A/N: Fisrt off I would like to say how sorry I am for the delay in updating... lets just say that a lot has been happening and I have been a little distracted... Anyway I'm on holidays now, so I finally finished writing this chapter, let me know what you think of my last minute dission for the plot... Thanks for reading :):) It really means a lot to me to know that people are reading my story :) Enjoy :D

Chapter Ten: Bella?

DISCLAIMER: I do not own anything Twilight – all credit goes to the wonderful SM. I only own the plot

'Life is just one damned thing after another'

EPOV

I stood there and watched as Bella took the phone from Esme. Her eyes widened and a look of complete sadness and despair took over her face. I was about to move forward when her eyes got that fiery glint in them and she started yelling into the receiver.

""I don't care what you say! She will be moved here! I will NOT go back to Phoenix. You have no right to say things like that about me or my mother; you hardly knew either of us! Now leave me alone!" She yelled into the phone before hanging up and running to the stairs.

I stood there shocked for a second before running after her. I was surprised she hadn't slipped or tripped on the stairs yet. I yelled out her name hoping to get her attention but she never turned around. Once she reached her door she went inside only to slam the door as soon as I got there. Slowly I turned the doorknob and opened her door just in time to see her pulling out a framed picture and she threw it against the wall, near the door. I watched in horror as the frame broke and the picture fell to the floor – it was a drawing of us when we were all younger at Phoenix.

She started to fall to the floor when I caught her, picking her up and laying her on the bed. I climbed on and held her close to my chest. She wrapped her arms around me, pulling me closer – it felt like she thought I was going to leave her; like this would be out last time together…

"She's gone…" she mumbled into my chest while I rubbed her back reassuringly.

"Who is gone, Bella?"

"Mum…" And that one word bought on a whole new round of tears as my arms tighten and I continued to tell me how much I love her. I couldn't imagine what would be going through her head right now. Bella and Renee were always so close…

"All my fault…should've called… dead… my fault…" she mumbled incoherently. I sighed. This was going to be so hard on Bella. I should've known she would try and blame herself.

"You couldn't have done anything Bella. None of this is your fault; you are a beautiful, kind and caring person and a wonderful daughter, I love you Bella, and your mother loved you too." I told her, and that was nothing but the truth. She didn't say anything. She just cried.

When she finally ran out of tears to cry I lifted her up so I could push the blankets down so I could lay her down, I laid down next to her and then pulled the blankets over us. I laid down on my back as Bella rolled over so her head was on my chest. I wrapped my arms around her, rubbing my hand along her back.

A few hours later Esme walked in, a sob escaped her lips when she saw Bella's broken drawing against the wall.

"How is she?"

"Tired… she only just stopped crying… I'm worried about her Esme. She blames herself…"

"We'll help her through this, Edward. At the moment that is the most any of us can do. However unfortunate that is and no matter how mad that makes you, there isn't anything else you can do, apart from being there for her."

"I know… I know…"

Esme nodded and left the room, picking up the drawing on her way out. I laid there with Bella until the early hours of the morning (2am), when I decided to play my piano for Bella; I'll play my newest song… the one she inspired.

I played for hours – or what seemed like hours before Bella woke up.

"Morning sunshine," I whispered and continued to play.

"It's not really morning is it?" she asked looking worried.

"No… well it's about 3 o'clock… everyone else is asleep, except for Emmett and Rose – I can't imagine them to be sleeping…"

Bella laughed, it was the most beautiful sound in the world. Slowly her laughter stopped and she sat there leaning her head on my shoulder. Right now everything was perfect. It was almost like last night had never happened. Almost.

I stopped playing when I heard Bella sniff and when I looked down and saw the tears running down her cheeks. She didn't like the song… she didn't like it…

"Don't you like it?" I asked, somewhat hurt. Bella gasped at me shaking her head violently.

"No, no, it was beautiful – happy tears. I love you so much, Edward. Thank you," she replied wiping away her tears.

"You inspired that one…"

"Really?"

"Really." I told her and laughed. "Come on I better put you to bed now…"

"But I'm not tired…" she complained as I got up.

I held out my hand and she sighed before placing her hand in my own. I pulled her up and led her down the hallway but I stopped before we reached her room… Bella looked up at me confused, she looked so cute.

"My room… but if you don't want to stay in here that's fine… I just thought a change would be good… you can get some of your clothes to wear to sleep or one of my old shirts… If you don't like it, just say so…" I rambled… Bella chuckled quietly, almost to herself, and placed her figure on my lips.

"I'd love to, Edward. Stop worrying, it's bad for you. But we are just sleeping tonight." She told me and I sighed in relief, for a moment I thought she was going to be really mad thinking I wanted something more, that I was going to take advantage of her… but I wasn't – and she knew that.

"I love you," I whispered as I opened my door, her eyes widened as she looked around my room, first on my king size four-poster bed, then my wall of books – most of which are journals, then to my two-wall shelf of music – CD's, records, tapes… everything.

I handed her a shirt and some boxers and she went to get changed in the bathroom. Meanwhile I got changed into a pair of boxers and climbed into bed. I laid down and closed my eyes, waiting for Bella to get back. I felt the bed move as Bella climbed on. She laid down next to me and I wrapped my arms around her.

"Sweet dreams, my love." I whispered to her as sleep took over.

