Stephenie Meyer owns Twilight.
Thanks to MeteorOnAMoonlessNight for being my beta and Sara aka Nikki Black for pre-reading!
A/N: So I am posting a day early, and I will probably post again tomorrow as well. I've been having a terrible week, and a few personal issues. I just wanted to do something to keep my mind off of it all, and I always love reading all of your reviews!
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EPOV:
I slowly opened my eyes, only to be met with a pair of blue ones directly in my face.
"What the hell are you doing, Alice?" I grumbled.
"Oh, I'm just trying to figure out why not one, but two different women would want you," she said with a shrug.
"Jasper!" I called. "Come and get your crazy girl out of my face!"
"Aw, leave him alone, Alice. He obviously had a tough night," he said, gesturing to the beer cans littered all over the floor.
"Sorry, man, I'll clean up in a minute," I said with a heavy sigh.
"Yeah, you will," Alice said, patting me on the cheek before leaving the room. I watched as Jasper followed her out of the room with his eyes.
When she was gone he turned to me. "So, are you going to tell me what caused you to go on a drunken bender, or should I just start guessing?" he asked.
I threw my head back and groaned loudly, immediately regretting the decision to move my head so quickly. "Yeah, so, after I got back from seeing my family, which I might add was a complete shit fest, I decided I deserved a beer. I had no intentions of drinking the whole thing. That was until I overheard Bella's mom saying that Bella is dating someone."
"Okay… isn't that exactly why you broke her heart, though? So that she'd move on?" he questioned.
"It is. But the reality of it… it's too much, Jas. I don't know that I can live without her," I told him.
That was one thing I had learned through all of this; my love for Emily had never been all consuming. I had never needed her like I needed Bella. I had loved her, I had enjoyed her company, but without her I could still go on. Without Bella, I felt like there was a hole in my chest, and no matter what I did it just continued to bleed out.
"So, what are you going to do about it?" He quirked an eyebrow at me.
"Are you saying that I should do something about it?" I narrowed my eyes at him in confusion.
He sighed, clapping me on the shoulder. "Ed, in the, what, 6 years that I've known you, I have never seen you this down and out about anything. Look, I'm not going to say what you did is alright, because it's not. But in the end, it helped you to see that Emily just wasn't who you were truly meant to be with. So, if this Bella is who you need, then hell yes, you need to go and get her. Fuck, if you're worried about long distance, which by the way, it's really not that far, just move to fucking Eugene. What the hell is keeping you here?"
My eyes widened at his words because he was right. There was nothing keeping me here. I had enough vacation and sick time saved up that I could be gone for a few weeks while I tried to get her to even look my way. And if everything went how I hoped it would, I'd just plant my ass in Eugene and never let her go again.
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I sucked in a deep breath, letting it out slowly as I shoved the rest of my clothes into my bag, zipping it up quickly.
"It's going to be fine, Edward," I heard Alice say behind me.
"Yeah? How do you know that? Chances are she's not even going to look at me. You can't imagine the things I said to her."
"I'm not saying that you won't have your work cut out for you. What I am saying is that it's going to be fine. Tell her the truth. If she actually loves you like she said she did, then you have to believe that it'll work out," she said, reaching up on her tiptoes to give me a kiss on the cheek. "You're not a bad guy, Edward, I think you just got lost along the way." With that, she turned and headed down the hallway.
Once she was gone, Jasper clapped me on the back. "She's right, man. You've got a lot of work ahead of you, but… it's going to be okay," he said with a shrug. "Oh, and don't forget, when all else fails, grovel on your fucking knees." He winked.
I nodded. "Thanks for everything, Jas, I hope… well, honestly, I hope I don't see you for a while," I said with a laugh.
"Me too, man, me too," he said. I headed out to my truck, praying like I had never prayed before that Bella, my sugar, would even hear me out for a moment.
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I knew the name of her dorm, but not her room number. Not that it would have mattered since I couldn't get into the building without a key. I also didn't want to freak out every person that walked in or out of the door by asking if any of them knew Bella, so I resigned myself to sitting and waiting.
After what had to have been at least 3 hours of just sitting, I saw her. She was walking toward her building with a tall blonde girl, and a guy who I assumed was Garrett had his arm slung around her shoulders. He was tall with dark brown hair, and they just looked… right together. There was part of me that knew I should get up off that bench, head back to my truck, and leave her the hell alone.
However, I was still a selfish man.
I took a deep breath and called out, "Bella!"
All three of them looked over at me, but her reaction was the only one I saw. Her eyes widened at the sight of me and then narrowed angrily.
"Rose, Garrett, go inside. I'll be right up, okay?" she said, turning to them.
"Baby, are you sure—" Garrett started, but she cut him off.
"Garrett, please just do as I ask. I'll be fine, okay?" she said, dismissing him. When he walked passed me, the glare he gave me was fierce. I just smirked in return.
I took a step toward her, but she held out her hand to stop me. "What the fuck are you doing here, Edward?" she growled.
"I just I needed to talk to you, I need to tell you that—" I began, but she cut me off.
"Don't you think the last time I saw you, you said enough for a lifetime? I don't know what else you could have to say, but you made it clear, Edward. We're done, we've been done for months!" she shouted at me before she walked toward her door.
"I lied," I yelled before she could walk through the door. "Everything I said was a lie. I love you; fuck, I need you!"
"You always were a good liar, Edward," she said, and then she was gone.
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I'd had two scenarios in my head before I saw her. The first one was my favorite: she would see me and run into my arms as if nothing had happened. She would listen to everything I had to tell her, and she'd forgive me instantly. It was a delusional fantasy.
The second scenario, well, it was basically what had happened. She'd see me and she'd want nothing to do with me. She wouldn't even give me the chance to explain.
I flopped down onto the cheap motel bed, feeling defeated. I didn't know what to do. There was a chance that she'd never listen to me. I typed out a quick text to Jasper, just letting him know how the day had turned out. It was a few moments later when I received a text back.
"Grovel on your fucking knees, and don't give up!" was his reply.
He was right. I couldn't give up, I wouldn't give up. If nothing came out of this, I at least needed to get her to hear me out. I needed her to know that I never truly meant the words that I had spewed at her in that garage. I needed her to know that I loved her, and if after all of that she wanted nothing to do with me, I'd leave and let her be. As much as that thought broke my heart.
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The next day, the day after that, and basically the entire week, went the same. I'd wait outside her building for her, and everyday she'd glance at me and keep walking.
It wasn't until the middle of the next week that she stopped in front of me, hands on her hips and fire in her eyes.
"Are you ever going to leave?" she asked.
I shrugged. "Once you hear me out, and then if you tell me to go, I'll go."
She sighed heavily. "I have class right now, but I can meet you at the coffee shop around the corner at 2."
I nodded. "I'll be there," I promised.
I slumped back against the building, thankful that she would at least finally listen to what I had to say.
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Chapter 10 Songs:
When I Was Your Man – Bruno Mars
Hanson – Get the Girl Back
**Nikki Reed is in the video for 'Get the Girl Back'!