Author's Note:

I'm so sorry this chapter took me so long to write! I was hoping to have it posted much sooner, but I haven't had much time to write lately, and of course whenever I do have time, I get writer's block. I hope y'all like this chapter, as short as it is. Hopefully the next chapter will be longer.

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Sorry the chapter title stinks. I couldn't think of anything better.

Disclaimer: I do not own Kingdom Hearts. I only own my OC.

Chapter Eleven: Two Days Without Ice Cream

The morning of my seventh day in the Organization, I realized something:

I hadn't had a single dream the entire time I'd been at the Castle that Never Was.

That might not be alarming for some people, but it was really weird for me. I dream every single night, although most of the time once I wake up I immediately forget what happened in them. All I know is that I did dream, even though I'm not entirely sure how I even knew that much.

So why hadn't I dreamed at all in the past week? That was going to bug me. Maybe Nobodies couldn't dream? No... That didn't really make any sense... Although, I guess existing without a heart doesn't make a whole lot of sense either. Neither did most of the things in the Kingdom Hearts universe, to be honest.

I was still wondering about that as I walked down to the Grey Area. Same as the day before, it was just Saïx waiting for me in the large pale-gray room. His golden gaze met mine as I entered the room. "Late as usual, I see," he commented grimly.

"I'm sorry! I don't know what-"

The blue-haired man interrupted my apology. "You're on your own again today. Try not to get killed."

Gulp. What that supposed to be encouraging? More like terrifying. "What's the assignment?"

"Today you will be collecting hearts. I expect you to kill every Heartless you see, as in yesterday's mission."

So it was basically the same thing as the day before. Okay, I could handle that... I guess.

I left the Grey Area through a Dark Corridor, exiting out into the Station Plaza of Twilight Town. I figured that'd be a good place to start.

Sure enough, a few Shadows appeared not too far away, their beady glowing eyes glaring at me. I felt my Keyblade appear in my hand as if it had willed itself there, and I ran toward the Heartless. With just a few hits each they disappeared, leaving nothing behind. Purebloods.

I looked around for any signs of more Heartless, but none appeared. Time to move on.

I'm not going to bore you by describing every single detail of my mission. Heartless appeared, I fought them. I kept hoping I'd run into Roxas, but sadly no such luck. I was all alone, besides the Shadows and Dire Plants and Scarlet Tangos and... Well, you get the idea. It wasn't too bad, and I felt almost no guilt in killing them now. That scared me a little bit. Back when I still had a heart (it seemed like such a long time ago), I couldn't even bring myself to kill spiders or ants. Now I was killing giant creatures without barely a second thought. Was I... Was I turning into a killer? No! I told myself firmly. Never!

During my mission, I found a few treasure chests with potions inside. That was awesome! Now I had three of them tucked inside my cloak's pocket, along with the 'WINNER' stick (I had finally thrown out the other ones).

I had no idea how long I had been when all the Heartless were finally gone. I double-checked everywhere just to be safe before heading to the clock tower.

Roxas wasn't there. He must have already left. I was disappointed, although I think that counts as a feeling, doesn't it? So maybe I would have been disappointed, before I became a Nobody. Now I was just a-

Oh, who was I kidding. I could still feel. I couldn't possibly be a Nobody. Sure, I couldn't feel as strongly as before, I could ignore my feelings easily, I was lying and killing and I hated it. The thing I felt the most was fear, although ironically I was a lot braver as a Nobody, or whatever I was now. Hey, maybe I was a replica! That could make sense... Maybe... Not really... The weird thing, though, is that I was totally emotionless sometimes, yet at other moments I could definitely feel. I didn't get it.

I summoned a Dark Corridor and went back to the castle, not wanting to stay at the clock tower by myself. It just wasn't the same without my friends there. The wind was colder, the sunset too bright. Without the Sea-Salt Trio, it was just like any old clock tower. Sure the view was amazing, but it was the company I shared it with that made it so special.

Back in my room in the castle, I took out my journal and let my thoughts pour out onto the paper through my pen. I had tried keeping dairies in the past, back before I arrived in the Kingdom Hearts universe, but they never lasted very long. I had a hard time keeping up with writing in them, and soon I would be so far behind it was hopeless. Now, however, I had the urge to write almost every day. Something inside me wanted to remember every single moment of my time here in the Organization. It was probably pointless, though. I doubt this book would go back with me to my world once I returned home.

Wait a second... Why was I just assuming I wouldn't be staying in this universe forever? How did I know for certain I would get to go home? I almost expected to panic at these thoughts, but surprisingly I remained calm. Right. The whole Nobody thing.

I closed my journal and stared out at the starry sky beyond the window. I've always loved the night sky, with its dark, calming colors and beautiful shining dots of light, like glowing confetti scattered out onto the heavens. There was something so mysterious about it as well. Back home I used to look up at the night sky and wonder what was just beyond it. Aliens? Other planets? Or simply nothing but stars, stretching out forever?

