I can't thank you enough for all the feedback for this story. Warning: this chapter's gonna get dark... well darker.

Now on with the chapter.

"How is Kara?" Alex wanted to know.

"I had a doctor look her over." J'onn began. "Physically she's fine. Everything he did to her in that regard healed when she entered Earth's sun. But mentally..."

A silent tear went down Alex's cheek. "What happened?"

"She's refused to say. All we have to go on is her Supergirl outfit. Alex, you don't need to hear this." J'onn said trying to spare Alex.

"No I do. I want to know, hell I need to know."

J'onn sighed. "We found countless cuts across her entire suit, front and back. It was covered in her blood, wet and dry."

Alex could barely stand, and just continued to let her tears fall.

"Where is she?" Alex asked.

"The moment after her examination was complete Kara left."

CatCo Tower

"Yes, I need that finance report on my desk like yesterday." Cat was yelling over the phone, until she saw Kara enter her office. "I'll call you back." Cat hung up the phone. "So, where have you been?"

"I needed to be somewhere." Kara responded handing Cat a piece of paper.

"What is this?" Cat asked.

"My resignation." This took Cat by surprise. "I sort of discovered myself while I was away, and I don't like it. I need to stay away from this." Kara could barely keep it together. "Thanks Ms. Grant, for everything." Kara left Cat's office and made her way to the exit, but was intercepted by someone.

"Kara!" James shouted as he ran up to her. "What happened?" he asked hugging her.

"A lot, but nothing that I didn't deserve."

Concern appeared on James's face. "What are you talking about?"

Before Kara could respond, a familiar voice appeared.

"Look at this." Shivers went down Kara's spine as she turned around to see Thomas. "You know, this wasn't even on purpose, I was just going to ask Cat if any of her reporters would be attending my next press conference."

Kara breath ran wild, and she struggled to stand.

"Get away from her." James demanded.

"I'm not doing anything." Thomas responded back. "All I'm doing is standing here trying to make my way to Cat Grant."

Kara couldn't hear anything anymore. All she could do was recall being held by Thomas. And it terrified her.

"Kara" she heard people saying to her. But it didn't help her in anyway. All she did was collapse in a heap.

Streets

Eliza got into a cab.

"Hi." she said to her driver. "I need to go to this address on my phone."

"May I ask why?" the cab driver asked.

"My daughter's not feeling well, I need to talk with her." The cab driver laughed. "What's so funny?"

"Nothing. It's just that I know I wouldn't want Kara as a daughter."

Eliza's face immediately evolved to fear. She tried to open the door, but it was already locked.

"You're not escaping that easily." the driver continued. "After all, Heretic needs you."

Kara's Apartment

Kara stood up the moment she woke up. When she looked around, she saw that she was on her couch in her apartment.

"Kara." someone said behind her. She turned her head to see Theo.

"How did I get here?" Kara asked.

"You had a panic attack back at CatCo when..." Theo didn't finish believing it would make Kara uncomfortable.

"Thanks." she responded. "But you should go."

"I'm not going anywhere. Kara you can't just ignore or forget what happened to you."

"I'm not trying to forget it, I'm just trying to move on."

"By quitting CatCo and Supergirl?" Surprise appeared on Kara's face. "Alex told me." Theo responded seeing her face.

"It's better this way."

"For who?"

"For everyone!" Kara yelled getting annoyed. "Thomas is right. I'm not a hero."

"Kara, I can't imagine what he did to you, but right now you couldn't be more wrong about yourself."

"If I really were a hero, I'd be able to save everyone, but I can't. So many people have died or suffered because of me. Jeremiah, Eliza, Alex, Mon-El, Lena, and so many more. I bring nothing but death and darkness into people's lives. I tried to deny it as Supergirl, but that didn't change the truth that I'm a monster."

"I don't believe this."

"Well you should! Because for the first time since I got here I'm accepting the truth. It may be hard and uncomfortable, but it's still the truth."

"No it's not..."