When I woke up later that morning Bella wasn't anywhere in my room. I got up and went to check her room... nope... maybe she is with Alice... I opened the door slowly but again I sighed in disappoint, she wasn't there either. Bella where are you! I walked downstairs feeling defeated... why would she have gone?

I walked into the kitchen not really paying attention to anything around me, opening the fridge door to take a mouth full of milk straight out of the carton. As I was closing the fridge I heard something clatter on the sink behind me. I jumped around to see who it was... only to be confronted with what looked like a ghost of the Bella I knew before last night... her hair was dead straight – it'd lost its shine and wave – and she had dark circles under her eyes. She looked and me for a minute before turning around to leave.

"Sorry for startling you, Edward..." She said so quietly I almost didn't hear her.

So far it has been weeks since Bella has been herself. After Renee's funeral she ran out of the church crying – I ran after her but she went into the woods and I lost her. It took us four days before anyone found her. She was a complete wreck... and refused to talk to anyone. She went back to school and sat by herself either in the cafeteria or the school library. I never saw her eat anything decent and she always excused herself from dinner before she finished her meal... I've tried talking to her but she just won't listen. Alice tried taking her shopping, for retail therapy and all that, but that didn't work. I've lost my Bella, and I don't know how to get her back.

"Edward, can I come in?" I hear Bella ask from behind my door... the first time I've heard her voice in weeks, but it didn't have the same ring to it anymore, it sounded dead now.

"Sure, the door is unlocked..." I replied and sat up on my bed looking at the door as Bella slowly walked in.

"I... well I wanted to tell you this before anyone else... I want to live with Charlie..." She whispered. I couldn't believe it. Why would she leave to live with Chief Swan? It didn't make sense – he left them before Bella was even born, why would she want to live with him now? "I just, I feel like a barely know my own father, and I would really like some time to get to know him." She explained as is she had read my mind.

"But why now?"

"It's just time, Edward..."

"But why are you leaving me Bella? I can't lose you..." I pleaded with her. I knew there was no chance of Bella changing her mind now; she always has been very stubborn.

"I think you already have, Edward. I... I just need a break... from well everything really. I don't think I can be the person I used to be. I'm so sorry... I uh... I guess I better tell Esme and Carlisle..." She sighed as she looked down at the floor. "Goodbye Edward." and that was the last thing I heard Bella say before she disappeared out of my life. I fell back down on my bed, and turned over to my side curling into a ball. I just lost the person I love the most. I only just got her back.

I could feel the tears running down my cheeks, and I didn't care if I looked like a fucking baby for crying. I looked up to see the sheet music for Bella's lullaby on my bedside table. I picked it up and looked at the notes, listening to how it sounds in my head; which only caused more tears to stream down my face. I ripped up the paper and threw the pieces into the bin... Everything reminded me of her. I could hear Alice and Emmet yelling at Bella about leaving, mum was trying to comfort Bella and dad was probably attempting to keep the peace between everyone. Looking around my room, I saw all the old photo's I'd kept of me and Bella, the books we'd talked about, the music she listened to, the chair she always sat in... then I looked down at my bed... the bed she'd slept in only weeks earlier. Before I knew what I was actually doing, I got up and threw all the photo's on the floor, breaking the frames and the glass shattering everywhere, the CD's soon followed the same fate, I cringed slightly at ruining my CD's but they just screamed out Bella and I couldn't stand it. All my books went into my bin... after ripping out the pages I knew were Bella's favourite. I picked up one of my few journals and tore out any page that even so much as mentioned her name... I couldn't even think her name anymore. I just couldn't. I looked around my room at the mass destruction that now replaced what was once my sanctuary. I fell to me knees in defeat as I heard my door open. I looked up, hoping beyond all hope that it wasn't Emmett... Mum came in and gasped as she looked around my room. She walked around touching where my CD's and books used to be, and then she found a piece of the sheet music that hadn't made it to the bin...

"Oh dear, Edward... I'm so sorry. I tried to convince her to stay – truly I did."

"I know mum... I know; so did I..." I said just as my voice cracked. Mum bent down and pulled me into a tight hug. I couldn't stop the tears that continued to run down my cheeks. I could feel her own tears wetting my shirt, but I didn't care. I'd lost my love and mum had lost a daughter.

It's been one week since Bella left. No one is the same anymore – Emmett tries to make everyone smile, but he just isn't really trying anymore, his jokes have lost their edge I guess you could say. No one has mentioned her name again since the day she left. Apparently Charlie thought Bella could do better than, Forks high school, and sent her to some preppy boarding school in Seattle... She would be starting there today so I thought I would see her one last time before she was gone. I stood in the forest opposite her house and watched as she left, carrying her bags, head down, hair dull, and feet shuffling on the floor as she slowly made her way to the police cruiser. I saw her cringe slightly as her suitcase pressed against her leg as she lifted it into the boot of the car. I frowned, why would it hurt to lean her suitcase on her leg?

I saw her look up, her eyes no longer held any of the sparkle they used to, the brown that once drew me in, now only held sadness and despair, the bags under her eyes have only gotten worse – she wasn't sleeping still. Chief Swan said something to Bella and she nodded before getting into the passenger seat quietly not looking back.

She was gone... Bella was gone... and there was nothing I could do about it.

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