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CHAPTER ELEVEN: NO TURNING BACK
she wanted this so much to be her reality, wanted so much to have her love back. though how wrong for her to dream of it, she still do, until this very day. after all the hurts and the pains and the late nights and the near death experiences, she still wanted him, loved him with all her heart.
maybe that's why she had given into this charade, into this fantasy. she wished it so much that she'd risk this dream of her to be real, just this once, and forget all the reasons why it was wrong.
sakura had awaken a lot earlier before she had felt kisses trailing up her skin. she knew syaoran was in the room with her, only her. something she ate the day before may just have made her insane, for the minute she woke into consciousness and heard the words of love he whispered as she caressed her hair and face, she had wanted so much to touch him, for him to touch her and feel his kisses. it had been so long... and she simply longs for him.
consciously, she had moved her position in her bed, an arm above her head, a hand on her bare stomachs, and legs sprawled, with one slightly bent, making sure to expose as much skin as possible and still pretend to be asleep. she had no idea what made her act that way for it had never been in her personality to be so seductive.
still pondering on the answer as to why exactly is she doing this, when she felt his hot breath on her skin and started to gently kiss her lips, then her neck and cheeks and bare shoulders. his hand was on her stomach, holding the hand rested there. electricity shoting through her nerves when he touched her bare skin. feeling herself loose control over her senses, she subconsciously placed her free hand on the back of his neck, pulling him closer as he nibbled on her skin and ear, making herself pliant to his touch.
she moaned as he continued his minstrations. then out of the blue, an idea came to her mind, making her grin silly. his hand was now running up and down on the bare thigh she had exposed to him, while the other played with her hair. both her hands were now on the back of his head, encouraging him on whatever he was doing. she must really be crazy now on what she was about to do, but she couldnt help herself. it was her way of 'revenge.'
she moaned again as he reached a particularly sensitive spot underneath her chin. she was surprised that she was still able to listen to her mind. 'now is the time' her mind told her.
'here goes nothing.' she thought, as he moved down her neck. "oh jm..." she purred.
as expected, syaoran pulled away from her so fast that she thought her arms would snap. despite the pain, she smirked, keeping her eyes closed. she could just imagine the glare syaoran must be giving her right now.
"what. did. you say?" she heard syaoran say, with so much venom that any other normal person would cringe just by hearing it. any normal person, but not her. she's crazy just to start this whole game in the first place.
she opened her eyes slowly as if waking from a sweet dream. she blinked a couple of times before her eyes focused on him. "oh its you." she smiled sweetly at him, despite his killer glare. 'i could really put this acting into good use. maybe i'll audition for something after.'
"who the HELL is JM?!" he barked at her, which made her smile even more. she was fanning his flames, and enjoying every minute of it.
she felt surprisingly calm, unnaturally calm. she never thought she'd feel this way in front of him ever again, especially if he's in one of his 'darker' moods. maybe they made her drink something last night that made her high. that's it, this is simply not normal for her.
"oh, a nobody. just somebody i met few days ago. he thought me a few things, if ya know what i mean." she smiled again at him, as his glare grew darker, if that was even possible. she slowly propped herself up and leaned against the headboard, looking at him with concern. "what are you doing here? you should be in bed. you were really sick last night. you sure you dont have any fever left?" she asked, placing her palm on his forehead, which felt warm indeed, but for all a different reason. "you're still warm. i think you should still lie down."
she smiled as she looked at his red face, red from all the suppressed anger that he was currently feeling for her. she was surprised he had held out this long. she had to remember to congratulate him later for a successful anger control.
she is crazy, indeed. a man who is three times stronger than her is looking at her as if he wants to kill her sooner rather than later, and she's still coming up with cheeky comebacks.
"what are you so SMILEY about?!" he shot at her again, his male ego obviously bruised because of some secret joke she was playing on him. she couldnt help but laugh at him. he was sitting there, fuming, his eyes wide as saucers, his face red and steam is starting to go out of his ears.
"SMILEY? i never thought i'd hear you say such a GIRLY thing, syaoran matthews." she laughed.
