is a little overbearing and likes to put her two cents in as much as possible so she just wanted to avoid another disagreement on how to care for Ryan.

I promised her that I would take him any other weekend she wanted, to give her and Jasper some alone time if they needed it. She happily accepted and said I should count on her using me very soon.

I hugged her goodbye and wished her an awesome trip. She didn't say, but I have a feeling that Alice is going for baby number two on this trip. I'm happy for her and not as jealous as I would have been a couple months ago.

I will have to wait until she comes back from her trip to get my friendship back in order with her.

XOXOXO

EPOV

At four o'clock, I'm back at the clinic to see the rest of my patients. I hate these days when I have to be at the hospital on short notice and then come back to a busy clinic with very angry parents that have been waiting with their sick children way too long.

I walk into my office and contemplate locking myself in here until closing time. I look at my leather office chair with the cushioned headrest that I love…that's all I do, just look at it. If I sit on it, I'm done for.

There's a knock on my door and I hear someone come right in without waiting for me to respond. I know who it is. I sigh and rub my face with both hands before Kristen, my nurse hands me a shitload of charts that need signatures. I glare at her but she doesn't take it personal. She looks at me apologetically and hands me a pen.

"Don't worry Dr Cullen we can get through clinic quickly if you just follow my lead. I've already determined who you will see today, and we rescheduled last minute walk-ins and the late-shows." She is a saint I tell you. She helps run this place nice and smooth. Her organizational skills are impeccable, that is why I hired her. "We need to get started now and we're not taking any breaks. Got it?" she pats my arm and looks down at my desk, reminding me that I have charts to sign.

"Lead the way; it's your job to keep me sane today." I smiled at her and proceeded to give myself a hand cramp from trying to write fast.

The next hour and a half I am like a well-oiled machine. Kristen took care of writing my notes and calling in prescriptions while I answered questions and concerns from parents. Then it was on to the next exam room and I had a new chart in my hand.

I didn't take any non-emergency calls and I didn't get sucked into conversations about my personal life, i.e., my marital status. Seriously, there were women who were more interested in seeing if I was single than what their child was here for. But thanks to Kristen, those conversations got shot down the minute they started.

When the last patient left, I called my staff to my office and thanked them profusely. I promised them lunch next Friday and that I might let them leave early if we didn't have that many appointments scheduled in the afternoon. I looked at my receptionist and she got my hint. They thanked me and left me alone in my office.

I didn't notice that I left my phone in my laptop bag until I heard the faint beeping. It was probably Bella.

Yes it was. I smiled and forgot about the stressful day.

What do you say I make you dinner your house?

Call me when you get out

Love you –Bella

I noticed that she had text me about half an hour ago. I dialed her number as I was getting to my car.

"Hi babe." Bella answered the phone; I could imagine her smiling as she picked up.

"Hey sorry I didn't get your text until ten minutes ago. I'm on my way home, you can head over or I can pick you up…"

"Uh well I'll take my car. I'm gonna stop at the market to pick up some stuff. I can tell you're tired, so just take a nap and I'll wake you when dinner's ready, okay?" I love this woman; she's always trying to take care of me.

"That actually sounds great, babe. But you know what would be even better?...If you joined me when you got back. We don't need to eat. Who needs that stuff anyway?" she laughed but I was serious. All I need right now is to have Bella in arms while I sleep. "Pleease baaaabe. I had a looong day." I whined and laid it on thick just how Nathan does."

She giggled and I could tell she was gonna cave. "Maybe." She said. Damm it!

I went straight to the master bath when I got home. I stripped off all my clothes and got in the shower. I didn't have time to turn the steam feature on so I just ran the water hotter than usual.

I set the jets just the way I wanted them. The hot water and the pressure of the jets relaxed my muscles. I could feel my eyes getting heavier by the minute.

I finished up and put on my boxers. I got into bed wishing Bella would hurry up. I was lonely…and apparently feeling like a big baby.

The sweetest voice and soft, warm lips woke me up slowly. I kept my eyes closed and I could feel those lips all over my face. The long hair tickled my neck and chest. I softly inhaled her sweet scent; I didn't want her to know I was awake yet.

She kept her kissing assault on my face and slowly went to my jaw and down my neck.

She suddenly stopped and giggled. "I know you're awake, Edward. I can hear you moaning." Shit, I thought I was doing it in my head. She kissed each eyelid and my eyes fluttered open.

Wow she was my brown-eyed-angel. She was hovering over with the sweetest smile. What I wouldn't give to wake up to this face every morning.

