A/N: Hey everybody! I'm sorry that I haven't updated this story in a while. I would say why but I'm just going to explain it at the end of this chapter. And I want to say sorry in advance to all the Carlos fans out there! You'll see why… Hope you all enjoy.

How I Feel

Kendall P.O.V.

I hated when I woke up out of nowhere! I looked over at the clock and noticed that it was almost 3:00 a.m. I let out a sigh before looking over to James' bed and was surprised to find that he wasn't there. 'He's probably in the kitchen.' I thought to myself. I got up and made my way to the kitchen.

To my surprise, he wasn't in the kitchen either. Where could he be? I was brought out of my thoughts when I heard a groan. I looked around, trying to find out where the groan was coming from. I kinda sounded like it was coming from outside so that's where I went.

"Aaron?" I questioned when I got outside. As I got closer, I realized that it was him. I ran over to him and helped him up into a sitting position.

"Dude, what happened? And what are you doing out here?" I questioned, wondering what was going on.

"James. I tried to stop him but…" He trailed off. It didn't take long for me to put things together.

"James did this to you?" I asked in shock.

"Yeah. He thinks he's protecting us by going back to Dimitri. But something tells me that just what Dimitri wants." He said, looking like he was struggling to stay awake.

"What do you mean? Aaron? Come on buddy stay with me!" I said while gently shaking him, trying to get him to stay awake.

"D-Dimitri… when he wants something, he makes sure he gets it. If his plan involves James, then he's going to make sure he has James."

"Alright, let's get you inside." I said, noticing that it was starting to become difficult for him to stay awake.

I helped him up before guiding him into the house. I felt a little guilty for what I was about to do, but we were in crisis mode right now. I looked around the house for a piece of paper and a lighter. Eventually I found both.

I proceeded to light the paper on fire, quickly putting the fire out. I waited for the smoke to take effect and sure enough, within seconds the alarm started blaring throughout the house. It only took a minute for me to be met with the irritated faces of Logan, Carlos and Rose.

"Okay, you have five seconds to explain why you woke me up and busted my eardrums before I pound your face in!" Rose said, her eyes starting to darken.

I forgot that vampires have heightened hearing so the sound of the alarm must've been a little too overbearing for her. That's when my mind went back to Aaron. I looked over to see him holding his head in his hands. Rose noticed this and went to check on him.

"Explain. Now!" She said, sending me a glare.

I then proceeded to explain to them everything that Aaron told me. And judging from the look that Rose was giving me, things were bad.

"We have to find him… NOW!" She exclaimed.

"How are we supposed to find him though? He could be anywhere in the forest. Heck, he could be with Dimitri as we speak!" I exclaimed.

"Do you think he can track Dimitri like Dimitri can track him?" Carlos asked, directing his question towards Rose.

"I don't think so. But if Dimitri knows that James is out there, he can lead James to him." She replied.

"How is he?" I asked, referring to Aaron as I made my way over to the two.

"He'll live. I'm going to take him to get some blood in his system so he can heal faster." I nodded in understanding as she led him out of the house.

I turned to Carlos and Logan, who both had thoughtful and worried looks on their faces.

"What if we can't get James back?" Carlos questioned, looking like he was on the verge of breaking down.

"Carlos-" I started, but found myself cut off by Carlos.

"No! Listen Kendall, I know that you 've had you're mind set on getting James back. But you have you ever considered that maybe we weren't meant to get him back?!" Carlos yelled, giving me a glare.

"This isn't you Carlos." I muttered, knowing that he was just letting out all of the anger that he's been holding in the past few months.

"Whatever. I can't do this anymore." He said before storming off to his room that he shared with Logan.

I felt myself starting to become nervous. I looked towards Logan and noticed that he had a nervous expression on his face as well. We followed Carlos to his shared room and noticed him starting to pack some stuff into his backpack.

"Carlos, please don't tell me that you're actually leaving." Logan said, sounding slightly irritated.

"Yes I am. I'm tired of going through this! Everything we do just ends up backfiring! We refuse Dimitri, he kills our parents and turns our friends. We go on the run, he finds us and turns James. We get James back, it backfires and he ends up leaving again. Anyone see a pattern here?!" Carlos yelled asa he angrily continued to pack his things.

"Look I know things are bad right now. But we are so close to getting rid of Dimitri once and for all. This is just a minor setback. We can't just give up when we're so close!" I reasoned, hoping that I could get through to him.

"I'm not giving up, I'm facing facts. If you haven't noticed, everything we do just ends up hurting us in the end. We might as well just accept that and move on."

I couldn't believe what I was hearing! Usually Carlos was one that kept us all together when James was gone. He was the positive one that always helped us when we weren't all that positive. But I guess he was really just bottling up those emotions, and now they were being released.

"Carlos… please" Logan and I did all the pleading we could as Carlos finished packing and made his way to the door.

"I'm sorry… I'll keep in touch. I just can't do this anymore." And with that, Carlos left. Leaving both Logan and I wondering what we were going to do now that we've now lost not one… but two of our brothers.

"What are we going to do Kendall?" Logan asked as he looked at me with pleading eyes, hoping that I would have a plan.

But for the first time in a while… I didn't.

Done! I honestly have NO idea where this came from. I had kinda lost inspiration for this story because I wasn't sure what direction I wanted to take this. But now that I kinda have an idea, I'm ready to start back on this story! So what do you all think about Carlos? I know that I haven't really included Carlos too much in my stories so I wanted to give him his own little storyline. Please let me know what you all think! The next update will probably be Saturday since I want to work on my other story a little bit. Until next time! XoXo

-Epically Obssessed