I never thought I'd say this, but... I wanted to go home. I missed knowing exactly who I was and not being terrified of messing up the world's timeline. I missed my old friends, despite how many arguments they used to get into. Without me to be the peacemaker, how were they getting along? Was I even missed?

What if I never went back? If I stayed in the world of Kingdom Hearts forever, what would happen? I didn't want to leave this world if I could change something for the better, but I also didn't want to stay if I would just ruin things.

I sighed, returning my journal to its hiding spot. I needed to stop thinking and just take things one day at a time.

I laid down on my bed and closed my eyes, hoping for a dream to let me escape from the worries of this world, even if only for a few hours.

No dream came.

I woke up the next morning irritated and grumpy, which isn't a common occurrence for me. Unlike dreaming. I missed that. When would my dreams come again? I was now positive I wasn't currently dreaming all this up about me being in the Organization and becoming friends with Roxas. It couldn't be a dream. That'd be too cruel.

Day eight, reminded the voice in my head. Roxas's twenty-fifth day.

Once again, I had a solo mission. My target was a Guardian again, and I was nervous about trying to defeat one all by myself. But I had my Keyblade (I really should give it some fancy name, like 'Pain of Solitude' or 'Sign of Innocence,' two of my favorite Keyblade designs in the game), some potions, and a little bit of fighting skill and experience. A very little bit. Almost none. But hopefully enough to not die! Because dying would be bad.

That made me start to wonder... If I did accidentally get killed in this world, would I really be dead? Or would I just go back to my universe? I didn't really want to find out.

I exited the Dark Corridor into the Sandlot of Twilight Town. No sign of my target anywhere...

Oh no. I spoke too soon. There it was, glowing yellow eyes as creepy as ever. Three Watchers appeared just in front of it, hovering as they eagerly waited to attack.

I summoned my Keyblade and ran toward one of the smaller Heartless, trying to hit it while avoiding attacks from the other enemies nearby. I was fearless. I could do this. It was like my weapon knew what to do and had shared that information with me subconsciously, along with a whole lot of bravery. One Watcher was killed, than another. The third was trickier. It seemed to know that if it hovered high enough and his behind the Guardian, I wouldn't be able to hurt it. It was tiring.

I decided to focus on the larger Heartless for now. I ran and slashed and dodged, already tired and gasping for air. How did Roxas make it seem so easy in the video game? I guess because the game didn't factor in things like energy and breathing. Roxas could just run and run and run without getting tired. I wish I could do the same. Already I was slowing down, just barely dodging the Guardian's attacks. I had to end this soon! Where was that helpful rush of energy I'd gotten before? Sure could use it now!

Attack. Dodge. Run a bit away and catch my breath. Dodge. Attack. Why wasn't it defeated yet? This was taking too long. My arms ached from gripping my weapon so tightly, but I was too on edge to relax my hands. I kept slicing at the Guardian, kept dodging, my movements blending together into a confusing swirl. I was acting on instinct, using up the very last of my strength as I lunged toward the Heartless and hit it in the eye with my Keyblade. It disappeared, leaving behind nothing but hearts which were absorbed into my Keyblade. The Watcher was still alive, hovering about nervously as it realized its protection was gone. I could almost imagine there was fear in its glowing yellow gaze.

I didn't- I couldn't- I just couldn't bring myself to kill it. It seemed too cruel. I dismissed my weapon and stared at the Heartless, speaking to it even though I knew it couldn't understand me. At least, I'm pretty sure it couldn't. "I'm not going to hurt you. I did my job. You're safe, for now. Just don't go stealing any more hearts!" I turned and walked away toward the clock tower, holding back a groan at the thought of climbing all those stairs. I wish I could just teleport to the top of-

I suddenly stopped walking and slapped my palm on my forehead. I was so stupid! I held out my hand and a Dark Corridor appeared.

Okay, okay. I know it was lazy of me to take a shortcut around all those stairs, but trust me, if you had just fought three Watchers and a Gaurdian, you wouldn't hesitate to do the same.

When I reached the clock tower, I was surprised to see Xion sitting next to Roxas on the ledge. This must be her first time up on the tower. As much as I wanted to join them, I shouldn't interrupt. I could change something important. With a sigh, I turned around and walked back into the Dark Corridor. That was two days in a row with no Ice-Cream time.

At least Roxas and Xion are starting to become friends, I told myself as I returned to my room.

So why wasn't I happier about that? Here I was, getting to meet my OTP in person. I was probably the luckiest fangirl in the world! But why...

I shook my head, forcing those confusing thoughts to the back of my mind. I was too tired to write, too tired to do anything. I flopped onto my bed and almost immediately fell asleep.

Little did I know what would happen the next day...

Author's Note:

I know, I know, I'm a terrible person for ending this chapter on a cliffhanger. Sorry. :(

I'm also sorry if the chapter was kind of boring. It was mostly me trying to get through my writer's block and continue with the story.

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