She leaned down and kissed me. I reached for her hips and helped her straddle me. I placed my hand on her back and she came back down on me. I kissed her slow first.

I pulled away to look at her face just inches away. "You're so beautiful baby." She smiled and blushed. That blush is sexy as fuck. I needed her—to be inside her, over and under her.

I tangled my hand in her hair and I kissed her. Hard. I tugged on her bottom lip before sucking it into my mouth. She moaned in response and opened her mouth to me. I plunged my tongue in and tasted her. Our tongues battled and danced with each other. Hard and soft. Sweet.

My erection pressing into her was getting painful. I left it alone a bit longer so I could keep kissing her. We eventually needed air. I took the opportunity to lift myself up.

Bella started to get off me but I held onto her arm. "Stay. I just want to get these covers off." I quickly kicked them off and I lay against the headboard. My hard-on was on full display under the thin material of my boxers. Bella bit her lip and settled herself over it without hesitating. A low moan escaped my throat.

"What about dinner?" Bella asked when I tightened my hands on her hips.

"We can eat later babe. Thanks for cooking though." I smiled and she nodded. I was not thinking about food right now. I could sense that Bella was a bit nervous but I could feel her desire too. I could bet anything she was wet already.

She pressed herself against me, her breasts bunched up at my neck. I kissed and sucked under her ear and down her neck. She moaned in pleasure. She brought her hands to my hair and tugged on it while I nipped her neck and licked the tiny bites.

I moved my hands slowly under her blouse and brought the material up over her breasts. I waited to see if she would object but she didn't. She leaned back and pulled the blouse over her head. She had a pink lacy bra that I knew wasn't going to be there much longer. I put my hands behind her and helped her unclasp her bra. It hung loose on her arms and she allowed me to pull it off, revealing her perfect breasts. I leaned in and took one of her rosy nipples into my mouth.

"Oh shit that feels good." Bella moaned and arched her back, thrusting her breast into my mouth. I sucked and nipped at her hardened nipple while I played with the other breast in my hand. I rolled her nipple in between my fingers. Pinching and pulling. I switched sides to pay attention to the other breast.

I rolled us over—Bella laying on the bed, her chest rising and falling. She was beautiful, and not even that word did her justice.

"I love you Bella. So much."

"I love you too." She breathed.

I leaned down and kissed in between her breasts and slowly down her stomach to her belly button. I dipped my tongue in and she wiggled under me. I looked up at her and she met my eyes—full of desire. This was right .

I unbuttoned her jeans and hooked my fingers in them. I pulled and she lifted her hips to allow everything to come off. I sat back on my heels and admired her, naked before me. And fuck me. She was waxed…down there. Completely fucking bare. Her lips pink and soft just like the ones on her beautiful face. My dick hardened even more.

She sat up and smirked. "Yours need to come off too." She pulled on the waistband of my boxers. She didn't need to tell me twice. I jumped up and quickly pulled them down, freeing my erection.

She lay back down and I settled myself between her legs. She spread them more so I fit comfortably. My dick pressed into her clit and we both moaned. I buried my face in her neck and continued to rub myself on her clit. She twitched with pleasure, humming in my ear and tugging on my hair.

I couldn't wait any longer, I wanted to be inside her. Her moaning and whimpering were driving me crazy.

"Do I have to wear a condom baby?" I mumbled into her neck. I couldn't stop tasting her.

"Yeah." She sounded out of breath. "I'm not on birth control yet…until next week." Fuck. I hate condoms. Would I be a total douche if told her I could pull out? Fuck. I'm an asshole for thinking that!

I pulled one out of my drawer. I quickly ripped it open and rolled it on. She watched me and bit her lip. I settled myself between her legs again. I kissed her hard and bit on her lip.

"Don't bite your lip. It drives me crazy. It makes me want to do it for you." I mumbled into her mouth. She giggled and pushed her hips up to create more friction.

I grabbed one of her legs and brought it up to my hip while she lifted the other and held onto it. It was the perfect angle and I pushed into her. Her walls clenched and gripped me tighter. I held myself, buried inside her, enjoying the shit out of the clenching.

"Fuck! That feels fucking awesome baby." I groaned into her ear. I lightly nibbled on it and she whimpered. I pulled out almost all the way and quickly slammed back in.

"Ah!...Edward, baby…so good." Bella moaned. She had her head thrown back and her mouth open. I rocked into her slowly, in and out, in and out.

"Look up at me Bella. I want to see you." I thrust into her harder, going deeper. She clawed at my back, causing pain but I didn't give a shit. It still felt amazing. She opened her eyes and looked up at me.