"that's it! you're going to get it." he said, before lunging at her. for a minute, she was afraid of what he might do, knowing full well the extent of his anger. but what she didnt expect was for him to kiss her on the lips, pushing her even more at the headboard. it was a minute before she lost herself into the kiss, the pain of being roughly pushed against hard wood, and the pleasure of his soft lips on her, simply took her breath away. suddenly, as if a door had been ulocked and opened, all the suppressed passion and longing she had stored inside of her all these years went to the surface, meeting his hungry kisses with her own.
slowly, he slipped her back to lying on her back on the bed, their hands intertwined above her head, his leg draped on top of hers pinning her down. he gently nipped on her lower lips, asking for access, which she gladly did, opening herself to him, her tongue meeting his halfway. its been a long while before their lips parted, grasping for air. amber and emerald locked after years of parting, sending the comfort each needs desperately.
"i missed you." he whispered into her lips, letting his eyes say all the rest of the desperation and longing he had inside for her.
"i missed you, too." she whispered back. hearing those words broke the ice that had formed again in his heart since she left and he smiled, one of his rare smiles that he had reserved only for her. she is the only one who could reach the real him, without her, he was living in lies.
he kissed her again, letting his desire for her take over. he was straddling her now, her hands moving from the mess of his hair to his back. her touches made him desire her more, wanting her to never leave him again. he was kneeding her bare stomach and another hand was running up and down her sides. she moaned, making him feel more light-headed.
her hands snaked inside his shirt, and he felt his body tingle with anticipation, as she slowly caressed his well-toned muscles. "that's how you want to play, huh?" he whispered huskily into her ear, making her shiver. he nibbled her ear, as his hands slowly snaked its way up inside her tee top, over her laced bra, cupping her breasts. he gently kneeded them, as his kisses gently trailed her neck and shoulders, nipping and biting and licking all the skin he could find.
"oh syaoran." she purred and he was glad she got his name right this time. "i love you."
"i love you, too." he knew she still do. he knew that she was awake earlier when she started to seduce him, and somehow he knew she was just playing with him when she mentioned another guy's name. 'still, i'll kill that guy if ever there is really a jm around her. nobody touches my girl.' he thought.
"please take me, take me now." she said, almost pleadingly to him. at that, he pulled away from her to look at her seriously. she still had her eyes closed, a soft smile on her face. he missed seeing her like this. he kissed her softly on the lips and her eyes fluttered open.
"are you sure?" he asked, staring straight into her eyes, and what he saw in them surprised him - determination and so much love, as much love as he had for her. that was all the answer he need.
she slowly nodded her head and he smiled. he stood from the bed, making her sit and look at him confusedly, tilting her head to one side.
he laughed at how cute she looked. there's just so much he missed about her. he kissed her nose. "not here." he whispered to her ear.
she looked even more confused as she scrunched her forehead in thought. he had to laugh again. "i mean, i've always wanted my first time to be..." at this he blushed. he had never admitted to anybody he's still a virgin. its just that... he never wanted to do it with anybody else than with her. "i mean, i wanted it to be special. is it okay if we... uhmmm... experiment a little?"
realization dawned into her face and she blushed hard, too. she looked down at her hands thinking. did she really want this to happen? 'yes!' her mind screamed to her. excitement started to build inside of her and she knew she cannot turn back now. 'i wanted it to be special, too.' she thought. she slowly nodded her head, then she looked up at him.
he was grinning like mad that she had to smile. he kissed her again, short and sweet but full of love. "thank you." he said, as he gazed lovingly into her eyes. she smiled.
"where?" she asked him, timidly, finding her voice.
"in the bathroom." he said, winking at her. "you have a really big bathroom. nice."
at that she blushed, imagining all things they could do inside the bathroom. "come." he said, taking her hand. "before they realize what was up."
she nodded, taking his hand and slowly made their way into her bathroom. she sure is glad that every room has its own bathroom. but just as a precaution, she made sure that the door in her room is locked, as well as the bathroom door.
she watched as syaoran opened the faucet on the bath tub, making sure that it is the right temperature. picking a few bottles from her cabinet, he poured some of its contents in the tub, engulfing the room with a lovely scent.