"I want you to leave."

"Kara, I'm not going anywhere."

"Not a request."

"Kara..."

Before Theo could react Kara used her super speed, and he was outside the door.

"Damn it Kara." he said out loud.

Kara ran into her room, to see a small black box on her bed. She tried to use her x-ray vision, but the box was made of lead. She opened the box, and felt weak the moment the top was open.

"Kryptonite." she said to herself.

She forced herself to look deeper in the box, and there was kryptonite. But it wasn't just a chunk of the rock, it was a small knife of it.

"Thomas." she again said out loud.

She closed the box and was prepared to throw it away, until a thought crossed her mind. 'Why would Thomas send me a kryptonite knife?' She figured it why a second later.

She opened the box again, grabbed the knife and brought it to her arm, cutting it. 'I deserve this.' she said in her head. 'For Jeremiah, Alex, Mon-El, Kelly, everything.'

Bar

Winn and James were sitting in a bar talking.

"I just wish I knew what was wrong with her." James said.

"You and me both." Winn replied.

"Mind if I join you two?" A familiar voice said sitting next to James. The two looked in the voice's direction to see Thomas.

Both of their eyes widened.

"Come on, I'm not that terrifying, am I?" Thomas asked in a joking voice.

"What do you want?" James asked trying to seem intimidating.

"I'm here to kidnap both of you." Thomas said as he pulled his head back and head butted James, knocking him out.

Winn ran towards the exit, but was caught by Hank Henshaw.

"You're not escaping that easily." Hank said.

Kara's Apartment

Alex opened the front door with her key, not seeing Kara in the living room.

"Kara?" Alex cried out looking for her sister. She then heard sobbing coming from Kara's room.

Alex quietly sneaked over to Kara's room and peaked through the door to find Kara on her bed sobbing into the sheets.

But Alex noticed something else. The sheets covered in blood, and a bloody kryptonite knife right beside Kara.

Alex immediately ran into the room and cried. "Kara!"

Kara hearing this jerked her head up with her eyes still red from the crying, asked. "What are you doing here?"

Alex engulfed her little sister in a hug, and refused to let go. All she did was cry into Kara asking. "Why? Why would you do this?" Knowing what Kara was doing.

"I...I...I'm sorry." Kara said at a lost for words. "It's just..." More tears poured through her eyes. "I don't want to live anymore. I don't even deserve to."

Alex sniffled, looked Kara in the eyes and said. "Don't say that."

"It's the truth Alex."

Some how more tears poured from Alex. "How... What happened to you? What did Thomas do?"

Kara shock her head and responded. "It's too painful."

"I know, but I can't stand seeing you like this. Please I'm begging you, try to tell me."

Kara reluctantly nodded and began. "Most of the time I was there, he'd cut me with the sword that killed Astra." Kara barely managed to squeeze out. "He also forced me to drink kryptonite, despite it killing me from the inside. He then turned on some solar emitters to heal me from my injuries. After the first day I thought he was done, but he said he was going to do this day after day until he decided I deserved mercy, and he did. It was the same thing everyday. After.. Rao I don't even know, several days at least, he didn't come in with his usual stuff, he came in with a needle. He said that he wanted to move from the physical torture and injected whatever was in the needle into me. At first I thought it was just going to make me uncomfortable, but then I saw my mother. She... she told me that I was pathetic and that I didn't deserve to live, and I believed her." More tears began to fall from Kara's eyes, and Alex pulled her into her chest to try and comfort her. "The day after, Thomas came back and said he'd show me mercy if I answered some questions. He asked me if I was a god and if I was a hero, and I said no to both, and I wasn't even lying. After that, he gave me a gun and said it had a kryptonite bullet in it, and told me that I could do whatever I wanted to do with it."

Alex hearing this unable to stay quiet anymore said. "It's okay. It's over, and you didn't let him win, you didn't do what he wanted you to do."