This woman…was my everything now.

I quickened my pace, gripping her hips. Bella made the sexiest noises—moaning and humming at each thrust. She pushed her hips up to meet me thrust for thrust.

"Mmmm! Harder, baby…go harder." She mewled.

I picked up her leg and put in on my shoulder. I went in fucking deeper, I pushed hard in and out. I massaged her breast, her nipple puckered up. I leaned down to kiss it then I kissed her open mouth and muffled her cries.

"I'm so fucking close baby." And because I'm a fucking gentleman I have to make her cumm first. I reach down and rub her clit while driving into her. Bella's cries intensify and her walls clench again. She's so wet I'm sliding in and out faster, and I can tell she's close.

"Ah! Oh god…oh god…babe…I'm gonna cumm. Keep doing that. Fuck!" she digs her nails into my arms and screams, closing her eyes. "Edward! Ah!" and she explodes crying out my name, her walls tightening around my dick. I thrust into her hard and fast before she even comes down from her orgasm.

"Fuuuck Bella!" I see fucking stars and my angel under me. I stay buried deep—I release inside and I fall on top of her, exhausted.

We're both breathing loud, I slide out of her and I hiss at the suction her body creates around me. I roll over because I don't want to suffocate her. She lays half her body on top of me and kisses my chest; I kiss the top of her head.

"Damn baby, why did we wait so long?" I ask her. She giggles.

"It was worth the wait though, right?" she smirks and kisses my lips.

I hum into her mouth. "So worth it. I'm never letting you out of this bed. You're my sex slave now." She laughs and lightly slaps my chest, I laugh harder.

Bella looks up at me. "I love you Edward."

I take her face in my hands and I caress her cheeks with my thumbs. "I love you too Bella." I kiss her lips and then her forehead. "I don't know what I ever did without you. You're in my mind constantly. I don't ever want to be without you." She hums and hugs me tighter closing her eyes.

This fucked up day turned fantastic the second I woke up and laid eyes on Bella. She makes everything so much better.

This girl, sleeping peacefully in my arms, owns me. And I wouldn't have it any other way.

I woke up starving. Bella was draped over me, beautiful and naked. The sheets were bunched up at the foot of the bed. I could see the curve of her ass on full display. I couldn't reach or else I would be caressing the shit out of it.

I didn't want to wake her but I was really hungry. I think I only had breakfast…wait, what time is it? Yeah. Yesterday, I only had breakfast.

"Bella." I whispered. I moved her hair out of her face and I caressed her cheek. She stirred a little but didn't wake up. I patted her arm and shook her a little. She grumbled softly and buried herself into my side. I chuckled—she was too adorable.

I decided to slip out from under her. I only had my arm trapped under her now, so it wouldn't be too bad.

Freed at last, I found my boxers and put them on. I made my way downstairs to the kitchen. I looked for the food Bella had made. It wasn't on the counters or the stove. I looked in the refrigerator and there it was, in storage containers. Looks like Bella had planned to join me in bed after all. That made me smile. I pulled out the containers and placed them on the counter.

I was getting a plate when I felt arms wrap around my torso and a kiss on my back.

"I woke up all alone on your big bed…" She squeezed me; I turned around in her arms. I sucked in a breath at the sight of her; she was wearing my shirt, just swimming in it. All fucking sexy. No one, and I mean no one has ever looked that hot in my shirt. Her hair was all over the place and her lips swollen—post-coital glow suited her.

"Are you wearing my shirt?" I wanted to tease her. She nodded and kissed my chest. "I tried to wake you up but you were out. I woke up hungry...someone, I won't mention any names, B-e-l-l-a, didn't let me eat dinner." I grinned at her and attacked her neck.

"Hmmm…if you keep that up, you won't be eating again."

I sucked on her favorite spot under her ear. "I don't care. You're enough for me." I moved to the crook of her neck and nipped at her delicious skin.

She pulled away. "Enough of that. You marked me enough." She admonished. I instantly felt guilty. I didn't mean to mark her, but in the heat of the moment neither of us paid attention.

"I'm sorry babe. Let me see." I unbuttoned the shirt and pulled it open. Sure enough, she had some bruising from my assault with my lips and teeth. Nothing that would stay permanently but if she didn't like being marked, then I suck. I ran my fingers over the marks, one on each breast, two on her collarbone, and one on her neck. All easily concealable, but I still felt bad. "I'm sorry." I apologized again and kissed her lips.

"It's fine Edward. I can cover them all. But I don't want any more for now. Let these go away first." I nodded.