"you sure know your way here." she said, amused, as he walked around the bathroom with ease, finding the things he need immediately. "you sure you didnt come all this way to seduce me?"
he blushed at being caught. "i, well... uh... you see... you slept quite a long time and kinda looked around your room.." he said, staring at the ground.
she went up to him and gave him a peck on the lips. "i appreciate the effort." she whispered, batting her lashes at him.
it was his turn to kiss her, a passionate one that robbed her of her senses. "i think we should shower first. while waiting for the tub to fill." he whispered huskily into her ear, as he nibbled her earlobe.
they slowly inched their way to the shower, their lips and hands never parting from each other. once inside, she hastily threw the covers shut. he switched the shower on, drenching them both in water, their clothes clinging into their bodies.
he stared at her. she looked like a goddess, with water dripping from her face and her hair sticking on her forehead, she still looked lovely. he continued to caress her face. "i missed you so much. you dont know how miserable i was without you, thinking you were with that... creep." he kissed her forehead. "you are mine." he kissed her nose. "as i am yours." he kissed her soflty on the lips. "and nothing would ever change that."
he kissed her again, more passionately this time, his hands snaking inside her soaked shirt, cupping her breasts. he felt her hands unbutton his shirt, then slid it off him. taking the cue, he raised the hem of her shirt and lifted it off her. he kissed her bare shoulders as he slowly unhooked her bra and discarded it. he trailed kisses from her chin to her neck to her shoulder to her chests then took a nipple between his teeth and slowly nibbled it. he heard her sigh in satisfaction and he knew what he was doing was pleasing her. he then moved to the other, giving the same attention to it as the first one, while the other massaged the finished one. she was forever playing with his hair, pulling him closer to her as possible. after, he went back to her lips and kissed her. 'this was definitely a good idea.' he thought. 'water and sakura goes so well together.'
"i think the tub is finished." he said, turning off the shower. she merely nodded at him, dazed with all the attention he was giving her. he led her outside the stall near the tub and he kissed her again.
he pulled the zipper off her shorts, bringing it down along with her panties, trailing kisses along the way. he hastily took of his, too. then turned back to sakura. he was about to lie her to the tub when an idea popped into his mind and he grinned an evil grin, his eyes glinting mischievously. he was glad she was letting him do whatever he wanted. he was sure it would be the best day of their lives.
still kissing her, he positioned her so that she was straddling the edge of the tub, her back against the wall. he kneeled between her legs, opening her up to him. this made her blush wildly but didnt object. it was hard to think with everything he had been doing to her. all she could do is close her eyes and be pliant to his touches, making him do whatever he wanted, for she knew it gives him as much pleasure as he gives her.
he kissed her neck again, down her breasts, stopping a while to gently bite one of her nipples, then continued down to her stomach and further down to her womanhood. the sudden contact made her gasp, and open her eyes wide in surprise. she looked down at the man, bending down between her legs, his tongue and lips doing wonders to her. she closed her eyes again, savoring the sensation, her want of him building inside of her until she couldnt take it anymore and she fell.
syaoran smirked as he tasted her essence. he went back to her lips, making them both share her juices, and again, her want for him started to build.
"syaoran, please..." she moaned, and syaoran nodded against her lips. he had been putting her pleasure before himself far too long and he couldnt control it anymore. he had to take her.
he slid her into the tub, and again, they were surrounded by water, and it further aroused him. he sat there, her straddling his lap, their hands everywhere, giving into their deepest, darkest desires.
"it would hurt, you know." he whispered into her hair.
"i trust you." she whispered back and he smiled. he nodded at her before he gently lifted her and placed her in his throbbing manhood. he felt her wall of resistance and she cried out in pain. they stayed like that for a while, him inside of her, him hugging her, whispering comforting words to her ears. as quickly as the pain came, it ebbed away, replacing it with the feeling of fullness to be one with the man you love. "i love you." she said, hugging him tightly to her. "i love you, too." he replied back.
knowing by instinct what she had to do, she raised herself up until he was almost outside of her then went back in again, fully. repeating and repeating, faster and harder everytime until they could no longer hold on their climaxed at the same time, crying out each other's names. after, they stayed inside each other a little longer, never wanting to ever let go again.
when syaoran woke up the next day, he found sakura gone, with all her things, sam and meiling. they disappeared... again...