All You Ever
Hunter Hayes
Told in Castle's POV. Kate decides that she doesn't want the job because all she wants is him. He doesn't know that. He thinks that when she calls him to talk, that she is taking the job.
I was sitting on the swing when she pulled up. She gets out of the car and makes her way over to me. She sits down next to me facing the opposite direction.
"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have kept secrets." She tells me as she pushes a strand of hair behind her ear.
"It's who you are. You don't let people in, and I have had to scratch and claw for every inch."
"Castle…"
"Please let me finish. I have been doing a lot of thinking about us. About our relationship, what we have. And where we're headed. I have decided I want more. We both deserve more."
"I agree."
"So what ever happens, what ever you decide. Katherine Houghton Beckett, Will you marry me?" I ask as I get down on one knee and pull out a ring.
"I…I…" She starts but then doesn't know how to continue.
"I can understand if you aren't ready."
"That's not it. you gave me chances and I let you down, you waited for words that I couldn't get out. I have no excuses for the way that I am. And I was clueless then, I couldn't understand. I couldn't understand that all that you wanted, all that you needed was a side of me I never let you see." She says as I get off my knee and sit back down on the swing.
"Look, I understand Kate. But it was my choice to wait for you. And there were only three words that I ever wanted to hear from you. And you said them to me. That is all that matters."
"I was standing on a bomb when I told you that. I was scared, I was scared that I would never have been able to tell you."
"But you did, it could have been under any circumstances and it would still mean the same to me. Because I love you." I say not really understanding what is on her mind like I usually do.
"I wish that I could love you the way you love me, and make you believe it. Because that is all you ever wanted. It is all you ever wanted from me. Could I be so selfish, or lost in my pride? Afraid to be forward or just too scared to try? And now I might lose you. that means living without you. and it took distance to see that losing you means losing everything. And it is too late and I feel like you are too far away to turn around and let be… let me be me. Because that is all you ever wanted. That is all you ever wanted from me. I am sorry Castle." She says and I stand up and take her into my arms.
"I am never too far away. I am always right here with you. No matter where you are. I promise."
"Then, yes Castle. I will marry you. because that is all I ever wanted." She tells me as she looks up into my eyes. I could see the fear she had within but it didn't matter to me. I slid the ring on her finger and pulled her in for a long slow kiss. This was the best day of my life.