AN: thought i'd try something a bit different. thanks to everybody who's been reading and reviewing. feel free to review :)
Disclaimer: I don't own skins. it's a real shame.
Katie's POV
Sitting in front of my mirror doing my makeup, I can see Emily sat behind me on her bed texting on her phone.
"Who you texting?" I ask, not that I even need to because I know what the answer will be.
"Naomi. Asking if she's coming to Thomas's gig tonight." Emily answers, not looking up from her phone. I just roll my eyes and carry on with what I'm doing, Emily notices but she doesn't say anything.
I don't see why she has to invite her, we can't go anywhere or do anything without Emily asking Naomi if she wants to come. It's been like it for weeks now, and it's really starting to get on my tits. It's weird coming home and Emily not being here because she's staying at Naomi's, well, when I rarely do come home myself. I just don't get it, everyone in the group, even the boys have attached to her. I hear Emily's phone go off and I watch her in the mirror, she smiles at whatever has just come through. What's so goddamn great about Naomi Campbell?!
"Ems. Stop fucking about and get ready, we'll be late."
"Right."
An hour later and me, Emily and Freddie are stood outside the club. I lace my hand with Freddie's but I notice that he's not gripping back. I look up at him and follow his gaze, which lands on Effy stood at the front of the line with Naomi, I try to ignore it. Emily seems to notice this as well and approaches them with a wide grin on her face. I pull onto Freddie's arm.
"Katie's cold."
It seems to get his attention because he looks down and wraps his arms around me before giving me a soft kiss on the head. Thomas has now come out of the club and I can hear him beckoning me and Freddie over.
"Come guys, come. Friend's don't pay." after informing us that everybody else was already inside we all make our way in. All of us go over to the bar, where Cook and JJ are already stood. Cook is talking to two girls, you can hear his trademark laugh half way from across the club, despite the music. The two girls are quite obviously uninterested. JJ's stood next to him, looking very awkward. After downing a couple shots, I grab Freddie's arm and pull him towards the dance floor. "I love this song, lets dance babe."
After lots of grinding and gyrating I decide I need a drink, it's starting to get hot and I feel sick. I stand at the bar and take a look around the club. Cook is fondling some girl on the dance floor, JJ and Freddie are dancing like idiots, Thomas, Pandora and Effy are stood at the other end of the bar. But, where's Emily?
The heat finally gets too much for me and I make my way outside, sitting on the curb. I hold my head in my hands, rubbing on my temple. In the distance I can hear giggling, I don't think much of it till I hear a familiar voice. I get up to investigate and walk round the side of the club. I freeze as soon as I see Naomi pressed up against the wall, Emily practically biting her neck off.
"Fuck, Em… Emily stop." Naomi gently pushes Emily off her and Emily turns around to see why. Her eyes widen as soon as she see's me stood there watching her. I don't say anything, I just walk up to her and grab her hand, pulling her away from Naomi and to the front of the club.
"Katie, I tried telling you a cou-"
"No, Emily. You're not gay, it's just some stupid phase." I can see Naomi watching from the side of the club, biting on her nails.
"No, it's really not. You've got to realise, I'm a person, I'm not you. I can't fix this."
"How many times do I have to tell you? Not gay, stupid!."
Emily turns her back to me, lifts her head up and sighs before turning back to me. She places her hands on my shoulders. "I'M GAY. I really can't help it if you're not going to accept that but I'm also not going to hide it any longer, Katie. I like girls, no. I like a girl, no… I love her." and with that Emily lets go of my shoulders and walks away, back to Naomi where they walk hand and hand back into the club.
I sit back down on the curb across the road and place my head onto my knees. I don't bother to raise my head when I hear footsteps approaching me.
"Why don't you just accept it, Katie?"
I look up to see Effy stood above me, cigarette in hand.
"This isn't how it's supposed to be. We don't work like this." I reply shaking my head.
"That's ridiculous."
"No, Eff. It's not. Me and Emily, Emily and Me. We do everything together. And now I'm losing her… she's leaving me." I can't stop the tears falling from my eyes as the realisation hits me.
"Katie, for once in your life stop being so selfish. Have you not realised how happy Emily has been these past couple weeks? All these years I've known her and not once have I seen her like this. Surely that's all that should matter to you, letting her be happy? She's been living in your shadow her whole life and now she finally wants to be free you're not letting her, you're the one holding her back."
I look up to reply but Effy has already started to walk away. Deciding this is all too much I get up and leave, slowly walking through the streets of Bristol. My head starts to hurt from all the thoughts flying through my mind. I get home, slowly drag my feet up the stairs and crash onto my bed, not even bothering to change out of my clothes.
My twin is leaving me and my boyfriend doesn't even want me, anything else for me God? I fall asleep with the truth of Effy's words still stinging.