Kara shock her head. "No! I did!" Confusion struck Alex's face. "I pointed the gun to my head and pulled the trigger believing it would kill me. The only reason it didn't was because he lied, there were no bullets in the gun. After I did that he unchained me and let me go."

Horror stuck Alex's face after hearing everything he did to her. 'I'm going to cut his flesh one piece at a time, then feed it to him!' she said in her head.

"Kara." Alex said. "He was wrong. You are a hero."

Kara shock her head. "If that were true, I would've been able to save everyone. Kelly, Thomas's family, Jeremiah, Mon-El... my parents. So many people have died because of me. I cut myself because I deserve to suffer for everything that has happened because of me."

"Thomas was right about one thing, you aren't a god Kara. You may be powerful, but you can't control everything."

"Even if you're right, some things were in my control, and I still failed."

"Then make it right by being Supergirl. I like to believe that you honor everyone's sacrifices by being her. By being Supergirl. Maybe you've made some mistakes, but I know with out a doubt, you've done far more good than bad as Supergirl. Thomas just has you focused on the bad is all. Now you can sit there trying to make up for all of it by hurting yourself, or you can get up and do something that will actually make a difference. It's you choice." Alex finished feeling confident she got through to Kara.

"If you need me, you know where to find me." Alex said as she left Kara's apartment.

As Alex left the building, someone grabbed her from behind, and started chocking her out.

"Shhhhhh." the voice Alex knew was Thomas's said. "It's okay, I'm not going to kill you. At least not yet."

Later

Kara stared down at her bed, thinking about what Alex told her. But her thoughts were distracted when her phone rang.

She picked it up and say that Theo was calling her. "Hey Theo, I've had some time to think, and..."

"Sorry." Thomas. Kara knew right away. "Theo's kind of busy at the moment. If you want to find him and everyone else, go to the DEO."

Thomas hung up, and Kara without a second thought ran out.

DEO

When Kara entered the DEO, she saw that it was littered with dozens of agents. She was afraid that J'onn, Alex and Winn might be among them, and looked at the faces to see if she could recognized them.

"If you're looking for your friends and sister, don't worry I didn't kill them... at least not yet." Thomas said standing by the computers.

Kara's spine shivered hearing his voice, but her worry for her friends and family outweighed her fear of him.

She made her way towards him, grabbed him and put him against one of the tables and demanded. "Where are they?"

"And why would I tell you that?"

She grabbed one of his hands and said. "If you don't, I'll start breaking them."

Thomas laughed. "Wouldn't recommend that. See, I told Lillian that if I didn't make it back to her in time, to kill everyone you love."

After hearing this, Kara immediately let got of Thomas. "Why are you doing this?" she asked.

Thomas smirked and replied. "Don't worry Kara, it's almost over. There's just one more thing that needs to happen."

"What?"

"I need you to choose. Your loved ones or Supergirl." Kara's eyes widened at this comment. "In twelve hours you're friends will die the exact same way your journey began. Unless you show the entire world who Supergirl really is."

"I can't do that."

"Actually, you can. Just don't know that you want to is all."

"Why are you making me do this, what is the point?"

"I think that the main reason you failed to be a hero is because you tried to be a kryptonian and a human. Those people make you Kara Danvers and your secret identity makes you Supergirl. Now you're going to have to give up one. You can either be Kara Danvers or Supergirl, but you can't be both."

"Why not just reveal I'm Supergirl to the world, why have me do it?"

"You know, Hank Henshaw once asked me that himself. I told him that I never wanted to be the one who destroys you Kara. I wanted that person to be you, and now you will. You'll either destroy yourself as Kara Danvers or as Supergirl. Tick tock, you don't got long."

Thomas then left the DEO, leaving a unsure Kara in the tomb of the base.

Damn. This was definitely a chapter to remember. I almost cried when writing the Alex Kara scene (and trust me I don't usually cry). Anyway, I think the next chapter will probably be the last one. If you enjoyed this chapter fav, review, follow and I'll see you in the next (and maybe last) chapter.