We sat on the island and ate what Bella called, Chicken Florentine. Delicious. I'll never starve again with Bella with me.

"I hope you didn't have to go home babe…it's too late now." I had just realized that I didn't ask Bella if she was staying over. She never has, I always go to her house.

"No. It's okay…" She bit her lip and hesitated a bit. "I had already expected to stay the night…so it's fine." I grinned at her.

"I like that. I want you to always expect to spend the night."

She laughed. "Not always. Sometimes."

I huffed. "Fine. Sometimes is better than no times." I leaned into her and pecked her lips. She was having none of that though, she pulled me in and deepened the kiss.

"That just means we have to take advantage of the time we have together babe." She mumbled into my mouth. Fuck! Did she just say that?

I got off the stool and I turned her around—her back to the counter. She opened her legs and I stepped in between them.

"Oh, I plan on taking advantage of this time."

I pushed forward and she leaned back, exposing her neck. I kissed her jaw slowly bringing my lips to her collarbone. I unbuttoned the rest of the shirt and yanked it off. Her nipples were already hard. I massaged her breasts with my hands. She buried her hands in my hair and pushed me down to her breast. I knew what she wanted.

I lowered my head and took her into my mouth. I lightly bit on her pink nipple and she screamed throwing her head back.

"Hurry up and take off your boxers." She panted. I stepped back and pulled them down, not bothering to take them off all the way.

"I like this." I ran my finger up and down her lower lips and along her slit, dipping in and finding her clit. I circled my finger, watching her reaction.

"I'm glad you like it, the waxing hurts like a mother. I'll never get used to it." I laughed. She was wet and I circled my finger around her entrance. I pushed in a little with my middle finger and then pulled out, only to push it back in all the way. Bella arched her back and moaned. My palm rubbed her clit while my finger pumped in and out slow at first and then faster. She was close, she tightened around my finger, and I pulled out completely—she whimpered at the loss.

I kissed her hard and lifted her up holding her ass in my hands. I put her at the edge of the counter, her ass almost hanging off.

"Lean back and put your hands behind you, try to hold on." As soon as her palms were, open flat on the counter I slammed into her—she cried out in pleasure and I groaned softly. I held onto her hips tightly so she wouldn't go too far back with the force of my thrusts. She dug her heels on my ass, trying to get me closer, deeper.

I rocked into her with abandon. Our moaning and Bella's cries filled the room. Her walls started to clench as her moaning got louder. I started to feel that familiar tightening in my stomach every time I filled her…and then…fuck! I realized I wasn't wearing a condom. I didn't panic and I didn't let up on my thrusts. It felt too fucking good to stop now.

"Baby, I'm not wearing a condom. I'll pull out before…I swear." Bella looked slightly panicked but she nodded.

"Yeah, yeah…just pull out. Don't stop." She was at the edge already. I took her nipple in my mouth and bit down.

"Ah! Edward…Edward! I'm cumm…I'm cumming! She screamed as her orgasm racked through her body. I felt the moisture on my dick. Her body twitched almost going limp. I thrust inside her two more times, not trusting myself to be able to pull out on time, I pulled out and stroked myself three times and the tightening in my stomach finally let go, releasing into my hand and on her stomach. Fucking stars every time.

I leaned my head down on her chest, trying to catch my breath. Bella rubbed my back. I was ready to go to sleep now. I cleaned Bella, and myself while she still sat on the counter. This was a comfortable place to talk.

"You're spoiling me Edward…I'm gonna want this treatment every time I come over." She giggled and kissed my forehead. I couldn't even stand right, my whole body was leaning on her as I wrapped my arms around her waist.

"I can deliver babe. Every time. Don't you worry." I smirked. "Oh by the way, my parents invited us over tomorrow. They want to finally meet you…what do you think? I want to take you."

Bella laughed. "Edward! You're telling me this now? After sex! Was this a trap, cuz right now I don't think I can say No to you." I laughed. It wasn't intentional. I really did forget.

"I was distracted earlier and I just remembered because I was thinking that I have to get up early tomorrow and pick up Nathan. I didn't mean to just throw it on you like that. You don't have to come; I just thought it was a good time for you to meet them."

She kissed me to finally, shut me up. "I'd love to…and I hope they like me."

"They will baby."

We went back to bed, eager to get some rest after the night's activities. Tomorrow would be a great day. Bella would finally be meeting my family—a first for me to be bringing a woman to my parent's house in a long time. I will be making sure though, that it is the last.

Who wants to be Edward's brown-eyed-angel?...Get in line behind me!

Hope that was good. I tried guys!

-MEL